Violent dreams.

[loose id]

The last couple nights I have had very violent dreams. Violent enough that I would consider the one I had two nights ago to be a nightmare (I didn't want to go back to sleep when I woke up). The first night I was a hostage and a lunatic was shooting the hostages with a machine gun (I have had quite a few memorable "hostage" style dreams), but for some reason I wasn't scared he'd kill me. Then I was being held hostage by another group of people. My dad went to go see what happened to one of the hostages and I watched him get thrown off of the fourth floor onto the ground in front of me (pretty horrific). That's when I made a run for it, but like all other hostage style dreams, I wake up just as I'm making my escape. Last night I was angered at my housemate (who was a friend of mine when I was much younger IRL, he is now in Iraq as a soldier) for getting so far in debt. The repo men were taking my stuff as collateral for the debt that he incurred. I became enraged when I had found they had taken my stereo (which was a gift from my brother in law for my graduation) and I proceeded to beat him severely. The next thing I know, I'm wandering around a mall. I enter a courtroom and there is a gentleman doing a tv court show, and someone promptly tells me to get the hell out. I then leave and suddenly I am wandering around the same mall with a gun ready to kill people (I don't know why). I pause before I open a door because I realize that the courtroom tv show is on the other side and I don't want the police officers in that room to catch me. I turn around and stalk around the other parts of the mall looking for my next victim. I'm not a violent person. Where could this be coming from? I seem to have a lot of dreams in which I act violently or I find myself in hostage situations. I'm usually pretty good at self-psychoanalyzation, but none of the interpretations I would usually give in these circumstances make sense. Ah well...

[Taosaur]

Nice to see you around, loose id. Sounds to me like you're feeling helpless/ not in control. I'm also seeing some anxiety about relationships with friends and family--maybe some guilt about bad feelings toward people you love, and a feeling that relationships are changing beyond your ability to control. Them's my pennies.