 Originally Posted by Landoett
If anyone could help me with this I would dearly appreciate it.
My name is Ted. My girlfriend Shauna passed away on January 31st of this year of a massive brain tumor. Nobody even saw it coming or knew she had it, but one morning, she didn't wake up, she had apparently lapsed into a coma. She stayed in the hospital in a vegitative state for a week and her parents finally decided to disconnect her life support. I help her hand when she took her dying breath. She was only sixteen years old. I am still only sixteen years old. The day before she went into a coma, we attended my high school's big winter formal dance and it was the best day of my life. We had been together for a year and everything was as perfect as it gets for two teenagers. The only thing I ever recall us arguing over was who was a better lead singer, Steve Perry of Journey, or Joe Elliot of Def Leppard. I have always and still do love Shauna with all my heart and I miss her with every element of my existence.
She died at 3:30 on Jan 31st. That night I went home and fell right to sleep. It was uncanny that in my emotional duress, I fell asleep so fast. But here's where I desperately need an explanation.
I had a dream that night, a very clear and vivid dream. I dreamed that I was alone in her hospital room, next to her bed. In my dream, I was waking up from a sleep, I must have fallen asleep in the chair or something, but when I woke up, she was awake and sitting up and smiling at me. There were no tubes or wires connected to her face anymore, and her hair was shiny and beautiful as ever (they had to shave most of her head to put a shunt in to release cerebrospinal fluid) She was no longer dressed in a hospital gown, but in white robes, celestial white, like Jesus in the painting where he is descending the heavens amidst angels blowing trumpets.
She reached out to me from her bed. I climbed up into it with her and I held her tight and she kissed me. She whispered into my ear "I love you Teddy Bear." That was the only thing she said. I could feel and see everything, like it was real, completely unlike a dream, but like reality. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever experienced in my life.
If anyone has ever lost the most important person in their life who they would have given their life for without hesitation, than you know how much I love Shauna. I can't even begin to explain.
I need to know if this was just a dream or if it had any deeper meaning. I am no expert, but I feel that it is of great significance. I have been thinking about it since the night it happened, roughly five months ago. Any remarks are appreciated, thank you
Hi, I'm so sorry about your loss...that's horrible.
Anyway, I don't think they can come to us in dreams. As much as I want to believe that, I don't know if its true. From a "Scientific" stand point, dreams are not always understood very well, but dreaming is a way for our brain to oraganize information. Sometimes this information is put into a random order - often causing weird dreams. Sometimes if you think a lot about someone, or miss them - you can dream a lot about them. Perhaps dreaming of her was a way to help you cope? A dream that moves you passed the grief and into acceptance and peace can only be a good thing, right?
And who knows? maybe she did come to you in that dream, anything is possible. That might have been her way of telling you she is happy and ok. Good luck!
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