Hi. I have been having many dreams lately, but let me introduce myself first.

im a 16 year old highschool student who is out of place. when i say this, i mean that i feel more like 26 than i do 16, and i am more mature than most of my peers. i am also clinically depressed, and have had suicidal feelings in the past. I have been liking a girl for over a year know, and though she knows it she seems to care but she wants to stay single.

now over the last 3 or 4 months i have had lucid dreams centered around her/with her in them.
they all end with one of two outcomes:
1. we end up together
2. i die

however, the manner of death is usually one that makes her feel guilty for being immature, as an example i get gunned down and she feels guilty that she did not treat me right (stupid random example).

please, let me know what you think/give me some info about this. i am very interested in your replies.