Ok I am a 37 year old female. I have had some relationships with women in the past.Inside I am having conversations and issues about what gender I should be involved with long term. Its not clear cut for me. Anyway - I work for a large insurance company and a couple of years back while I was in the cafeteria at work I saw this woman and for the first time in my life I felt something at first sight. I don;t know her and I have never had a conversation with her. I see her rarely in the building. we locked eyes a couple of times. I am not sure if I am attracted to her in lesbian type of way or if for some other reason I destined to meet her. She has appeared in several of my dreams the last few years. Here is a dream i had this afternoon.
Not sure where i was -it almost had a college campus kind of feel to it accept there were apartments and families. I was with a woman and her kids/family- woman A. The woman is an actress that i always found attractive. anyway in my dream she is just a regular woman. Its clear that this woman and I are in geting to know eachother in a romantic way. I spend the night - no sex. In the morning I interact with her family - adults and kids but she is not there. I can;t clearly recall why she is not there but I think she went to talk to a man that she was or is romantically involved with but In the dream I am ok with this and very comfortable with her family. I start to put my clothes on and I reach into the closet and get my pants but i don;t put them on. I walk out of the apartment holding these pants still on the hanger- I believe I have no other pants on. I leave this apartment type place then from there I am outside in this court like college campus looking area. My car is nearby and people are walking around nobody is pointing or anything at me for not having any pants on. It seems like I see or I need to get to the mac machine -people are in line for it. I am still at the original location. At this time I see the woman from work that i mentioned above- woman B . She is walking with another woman - woman C- also from my work building - (I see her with this woman most times- I guess they are friends lunch buddies co-workers etc.) . It seems like Woman B came to pick up woman C from work and they were going out for lunch - this location seemed to transpire into a work location sort of . Anyway I notice Woman B and I immediately try to hide or not be seen by her (Even at work I go the other direction when I see her - she doesn;t know me but I guess its shyness or being uncomfortable with what I feel) . I walk away to get cover but at the same time I position myself to see her get into her car and drive away. In the dream i was wondering if she was going to drive or be the passenger. She was the driver and the car was a large model BMW. at work i have seen her in a smaller bmw of a lighter color. After she drives off I wake up. as far as i know I never put on those pants and my intention when i left Woman A's house was that i was running an errand and returning within a few minutes.