help me...

[BigLitz]

for the last month, i have only had one common dream i remember, and i pretty much remember my dreams everytime i sleep. dream goes something like this: Im usually on vacation or going on vacation or my families on vacation, but a vacation is somehow always in there. Stuff happens, then I end up mutilating myslef, it usually has to do with my teeth, some examples: - Pulling molars out of my mouth - Ripping huge chunks of gums out of my mouth - Jaw wired shut...some dreams it stays shut the whole dream, some i open my mouth to hard and rip it apart, and a few teeth with it. - Taking my thumb off and on Those are just the ones that come to mind, there are others, all following the same theme. These dreams are horrible, and when i mutilate myslef the dream goes on for a long while, i wake up very scared, but then realize it was all a dream and become VERY relived, cuase to dreams are so real. I use to love my dreams, i even started going lucid a bunch and flew around and whathaveyou, but this is ridicuous! Open for some interpretations/sujestions/comments, anything!

[Roxas]

1.3 words: DO REALITY CHECKS from now on i want yuo to do reality checks, 21 times a day. just plug your nose, and if you can breathe through your nose while you have it plugged your in a dream! if you make this a habit you can do it in your dreams, then control your dreams! i had my first lucid yesturday, when i got my neck slit by a killer, i plugged my nose, then flew away with my mother, and flew to safty! just do that and you'll be fine.

[BigLitz]

the thing is, before this last month, i was training myself to be lucid. For a while pretty much every dream i had i was able to spot it was a dream and control it. I was spotting little things and realizing it. But these dreams are so real, the crazy'st shit happens and yet i can not realize im dreaming. Not once in a mutilation dream have i been able to become lucid.

[Aeo]

Maybe there is something that you really want to say to somebody, or something that you think you should say, but for whatever reason you can't. Maybe fear of truth, hurting someone, or possibly getting yourself hurt. It seems like your killing yourself by not being able to say what you want to say.

[think green]

Aeo's response makes sense. Jaw wired shut: not being able to speak. I was thinking, intense anger at yourself like someone with Borderline Personality Disorder who engages in self-mutilation when they are very, very angry and disapointed at themselves. Combining what Aeo said and what I'm saying, are you intensely angry at yourself because you want/need to say something to someone, but won't speak? The thumb is kind of interesting. It's what babies suck and it's also the digit that sets us apart from other animals. It's the thing that really enables us to make and work with tools. You bite off something that useful? Back to Aeo's comment, the thumb is a pacifier for a baby. A pacifier is what keeps them quiet; keeps them from crying. You bite it off. You don't want to keep quiet? About what? Loosing teeth in dreams can be humiliation like "loosing face," the Japanese expression, but that is usually when the teeth just start falling out. I guess it is also, or even more likely loosing power. But here you are actively doing things to destroy your own power: ripping your teeth AND gums out. Really self-destructive. What are you doing to hurt yourself in life? Hope to see what others say about this dream. Is vacation the key? I don't know what that means to you.

[BigLitz]

hmmm, thanks for the input fellas, i dont think it has anything to do with me wanting to say something though, i dont hold back on telling people how i feel, and i am very truthfull. "What are you doing to hurt yourself in your life" thats what i think the key is. I have beenimg smoking weed for the last 5 years, and although i know weed alone isnt that harmfull. For the past two years ive been smoking it with A LOT of tabacco added, unfiltered. I have been feeling really guilty about this, my lungs hurt sometimes, i cough up drity, dirty stuff, and lack of motivation. Sometimes when i smoke i say to myself "What are you doing! your spending A LOT of money to kill yourself, good call!" I think ive figured out the vacation part of it too. in the past 5 years ive smoked EVERYDAY (many, many times a day) except a year ago when i went to cuba. I couldnt smoke for a whole week cuase i wasnt about to go risking bring weed in cuba. The break from it was great, and when i came back i didnt even want to smoke...but i did...and fell back into my out routine. Well, i think thats what these dreams mean to me. What do you guys think?