Hello, thanks for reading I've been having some curious dreams lately - I'd be very grateful for any interpretation It's a long one!

First a bit about me I'm a 20 year old guy, recently feeling a bit lonely as I'm away from home and friends. Insecure about my current relationship - been dating a guy for more than 3 months, but unsure about whether he even truly likes me. I'll call him James in this story. My family doesn't know I'm gay

The whole today's dream is set in my father's home where he grew up, I haven't been there in years. I think that it started by me being in the room (hereafter "the room") with James. Suddenly a bird flew into the room and it started spasming. Then we figured out it was giving birth - but it gave birth to something that looked like a spider. I was disgusted. But the spider quickly shapeshifted into a black-yellow bird. There was something sticking out of his wing, like a deformed feather I think, and the bird mother tried to pull it out. It wasn't a nice scene and I continued to look away. James and I weren't sure whether we should help. That's all from this scene.

I dreamt that some girl (I don't know who, I've never seen her in the dream) said that I am the father of her baby - she left the baby and disappeared. My family was very supportive and at first didn't have any doubts or comments. They helped take care of the baby. But the baby was like a bobble head doll. The only scene in the whole dream where I interacted with the baby was when it was crying. For some reason, the baby (doll) was in the cage - but a very nice cage. It was small but since the doll was tiny it was big for its size. There were little birds inside and lots of toys. So I hear the baby crying, my family is around the cage, trying to calm it down. Then I start crying and call the baby by its name (don't remember the name), which stops the crying immediately. I then say something like:"How can you cry, look at how many lives you've saved, how much good you've done!" and point to the birds. The baby then starts to smile and raises its little arms and gaze towards the birds.

In the meantime, in that same room, I was with James's friend (another guy). We were getting intimate. I remember thinking that it's completely fine since they're friends - and I truly thought that. In reality, I would never cheat. Then while we were getting intimate I suddenly realised that this isn't right. At that moment, James comes into the room and lies in bed with me and we start cuddling. I remember the exact feeling I had - it is the same one whenever we cuddle. It felt so right. I could swear I felt it while I was dreaming.

Then some time passed I think, since everything seemed normal and my family started to have doubts this is really my baby. They asked me whether I had a DNA test, which I didn't. Then I realised myself - I've never been with any girl. I remember my parents organised the whole DNA test - they took the samples somehow (don't remember the details) and told me not to worry. Then it turned out the baby really wasn't mine. My parents said they'll take care of it.

Next scene was in the room. I went to the cage, which was now a tiny cage, like a small hamster cage, with some books on top - the cage served like a shelf - i.e. totally unimportant. I removed the books and saw that in the cage there actually was a hamster. There was no hay bedding, just the wood of the shelf that the cage was on. The hamster just sat there. There were no birds anymore or anything, just him alone. I started crying and went to my mum and asked her how can she be so heartless, to which she replied something very cold, not sure what. I think the hamster was actually the baby now.

After I "lost" the baby, James's behaviour changed dramatically as well. He got extremely cold and started sending me some ambiguous messages about how our relationship is on the verge. I had a dream within the dream that he installed some dating apps and that I found him there. Then I woke up in the dream and was relieved it was just a dream. But then when we met the next time he showed me how he is trying out some new dating app and showed me his profile. I was heartbroken and just kept quiet.

And then I woke up Again, I'd be extremely grateful for any interpretation, as I think it's an interesting dream. Thank you