Could someone interpret this dream for me? Just to give a bit of background to help understand the dream: I'm a classical singer living in London who is currently studying but who sings in different choirs and does solo engagements too to pay my way through music college.
Part 1: I was in a hotel bar celebrating a party. I don't know who's birthday it was. It could have been mine but i think it might have been someone else's. I was dancing wth a group of friends ... friends from when I was in secondary school (5 years ago) so I don't think it was set in the present. We all used to go out dancing and drinking when we were that age but I don't really enjoy doing that stuff anymore. A guy from my secondary school was there who I haven't seen since I left school. At school I got on ok with him but I didn't really understand him and don't think he really understood me either. I always felt he chose friends for social status gain as opposed to just getting to know everyone. He was drunk and dancing but hitting people quite strongly on the back. The back hitting started in me first and it was really stingy! Think this might signify something but not too sure.
Now all of a sudden, a conductor who I worked with last week dropped my nice formally/casual jacket and there was vomit on it. I don't get angry at people and in real life I would have probably laughed and said it was ok, shoved it in a corner, picked it up at the end of the night and put it in the wash but in the dream I became so venomous and yelled, "You d**k! You f**king d**k!" The conductor was such a great guy and I really respect him so don't know why I reacted like he was a piece of dirt in the dream. Immediately the music stopped and everyone was quiet. I was really upset and proceeded to gather my things. I could sense that people were shocked. I was quite popular in school because I was nice to people and I think people were shocked that I had had an unexpected outburst. I looked up and the lights were on and there was only 5 or 6 people now sitting at the bar, looking really scared ... of me ... but I didn't really care. They looked at each other afraid to I felt that my anger was justified. Later I apologised to the conductor. But he didn't really seem to mind and apologised to me for the state of he jacket. The next part is a bit blurry but I looked at my diary and realised that I had to make a train to somewhere in Europe the next morning to go on tour with another choir I had been on tour in Europe with at the beginning of September so went home.
Part 2:
The home was not my home. It was a strange house on a farm or some sort of American ranch type thing. I can't remember fully but I was running from people in the house. I think they might have been related to me. I was really afraid of what they would do to me. I think they had abused me in the past. I was with someone else, I think it was my younger brother ... in real life I don't have a brother. We were both trying to hide from them but we were struggling to do so. I think my 'character' in this part felt a lot younger than the previous part. I was maybe 13/14. I can't remember too much of the hiding but I ended up on my own and finding a secret part of the house that I had never discovered before. There was a bathroom etc and I came across a room that was in an attic space. There were cobwebs and dust everywhere so felt like it wasn't cleaned or cared for or maybe it had been unoccupied for a while but it did look like someone had been living there. There were clothes getting dried on ropes in the room (although they were dry so could have been there for a while). I realised that a lot of my old clothes that I no longer wear/have given them away were there and had no idea how they got there. My luggage bag that I use every time I travel and have used for 8years was there which was really strange. It was open and in it were two old jackets of mine. I can't remember what happened to them in real life actually. I used to wear them and then I stopped wearing them. In the dream they were nice and neatly folded. Also in the luggage bag was a shirt that I have now and wear regularly but it that was really wrinkled and needed ironing. Don't know if this means anything ... it felt like there were juxtapositions again between past and present.
I can't really remember what happened next but I think I realised that I had forgotten about getting my train and somehow transported to part 3:
Part 3:
I was running to the train station, wearing one of the jackets I had found in my luggage bag. I was so late and was hoping to get the next train or get a flight or something. I ended up running into the group who were going on tour and thankfully the train had been cancelled and they were about to board a replacement bus service. I didn't have my luggage with me and I was in a bit of a panic so I decided to run back to my house to pack and hopefully make it back in time. I couldn't get through to choir manager to let her know what I was doing and my phone was almost out of battery so had to run back to the group to tel them. The bus was about to leave however so I just had to go with them. I didn't have my music and didn't have luggage and for some reason, wasn't wearing any shoes either! I was a bit annoyed at myself but just went with it and said "oh well, this is going to be an expensive weekend isn't it?" End of dream
Hope you can interpret it/analyse it for me!
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