Quote Originally Posted by JoannaB View Post
When I was a kid, I had lots of dolls and they were mostly female, but I would pretend that some of them were male, because i had a shortage of male dolls. So maybe the gender of the dolls matters less than the fact that they are dolls? The sex is not real just pretend. Could it be you are nervous about having sex with a real person and would like to depersonalize it to make it less real? Sex without a real partner, without the complications of a real human being. Maybe you worry that you won't find a real partner? Or have you been hurt by a significant other emotionally and thus would like to depersonalize the other, they are not real and thus can't hurt you any more: a safe partner, one where you are in full control, nothing to worry about. A doll is make belief. Maybe this is about fantasizing what it would be like. Are you a virgin in waking life? If so, maybe you do not know fully what to expect yet, so your dream is showing you this way that your expectations may be unrealistic. I could go on, but without knowing more about you, there is less chance of guessing correctly. If none of those guesses ring true, consider telling us something about yourself.
The depersonalization is what I thought it was - being hurt and not trusting "real people" anymore. Haha