Hey all! I'm so glad I found this forum...I've been having a ton of weird dreams lately, and I've been sporadically writing them down, but I think I should make more of an effort to journal every time I wake up so that I can better remember these dreams.

Anyhow, in the dream I'm standing outside on this really perfect day, and I see this hummingbird and it lands in my hands. I'm looking down at this little bird and I'm so happy and I have these feelings of love and joy, and I'm feeling so lucky that this little bird has landed in my hands. It was pretty awesome.

Then, I see my mom, and I say something like, hey mom, look at how amazing this is, this bird landed in my hands! [NOTE: I should mention here that as a kid, she always used to put hummingbird feeders out in the yard and I liked watching them come and go. I think she also really liked hummingbirds, too.]

So my mom doesn't say anything but she totally smacks the bird's head, and it flies away. And when she smacked it, I totally felt it in my head, I felt the pain, the the horror, sadness--but I don't think I felt any anger. I said something like, how could you do this to this little bird? Why would you do something like that?

And it was weird that I don't remember getting mad in the dream, I was just sad. So I walked past her to the tree where the hummingbird landed and I started talking to it, and I opened up my hands and I said, come down little bird, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'll protect you, it's OK now. And the bird wouldn't come down at first, but after reassuring it for a little bit of time, it came down and landed on my finger, and then I made a little nest by cupping my hands, and I told it that everything was OK and I would take care of it.

And that's it. It seems like an awesome dream, but it really triggered me this morning. I have depression/anxiety, and waking up from something like that hit me pretty hard.