i keep dreaming about drowning or sinking. Two days ago i had the dream again and i can remember all of it. It started with me taking the bus to somewhere, when i got of the bus i remembered that i forgot my wallet on the bus. I ran after the buss to get it and the bus was no on a boat going over the ocean. i told the man in charge that i forgot my wallet and that i need it. The boat started driving and i wasn't supposed to be on it, the man couldt give the wallet to me before they came back, for some reason. Suddenly i was in the water, it was big and dark blue, and a bit wavy, but still calm in some way. I tried to keep my head above water but i couldn't. When i tried to swim up i just kept going further down and i was almost paralyzed, not able to move the way i wanted to. I could still see the man on the boat when i was under water, he was screaming at me and i tried to communicate with me but it was hard since i was struggling. I remember kind of being irritated that he didn't just leave because i tried to make him believe that i had everything under control and that i didn't need any help at all. Suddenly i was home again, and the man later came to my house giving me the wallet (he also gave me a mini frozen pizza and something to drink) , he said something and it made my sister wonder whats wrong, so i said well its because i almost drowned. And again i was irritated that she made a big deal about it, because i was fine and it didnt matter and i didn't want her to know that i struggled.

i aaalways have this dream about being in the big darkblue ocean and im unable to get out. i stay calm the whole time, even though i wonder whats going on and i want to get out, but there is no panic. what can this mean you think?

im a 20 year old female if that means anything.