Starting out as a kiss, but taking a darkish turn.

I had a sort of disturbing dream last night where I was on a beach with one of my best friends, on whom I've had sort of a crush for a while now. He is a lot older than me. We were alone, and we started sort of joking around and laughing with each other. Then we started wrestling playfully, and then he pinned me and started kissing me. It felt like a very real kiss, and for the first few seconds I really enjoyed it, but then I realized that he tasted strongly of cigarettes, and the sunny beach sort of turned into a dimly lit, damp room. I pulled away from him because of the strong taste and started coughing up ash and mud, all while he sat there and watched.

I'm not really sure what to make of this dream, but it seemed very ominous at the time and I'd like to see if there are any helpful interpretations of it.

Cigarettes usually are associated with age so is ash. He being older maybe that's a representation of the burning desire or crush you have. Maybe you are getting insight into the age difference through symbolism.

So it started out nice, like any crush does, but then you get closer and things can change. Maybe it's not healthy to have the crush on him. Just like we all know cigarettes aren't the best things for you.

He also pinned you down when things looked nice, him being older maybe you like where the crush/relationship is going now, but maybe your dream is telling you it's not going to lead the best place, as emphasized by the change in weather and the fact that you are pinned down. Maybe his intentions aren't the best.

Maybe the wrestling is a symbol of him treating you like a brother, maybe having the crush will destroy the relationship or the insights an older brother type figure can give you. Maybe he is just watching you in your friendship with him, and he is in fact not helping you or not hurting you at the moment but he is neutral while your in growing pains. Your much younger and that usually lends itself to older folk helping you out