This post is a bit long. This is the first time I've posted on this forum. I hope I've done everything right. I would really appreciate help on these dreams, because these dreams cause me very much distress.

I have been having two recurring dreams for the past seven-eight months. They are both sexual in nature.

In the first recurring dream, I cheat on my boyfriend (now of a year and a couple months) with either a stranger or two acquaintances of mine (not at the same time). I am always disgusted with myself in the dreams. I'm fairly certain I've never enjoyed any of these dreams. The most recent dream like this involved a man I know. We were both naked (though I don't remember kissing him/doing anything else with him) and he had an extremely long penis. The top of it became flacid and folded over, but the base was still hard. I looked at it and thought "What am I doing?" and then another woman (naked) came into view and the dream suddenly changed. I woke up after I kissed an ex.

Perhaps I should also note that I have never had a sex dream about my boyfriend. That said, I love my boyfriend more than anything, and our sex life is good; however, I suppose I should say that I have not had an orgasm since we have started dating. This, of course, causes me much frustration.

The second recurring dream involves women. Most often I dream that my best (girl) friend makes advances on me (she is a lesbian in real life). I have also had dreams with other women. The most recent dream I have had with my best friend happened last night. We were in the bedroom I grew up in as a child, and we were talking on the phone. I said something sexual in nature, I don't remember what, but maybe details about the sex I have with my boyfriend. She then said she wanted to "be in me." Then my boyfriend and a friend of ours entered our room. They were handcuffed together and they started kissing, and for some reason, I joined in.

In the last dream(s), I do not feel particularly disgusted. But I do when I wake up and remember these dreams. In waking life, I am not a lesbian. I find some women very attractive, but I don't want to bed them.