Strange dream about my cousin and I...?

[Morgan8Pagan]

My cousin N. is a boy of 14 years old and I'm 2 years older than him. We're very closed to each other although he's not in the same country as I. We meet mostly every year. He knows everything about me and vice versa. I never keep secrets from him. He's just like a brother to me. I like him a lot. In my family incest marriage is normal and many of my aunts, cousins married their own kin. I'm the only one not in agreement with that because I had been in love with one of my cousins too and this ended up tragically and now I've lost him forever - I've made my very first enemy in the family. As I'm still growing - mentally and physically - I know that sometimes when I saw N. when he came in the country recently, I felt something deep and warm inside but I didn't want to admit things... so I just called it puberty. Then as I became interested in Arthurian legends I began to associate every character as someone in real life: i.e that's why I'm called Morgan in the forum So I'm Morgan Le Fay and N. is Arthur my half-brother... So here's my dream: I was in a hospital. Someone came in to give me a baby. It was mine as I had just given birth to a son. But I feel frustrated and enraged. I kept telling myself: how did I come to this? and why?? Then the father came in: N.! I was shocked and irritated. I remembered screaming somewhat at him... because he was calm and even happy to see his son! But what we did was wrong! I could not understand his attitude. I was being very bad tempered... Then I don't really remember the rest but I know that I took my baby and we went out so as to find what to do about our parents etc... and where should we keep the baby. We were in the bus... What seemed really genuine was the thing in my arms... the baby... I could really feel it, it was clear that I was holding the baby throughout the whole dream... the rest was just blurred. In the end it came out of the subject because the bus stopped at a sort of garage where my tutoring teacher and other school friends were there, learn a dance... Weird right? I'd really appreciate your thoughts and opinions about this. What does it mean?? Thanks

[Nilabimini]

Hi there! Welcome to DV Okay here are a few things I hope may help shed some light... Dreaming of being in a hospital shows your need to heal or improve your physical or mental health. Needing to get back to the flow of everyday life. Alternatively this can mean that you are giving up control of you own body or that you are afraid of losing control of your body. The baby signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. They represent something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted. Alternatively it can represent your unfulfilled goals and a sense of lacking in your life. Being on a bus implies that you are going along with the crowd, lacking originality and are taking no control over where your life is taking you. You need to consider certain aspects of your life and things taking place, relationships direct and indirect, family and what you want for you and your future during the time of your dream and any dreams. Upon interpreting your dreams, current daily happenings in your life may help to make more sense of the dreams of vice versa. Good luck to you, and always follow your heart and what you want from life ~ peace. ~Steph ☼