Why are you popping into my dreams-again?
Hi to those who are reading this.
Before the dream, I had met this girl in college last year who left somewhat of a strong impression on me. I mean, she was absolutely beautiful. But unfortunately, I was very immature at the time toward my actions with her, and she wasn't the right one for me. Basically,we were both opposites. I can say somewhat that I was kinda in love with her so to speak, but have been pursuing others to replace her. Since then, I have tried to forget her altogether with some success until now.
I have had two recent dreams with only one I can fully remember. What really startles me is, I have been recently thinking of her, which I wish I didn't, and the dream is of events that actually happen minus maybe a small detail. Here is recollection of the recent dream I had of her from last night:
2nd rememberable recent Dream:I attend a school function party that she and her group are holding-participating in. We bump into each other and talk friendly, flirtiously. She has brown dyed hair, something she doesn't have in real life-she has black hair. Talking more, I do eventually muscle my way from some other guy trying to get at her, but I am the overall winner. We had fun that night (non-sexual),talking and whatnot.
Another day (the same dream), I bump into her while going to class. She ask me where my dorm is. She has asked this before. I realize what her intentions were but didn't act on them (She wanted to come over-but I never acted on it. I never invited). The dream is over. Both of these events happened in real life interactions with the girl.
Anyway, a part of me wishs that I didn't act so clueless and stupid to her, even going on to say I probably should have bed her. Realistically, I wanted to date her, but it was never going to happen. She wasn't right for me, nor was I right for her. I have been thinking about her off and on. I haven't seen/talk to her since December since she graduated and so did I. I even thought about looking her up on Facebook, but it would be pointless as to she never really reached out to me much except earlier on, before I noticed her intentions. Other than that, a part of me wishes that I never met her, and my friends also echo the same thing, saying she wasn't right for me,etc.
I really do wish I can push her out of my mind altogether. This has been bothering me that I can't forget her.
But what is puzzling me is why is she popping up into my dreams again? What exactly does this truly mean to dream of a girl I have really no interest/a shot with?