Hey

I have LD's quite often for someone just starting. As my sig shows, I've had 4 now in a week. A few before that too. The very first one I had wasn't clear at all, and some things, my kitchen especially, reverted to cartoon-like drawings after a while. It was long though, and that was cool.

However, I'm noticing a big problem in all my LD's. I have perfect control until I do an RC, and then I have zero control. Or maybe I do have control, and I just don't know it. I don't think things through at all, and end up wasting my time opening and closing my bedroom door, or something stupid like that. I've spent every LD trying to summon someone, despite telling myself over and over again I won't do it. (Oddly enough though, I actually managed to do it last night. I was a little off though. Shooting for a specific attractive blonde girl, I got another attractive blonde girl I've never seen in my life. I woke up immediately afterwards. It seems the curse of the lucid sex strikes before I even get 5 feet away.) It seems that I'm being guided along against my will, and I don't muster up the effort to go against it.

I know that paragraph is just random sentances thrown together, so to sum it up:

  1. I can LD, but when I'm in them, I lack all common sense
  2. While I'm subconsciously controlling the LD on some level, I can't do what I want, ever.
  3. I can NEVER remember anything about my waking life, which is annoying.


What do you suggest to solve these problems?