Semi-Lucid? well i felt some control
Hi everybody I am about a 3 week dream journaling practiitonal and dream recall. i haven't had lucid dream.
I haven't been very good in remembering but a few times i do remember. And i was having trouble with incubating my dream so that i can dreae what i want but i think the repetition of mantras is slowly paying off.
Because today i had 2 dreams that i remembered and they were about what i wanted.
One of the mantras i say is "i remember my dreams vividly" etc. The other is about wanting to dream about girls/women.
well it happend!
First dream was about cheerleaders/dancers. lots of them and me looking around at them. Second was about going to a school and found a girl and kissed her(deep kissing). 2 times. I even started getting climax and almost had a wet dream from that but i remembered from real life that i dont' want to get messy so i stopped the kissing before anything happened and i woke up. Yeah while i haven't remembered to do reality checks in dreams, i do always when i start climaxing in dreams i kinda say to myself in the dream "I dont want to get messy so i better stop" which means in my dream i kinda know that i'm having a wet dream or close to one. hehehe that's funny. but that doesn't count as lucidity right?
Anyways, i dont know if it was lucid or not. I didn't feel like it felt like it was really REal reality, :lol:but stil it was great and i had some control. For example as the girl was coming towards me I remember shaping her into what i wanted. and then when i kissed her i remember grabbing her with control..i even remember deciding to kiss her again.
But i dont think i was lucid. maybe tiny bit i guess. i kinda relized i was dreaming.. Just a tiny bit but i didn't fully realized it.
So maybe it wasn't lucid.
But it was pretty awesome and i definetly wilingly kissed her twice. i was DECIDING by myself.
I even remember in the dream i did some awareness practice(like i do in real life)
