I have put together a collection of my "basics" already once before next door in the intro class.

Reading through the material and workbooks of this course I came up with the desire to start a workbook in here as well.
Gab - your almost every sentence makes so much sense to me and seems to resonate with my take at it all - Iīve had to hold back on clicking 10.000 likes for your wonderful answers and explanations in here, not to clog your inbox to the brim..
Right - here I am once more - from the basics, which I copy-pasted over I have worked out some more detail now - and I will see to continue from there onwards.

I have a DJ here but some dreams will stay in my private DJ on paper - like most of the two from last night - maybe later more - maybe only tomorrow - I wrote so much today..

My DJ


Day-time awareness practice:

Being on the lookout for even mildly odd occurrences - like tipping over something, or not finding something or reading something surprisingly new...
To then - stop in my tracks and consciously pay attention to the concept, that I am right here right now + my senses and what they are telling me + looking back about 10 min. and analysing what I had been doing then.
Thanks to reading a post of Sageous yesterday - I have more of a grip how to handle me having been on the net or just working on the pc.
In as far as this is of course you in interplay with reality - even if just taking in certain information or putting it down/rearranging it.

I am on here daily and thus want to keep expectation and anticipation alive.

And I plan to work on my prospective memory in some way yet undefined.

A great side-effect by the way - I try to live more healthily!!



Reality Checks:

- Looking at my hands
- Trying to breathe with nose held closed
- Trying to remember what I did 10 min. ago

Dream Signs:

- Being at the place, I spent my youth at (Bavaria, Tegernsee)
- School and meeting schoolmates/ex-boyfriends
- University
- my old job(s)
- Trying and failing to achieve the simplest things - like not getting somewhere, or not getting somewhere in time - packing things up and something staying behind - trying to talk to somebody, whom I see in the dream, and not managing for some reason
- my (dead) grandmother
- not having enough clothes on in certain contexts
- lots more actually..

Short-Term Goals:

- well - gaining lucidity - I even had some of it in the last night and the one before
- finding a mix of techniques for certain circumstances that works best for me - going after DILD but also WILD incl. WBTB and DEILD
- keeping a dream-journal and not only trying to remember dreams for the day after - putting them down - reviewing them
- working on real-life awareness and prospective memory
- keeping the desire alive

Long-Term Goals:

- gaining control, so I can create the scenario I want to dream in, while dreaming
- gaining control, so I can accomplish tasks, I set up before I go to sleep - taking part in the challenges and getting these nice wings..
- finding inspiration and maybe answers/insights into my psyche and maybe being able to resolve difficulties in real life
- working on my dart-throwing technique - it is possible to do something there with visualization and banishing mind-chatter (sounds a bit weird - I know..)

Lucid Dream Recall History from before joining up here:

I am pretty sure, I had lucid dreams in my childhood. What I remember is that I repeatedly "knew" I was dreaming and when that happened, I used to jump out of windows - esp. our kitchen window of my motherīs/grandmotherīs house.
That would give me the momentum, I needed to go flying - it was actually "air-swimming" - so I did it in a later lucid as well.
I hope I master this a bit better in the future - superwoman like without the strenuous swimming would be much nicer!

First time around I gained lucidity later after consciously aiming at it was around me being 20 years old.
I had been reading Castaneda and took it all on face value.
This was not exactly a good thing in my case, since expecting to be in a real danger while in the dream-world followed from it.

I had been telling myself, when I notice I dream I will look at my hands etc. for about 2 weeks every night before falling asleep.
And it did work - I fully stabilized the dream with looking at my hands, till I saw every little detail crystal clear.

This was on different levels one of the most memorable and profound experiences I ever had - finding out, that waking reality as it appears is in no way the only one, that can be fully experienced with all my senses in 3d and fully realistic.
Primarily though - I expected to have switched reality-realms and - as said - was in real danger there eventually.

While pondering this - the scene changed - the walls of a cave which I was exploring for fun with friends suddenly turning to sand and come down from all sides on me.
With all the willpower I could muster, I transferred my consciousness back into my body - just to find, I was literally unable to move or scream - no malignancy hallucinations luckily - I was just afraid to be sucked back to where I had just escaped from.
This was the only time such a thing happened to me.
The whole affair - the nightmarish dream and the full on REM Atonia afterwards kept me off trying again for years.
In the meantime I let go of my little and bigger "beliefs" - I would call them superstitions today - and took an agnostic standpoint.

A bit of a letdown - sort of - isnīt it just nice to imagine a world of easily reachable real beings of another realm and to believe, one can leave the physical body in form of oneīs spiritual body and do really affect reality?
Well - itīs nice but also scary and I do see no reasons to believe such.
Instead I hope for first contact with aliens during my lifetime now...lol

So - then I came across Nick Newport in the process, and I think, I can say I have again been held back somehow, by expecting what he describes, and just not getting there at all.
I would say - the hyping of a LD entry per - basically WILD - but like he spins his sales-pitch per stressing the OBE aspect as if it was the thing to learn might be a good way for him to disappoint followers of the videos on youtube so people go ahead and buy the books..
Right - not on here to slate him - maybe I am mistaken - but - I now see it so, that I had the following experiences rather despite his specific instructions.

What brought me onwards was repeating mantras before falling asleep again during this time - and I experienced a wonderful, quite long LD.

It also started with stabilizing my hands visually - oh - it was so lovely with hyper-real visual dreamscape, never before have I had such perceptions of detail and colour and intricacy where ever I chose to look.
I managed to conjure up the place I wanted to be at - not so difficult - my old childhood home comes up on itīs own often enough.
There I could air-swim again - and I met some people, I wanted to meet and have had conversations with them - it was pure joy.
This radiated into my waking life for quite a while - almost therapeutic.


- third was a semi-lucid experience - the same crystal-clear and beautiful imagery and short glimpses of the realization that it was a dream, but no real lucidity with control. On the other hand - I saw a procession of beings, which were so vivid and magically inspiring - it is still a memory I like to revisit - just a procession of people in habit of some sort of order - different groups with different habits - floating by and being just plain magnificent.

- one more instance, where I got lucid, but it faded around me almost instantly - I tried spinning - but really wildly spinning - I read now it is not meant to be done like that - bam - dream gone - only emptiness - and I woke up.

Current Technique:

- DILD
- WBTB/DEILD since last night!


I will keep this as intro-post and follow up with last nights experiences in the following one.