Just Another Dream Journal

I made a deal with myself decades ago to never dream in obscure symbolism. I just don't get it. I love deciphering my dreams, so I told my subconscious to speak to me in a language I'd understand
In one of my early dreams this morning, I dreamed I was at a gas station gas pump, inside my car. I was pooping and trying to wipe discretely. No idea what happened to the poop, but I was also trying to hide the toilet paper.
My psychologist [p-doc] pulled into the pump beside me. He was a passenger with 3 other guys (who looked more Hispanic than the Egyptian they were supposed to be). I was trying to hide from him and avoided looking at him.

Then the driver came over. He noted a slight smell lol but then asked how much it took to fill my tank. Around $42. He paid for $20. but then told me to hold onto $25. and think of him and the kindness he showed me and that it would be our secret. (not in a pervy way but sort of like a secret Santa or something)
As he drove off it occurred to me that it was hush money. I saw something I wasn't supposed to.

OKAY... I get that feces are unclean. My p-doc represents my subconscious. I was hiding something gross so ... ??? I feel like there's something unclean about myself that I hide from others?
The Hispanic bit was slightly racist. 1) I simply haven't been exposed to enough Egyptians to dream about their features. Same could be said for Hispanics. But they were piled into a car like you see on TV when they're trying to find odd jobs I watched a bunch of New Girl episodes and one of the main characters is racist. Maybe it's a hold over from that.

But what about the rest of the dream.... aha! I told my son yesterday that he has to cancel counseling this week. He asked why, because I'm not leaving until Thursday. I told him, if he wants to eat, he needs to cancel. It costs $20. to fill my tank (the minimum for the trip) and $20-$25. for the Counselor. They'll have less than $100. to eat on for a week. If he went to counseling, they'd have less than $50.

Now I'm bored of this Time for breakfast.