Xanous' Dream Journal

#326 – DILD – 2:54AM

I'm not sure why I keep dreaming of this place but I really hate it.

I am at my ex-wife's parent's house picking up a computer that my ex gave me. I spend a lot of time talking to her father and brother but she doesn't want to come out of the bedroom to talk to me. I'm fine with that. I check out the computer and wonder if she bothered to wipe the hard drive. I wonder what I'll find on it.

I end up outside and load a whole desk with a computer on some truck by myself while her dad and brother are “supervising”. The sky quickly turns dark and I look up. I am surprised to see a strange, bright neon-lit, geometric pattern in the sky. It looks something like an abstract kite floating to-and-fro in a bright star nebula. I am shocked and so excited that I blurt out, “WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?”
Her father seems annoyed and in a tone that suggests he'd rather not talk about it says, “Oh... I don't know.” And waves me off.
Suddenly, I recognize this old and familiar dream-sign and say the old and familiar phrase, “I am dreaming. This is a dream.” I turn to the two DCs next to me and arrogantly say “See you guys later”

I don't quite recall my goal [meet extraterrestrials] but I feel this is close to whatever I had planned. I jump up to take flight to the odd thing in the sky but I only do a short hop. The gravity still feels light but I feel heavier than usual for a dream. “Wait. Maybe I'm not [dreaming]” I do nose plug and blow cleanly through. “OK. I am [dreaming]” Keeping my eyes on the target, I jump again. This time it's much higher but again, I come right back down. I try once more with added effort. I feel like I this time I will make it, but at the last second, my ex-brother-in-law grabs my foot. I look down at him as we fall together into a black abyss. The look on his face is ferocious but I have no emotion.

I am fooled by a false awakening and I tell myself this is the second lucid of the night [false memory]. Immediately I start recording the dream, but I feel clumsy and my eyes are out of focus. I think maybe I am just really sleepy. I try to stand up to concentrate more on the touch screen but the blankets seem attached to my head. I fight them off and wake my wife. The sound of the sheets is really loud. My wife asks me what's wrong but I shush her as I am super focused on typing the first word of the dream but I still can't see. I suddenly wake up.