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#547

I wasn't sleeping well and eventually fell into lucidity. I vaguely recall being is some unstable dream environment and became aware. It went straight into OBE mode but DEILD and WILD have been my focus lately. It was realt OBE because there were some fake vibrations and a too quick exit into an unfamiliar place. For some reason it reminds me of my brothers house. None of it matters because as usually I'm just really happy to be lucidity. I should I'm "LUCID DREAMING BABY!." I pause for a moment wondering if I said that in my sleep because I can still hear my wife's snoring while I'm dreaming. I try no to think about that too much and decide I want to phase out the window. Its really solid at first and for half a second I question if I am really dreaming. Nonsense. I push harder and the glass stretches and I pop through. Unfortunately I I find myself back at the start of the dream. I rush forward back to the window again, pop through and come right back to the start. I decide I'm not supposed to go outside so I explore the house. All the rooms are empty and everything get really glitchY. I shout again, "IM LUCID DREAMING BABY". Then it all goes to black and I wake up.

#546 DILD Early

This is pretty much a garbage dream but I think it's worth making an entry.

I am walking around in some building with many halls and doors. I notice the dream gets dark and I feel sluggish for no reason. I feel afraid at first but then I remember this is common in dreams and become lucid. I tell myself to relax. I wake a little to SP. My wife's arm keeps hovering over my face (hallucination). I try to bite at it to make it go away then my head starts shaking violently. The effort of it all brings me out of it and I wake up.

#545 WILD and DEILD chain 5:45am

I do a quick WBTB and focus on WILD by putting my awareness on a spot on my forehead. There was probably some loss of awareness but as things start getting dreamy and I manage to bring myself back. There was little to no vibration this time; if any at all. Just a slight feeling of a chemical change in my head. I exit
I walk around the house a bit and remember I wanted to put my VR headset on in a lucid so I appear in the back room and quickly put it on. One screen was green and the other red for a moment and I worry that I will had some garbage visuals and lose the dream to darkness. Instead of letting that thought take root, I say, " Common. See! Really look and see."
I am now in a vividly colorful jungle looking at various colored poison dart frogs. The more I look at them the more they are morphing into snakes. I don't know if I'm weirded out or just want to keep the dream moving along but, I decide to just bite ones head off and walk away.
Suddenly I am now having sexy time with my wife and I lose my focus. However, there is very little sensation.

I wake a little and DEILD. Definitely no vibration. The dream just forms and I'm lucid but not sure how locked in I am so I kind of let the scenario play itsself while I ask the DC dumb questions. It rarely give anything interesting and I'm not sure why I wasted LD time on it. Still interesting I suppose.
Anyway, its some woman talking to me and I'm stupidly taking DJ notes so I'll remember what she's saying. Of course I don't recall much. She's going on about Dr. Dodope (or something like that) taking her car keys and then getting suspended for it. I keep asking her questions to lead her on to finish telling me her story but none of it makes a whole lot of sense. I keep writing notes.

I wake a little. This time I remember my dream goal and visualize walking around the house once more. Once I'm in the dream (zero vibration or feeling of change) I start transforming into a werewolf by the front door. I see my hand change and I feel my hind legs change and grip the floor behind me. I start making the motion of running on all fours like an animal. I can feel it but the visual of the dream is stuck still at the front door. I growl a deep monstrous growl to get the dream going but it doesn't work. I start howling instead but I'm still stuck. Then I wake up and think I should probably write some of this down.

I end up having to get up and go to the bathroom for a bit. I lay back down to WILD again. I have a few close moments of success but I lose my focus and have non lucid dreams the rest of the morning

#544 DILD 11:30PM

I somehow become a substitute mail carrier. I am worried because I have no idea what Im doing. I drive away in the mail truck but someone is yelling at me to stop. I ignore it at first but they say stop or we'll shoot. I stop and they say to check in. I get really confused because they say no here but up there where I was heading. I got through a gate and down a street. I stop at some factory looking building. I worry about what could happen next but I go in. Two guys who just look like a couple of slackers approach. They ask something about checking in. I say yes. We have some conversation but I get the idea I have to wait for someone or something. I see Newman from Seinfeld. He's talk to someone else as he passes. I say hello Newman. You're not getting your mail today you little bitch. He ignores me and walk away. I say I guess he didn't hear me. I tell one of the guys it much be hard delivering mail to someone you hate. I think of a few people thar won't get mail if I see it.

I decide to wonder around a bit and find myself it a room that I think looks like a version of David's house. I think we'll I'm here. Finally came to Michigan. Then it dawns on me whats happening and I instantly become lucid and filled with excitement and joy. I shout hey David this is a dream. We're dreaming dude get in here. Some reason I want to share this lucidity with someone real or not. I look around trying to find him but he doesn't show. I keep yelling for him but the dream goes dark.
I flap my arms and fly up a little just to get some sensation. I focus on visualizing his face but only a picture of him appears of him smiling at me in a goofy way. Then the one picture morphs into a 3 x 5 grid of the same. The whole thing is really trippy and I just laugh at it all. I wake up.

#543 - DEILD (2x chain) - 4:30AM

I took 400mcg Huperzine-A with 600mg Choline during WBTB

I tried I WILD and catch myself after having dosed off. I relax into the vibrations and then roll out of my body. I am blind and I make my way out the back door. The air feels cool but I still cant see so I crawl around. Then my dream eyes actually open but I am fooled into a sort of FA. I am starting at some grass growing in the driveway and I think I am actually sleepwalking. I feel embarrassed and look around to see if the neighbors noticed me. I heading inside and see both my dogs are running around lose so I let them in the house. I lay back down in bed and my wifes family show up. I'm like wtf guys I'm sleeping. They just got back from a trip and want to show my wife stuff they bought. I am super pissed off that they are ruining my sleep. I am trying to lucid dream and it's 3am and they have the light on just talking loud. I say some really meant things until they finally leave. I start to worry that I made them too mad. I said I should have just taken what happened and been calm about it. Then I remember it's ok because none of this really happened. I remember this is actually a typical dream after WBTB and LDS. That thought wakes me a bit.

I DEILD again. Vibrations. This time I shoot straight up like a rocket. I enjoy floating in the darkness for a second then I ground myself. My dream eyes open again. I see a green field with trees but its a low res video game. I think I must be looking at a TV screen in waking life. Maybe I actually opened my eyes. I close them.Then I remember the last dream. I remember that sometimes opening my eyes in the dream state feels physical but its not. Plus its getting me out of the darkness. I open my eyes again noting how how physical is seems but I trust myself and just do it. I am back in the video game. I start walking forward. Since I am in a video game I decide to look at my hand like I do in VR. They look dark and undefined. Ok whatever. There are some hooded figures that look like they are casting spells at me. None of this scene is particularly interesting so I just rush forward until it all goes away. I don't even notice the scene fading out.

I am in a large open area but it really dark. There is a floating female head in front of me (think Gorn). Her face is attractive so I kiss her quickly on the lips. She smiles. Then another appears more on my left. I kiss her too but then she bites my chin. I am shocked and pull her bottom jaw open. Her jaw splits in two. I say eew and toss it away. The first head moves to my right side and now I am standing in a restaurant. I see Alyssa Millano sitting at a table having a conversation. She wont look at me so I do something to get her attention. I see an empty dinner plate on the table. I notice its a deep blue color. I put it on my head and balance it. I say look I am balancing a plate on my head look. Alyssa continues to ignore. The floating head laughs. The plate falls off on a table full with a group of people on my right. The plate rolls of and hits the window but nothing breaks. Alyssa ignore me still so I sit next to her and put my arm around her. Nothing. She is just talking way to some woman across the table. I poke her ribs. She jumps a bit and her voice cuts off for second but she still continues to ignore me. I poke her a few more times noticing how real it all feels. She still wont even look at me so I grab her face with both hands and force her to look at me. I ask her something I don't recall. Her answer is gibberish but I feel satisfied I got some response. I move on. The floating head now a permanent companion follows me.

I see something strange on a mans table. I ask the floating head what is THAT? It look like octopus tentacle with bits of blue and green. When I get closer is changes to some sort of raw meat that doesn't look all that odd. It's package like it was just purchased from a grocery store but its warm and looks like it's going bad. I apologize to the man and tell him it looked like he had something crazy on his plate. I wake up.

I make a DJ entry and use the bathroom. I WILD a few times but at soon as I latch onto the start of the dream I lose it all. I finally give up and sleep the rest of the morning uneventfully.

#542 DILD 9PM

I'm not putting this on my count but it's interesting and worth posting. Fuck it. A lucid is a lucid.

I am feeling lost in a large building. Reminds me of some large church I visited in the past and so that's what I think it is. The rooms are really dark and I feel like I may have drank too much. The more I worry about it the more drunk I feel. I think I really just need to get out of here and go home. Then something about how unstable the dream is and the way the rooms just keep turning into large a maze-like labyrinth triggers lucidity. I start laughing out loud. Party because of relief and partly because I am mildly lucid.

Now I am laughing while laying in bed. I wonder if my wife can hear me but I also feel like maybe I am still dreaming. I am not sure so I laugh out loud some more. I note how odd it sounds and start to realize but I am suddenly awake. I lay there for a bit to try DEILD but I start to get excited thinking about it and wake up.

I was shocked to realize I had only been in bed for 30min!

#541- DEILD approx 2am

I don't remember the first part but I have FA. There are double windows at the foot of the bed and wife is on wrong side. The windows are open and a cool breeze is blowing in. It feels nice and I am relaxed and content to just lay there.

I "Fall back to sleep" I am in a room but it kind of dark. There is a white ceiling fan. I start to feel a little scared of the dark so I go to turn on the light. The pull chain feels like its not clicking the switch but it also feels like the chain is stretchy. Something clicks and there is only a small spot of light on the ceiling fan where the light kit should be but its missing. I pull another chain and the fan blades start but they warp and make odd sounds. I can feel the breeze from it and I feel like the blade will get me so I turn away.

I have another FA back in the odd bedroom with double windows. This time the breeze is much stronger and the curtains are blowing out. I think this must be why I dreamed about the ceiling fan. I hear distant crack of thunder and see a flash of lighting then I hear the sound of gentle rain. I think its good we are getting rain since its been so dry. I consider closing the windows in case we get wet but the breeze and sound of the storm is so nice I decide to wait.

I wake for real this time but I feel so still and relaxed that I go for DEILD. After a few seconds vibrations start. I consider sitting up but I feel unsure if I am totally in yet so I decide to roll. For some reason that feels like that safer bet. I feel the stretch and the familiar separation then softly hit the floor. As a type of RC I decide to jump and test gravity. I open my eyes and spring up with my feet hard. I raise up to the ceiling and gently float down. It's a cool effect so I do it one more time.

Suddenly there are flashes of light and I see this strange demonic shadow thing on the wall. It flickers in and out of existence and moves rapidly back and forth. My throat closes up with fear and I gasp. I start to panic but I decide to try to calm this down a bit. I stand my ground in a defensive stance and say, "NO! No you stop it." Maybe my heart was racing too much or me saying stop it was taken as stop everything but, I am suddenly back in bed wide awake. I think to do a nose plug RC before making an entry on my phone DJ.

#540 - DILD - 1:20AM

I was in some new area of work. I was off the clock apparently and for some reason I was sending a snapchat of the place. When I played back the snap I realized it wasn't quite the same snap I took. It kept changing each time. I try swiping back but these creepy dudes are in it looking at me crazy. I comment about that to my wife who is now with me. Then a creepy woman is with them doing the same thing. I say who is she?!? Then an attractive woman taking me by the hand at the beach. Ok wait a minute this is silly. I am dreaming right now! I shout oh my god I am dreaming right now! I'm way too excited and I'm jumping up and down. My son is there laughing about the whole thing. I see my wife lounging on a couch looking at her phone. I say babe I am dreaming! ok here's what happened. I was looking at my snapchat and it kept changing. Do you know why? Because I am dreaming right fucking now! She just only smiles. I remember she's just a dumb DC so I say ok bye. She then says bye like she is pissed off. I don't want to leave my DC wife like that so I hug her and say I love you so much. That's when I wake up.

DEILD - 330am

I am partially awake. I randomly decide to DEILD. I feel brief vibrations and focus on in that and relax deeper. My phone alarm goes off for some reason. I turn it off without waking myself too much. One of the cats paws at me from my night table. I decide to ignore it. Nothing is going to keep me from entering the dream. My wife says something. Fuck it. I ask her what. She mumbles something.

I wake surprised that I didn't get lucid there. The transition was so smooth or I was never really awake to begin with. I don't know which. I don't move and try DEILD again. I come to a stop sign on a familiar road. This time I know I am dreaming. I am not sure what I want to do so I focus on on the visuals. I lean out of the car and look at the texture of the asphalt. I pour myself out of the window and flow under the car and then around into the grill and then back under the car. I lose visuals so I focus on physical sensation. I roll on my stomach and feel the road under me. I feel sensation on my lips.

I up really early in the morning but I am full of energy and ready to do stuff. I leave the house and quickly find myself in a church. There are several people there. I see a woman and I am going to tell her that I am ready to do some work but I don't know who needs help. Suddenly I feel really odd. My eyes don't focus well. There is an odd sensation of pressure in them. I tell the woman that I might be too tired for this. I wonder around and walk through a few rooms. There are other people around but not paying me much attention. I see a coffee pot and think maybe some caffeine will help but the pot is empty. I decide to just leave the building.

When I get to my car, I feel bad that I showed up and then just suddenly left like that. I say to myself that it doesn't matter. I don't anyone will even really remember or care. It's like a dream. Wait a minute this is a dream. I start the car up and go for a joy ride. For some reason the area reminds me of a somewhere I used to live but it doesn't look the same. There aren't really any roads. I end up crashing through yards and construction areas. Really random and confusing. I crash the car and decide I want to get another one. I see a nice truck and I hop in. I notice the leather seats feel really slick as I start it up. I see a road out that leads to a highway. I feel excited to get out on an open road. I make my way there weaving through traffic, going faster than I could in waking life. When I am out on the open road I drive as fast as the dream will let me weaving through traffic, really enjoying myself.

I decide to stop focusing on driving so much and just watch what the dream generates as I go. It become more of an amusement ride now. I see lots of random people doing really random stuff running here and there. I notice two cowboys spazing out in a inhuman way. The ride takes me right into them and for some reason I bite one on the shoulder. It feels like I bit the blanket. I see a lot more random stuff that I can't really recall or make much sense of. I feel like I have been dreaming a really long time. This though causes me to wake up.

#537 DILD 12AM

First I am fishing in a pond and checking the minnow traps. I see really odd looking fish. Then, I am in a version of our extra room with the aquarium in it. The tank is extra large and so tall I can barely reach in to feed the fish. I keep noticing how strange all the fish look and how they keep changing shape and color. There is one fish outside of the aquarium swimming in the air. I recognize this dream sign and become lucid. I taking all the visual details until the dream fades. I feel like I am not awake yet so I visualize swimming and find myself in the aquarium with the fish for a while then in a swimming pool just enjoying the effortless motions of swimming. There is suction like an untoe from waves. The visuals fade again and now I am having some sort of FA. For some reason I try to conjure up some dream sex but it gets award and that's not what I really want. Then I am in Walmart straight shirt-cocking it. I see B and his wife going to bed in some part of the store. The lighting is dim and I run around trying to hide from them in the shadows even though I know it doesn't matter that my lower half is naked. I wake up.

#536 Random DILD in the first 30 to 45mins of laying down for the night.

I have a false awakening and start to go outside. It is extremely windy and the storm door slams back on me. It sort of doubles and starts to fall apart. I say I am a software developer. I don't have time for this (Uh what that's not true) I step back and close the main door but I can't because that door is now coming off the hinges. I see the screws and everything fall out. I'm like what the hell? Then it dawns on me this HAS to be a dream. I am quite relieved. I say oh thank the good lord (weird I am atheist).

I turn away from the door mess but realize my hands are down the front of my hands and stuck to the waist band. I struggle to pull them out but can't. I am now aware that the TV is on. Someone is making a horribly creepy whining/moaning sound. reeeereeereeee. I hate is. This is some Stephen King shit. I say Oh shut up. SHUT UP STUPID TV!. It won't stop. Now I realize I am letting the dream get me emotional. I relax myself and begin the metal process of just letting it all go and imagine none these problems are happening. I guess I relax too much because I quickly wake up. I lay still for a moment hoping DEILD but I am too awake for that.

#535- DILD

I don't know how it started but I was talking to my parents out side and I just start flying then I have a gradual realization that I shouldn't be able to do this. I say only to myself that I am dreaming. I enjoy flying more like hovering around then I finally say out loud this is a dream do you know how I know I shouldn't be able to do this and I rise far about their heads. They are looking up and smiling. Everything but my parents turns a solid white. I say for some reason when I get to high everything gets unstable. As I come back down the to ground I wake up

4 months since my last lucid. I suck at this now.

#534 - DEILD - 12:22AM

I dream I am in bed but there is some light on coming from where the bathroom should be. When I look, I see a back yard with a chain-link fence. I wonder why there is no wall. A security light has come on. I can’t seem to move very well. I try to tell my wife but she’s not very responsive. I look toward the window and see a light coming from there too.
I wake looking at the curtains. I am hallucinating that the curtains don’t look like curtains but a deep dark void into another realm. My eyes focus and I see just curtains. I feel very dreamy still so I naturally and instinctively go into DIELD mode. I really just do it without much thought. I let my body relax as I focus on the spot in my head that seems to allow me to renter the dream world. Almost instantly I get vibration and feel myself detach from my physical body. I become very excited and have to focus on slowing down my breathing and to relax more deeply. After a moment I let my dream body get out of bed.
Everything is very dark and unstable. I try to ground myself with sensation of touch in the dream. I touch everything in the room but it doesn’t help enough. I wake slightly but and focused and determined. I DEILD again. I go back and forth several time between waking and trying to get the dream going. My wife’s lightly snoring is interrupting me and my physical body jerks a few times. Also once, I reach for the door knob but my physical hand moves waking me. I finally let the noise of her snoring go. I accept it and chose to ignore it like I do with the sound of the fan in the room. It’s just a noise that I can tune out. I exit again and this time it try to phase through the wall instead of using the door. This causes a sort of hiccup in the dream that sends me vibrating in and out of the wall until I finally force my way through. I see the living room but I am sent back to waking.
Finally for the last time I exit. It’s still a bit unstable but I slap the walls really hard and I move to the bathroom. This seems to help. The sound is so loud I wonder if there is something hitting the house but I dismiss that thought. I enter the bathroom and everything is bright and clear. I am relieved. I look into the mirror like I always do and notice how distorted and odd my face looks. I feel hyper and extremely happy like I usually do in a lucid dream. I move and dance around and watch my reflection struggle to keep up. I see various bottles and cans of beauty products that my wife uses in waking life. I pick a small unusual looking bottle with blue liquid up. I decide to taste it. I drink all of the contents. The taste is odd but not unpleasant with a bitter alcohol like aftertaste. I look back at my reflection and it’s not moving at all now. It doesn’t even have the bottle in its hand. Next I see a bottle of pink pills. I decide these are lucidity pills that will enhance the dream and make me super lucid. Now I know the title of this dream journal entry. I eat one. It’s mildly sweet. Then I eat a handful. It’s like cotton in my mouth and then it dissolves away.
The dream fades away now and think this pill trick didn’t work very well but no sooner do I think that I find myself in a new location. I am still lucid and standing in a kitchen. I know that I need to keep active to keep the dream going so I start to interact with items. There’s a plastic grocery bag in the sink. I touch it for a second but notice there are dream characters with me. For some reason I decide that I am here to remodel. My wife is next to me and the guy from the pet store in waking life is there. He pulls out the entire kitchen sink and cabinets from the wall. We take a look together and the whole thing is built very oddly. Then I decide the back-splash needs an extra thing with a shelf on it. I think this is a really good idea and I want to remember it when I wake up so maybe I’ll do that in my actual house. Another dream character appears, a woman. I explain the whole thing in great detail and even draw her a little picture. I am still excited and hyper. I am joking around with her in silly ways like a child would. I start looking through the notebook that I drew the shelf on there are random drawing and writings that I can’t make out what it is. I’m still lucid but I think it has slipped at little. After a moment longer of this I wake up again and decide I better go ahead and write my dream down before I forget it.

#533

I was in an airport trying to get some place in the building but everywhere I turn its just sliding glass doors leading outside. I hear someone say something about tickets to Japan. For some reason I become lucid. I turn around again and see that I am up on the second floor and the lower floor is open below. I just over the rails and allow myself to belly flop on the floor. I feel a numb sensation when I hit. I think I did this because I was thinking the other day about some superstition with falling in dreams. I get up and walk. For some reason I think I was lucid just before this dream but had lost it. I wake up.

#532- DILD

Cutting through a field on foot. I'm looking for a fishing hole but I only have a shovel. I hear something like a lawn mower. I see a guy on a small riding mower doing the fence line. I don't want to be seen because I am trespassing. I turn another direction cut across open grass. My son is following me. I come to a barbwire fence. I have to move logs and random boards. I feel really strong. The ease of it makes me realize it's a dream. I realize the mower sound is probably the fan in the bedroom and my worry of getting caught dissolves.

I decide to try flying but it's like my mind cant generate the view and I get stuck and come down. I around and see and old farm house. I decide jumping on top of the house would give me a good visual. When my feet hit the roof and push off again. I am able to Hoover a bit several yards above the house. I notice how the sun is glinting off metal parts of the drip edge and roof vents. I see a forest in the distance but I cant seem to control my flying. I settle back down on the roof. There is a girl in yard looking up at me. I tell her In flying. She just watches me. Then I see 3 girls at a lemonade stand. I jump down to the ground to investigate. I get a fun idea. I run full speed and drive into the girls and lemonade stand. Ice and water from the ice chest and lemonade from several pitchers explode all over the girls and myself. We all laugh. One of then runs to a large fridge that's sitting in the yard. She goes all the way in then comes out with a half full pitcher of pink lemonade. Shes going to pour on me but I wake up at that moment.
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