Xanous' Dream Journal

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5MG Melatonin, 2 shots Lemonade Vodka early in the evening, SSILD

Bedtime: 10:30P-6:00A

#101 DILD Penis Chop 1:32AM

I remember flying in space and ariving on board Star Trek USS Enterprise. I am welcomed on board by Captain Jean Luc Picard. I do various task with the ships computers. Fixing this and that. I don't really remember much.

Later we are over taken by some bad people. They force all the men to line up in groups of 3 and take turns chopping off their own penises. It comes my turn and I step up on a platform. There is a dark hole in the floor to catch the penises. I stretch mine out and hold a knife in the other. I don't want to do this. I look up and see a Klingon snearing at me. I know that if I don't do it, he will and I'll have no warning. I wonder which is worse. Me doing it or him. I begin looking for a way out.

Now I am so terrified that I become lucid. Now I know I am dreaming I think it wont matter if I do it. I wont even hurt. I visualize a cutting a hotdog. I move the knife a little but I still can't. I start to freak out. Now everything is worse because I feel trapped in this dream.

Then I get it. I decide to refuse the dream. The feeling is like in the movie "The Matrix" when Neo just calmly tells the bullets "no". (I know it sounds cheesy but that's the best way to describe it.) I relax and force the dream scene to collapse. At that point I sort of just checked out lucidly.

I am now non-lucid. I see a video game like scene. There is a green Mario pipe. I fill it with a block of sand and pour water on it. Two 8-bit sunflowers pop up. I wake up needing to pee.

WBTB alarm missed wake up about 4:40AM. Recorded a NLD. Coffee no Melatonin. Back to bed. Only up about ten minutes.

#102 Flying With My Wife / TOTM fail 6:00AM

I can't for the life of me remember the first chunk of this dream. I assume it was DILD and the first part felt really long. The dream was rich and very vivid. Maybe it was the lack of melatonin this time?

I am dimly lucid with my wife. Something that happened before feels like a dream I had a long time ago. We are inside a stone structure that looks like something from Minecraft. It is just a hollowed out area of 8-Bit stone with a large rectangular window leading outside. I take my wife by the hand. I remember starting to question if I am really dreaming. Then I say of course I am. Then lucidity get really strong. I tell my wife, "We have a TOTM to do."

We step out of the window and jump down. I look up and see the night sky. I look for the Aurora Borealis. Nothing but black. I run with my wife still holding her right hand in my left. I am excited. It feels like we are lucid together. I use expectation to put us in a snowy northern location thinking that will help. I look my right and see a frozen pond. There are Minecraft like cubes of ice and snow everywhere. Now I can hear the cruntch of snow under our feet. I say, "Look babe, See? We are up north now. We should be able to see the northern lights."

I use expectation again and tell myself that when I look up it will be there. Almost but so brief of a color streak. I try to will it in to being. I see some color in the sky. Another brief streak of dim dark green. I spend a considerable amount of time trying to imagine it. Each time it almost happens and then fades. I see a cloud that is lit up and multicolored. Lightning. flashes from behind it but nothing what I am wanting to see. At one point I put my right hand up and try to visualize the Aurora coming out of my hand. I see it like it is in my mind but on in the dream. (does that make any sense?) I put my hand down.

I decide to fly up and get a better look because I keep noticing tree branches around us. We fly only a few feet and land. I get irritated. Then, I get an idea. I tell myself that my wife can fly with no problem. At that instant, she floats up as far as she can go above me. We are still holding hands. I say, "OK great! Now pull me up." She pulls and now we are flying. With her in the lead pulling me, we float high into the sky. There is disappointment when there is no change in the sky. I begin to stare and concentrate at the cloud. Thinking color will spew out. Bad idea. I sat idle for too long. It was too much like meditation. The dream fades to white and I lose lucidity.

I slowly open my eyes. I see parts of my lashes in the light. I realize that I am staring at a brightly lit light bulb. There is an over head lamp on the on the head of the bed. I look around and see my wife alseep to my right. I see our dog snuggled up to me. Then I see my Aunt J with her head at the foot of our bed in between us. I wonder why the heck she is sleeping with us. I shrug it off and begin thinking about my lucid dream I just had.

I begin write in my DJ on my android device. Aunt J wakes up at that moment. She says, "Shiiiit. What am I doing?" and runs off. I watch her and notice that we are in a bed outside. She storms up a deck and starts to go in a house. She pauses and says something about "We didn't have sex." And makes this ridiculous facial expression. Instead being full blood Japanese she now looks African American. I'm just like OMG how can you even think that. Just them my wife wakes up. I say, "I don't even know what that was all about."

I look back to my DJ and then pause. "Hey babe, guess what? We had a lucid dream together."
She stretches and smiles, "OH YAY!"
I decide to get on DV to post in my workbook. I thought to mention that I was out of town visiting family so I won't post my dream yet but I had lucid #101. I was thinking how I failed the TOTM and remembering the lucid dream. Then I suddenly wake up for real. I quickly do a nose plug!