Xanous' Dream Journal

#205 - 5:32AM - WILD?

The cats wake me up making noise. I have a lot of FA's and confusion. At one point I think a cat is in our bed. I pick her up and throw her out but I leave the door open. Another time I wake up and try see the time but the alarm clock is blurry. I think I might be dreaming but I lose it. Another time I start to DJ something but by the look and feel of it, I know it is a FA. I type the words I am dreaming on it but the image fades away. Somehing else happens at some point with strong HI and I realize its all fake and doesn't matter. I think at some point I wake up for real and do breathing meditation.

My body feels different now and I know it's the dream state. I get vibrations and I try to get up several times but I am blind and I end up back in bed. I wait for a moment and just note the sound and feel of it all. I try to roll but it feels real. I think I must be waking now but realize my arms have gone into an impossible position. I try to get up and am only partially blind now. I see the alarm clock on the floor and it clearly says 11:03. I lose sight again and only see dim light. I try to see my hands but it wont form.

I pause now and quit trying so hard. I say, "CLARITY NOW!" and clap my hands. Nothing happens. Then for some reason I say a bunch of Japanese and I sound like that silly Anime soccer game I have on the Wii. I remember something NyxCC said about enjoying the SP and singing a tune. I start to beatbox and want to hear Right On Time by Skrillex. I sound pretty good for someone who has no idea how to beatbox in waking life. Suddenly I can see clearly and I begin to hear some music with a good beat but it is not the song that I wanted. I turn to the mirror and begin to dance. I can see that I am moving incredibly fast and want to see my full body. At that thought the mirror extends to the floor and I can see that I am wearing my performance workout clothes. I think I want to try to C-Walk but my feet are going crazy and are a blur. I try to concentrate on the moves and slow it down. To my amusement I see I am wearing an old fashioned womens high heal on my left foot. I decide I would rather ignore this and just dance randomly. At some point the music morphs into a pop song with a woman singing. I say, "Turn that shit up!". It seems like the sound is coming from a small radio mounted on the wall and when I turn the dial up the sound moves to over by the mirror. The song becomes very realistic and believable but the only lyrics I can remember is "Never wear you out... Never wear you down" (It seems like it sounds like it could be a real song but I can't seem to find it online.) Her voice rings out loud clear and though it's not my choice of music, I just go with it. As she repeats the phrase several times I begin to sing along very loudly. At that point one of the cats starts batting something around in the living room and the noise wakes me up. Bitch.