Violetflame

Hey everyone!

I was so happy that some of you commented on my first Lucid and DJ entry. You were right it does get frustrating! I was so close multiple times when I first started going for my second lucid dream (also had my first false awakening within that first week, and my first nightmare in a very long time), but it seemed to get harder to keep focus and confidence as time past, it even got harder just to write down my dreams. I had some really good vivid dreams when I did my first wake back to bed's, but they seemed to get more and more fragmented and unsure. Yesterday evening I could feel myself giving up slightly and I didn't even think of dreaming before I went to sleep. In the morning my BF woke up early to go to the university. It woke me up and I went to the bathroom before I went back to bed.

In my dream I was walking around on the balconies of a very large castle when I suddenly became aware that I was in a dream and I became conscious. I felt the incredible rush of the realization and to ground myself I immediately slapped my hands together and started rubbing them against each other. I did it! I stabilized the dream and I walked inside the castle. It was much less impressive inside. It looked more like a ruin than a castle. I began thinking "what was I supposed to do now?" and I remembered the basic task of the month which said to take a shower in your dream and I started looking for a bathroom. And found a few, but they were both gross and as I was leaving the second bathroom I heard the door to my real room open and I knew it was my BF coming in to say goodbye. AAAAAARGH NOOOOO ! Oh well, I went back to sleep and had a normal non-lucid dream about a kidnapping at a hotel, somehow I turned of my alarm without me remembering it (again!), but maybe that was what triggered my next lucid dream (THANK GOD!)

This time I became lucid in a restaurant at a hotel. I was walking around looking at people's food and one pizza looked particularly good, I wanted to take it, but it belonged to a guy who sat at a table with three other guys and I was not going to risk them getting mad. Again I remembered the TotM and I went into one of the rooms at the hotel, somehow my female childhood friend was there and she goes with me to bath. We are laughing and I remember the water splashing as it hit her back as she bent down a little (She is fairly tall) the water was warm, but I don't remember the tactile feeling all that well (I hope this means I did my first TotM!) After that I went down to the lobby and out back behind the hotel where I meet 3 or 5 DC's that like to follow me around like a gang of some sort. It's nighttime outside and there are stars in the sky. It makes me want to fly, but when I try nothing happens. The others start looking at me weird so I stop, there are so many other things to do after all. As we walk through the darkness we come through some weird places. At some point we are walking along side a road and I remember the other TotM which says jog and observe the change in scenery, but at that moment we arrive at a beautiful house. We enter and I sit down by a table. By this time I am aware in my dream that this dream is very long and I am worried it may be hard to remember it all, so I find a piece of paper and a pen and I start writing the beginning of my dream down, but every time I finish a word it turns to doodles, so I stop and we go out into the big beautiful garden. There is water springing from some rocks in the middle of the garden, down into a small lake. In there lives some sort of large sea monsters, as the others look at them I walk to the stone wall surrounding the garden and sit on it. Here I find a bowl filled with some old stuff, including a piece of cake which I eat thinking I will need fuel for my jog (TotM), but in that moment the dream dissolves and I wake up.

I am so happy I kept at it! It only took me 3 weeks to have my second lucid experience. Hopefully it will be even shorter between the next ones !