just chillin till I LD

this expectation thing is giving me blue balls. For real ! last night I wtb with a mantra. And I had a "lucid dream" not a magycial one.I did a nose plug reality check and I could breath so I thought "I'm dreaming" and then my heart pounded really quickly and I felt like I would wake up so I just concentrated and waited for the black to turn into something better. It did, and in a few seconds I could see a bunch of squares with trees and flashing colors. Better unexplained . Anyway I was still nervous my heartbeat would wake me up , but I could only see my dream, not get into it. It was like I was watching a t.v. with a very blurry image. Then I woke up and did another reality check which failed. But I remember thinking I should record that on my iphone so that I don't forget I was lucid in the morning.

I'm mad that I was never actually awake, and when I actually did wake up my recall wasn't as vivid. I can't remember the dream before my lucid. But I remember the two after it.

I followed a girl B and her friends to a camp across the river, located on a dark island.In order to reach it , one had to complete the obstacles. So copying B I just sort of glided across the balances etc. and made it. There I followed people and wanted to leave, I knew M would be worried. She came just as I was leaving and I didn't even ask "how?!" she managed to get across. Anyway a friend, alexi, said it's a camp kind of like college. I didn't get involved in the dancing but there was a gym with a couple of my peers. I finally found where people hid out during the summer. I found an old "Friend" j there and she didnt mention much but complemented another girl. It was weird because I ignored her mostly. She wasn't surprised I was there. Before I saw J, I was looking at how clean their bathrooms were . The other ones had blobs on the ground. I ran outside with just a towel and back and saw the Jule and talked about her with j's blonde friend. Juile is you know... was all I could get out.

At an old-western themed bar. Nina and F were above shouting to get beverages. I saw Nin and just exited but came back to help my sis win some money.