Competing with others is not the key to self development.
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, 01-12-2015 at 11:29 PM (315 Views)
12th July 2014
Location: on a large platform vessel
Tools Used: baramay device
Others In Room: one other
Unusual Activities During The Day:
Dream
I was thinking to myself, before I went to sleep last night, that in order for me to become more of the person I would like to be, I should start believing that I am competing with others and this will help me get there much faster. The dream I had was related to this line of thinking
I was dreaming I was in a school hall. Looked like the one from my primary school. There were other kids there of all ages. Some the same age as me (I think I was younger than I am now but not sure). Everyone was playing a game where you take as many balls from one end and put them in a basket at the other end. I didn't want to play at first but then I watched some of the older kids playing (might have been young adults) that were the same age as me and I then decided I would play also. I knew I had explosive power and I knew that if I used it I could beat them. I was looking forward to my turn and I was getting excited to start. Then when I started, I realized I was competing against really young Thai kids. My mood totally changed and I felt like I always feel towards kids. I loved them and I started playing with them. Letting them get ahead of me sometimes and beat me and I didn't care about winning anymore. The kids were having lots of fun like kids do and I just felt happy. My girlfriend (who is a school teacher) was there helping the kid next to me, telling him to run because he was becoming confused and wasn't sure what to do sometimes.
Thoughts/Notes
I should look to kids as an example of how to become more of the person I would like to be. I should feel joy in the process, stay in the moment, have fun, love others, help others who I see are confused.