usernamenaomi

(Been having absolutely rubbish luck with lucid EVERYTHING recently, I think I had been trying TOO hard. But I posted on the forums and got some advice. The one that worked best was taking some time off lucid and dream recall all together. Just a few days after that I started remembering my dreams unwillingly and they would linger in my mind hours later. Then last night I HAD A LUCID. Pretty excited to get back into lucid stuff again but this time i'm going to be way more chill.)

*Dream is kinda personal so I'm just gonna post the end. I believe I wasn't lucid most of the first half of the dream so when I did a nose plug my time was limited. It lasted just minutes I reckon.*

I go into the car park and head to the car, (I am scarily aware that I am dreaming that I don't need to clarify or demand clarity) but suddenly, like the end of a movie or cartoon my vision suddenly shrinks in a circle fashion until I can't see anything. I manage to open my eyes but they felt tired and I could NOT keep them open. The brief flashes I got of where I was not in the car park, but in my room. I was standing by my chest of drawers and for some stupid reason my dream self thought that meant the end of the lucid dream. I flash between the carpark and my room until I am in the car park again, struggling to keep my eyes open. I demand clarity but It doesn't work and I lose lucidity and the dream ends.

So if anyone has any advice on why I couldn't control the dream despite my efforts, please do tell me. This is my first lucid since an RC in February this year. I'll be honest I really haven't been trying but I'm going to do a FILD later this week and The last time I did it I believe it worked so... yeah. I keep losing the motivation even though I love it.

Okay I'm going to stop now..