Twoshadows

I'm so behind in my posting. I have had some fairly vivid dreams, but I didn't write them up at all, so they are gone...forever...

I had an odd dream last night.

This took place way back when the nation was being settled and there were conflicts between Native Americans and the settlers. In the dream I was kidnapped by a native and he told me he had to do some tests on me before their tribe would decide my fate. He took a small knife and put it to my wrist and made a small cut. I felt a little relief when the cut didn't hurt. He told me my blood had to be tested for "poison". If I had poison in my blood I would be killed immediately, if not, they would keep me alive for a short time. I wasn't sure which fate I wanted. I had a feeling that if I was left alive it would just be so I could be raped and tortured and then finally killed.

I wanted to tell him that they didn't need to kill me or torture. That I could be useful. I was also pretty. Surely some man in the tribe could appreciate me and learn to love me. I could learn to live the way Native Americans lived.

I remember feeling a huge wave a relief when I woke up and realized that it was just a dream and I wasn't going to be killed, tortured or raped or have to marry a stranger.

It's kind of a funny dream to have since I live in a town with more Native Americans than white people.