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I almost had yet another LD. This one would have definitely been a WILD. I remember losing feeling in my body, yet my mind was still conscious. And I was thinking: [Ok, ok, this is it, I just gotta stay calm and not think too much...] But for some reason, not long after the transition started, I woke up completely. All the feeling in my body came back at once. I think this happened because I was worried that I couldn't breathe or something. I couldn't feel myself breathe, so I started to breathe manually. I didn't think it would have an effect on me, but apparently it did. Still, I was so close to making the transition that when I imagined simple pictures, they seemed much more vivid than normal. WILD appears to be the easiest technique for me, so I'm going to keep trying it...

So I'm in bed and I feel the transition. Falling through the bed and all that jazz. I think I got a little disorientated, but other than that it's all good right!? WILD action right?

No, I'm in the void for a bit and scared to open my eyes and all that basic stuff I should already know. As a matter of fact the dream starts.

I'm in my room trying to go back to sleep and I hear my nephews enter the hours. Furiously, I yell at them about how they need to shut up. It felt weird cause I don't do things like that.

I even closed my door so I wouldn't hear them. Seconds later they opened it. I was soooooo mad, Nd then they're like "uncle Auron can we play your game". I gave in and I feel them in the damnbed rummaging around all my old games. Oddly enough they want to mess around with my Dreamcast and Nintendo crap, and I kinda want to punch them. One of them holds up a copy of dead or alive. I say something that I regret, but at the same time I meant it.

it's so crazy how I was like I need to go back to damn sleep when in actuality, I was already asleep. Just laying there in my dream waiting for the dream to begin. I should have recognized my aggressiveness. Also the whole part where some random kid was with them. I guess I'm going to just pretend that it was going to be a short lucid that wouldn't have mattered anyway.

Key:
{Curly brace & blue} .... Relevent waking life details before entry, if appropriate

Black .... Dream body/narative text

(Standard braces & dark green, bold) .... Dream notes, lucidity, time. method etc

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{This one is from two nights ago.... 29 may 2012
Waking life I've been trying to WILD, and have been getting quite close.
So I went to bed at my normal time, with the intention to get 4hrs+ REALLY GOOD sleep,
so that I should easily WILD when I've taken my early morning 3.30 to 4am pee}

(Non-Lucid)

I dreamed that I couldn't sleep for most of the night & that I was tossing and turning..
.. Though the night seemed to pass by quite quickly.. it was soon really light outside,
and eventually was that not far off my normal alarm waking time in waking life
.. I was worried that my lack of sleep would wreck my chances of a WILD.

I even at one point, picked up my mobile in the dream, and browsed a few of pages on the subject of sleep

(I know it was a dream, because...
1) The web pages I browsed on my phone in the night weren't in the browser history
2) On recollection in the morning, it felt 'dreamlike'
3) I 'woke up' when my alarm went off in waking life, without feeling like I hadn't slept

Night of April 26

2:17- nothing to say. Dang...

6:21- still, nothing. *I know I dreamed but it's not so much fuzzy as it is nonexistent almost.*

I tried to WILD and fell asleep. I started day-dreaming and forgot to reverse blink. I wasnt controlling it or thinking of this day-dream at all but before i kee it I was asleep. I'm not even sure if I should post this. I have to though, right? I've been at this for over 20 days now. No, forget it. I was my first try, I shouldnt be complaining right? But now I'm rambling and that's worse. I'm not sure if anyone reads this anyone, so why bother? Agh, no, I shouldn't think that, it's rude. I should just shut up and move on. I apologize if I'm complaining or totally off topic. I'll shut up now.

Spent tonight trying to WILD, my recall suffered a little because of this I'm guessing.

11:15am

I practiced detaching my mind from my body, I have trouble doing it so I thought I could practice before going to sleep. I noticed some really strange things happening... I don't mean to come off as spiritual or anything I'm just describing what i experienced.. I would fade in an out between a point where I couldn't keep my thoughts quiet and relaxation and disconnected from my body (as in not concerned about external senses) at one point I saw something on a shelf and went to pick it up, and got quite a shock because it was my dream hand!

It made me realize how close being awake and dreaming is, I think it was definitely progress ;D

Chase
I can barely remember this dream and I'm basically writing what is written with a few added things I can remember. I'm driving, with the cast from criminal minds as passengers, this area was closed off for the valentines public holiday (?) I turn around and see its raining. someone is still working here, a teenage girl. we go to a crime scene. someone takes off starting a chase. we go into an odd-shaped room. there is a window and I go out to see a pool with stained timber decking, and someone asking about my sister and how much she has grown.

Fragment: Something about loads of urns.. some fat guy in a blue shirt was there.. i think his name was luke.

2:50am

woke up right after a dream... not sure which one it was or even if i remember it. tried to WILD, failed.

Barf
I'm at my house. I have some ice cream and realize I didn't save any for my sister and uncle (?) I the ice cream that was left over, and put in some jelly looking stuff, some sprinkles and for some reason I was straining pasta and all this water went into the ice cream... I looked at what I had made... then threw them away

8:30am
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3:30pm

Went for a nap to try WILD again. failed. managed to remember a dream though ;D

Unoriginal
I'm at the mall down the road. I remember wearing a blue shirt I got from EB Games. I was waiting in line for something (where shingle inn should be not sure if that's where I was) I noticed more and more people wearing blue shirts.. I noticed a friend of mine was wearing one too, I got out of the line and said hi to him

Well currently I'm trying to WILD alot and regain my recall, tonight was an improvement.

Well I typed this up this morning, and pressed a button and it all got deleted, so I can't be bothered to type it all up again.

I attempt a WILD within a WILD, alarm wakes me up > I have a barfight with someone, he goes off crying > I go in a teachers car and drive to another city.

College night so I set my alarm for 4.5 hours after bed.
Got up at 6.00am but I think I fell asleep until 7.00 (I did attempt).
Attempted again at 7, felt vibrations after about 5 minutes but not intense at all and was only for a short period.
Waited for about 30 mins for them to come back but no luck so I tried rolling my eyes back into my head, vibrations instantly comeback but my eyes begin to flicker very fast. Waiting for the vibrations to get stronger I then open my eyes but I'm not dreaming :/
I think it's because I fell asleep on my original attempt

After working out (more intense than I usually do) I decided to take a nap. I also decided to try and hit 2 birds with one stone and attempt another WILD.

WILD Attempt #7
I lie down, turn on my white noise app (which is turning out to be very helpful) and close my eyes. I remember how much trouble I have with concentrating on my eyelids and throw a hat on over them for extra measure. After 15-20 minutes something is happening that hasn't happened before. My legs feel like they are floating off into the air. My arms quickly follow. Could I finally have reached sleep paralysis. I see some kind of picture in front of me. It looks like a glowing blue spiders web (Not the round kind, a more disorderly web, random patterns and all the wonderful stuff). My heart starts beating hard, not fast, but hard. I feel like my heart has moved right up into my head, it is literally pulsating. Everything calms down after about 20-30 seconds. Am I in a dream now? Probably not, I can hear the white noise and feel that hat around my head. I may as well check though. I take the hat off, plug my nose and breathe. Alas, I'm awake.

Considerable progress though

WILD Attempt #6
Awake: I decide to take an afternoon nap. I do not use white noise or any other anchor, but I do put on a winter hat to keep my eyes from opening. I lie down in my normal position and count my breaths. One hundred and something breaths later I drift off to sleep without knowing it. I guess white noise will be necessary.

WILD attempt #5
Awake: I look over to my alarm clock. 3:30 A.M?! I was supposed to be awake at 1:00 A.M. I roll on my back, I'm not wide awake, but I'm not groggy either, maybe I should try a WILD anyway. I do. I turn on my NatureSpace app, I put it on infinite ocean, and lie on my side.
HH and HJ: The first sign that I'm getting somewhere are the hypnic jerks. I get these around my legs, and a couple times on my back. I lie for awhile longer. My thoughts dwell a little but never enough to get me out of it. After awhile something happens that has never happened before. I see these white rings suddenly fly towards me, they're very blurred, like the green lights in my previous HH, but they also give me a light headed feeling. It's as if I'm flying through them. These go away and I don't feel anything except the occasional jerk. I'm still without the numbness and heaviness i get in my legs and arms. I think I need to relax more and meditate less.
Awake: After 33 minutes I call it a quits and go to non-lucid sleep.

Some kind of Paradise
Non-Lucid: I'm walking on a stone road. With me are Natasha (friend) and Charlie (Not so much my friend), there may have been someone else but I paid them no attention. It's an absolutely beautiful summer day out, but where we are I don't know. It's some Skyrim-esque terrain, lot's of mountains, but no snow. Just perfect, my dreamland. We come across a small house, and would you believe, it's that god damn Russian/gypsy lady again! Only a glimpse, and I'm not 100% sure it is here, but I think it is. (I sure hope she isn't my dream sign). Next to a house is a huge change in the path. 90 degrees to be exact, no problem though. We climb up it without a sinch, except for me at the top. Charlie offers me his hand to help me up (in real life I would get over the ridge easily but in the dream I was struggling) I reach for it but he doesn't give it to me. Natasha doesn't notice, and after a minute he helps me up. It's a beautiful sight up here, To our left is a small bay, to our right, mountains and plains and ahead, ocean. There's one lone sailboat in the bay, and the water is calm. My subconscious decides it wants charlie gone, he's out of the dream. Me Natasha, and this other guy (I believe to be Natasha/Charlies friend Connor, nice guy) lie down. I crack a joke, they laugh, and she come up with some witty response. For some reason (Maybe we were called by someone) we get up and hop off the little cliff we're on and walk back the way we came. I wish this dream could have lasted longer, but that's where it ends.

Look out below!
Non-Lucid: I'm in the passenger seat. It's night time and the driver is speeding down a street in the city. "He is driving like a nut" I think to myself. Ahead is a highway entrance, the driver hits the side of it (those large cinder barriers are on the side) and we fly off into the sky. It's like some kind of physics bug from GTA. I ask him what happening to his car. No response. I repeat myself. Still no response. We land in the river. The guy finally says he will call emergency services. I panic and ask what river this is. Is there a waterfall in it? He says yes, oh man, we're screwed, game over man. Then this natural river suddenly transforms into some kind of theme park river. I jump onto the side where there are wooden boards holind up some images for people on the other side to see. I climb down to the end of the ride, my friend and the police are waiting for me. The dream ends.

Persuasive Monsters
Non-lucid: I'm in a library. I'm taking some kind of lesson, it must be with computers because we all have laptops. The guy sitting in front of me is Connor (Different Connor, I've gotten into physical fights with this one in the past). He turns around and says something, I get angry and retort. One thing leads to another and we are both steaming, both ready to throw the first punch. The teacher, a balding guy with a soul patch, asks me to move. I go to a booth in the corner, there are some other girls there. Little did I know that these girls are vampires! They throw me some pitch about how great it is to be a vampire, and all of the cool things you can do. Time zooms forward, I'm in a hallway. Two of the vampire girls are there along with a normal human. It's some induction ceremony, all you have to do it chew a jawbreaker sized piece of gum and a smoked chocolate doughnut (My Subconscious is a weirdo). The human girls put the gum in her mouth to reveal grotesque, black teeth with huge fangs. Halfway through the doughnut I remember that I don't want to be a vampire. The two vampire girls go off about a guy who once didn't finish the ceremony like me, and that now he cries blood everyday. At this point my alarm goes off (thank god)

Successfully woke up at 1 A.M. no dream recall at all and ran into some trouble.

WILD attempt #4
Awake: My alarm wakes me up at 2 A.M. 2 hours after I fall asleep (had some trouble sleeping). I feel awake, too awake after only 2 hours of sleep. I get up, go to the fridge and pull out some juice and take a swig. I look at the window. Snow, the first of the season. it looks peaceful in our little neighborhood. I go back to bed. It's been four minutes since I've woken up, perfect according to many guides. I put my earphones in and turn on the white noise, lie down... still. I do this for an hour and get absolutely nowhere. Tonight was especially frustrating, I'm hoping for better ones in the future.

Lost dream
Non-Lucid: I was somewhere outdoors. I don't remember what I was doing, who I was with (if anyone) or why.
Awake: I wake up and lose the memory of the dream after attempting the second WILD.

WILD attempt #1
Awake: Wake up from my alarm, get out of bed and walk to my door. As I open it I remember it isn't a school day and remember why I woke up so early on a Sunday. Go back to bed but fall asleep.

In the Cafeteria
Non-Lucid: I was in my high schools cafeteria looking through a pamphlet, or maybe a year book. I came across an odd group that was named something along the lines of "school year-book porn". I thought this was odd, but continued in non-lucidity. After talking to some people (I don't remember this part of the dream but I feel like I know it happened) I woke up.

WILD Attempt #2
Awake: I wake up around 8 A.M. and it's fairly bright out but it shouldn't matter much, my window is small. I close my eyes and concentrate on my breathing. I count every breath I take.
Hypnotic Hallucinations?: First sign of HH I start seeing green strips of light going across my left eye (don't ask me how I know, I just know it was only my left one). My arms and legs go numb and feel heavy. Now the green strips turn into large green rings that quickly shrink, only one visible at a time, all appear and shrink in the same spot. There is a bubbling sound, like after you flush a toilet, it goes on for awhile but I don't know if it was real or part of the hallucinations. I feel something in my hand, it feels like someone is rolling a spherical object in it. My heart rate quickens and I remember to take deep breaths, it won't work if I get excited. The rings stop and turn into little balls coming from the right and falling eventually (still green, still one at a time) I start seeing a white glare coming from the bottom, but I think it was just my eyes opening a bit. After this goes on for a bit the rings come back and I can feel just how heavy my arms and legs are.
Awake: Everything except the numbness goes away and I decide that either I'm in a dream or I've failed. I open my eyes and count my fingers. Eleven... recount... ten. I try to push one hand through the other, no dice. Pinch my nose and breathe, nothing. But at least I got to HH, maybe I was just too awake.

Every Wednesday I take a nap, so today I thought I'd try some a WILD. I had three attempts in all.

The first isn't even worth mentioning.

During the second attempt, I began counting my breaths. As usual, I started to feel very relaxed around breath 60, and by 100 I had started seeing some swirly colors. Then I heard this noise like... I can't quite remember, kind of a buzzing, maybe, off to my right. I wondered if this was a hallucination, because it sounded like it was real, right there in the room. I tried to get my mind back on track counting. After a little, my hands, which were resting on my legs, started to feel like they had fused to me. I has all tingly and numb. I was sure I was going into SP, and got really excited, but still tried to calm down. I counted breaths and let my heart rate decrease, but nothing else seemed to happen. Then, my eyes opened on their own.

I was so frustrated! I was sure I had gotten close. I thought, maybe I was too awake, so I laid on my side and got sleepy and tried again. This time, I didn't have any visual hallucinations, either, but I'm sure there were audial ones, because after about 100 breaths again I heard this loud bass sound, like a car was blasting rap. I could almost feel it, and it was so loud. I started to lose track of where I was counting, and eventually the noise faded away. After that, I remember trying to lose track of my body, and focus inward, but I kept feeling like my hand was upside down. It was a weird sensation: I knew my hand was palm down on my leg, but it felt like it was palm up. I kept focusing on it, even thought I knew I shouldn't. I also lost myself in thought a lot, losing the number of breaths I had taken. Near 400-something, I gave up, knowing if I didn't stop, I'd just fall asleep.

Of course, after all three attempts, I did RCs.
Something to note, and I wrote about it in the forums. When I got up after the third attempt, I felt really nauseous and sick for about ten minutes.

I thought I'd post these, uninteresting as they are, because I left my real DJ at the other house. If I don't write about them, I'll regret it.

Tonight I went to sleep a little too late (I couldn't sleep -.-' fucked up my WILD attempt) and it was like I was looking at someone elses Lucid, I can only remember a few fragments:
Something with a doctor who did some sort of Inception-ish things in other peoples dreams. Something with a woman who was accused for something (murder?). Something with water that went red (blood?). Doctor walking through wall.

Had an amazing nights sleep last night, feeling so refreshed this morning. I fell asleep quite quickly and then found myself naturally waking so took the opportunity to wild. Once again I didn't quite make it to LD but I got to the point where I felt I was at least somewhat disconnected from my body. This happened on 4 separate attempts which all ended in failed reality checks, by the 3rd and 4th attempts I felt much calmer and didn't panic as much - seems like I'm making progress on WILDing quicker than I expected.

In the middle of the night I may have had a slight LD, but I only think this because I remember waking up and trying to tell myself to write down the dream as it was important/exceptional. Unfortunately I have no recollection of this now so if I did LD/work out the meaning of life it's lost on me now.

I woke up at 1130 and decided to give myself more of a lie in (more willing to do this now that I have potential to LD!) and this resulted in me having a very vivid but non lucid dream. It started off at home and it was my girlfriend Emily's birthday, she stayed over at my house but I found out in the morning that she snuck out the night before to go clubbing with two male friends. I get very angry at them all, one of the men is called Nathan who is wearing a brown trench coat. He reminds me of Arnold Schwarznegger in the expendables somewhat.
I go round the corner with a friend (possibly Izaac) and approach the local curry house, they beckon us inside saying that they have free food for him. However when we get inside the dream changes somewhat and the meal is for emily who is at home. I offer to make tea for everybody and whilst I'm doing so Emily turns up. I'm struggling to make the tea and her presence angers me until I give up. Next thing I know we're outside a sweet stall in London where I'm eyeing some blue sweets. I consider stealing them until a fish shaped waffle is placed on the shelf to the side of me where I can just about reach it (imagine being at the short end of a bar). I dismiss this idea as I'm scared of getting caught and instead search the counter in front of me which is made up of 2 overlapping shelves. Searching only results in me getting chewing gum on my hands. The next thing I know somebody grabs me "inappropriately" and I spin around to see who did it, my bad mood from earlier still hasn't worn off. I realise that it is another girl from the group and am actually quite flattered so direct my anger instead towards two young catholic students (according to the folders they were carrying). I shout to everyone that they're not as innocent as everybody thinks they are, and that they are in fact sluts. The teacher is rightly outraged at my abuse to school children but I am pleased as it hides who really did it.

Then I woke up.

Then I realised that my girlfriend is actually an amazing girl and that I can't wait to see her later today.

EDIT: Note to self: Need to look out for major geographical changes as a dreamsign. I dreamt I was at my house, not the halls of residence where I actually am. Opening doors led to hugely different places. Also Emily claimed to have snuck out through the windows which would realistically result in her just sitting on the roof.