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#412 - DILD - 6:35AM

I am walking up a hill with my younger daughter and son. For some reason I am going to some apartments to take a swim. I tell myself that if I am going to live here, I need to figure out how to park on the other side so I don't have to walk so far all the time. Some triggers semi-lucidity and the walk up the hill feels hard and slow. I realize that this is all a mental thing and tell myself to just pretend that it's all super easy and it will be. It works for a second and gets difficult again at the last few steps.

I am inside the apartment but it all looks really odd. I feel this is normal for a dream so I let it go and try to ignore it. I have my son in my arms and for some reason think I need to put him down for a nap. There is a door way that I think leads to his bedroom, but when I open it, it is just a broom closet. I know this is all pointless so I unceremoniously toss my son into the darkest part of the closet and walk way. I feel a mental tug to do it right, but I don't want to get caught up in mundane tasks in a dream. I am still really caught up in going swimming so I try to find the back door. As I make my way outside, I pass though some tiny kitchen that I recognize to look like a small version of the duplex I used to live in.

Outside, my lucidity raises as I look around for a pool. I see an above ground pool to the right, but quickly reject that. I look to the left and see my younger daughter jumping into a large in-ground pool. Excited, I run and jump and yell, "JEEEERRRONIMOOOOO!", as I belly flop into the pool. As I make impact I worry that my vision will get distorted and I end up in the void. Of course, this thought manifests as I see a blur of blue and air bubbles and the dream fades.

The lights come on and I wake up with my son in the bed with me and my wife. He's crying and some liquid has pooled up all over the sheets. Not sure if he peed out of his diaper, I ask, "Why is everything so wet?"
My wife just says, "He's been crying." I realize that there is no way a kid can tear up that much and remember that I was just now dreaming that I was swimming. The lights do out and I roll over and make swimming motions in the dark until I reach my wife. I start kissing her and decide maybe some sexy-time would be nice. The light returns and my wife stops me. She asks, "Right now? [in front of R?]
I tell her that it doesn't matter [in a dream]. We continue to enjoy each other, but I wake up before we get very far.

#411 - DEILD - 5:13AM

4AM WBTB, Galantamine/choline with peppermint tea.

I wake slightly realizing I lost focus. For some reason I was pretty wired at WBTB and had a hard time getting settled. I don't recall dreaming, but focus on DEILD. I feet a familiar shift in my body almost on command and exit pretty quickly. For some reason I head to the bathroom to find a something like a really tall crypt keeper coming at me trying to bite my face.



I reflexively put a protective arm over myself and push away with the other. The room lights up and now I think of it more like a zombie. Fear starts to creep in but I remind myself that it's just my dream and the fear goes away. I remember how easy zombies are to kill in The Walking Dead so, I grab the thing with both hands and smash it's face into the mirror over the sink. I am shocked when I see neither one of us have a reflection. There was a definite face impact on something but it seems more like a window than a mirror. I look loser for a reflection and find two alternate versions of myself. On has a curly white-boy-fro and is standing in the door way. The other has long straight hair and is smiling at something in to the right that I can't see. I remember the Crypt Keeper and get back to mashing it's face into the mirror again. This time I really hope for a reflection and I see it now and, even though my reflection is absent, I am satisfied. I smash the thing one more time and see it's jaw drop away. I figure that has to be good enough and I have a strong desire to get out of this uncomfortable situation.

I wander into the kitchen and find the rest of the house is way too dark. I try a light switch with no luck. I try snapping my fingers but I get a weird visual of my hands flapping around really fast in the darkness. I feel really rushed and worried that I am taking up too much time messing with stuff, but I remember Dreamers' time technique and calm myself. I have all the time in the world. I decide to just go outside now, but I'm still stuck on the idea of making light. I snap my fingers, but it just feels really weird. I try making a fire on my finger but nothing happens. I find myself at the door but when I try to open it, it's locked. I fumble with the deadbolt with little success until I remember how ridiculous it is to be worried about all that in a dream. I pull the door extra hard and there is a jolt and a pop like something broke and the doors opens.

When I get to the porch I begin to float. It's a dull, grey, overcast day and the air feels extra cool. There is some silver colored van parked in my yard. I notice the tail lights are lit up so I decide to go investigate but my I can't seem to make myself float over. About the time I start struggling the van drives ways. Yell out at the driver as I return to the ground to run after it, but it's long gone now and I don't care enough to pursue. In the street, I see it's made of gravel rather than asphalt. I find this mildly interesting but mostly ignore it. I start to feel rushed again, but remind myself that there is plenty of time and not to worry about it. It helps some, but I know the dream time is limited and there's stuff I want to do.

There is another car stopping in the street and I recall one goal. I want to see how far I can stretch my arms to grab something. I reach out at the car and my arms stretch out and snake around until I can feel something. It I may have reached about 20 feet out and grabbed the edge of the wheel well. It's an odd sensation and as I am experiencing this I ear a woman's voice close in my left ear. I reflexively forget about my arms and the car and spin around to see who's talking to me. To my surprise, I see no one.

I walk down the street looking for the woman with out luck. While I'm doing this, I recall other goals. I think of the Pegasus TOTY but I feel like this dream world is really unstable. In fact, it feels really taxing trying to hold it all together. I recall another task, to see how running feels now that I have started to do so in waking life. I turn to start, but I see a woman walking across the street. She must be the one so I head over to her. I talk to her but my words feel jumbled and her reply makes no sense. I struggle to talk clearer, but about that time the dream fades into a dull white color.

I open my eyes facing my wife's side of the bed. I see she has her cell phone on and the light from it must have woke me up. She has her phone partly under the cover like she is trying not to disturb me, but it's still really bright. I ask, "What are you doing?"
She tells me, "Just... this."
I think shes just being rude and I become really pissed off that she woke me out of a lucid dream. In a huff, I roll over to my other side jerking the covers and say in a loud whinny voice, "You woke me up! What the hell?"
Then I realize something feels off. The sensation of rolling over was very dull and numb. This is a familiar effect of my dream body. Happy again I say, "I'm not awake!" I roll back over but end up on top of my wife. She has put her phone away, but for some reason I ask, "What was that anyway?"
She replies, "I'll show you... hold on."
Before I say or do anything else stupid, I go ahead and do a quick nose plug to make sure I am really dreaming. I feels redundant, but I enjoy the confirmation. Now I say, "You're not real."
Then, my wife's face morphs into the Crypt Keeper from earlier and I bail. It's not that I am afraid, but I really don't want to deal with that nasty thing again.

I recall my running task again as I head back to the front door. I start running while singing, "Run run run baaaby." When I get to the door, I wake up. This time for real.

#410 - DEILD - 4:08AM

WBTB @ 3AM. Caffeine from coffee.

I wake slightly surprised that I can recall no dreams. I lay still and focus my attention a few inches from the crown of my head. Vibrations quickly start and it's not long until I feel my dream body float up from my physical body. There is a moment where I can feel both simultaneously and this causes an in-and-out-feel or 'bouncing' effect of my dream body. I shift my focus to walking and make my way to the living room. I am blind, but I feel like I just have my eyes close so I slowly and cautiously open them, worried that I will open my physical eyes and wake up. Luckily, this clears up the dream with no other effect. As I walk to the front door, I have a strange feeling like I am half crouched or hunched over and my eyes feel like they are trying to roll into the back of my head. I correct this by straightening up and trying to look more downward.

Outside, I see a full moon and the yard is only lit by it's dim light. There's are a few scattered stars and I recall one of my goals to meditate on one with the intention of travel. As I look up my eyes go out of focus and the feeling of them rolling into the back of my head returns. Then, there is some visual distortion like my physical eyes have opened slightly. I make a poor attempt to correct this not really knowing how and I wake slightly again.

I DEILD the same way as before, but this time when I reach the living room I enter a true void. Usually I have some phsycial sensation during these 'void' experiences, but this time I feel truely cut off from everything; no sight, no sound, no touch. I don't even feel like I have a body. Instead of fighting against it, I decide to relax and enjoy whatever I am given. I then regain some sensational and feel as if I am slowly floating around a space. I then begin to roll and I see a light on each rotation through closed eye lids. I had no sense of time and wondered if there was light coming from my bedroom window. Maybe it's later in the morning. I begin to wonder if I am going to roll on top of my wife. I think about this and decide to have dream sex with her. I kiss her, but the feeling quickly slips away.

I am fooled momentarily by a false awakening. I open my eyes and find that I have in fact rolled on top of my wife except I have my butt in her face. I feel embarrassed and we both laugh. I quickly get back on my side of the bed and try to focus again to DEILD. I have a vivid image of my wife laughing, but her teeth look very brown and decayed like some meth-head's.



I am repulsed by this, but quickly realize this is a dream. I say to myself, "You are still asleep!" I know this is true, but I feel as if I still need to continue with the DEILD. The same as before happens, but this time I enter into a vivid dream (I was already there).

There is a mirror on covering one whole wall in the bedroom and I hear a song from an acoustic guitar. The music sound generic and unoriginal yet familiar. My reflection has a giant wrench in his hands and is singing into it while bobbing up and down.

Like this guy.



I feel disconnected from it for a second, but quickly we merge as I sing. I have that awkward moment where I am not sure if I am singing in my sleep or not, but I do my best to ignore it. The lyrics just come to me without much thought, "I've got some issues. Yeah some issues. I've got some issues. Yes I do." Then I use the wrench to play guitar with then into my crotch as I use it to do some pelvic thrusts. I turn to the mirror on my wife's closet door and dance a little in front of that. I go out of the room and the song changes, "I'm gonna make great love...great love...yeah great great love. I've got some issues yeah some issues but I'm gonna make great great great love." I recall another goal that involves a dub-step song to try to induce a Star Wars battle. I sing loudly, "Destroy them with lasers!" Unfortunately, the music doesn't change. I say out loud, "Oh ok. I guess we're gonna keep going with this then." I start to sing some more, but the dream quickly fades and I wake up.

31.01.2015

Weird ETs (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Full Dream (+1)
I was in a big house and I think I was staying over night. The house had like three or four stories and pretty much my entire family was in there. I was feeling homesick so I wanted to do some star gazing. As I was climbing the stairs, I heard my that calling me. He pointed at the sky and told me, "You are psychic like me, so I am sure you can see this in the sky. As I looked up, I saw:







I felt pretty amazed, all four squares were alien crafts moving and I could communicate telepathically to them. I spend a while with my dad gazing and chatting about other planes of existance.

After a while, the dream shifted and I was in some sort of major extraterrestial building research. There were actual ET beings here and I was thrilled in exploring this place.

While I was exploring it, my wife told me to go to the hidden chambers and try to get some interesting information. As we were exploring the facility, out of the blue I turned lucid. I knew I was dreaming (+10) and just to double check I did a RC (+1) which it failed. I told my wife (+2), "Don't worry, it is just a dream, nothing will happen." It seems that some sort of emergency was going. My lucid was extremely low quality and I could not focus properly, I was barely holding lucidity about this one.

My wife told me something about intergalactic sex, but I felt bad disrupting the beautiful ET energy (loosing lucidity.)

As I went outside, I was wondering if I could take stuff out of the dream, in waking life. My wife told me to go to produce store and see how it felt to do a robbery in a dream. I imagined I had a gun in my poket and I was able to pull one (+4) but at this point in the dream I was loosing focus fast until I either went to no lucid or woke up.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #265: Pinbasketball

I’m lying in bed in a false awakening, frustrated to be tossing and turning instead of lucid dreaming. I get a vague sense of floatiness and decide to roll out OBE-style. I imagine my legs oozing over the side of the bed onto the floor and now I’m on my feet in my bedroom, fully lucid.

I remember my intent to slow down and take my time, inspired by one of Dreamer’s recent lucid dreams (this amazing one.) I look back at the bed and see Wife still lying there. For some reason I feel a little scared to approach, like this might destabilize things. But no, the whole idea with this dream is not to be afraid of stuff.

I float up on the bed and stand over Wife. I watch for a moment just appreciating her beauty. I'm attracted to her and fascinated by her realism I don’t feel tempted to engage in sexy shenanigans. Wife opens her eyes a bit and looks at me sleepily. “Poo,” she says firmly. “Poo poo poo poo poo.” I laugh and say something like, “Okay, I’ll let you sleep…”

I phase through the wall into the night and the dream feels very dark. I don’t worry about it and instead just rub my hands together. They feel numb and distant, so I imagine that I’m wearing thick, leathery gloves, which I peel off. More hand-rubbing, vision returns, and now it looks like early morning on a mix between my street, an amusement park, and the Las Vegas strip. I walk for about 10 minutes or so, just enjoying this, passing opulent hotels, workers sweeping the streets, a stone statue.



Eventually I wander into a plaza that looks a little like a Disney World food court. I remember my goal of summoning Iokheira and transforming into wolves. :canislucidus: I hold out my right hand and look at the ground, expecting her shadow to form. But instead she bounds into the scene from the right and jumps right in front of me, smiling hugely.

I give her a hug and ask, “Did you want to do the wolf transformation right away or should we look around first?” She says that she’d “rather play” so we set off, looking around the park. We talk for a bit about lucid dreaming and (I think) video games. I describe how I’m trying to use Dreamer’s method of slowing the dream. I remark that we have “tons of time” and she agrees.

We wind up in an area filled with carnival games and enter a building that has this cool-looking game that’s a combination of pinball and one of those games where you have to shoot a basketball. In this one you throw the basketball into a hole, where it flies up a ramp, bounces off of a wall, and hurtles toward the basket. We play for a while, and I notice that when I get too into the game, both Iokheira and I forget to give the other person a turn.



We decide to keep looking around, and as we’re leaving I notice that Iokheira now looks a decade or so older than in waking life and I mention this. As we pass by a line of 5 women waiting in line to buy something, I see that she’s transformed further, and now looks like a completely different person, a woman with short brown hair in her early 50s. The woman looks like she feels ill and asks me to help her. I scoop her up and carry her outside where we crouch on the ground. She apologizes: “I’m sorry that I don’t look right. I don’t think I’m her anymore.” I tell her not to worry and that I’ll help her either way.

The woman lies down on her left side and vomits loudly onto the plaza stones. I feel enormous compassion, and I sit with her for a while, rubbing her back a bit until she’s able to sit up. She seems shorter now than before but also like she feels okay. She again apologizes for not being Iokheira anymore. I reassure her that “this has been a great lucid” as the dream starts to fade. As I’m pondering my next move, the dream ends.

29.01.2015

Wife won't ride a baby attraction but decides to ride a massive roller coaster (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Full dream (+1)
First DILD (+10)
WBTB (+2)

I went to a theme park and it appeared to be almost empty of people,e yet the weather was awesome and I felt pretty excited. I first walked towards the Pirate Ship. It was pretty much like the real thing, but there were no people in line and I wondered if it was open. I always like to warm up riding this baby. Not a huge rush, but it is fun.







As I got closer to the attraction, I saw that on some of the rows there were people dressed in black, and it seems that they needed to assist into swining the boat. My wife chickened out from riding this one (she would not ride it in waking life) so she decided to just hang around while I rode it. One of the employees was giving me instructions in how to ride it. I told her I rode it many times in my life and I was trying to step inside.

I saw the employee, who now was my friend, walking away, so I followed her and I was having a nice chat with her. I saw an attraction that had the face of Lord Ganesh which I was trying to incubate (+15) which I found very amusing to see on an amusing park.








From here, I was enjoying a couple drinks with my new female friends and suddenly, I heard the noise of a roller coaster. She exalted, "Oh yeah, let's go!" I followed here and there was a massive roller coaster. She said that she loved it, that it was so amazing I had to ride it.







I looked at it and I felt it would be so cool, so I joined the line. I recalled that I was supposed to ride the pirate ship and that my wife would be waiting outside. I pulled my phone to text her but she joined us and asked me what was going on with the Pirate ship. I told her I was going to ride the roller coaster instead. She replied to me, "Oh, alright" followed by joining the line. I asked her, "Where do you think you are going?" while I was laughing. She replied, "To ride it!" I turned lucid right away. My wife would not ride an even tiny little kids roller coaster and she would not even look at the beast roller coaster I was planning to ride. I decided to get two points out of talking with a DC, so I told my wife, "Yeah right... you riding that... lol."(+2)

I had my cell phone still on my hands so I attempted to use it. I saw a ton of weird characters and I believe my screen was in black and white (+4) I decided to take a flight to make my dream stable (+1) I kept flying for a while (+4) until I saw a sea scenery that looked very pretty when suddenly the alarm clock woke me up.

28.01.2015

Intimate moments with wife (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This is a full dream recall (1 pts) but I will not share details due maturity content as well as personal content, but think of a pretty long sex scene with my wife in different rooms and even different places (some public)

28.01.2015

1-28-15 Fragments - Strange diet (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream Fragment (0.5 pts)

Something involving a diet with both green and red apples that my wife wanted to start.

28.01.2015

1-28-15 Fragments - Package received (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream Fragment (0.5 pts)

This dream comes from a package that is delayed and my wife is waiting for.

I heard the door opening and some delivery man had a package. It was a small brown box, with a lot of tape and about a feet long. My wife was in the kitchen and started to open it. I told her if it was the package she was waiting for and she said yes. I was wondering how it could be so small because it was a big purchase.

it was 10 am . i and my wife sleeping in the bed. but,
i have to go school. and my time is 1030 am but it was now 1043 am,
and I'm talking to my wife that I'm getting late.
but i don't want to jump from the bed.
I'm talking to my wife, someone also sleeping inside my wife. i think
it was shanu.
i see the smart watch, witch was gifted to my doubter angel.
i was playing song on it, and very happy to listen that.
i was wearing in my hand.

26.01.2015

Pandora's Box? We are out! Hahaha (WILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Full Dream (+1)
After writing down some fragments I decided to WILD.

After what it felt a couple of minutes, my wife suddenly woke up and started moving abruptly in bed. She was trying to hug me in an abrupt way and she started to pull me, pull my arms and shake my head. I knew I was WILDing a moment ago while my wife was hard asleep plus such behavior is uncommon from her.

I decided to do a reality check (+1) to make sure my WILD worked (+10) and indeed I was asleep. The dream quality was pretty bad, so I decided to go out and get to fly a little bit above the town (+4) in order to make my dream stable (+1) with good success. The dream when crystal clear in no time.

I landed and I decided to make some easy points. So I asked the time to a Dream Character (+2) and he replied that he was going to be late and started to run... whatever.... I believed I had a dare where I had to eat an entire boiled egg in one bite (which in reality it was a gold fish) so I decided to look for a place to eat a boiled egg. I entered in some fast food place that looked like a subway:







I started to ask for boiled eggs, and they gave me a tray with pieces of boiled eggs and random veggies. I tried some for points (+4) and realized I needed the egg to be whole. There was no way to get a whole boiled egg, and I kind of gave up on it.

I recalled it was a good idea to hit another ToTY, so I decided to look for pandora's box. I figured that just summoning it would be invalid, so I decided to find it, like I found that gizmo present in a past task. I went inside a store and asked for them to please give me Pandora's box. They started laughing at me, saying they were out of them and telling me I was nuts. I insisted but then a dream character started to make jokes, and I forgot about the box.

I was then walking around downtown, looking for another store to demand Pandora's box. But I felt my dream fading and for some reason, I did not try to save it, leading to a False Awakening.

I wrote my dream down and relaxed back in bed, setting the intent to induce another lucid dream, when I woke up for real.

25.01.2015

1-25-15 Fragmented dream - Wife getting bashed (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Someone was bashing my wife for her cooking (which is exceptional in waking life) I believe this might have been my wife brother. We were in a house with a lot of technology.

Something related to a phone call where my mom called my wife and she hung up accidentally.

it is my old house. i.m going with my wife
for shifting purpose
going with my wife in to the old house.
yes, it is my old house. i see the windows of the house.
it is my bed room. it is totally empty, and I'm mapping it from my hand.
the room is so small. i'm thinking it it was so small from my new house.
i standing in front of windows and thinking about my passed life.
i was listening the outside sound.
then i move to middle room and touch the dirty drum witch is located in front of switch board.
then i'm thinking that, it is so dirty. and wash my hand in basin.

i saw in kitchen, my wife is making something.
then i think just on the chimney. but it was not possible because i m in old house.
after that i was awake.
then i sleep again and saw the bank.
i see the bank
i came here for loan purpose.
i saw the banker and sum one talking to me.
i think it is a boy and he is banker.
then i didn't remember but he was bring to me at a lady banker i think she is neha madam.
then they have refuse to give a loan. i says that i have already taken the loan and i return it in 4 months.
then the lady ask the loan amount i think 20 lakh but i says 1 lakh.
i remember that my loan is approved. then i came out from the bank with my wife.
yes i think it is icici bank but i saw SBI bank on it.
there is way of my old house in front of this bank.
i was going with my wife.
i entered in that road. after going to left, i saw a dead dog . the dog is rite side to me.
and my wife is consciously bring me to left side
then i reached the old house.
in the gate, there is many person. but i and my wife had not talked to anyone else.
i climbing in steps and steps. and came in to the house..

19.01.2015

Lemon car wont break (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to some Mexican neighborhood and some dude had an old manual transmission car. It looked really like a lemon, ready to go to the junkyard, but I took a test drive.







The transmission was super smooth and the engine roared like if it was a sports car. On the interior it looked on and there were some papers around. I picked up my wife an showed her how smooth the drive was.

It was a nice drive, and I actually liked the car. I drove it until night until I saw there was some huge party, blocking the street. The car was speeding and upon trying to break, the car did not... I panicked and I could not even warn the people (honk not working) so I started to run over people. Even though there was no blood, no bumps, nothing, it was like if they were holograms and other people around did not seemed to care. I woke up a little altered.

10.01.2015

Winning at the slot machine (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a class room, at least, the decor looked like it (none, lol) but over the desks, there were slot machines. Some class finished and my wave tossed $5 and upon rolling, she lost.

I told her that I used to play a similar slot machine and I was very lucky normally. At least to pick up a few twenties. I told her to hit the highest bet possible with the most lines, and wait for a chain of WILD (did you just reality checked? Nope, this is not a dream (or is it?) as slot machines do that "WILD" as a possible bonus)







I just tried it my self. It was not a familiar slot machine, something about woman, rapists and weird stuff. I spin for the highest bet and hit a bonus game. The top screen of the slot machine turns on and I see few photos of half naked woman and some rapists trying to get them. I had to kill the rapists and each one would give me a bonus in dollars. I had a small craft like space invaders:







I was able to kill a ton of rapists and had a few thousand dollar bonus. I wanted to cash all the money in and put $100 in but i woke up.