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Spending the holiday w/ my husband. Had non lucids but I just keep falling back asleep. Monday will be back to 6 days a week for my husband until Christmas break. Hence, I'm making time for family.

Still no sleep for over 2 weeks now. I'm going non stop w/ cleaning & duties of all kinds that it is surreal. I had to wreck the grand kids room in my house cuz the Dish Network guy needed to go through that room & I had to move heavy shit for him cuz he was too fat to fit under my house. After which I could've saved time by not dealing w/ that aftermath of cleaning if only my daughters had told me the kids weren't even going to be here this year. I'm sorry but those installation guys need to fit in a fucking crawl space. Then yesterday I had some sort of emotional breakdown in the middle of making Thanksgiving dinner yesterday. I'm in so much pain, utterly exhausted, I'm sad my uncle just died, one of daughters didn't come & none of my grand kids came. I'm just fucking glad it's over. All of those who were there did understand though in the end & were grateful for all I did. Of course I get to do all of this again for Christmas, how exciting~ (eye roll) I'm still in so much pain I just can't explain it. I know I need another surgery but my last surgery from last December still isn't paid off. I'm not doing jack shit today. Okay, I'm done w/ my banter. Going back to watching tv & doing a whole lot of nothing.

Thanksgiving. No sleep. Way to much to do.

I can't log anything today because I'm having Thanksgiving at my house. And by that I mean. I'm buying everything, making everything & doing everything for a bunch of other ppl at my house. Mike will help some but I'm stressed out as hell.

Dream - Lucid


Vampires turning other people into vampires. That's all I recall on this one.

~

We were having a huge Thanksgiving at my house, not just with my family, but people I went to high school with as well; it was like we were having a high school reunion on Thanksgiving. It started out with just my family being there though. I remember my uncle being there, but no other specifics.

The dining room table was set, and people started to show up, coming through the front door. I can't really remember specifics, not until Nick B. and Olivia showed up. I saw Nick B.'s sister, Rachel B., come in as well. Nick B. was the first guy I ever kissed IWL, and Olivia and I have never gotten along (Nick B. would go back and forth between us in middle school). Olivia looked as I remember her in high school, though she looks quite different now IWL. They walked in when it was already pretty crowded, letting themselves in as everyone else had been doing. I caught a glimpse of Nick as he walked by with Olivia behind him, but he would not make eye contact with me, which wasn't really surprising, but...why was he at my house, at this reunion, if he wasn't going to at least say hello? I kept on catching glimpses of him, but no matter how many times I'd look right at him, he would not make eye contact; I was being completely ignored.

Then, I went into the dining room, and there were many people sitting and standing around the table to eat; there was certainly not enough room for everyone to sit down, much less convene in the dining room. I thought about this for a second. I remember sitting down at the table for a little bit, but then, I got really upset about being completely ignored by Nick B., so I got up with my plate and went and sat in a closet with floor-to-ceiling shelves that were full of stuff in a room that doesn't exist in my house IWL. I sat with my back to a wall and my knees to my chest, and just cried.

My uncle then came by the closet, and asked why I was eating alone. I don't remember much of this exchange, but I found out that most of the people had left. I guessed it was because they were going to spend Thanksgiving with their families. I remember going into the dining room and seeing significantly less people. Nick B. and Olivia had also left, I assumed.

I then was out looking for Nick in what I suppose was supposed to be his neighborhood (looked nothing like it does IWL). I was walking the street; the sky was grey, but it was daytime. I didn't see anyone out.

I then spotted Nick B. a bit in the distance. I went after him; I had to find out why he had even come to the reunion at MY house if he was going to just ignore me. I also wanted to find out why the hell he had Olivia with him...again, in MY house. I caught up with him and got his attention. I started to ask what was up, and he just looked at me and kept going. I followed him, badgering him with questions; I was determined to find out what the hell was going on. He would not answer me. He went up the driveway to a house, towards the garage, and I followed him, continuing to ask him what was wrong and why he was ignoring me. He stopped and started to work with something in the driveway, though I don't remember what it was. I kept asking him over and over. He would talk to me, but barely. He never provided me with an explanation for his actions.

Someone then came up to him and said something to him. They then left. That seemed to get him to talk to me some more for some reason. We then seemed to be on a sidewalk leading up to a front door on the other side of the street. I asked him why he had brought Olivia, and he said she told him if she brought him, she'd do some "sexual favors" for him. As he was saying this, he was looking down at a piece of notebook paper that had been folded up at some point. It made more sense now as to why he brought her. He talked a bit more to me, but I never really got a solid explanation as to what was going on.

11/21/2012

My brother is laying out by a pool in a storm. I have to go save him. A snake is about to bite him. I go to pick him up and the snake bits me on the throat. Son of a bitch. Wake

My cousin invites a bunch of Amish people to his thanksgiving dinner. I am super drunk and cussing at everyone. The Amish are not thrilled.
My two buddies Robby and Quentin get into a fight because somehow they are mortal enemies. I break it up.

Stopped a robbery at a gas station. Everyone was speaking a different language than me. For some reason I think I was supposed to be in Brazil.

LUCID
I dive into a lake and can't find the surface. I realize I am dreaming and start breathing. I breath underwater and swim down. There is some sort of under water fort. I sneak around through it but don't see any crazy creatures. I go back outside on the castle walls and see an army of mermaid like fish people assembled outside the gates to the castle. I use some kind of force push with my voice and the are all sent head over heels out of my line of sight.

Dream - Lucid

I was walking around with a life-like baby doll in my arms, but I was acting like it was a real baby. There were many other people around in the area I was in, which, I honestly have no idea where that was. I think it was in a big mall or department store or something. I remember having to change the baby doll's diaper, and being confused as to how to do so. I stood there with this baby doll who had a dirty diaper on, trying to think of who to ask about changing it.

I then realized that this was a baby doll, and that I was just practicing for when I had my real baby, which I was pregnant with. It was Jake's baby. I looked down and rubbed my belly. I was showing a bit, and, underneath my hand, I could feel the new little life moving. I felt the outline of her body. I got really excited about being pregnant! I exclaimed to someone that I could feel the baby. I then looked at myself in a mirror, and saw my baby bump. I felt really giddy!

My joy then immediately turned to worry; I started to fear losing the baby. I was afraid that any little thing that made me panic or get angry or something would cause me to miscarry.

I then started to tell people that I was pregnant and that I was excited for my little girl to come into the world. No one responded. I remember even telling a girl I'm acquainted with IWL, Maegan, but she just stared at me like everyone else. I also remember calculating my due date, which came out to be sometime in March, but that didn't seem right for some reason, as if it was supposed to be later than that.

~

I was at my house. It was Thanksgiving, and family kept coming over. I was standing in the living room when my ex, Chris, and his girlfriend came through the door. They sat down on the red chair that's in the corner of the room.

Um...what? Who invited them? I thought maybe my mom did. I know I sure didn't, but no one said anything.

I was then upstairs with my brother. We were in the bonus room, when Chris brought us a tray with a small silver bowl of what looked like chicken broth up to us. He said it was soup, and set it down. It only looked like broth to me, not soup; I was skeptical. My brother started to eat it. I then heard Chris from downstairs telling his girlfriend he had saved all the chicken and rice for them.

Uh, no, this isn't cool. I stormed downstairs and into the living room. There were other relatives in there sitting on the couch I believe, but I didn't care. I was kicking Chris and co. out. I stood firmly in front of the couple, who were both sitting in the same small chair, and said, sternly and forcefully,
"Get out of my house. What are you even doing here anyway? And was that our soup?"
He said no, it was their soup. I then said
"Well, that doesn't matter. You're in my house. And I'm kicking you out. Go!"
They stood up and left. Thank God. But I still couldn't figure out why they would want to spend Thanksgiving at my house. That had to be awkward for them, too.

I was then working, but it didn't look anything like work, though I was doing the same thing. I was working behind a very long cash register counter, about the length of the room we were in, with some other people. A middle-aged lady with very short blonde hair came up to me and this other girl with lots of jewelry and a check. I can't remember what she was trying to do, it was something complicated, and she was trying to explain to us what it was, but the girl I was with took her small, flimsy light brown wallet from the counter and opened it, saying her ID wasn't in there and we needed her ID for what she wanted to do. I took over and started to calmly ask some questions to see if we could sort everything out. The people next to me behind the counter then took over and started to ring her up on their register. Well, I guess that takes care of that.

I was then in the same building, but I was leaving work now. Chris was there for a little bit, and I told him why I got so mad.
"I heard you talking about the soup," I said.
He said "Ohhh..." as if it made sense now as to why I was so mad, you know, besides the fact that he brought his girlfriend into MY house on Thanksgiving.

Ahem. Anyway.

Chris was then gone, and I was standing with a short, stout middle-aged woman who was supposed to be Chris's girlfriend's mother. I felt really awkward when she started to talk to me like we were friends. I talked back to her, and was polite and nice, but I didn't exactly know what to say besides making small talk.

We were then waiting on an elevator. A small screen popped up in front of us of a cartoony, poorly-drawn picture of his girlfriend, with "Ji's" written above it in bubbly, black block letters. It was supposed to be Chris's Facebook profile picture, and "Ji's" was a business or something. The mom stared at it longingly. I felt even more awkward.

The elevator then opened, and we stepped inside. She started to tell me about how she was moving to Knoxville. I told her she better make sure she had all of her stuff together, and she said she knew, and just kept talking about it, and that she had to move around a lot. I thought that maybe she was in the military or something. She was talking to me as if I was any other person. I felt a little better about it then.

She then commented on the fact that the elevator wasn't moving, as if someone had hit the emergency stop button right before our floor. The door then opened to an outside area. The area was lit, but looking up at the sky, you could see many stars; it was nighttime.

I also remember seeing a flash of a white screen with black writing that quickly streamed by on it at some point. I remember it said something about love, "Love is not ____." (can't remember that last word) was one of the sentences in the stream of writing that whisked by my vision, or something like that. Whatever it was, it was saying something about what love wasn't.

Basic Task i - Hunt for wild turkey using 17th century weapons. COMPLETED! (Kind of. I hunted a tofu-turkey.)

Basic Task ii - Have your favorite celebrity chef cook Thanksgiving dinner for you ('dessert' optional) COMPLETED!

Advanced Task i - Journey to Purgatory and bring back a soul with you (All Soul's Day on November 2nd) Not Completed

Advanced Task ii - Spell the word November backwards and write it down (R-E-B-M-E-V-O-N) COMPLETED!




Method: V-WILD

I was standing on a small beach off the coast of the Caribbean Sea with a Cutlass in my hand. Before I went to bed, I learned that Pirate's used cutlasses in the 17th and 18th century. The water was a vivid, turquoise-blue and I could see several dolphins in the distance. Behind me was a vast area of woodlands. My goal (as a vegetarian) was the find a wild tofu-turkey, hunt it down, and then give it to a Julia Childs to cook for me.

I started walking through the woods trying to find one. It was completely silent, I couldn't hear anything. I had no idea what a wild tofu-turkey would look like so I was kind of walking around pointlessly. I stepped on something gooey. It was a huge glob of tofu. I went down to pick it up when something landed on my back. It was making high pitched-turkey noises. I tried to grab it off my back but I couldn't feel it! It's claws were hanging on tight! It suddenly let go and fell to the ground, staring at me. It looked exactly like a real turkey, but instead of eyes, they were tofu blocks. It wasn't even moving, just staring at me. It looked possessed. I got my cutlass and tried to hit it. Right before my blade made contact with the tofu-turkey it disappeared into thin air! I walked around trying to find it for another minute when I saw something like this in a tree:



The owl was holding the tofu-turkey in it's beak! It flew down to me and I killed the tofu-turkey. It flew away.

I changed the dream scene to the kitchen in my house with the tofu-turkey in my hand. I put it on the counter. I got out my phone and called Julia Childs. She told me she would be there any minute. The doorbell rang and there she was! She asked my what she was cooking for me today. I told her a tofu-turkey and she frowned. She told me she was only going to do it for me because I was her favorite. She had on this huge trench coat and pulled like ten ingredients out in one swipe. She looked up at me and said:

“The only time to eat diet food is while you're waiting for the steak to cook but your a vegetarian so I guess that won't work out. You disgust me."

I just smiled and said Okay. All of a sudden a huge plate of tofu-turkey appeared and I took a bite. It tasted like real turkey. She looked at my and started to laugh like a maniac. She told me she tricked me and I was eating real turkey. Then she disappeared. Julia Childs was a bitch.

I could not remember what the first advanced task was but I did remember to spell November backwards and write it down. It took me several tries but I did it pretty easily. I woke myself up to go see what the first advanced task was but I could fall back asleep! Anyway three tasks down, one to go!

1
It was Thanksgiving and my dad had invited a ton of people to our house, friends and lots of distant relatives I'd never met. A queue began to form outside the doorway as people were waiting to enter and it snaked around the house. Eventually so much time passed that people sat down at tables in the line and were bringing their food outside to eat. Later on in the night I sat down next to my dad and expressed how ridiculous I thought it was to have invited so many people and how irritated I was. There was a plastic jug of pumpkin egg nog on his table which advertised it contained MSG. I began complaining that it was probably because he bought it at some cheap corporate supermarket.

Later that night when most people had left I found my cousins. Dad and Uncle Tony were stacking leftovers in his van to take home. I went inside and saw Tori and Lexy cleaning up around the place which had become like a hotel lobby. Objects were appearing where Lexy was mopping and I knew she was altering physical reality but at first I thought the objects were just 2D pictures and it was like an optical illusion. I went up to her and touched a giant cucumber she'd just placed on the floor and I realized the objects were tangible. She and Tori were smiling wryly and they wouldn't tell me how they did it. Stasia came over and they all looked at each other knowingly and she said, "You want to know how?" So I followed her outside.

It was daytime again and Stasia and I were far away from the house. She ran off the road down through a field of clover toward the edge of a forest. Through some trees was a small house and an abandoned-looking ice cream truck with twigs and branches poking into the windows. Along the side of the truck mixed in among pictures of ice cream were odd drawings, including one of a clown. I started to walk toward the house but Stasia didn't follow, and when I looked back a man was inside the truck talking and laughing with her. He drove away but a copy of the truck stayed behind and Stasia told me to get behind the wheel. I told her I didn't know how to drive.

Suddenly we were in the house and I was playing some driving game on a small TV on the coffee table in front of us. The house too seemed abandoned in that it was missing doors and glass from the windows, but it didn't seem unoccupied. There was graffiti on the wall and colorful toyish objects all over the place. Some of the objects were suspended in space or seemed plastic and virtual. I suddenly realized, comparing the graphics in the video game to the objects around me, that the house was like a physical collection of virtual data.

I started asking my cousin all kinds of questions and she spoke about "polypolyvore" or "polyvore-d." It was a plant or a drug you could eat to immerse yourself fully into the reality of the house. I knew I was only seeing fractions of everything that was there. I was incredibly excited and in awe of this discovery. I felt my whole life had changed. Stasia then said something about getting stoned at a stag party there once and I felt frustrated that she didn't appreciate everything the drug or the house had to offer.

Odd Beginning
It all started with me talking with friends and watching the news on TV. We then noticed a news story of people from the last thanksgiving celebrating a thanksgiving party at my house. These people looked like people from my old High School, Chevy Chase, and Bill O'Reily were in the group too for some odd reason. I asked my friends where were we on that day? They said we were at a church gathering and we were all fasting (ON THANKSGIVING?!?!?!). I started to recall that party's details we had and it looked like my Uncle Paul's old ranch, but a huge house on the field and it was home to a scientist and I saw a picture of Chevy Chase on the walls. The dream then changed to the party.

Thanksgiving at Chevy Chase's house
We were outside the mansion and began to notice some very strange things. For one, he had fences all around his house and behind the fences were dinosaurs (herbivors). They walked right by us and I remember the sudden urge to explore. We ran into the garage and found normal garage stuff but with an inventors touch to every piece of equipment. I then decided to go inside and see where everyone else is.

I was walking down the hallway and saw many people from my church socializing. I remember seeing many creepy things out of the corner of my eye that were little creatures that would appear and disappear but I could never get a good look at them. I then kept going down the hallway and saw my mom sitting on a bench next to my Grammy, Aunt Jill, and my 6 year old cousin Landon. It was the darker part of the hallway and I was very worried for our safety. I walked over and sat down next to my mom and said we needed to leave this house it is dangerous and I started to describe the little creatures I kept seeing. She said to stop like I was being disrespectful or lying to her and at that moment I saw a green little creature slowly come around the corner and it was bouncing toward me. If you have ever played Super Smash Bros Brawl, it looked like one of the enemies with big lips that hide in the ground and jump out and stick to you. It freaked me out and I started yelling, "There! There it is! It's right there! Help it is coming for me!" Nobody saw anything and started looking at me like I was insane. At that moment it jumped up onto my hand and stuck its lips on my palm and sank into my wrist. I felt no pain or anything when this happened and was confused if it was a hallucination or real. My mom said that it was time to go now, and I asked why and she said because i was acting crazy in front of my little cousin and there is no telling what he picked up from that.

We all started to leave and heard the sound of bees. I went into a hallway and saw giant bees behind glass walls in the hallways. Everyone else saw the bees too and began to panic. I remember after this giant bees being in the hallways and we went into the hive to destroy them (we being me and my friends who reunited with me again). We went in and saw the queen and her many mad bees with her along with waterfalls of honey. We found a control pad and hit the big red button in the middle and it made all the honey flow faster and rooms started getting sealed off by giant iron doors. Now me, my Aunt Jill, and my 3 cousins Jake, Austin and Landon ran out of the hallway and out the front door as a wave of honey was pouring down the hallway. We were launched out of the house and the doors shut behind us and there was honey everywhere. We then saw the honey level rising and knew we had to find a way out of here. My Aunt Jill then said she found a way and ran to a little flying ship about the size of an 8 person van that looked like the Banshee from Halo Reach. We all got in and started to take flight as the mansion exploded with honey behind us.

Futuristic City
We all had a lot of conversations about how we were heroes for saving the world from giant bees and how we were lucky to be alive until we came over a mountain and saw a huge city. A city of towering buildings with neon and holographic signs on them and flying cars similar to ours flying around. It looked like a futuristic city. At this moment I was admiring the scenery and checking every detail until I realized that the view was not all that clear and was a little blurry. I thought this must be a dream and told my Aunt Jill to land and pointed to a spot. We flew over the the spot and landed and I immediately got out and decided to explore.

The floor of the city looked like a carnival and there were games and basketball hoops everywhere along with nothing but little kids and occasional parents. I set off by myself and explored the child's fantasy I was in and began LFS. I couldn't find anyone but kids. Every time I recognized someone, I would see them up close and they were just another kid. I then saw my cousin Ben and the two girls that always play basketball with us at church basketball tournaments and went to them. The closer I got, the more they wanted to go the other way so I just moved on because I didn't want to wake up. I then found a few girls giving me seductive looks and decided to go and talk to them (why not? everyone else is ignoring me). I asked the first one about LFS and she ignored me and walked up to my cousin Ben who was suddenly behind me. The other girl came to me and said in my ear, "I'll give you a good time sweetie." I then noticed the whole group walking up this odd staircase of bars like at a playground and everyone had to grab them overhead with their hands and climb to the next level. No one explained why but I went on with it and soon everything started to fade to my last houses living room.

I was now in my old house's game room and my dad had walked in and woken me up while changing the thermostat. I then wanted to fall back asleep in hopes of returning to that awesome city dream I was having and started going back to sleep (this is all still a dream I was dreaming that I had just had a dream).

I had now returned to the dream on the sidewalk by some river and was immediately aware that I was dreaming again which obviously would work considering that I never woke up in the first place. I went to the water and said boat and raised my arm up and a racing boat appeared in front of me. I jumped in and took off down the river which turned into a race track like Hydro Thunder suddenly. I raced up a jump and did a few flips up a steep incline and then got to a tower at the top of the race track and there were south park characters their arguing about a crane machine. I walked over and started listening to their argument and then woke up.

(LFS is a thing from my life that I don't feel like explaining)