Air raid sirens Something is happening that is making the air raid sirens around my area ring. Maybe it's weather related. A few days ago, there was a siren test, so that's where that came from. Also forgot my mantra.
Dream I'm a student studying Archaeology.. I'm in a cave area that's been excavated, there's a sort of ledge which I'm sitting on to look at stone engravings. The cave is apparently on a beach where an old civilization may have once existed. The engraved stone looks like sandstone. I notice how the inscriptions depict the missing civilization of people that apparently uprooted their lives to move to a special location, except that's not what the official record is. Apparently someone else interpreted it as these people moving to spread themselves throughout the world, but I believed differently. My professor walks in, I mention my thoughts and say that it makes no sense for them to 'spread throughout the world', it was a hypothesis at best and was mentioned (without proof) that these people were the most advanced species at the time, being the first to discover fire and develop basic crafts --- they were trying to say that by spreading their genes they allowed other humans to evolve their intelligence and also discover fire. Eventually the dream changes, I'm walking with a couple guys to the alleged location that the missing people moved to. It seems like there's a special hot spot of energy... Apparently there's apparently some event that occurs every 10'000 years that will be happening soon (and marks the time the mysterious race of people disappeared). There's some dream backstory about how they stopped demons from invading by fighting them off at this energy hot spot. It's dark outside as we walk... At some point, possibly prior to heading to the energy hot spot there was an event where there was an old lady in a car. I think I was in the back seat and we could see heaps of birds suddenly migrating in the same direction. Then this old crazy lady called 'Grey Cash' by the village went hurtling by, as if blown away by the wind. This apparently meant that she could sense the same thing driving the birds, a catastrophe. Back to the dark night where we were walking.. We come upon a house in a forest, it resembles my parents place. I think we decide to go inside. Before going inside I spot a girl walking around, about my age. She has a spotlight and seems to be looking for something. It's not safe out here, the screeching sounds are getting louder and I have a feeling something bad will happen if she stays outside. I talk to her and she says she has been looking for the voices.... They come from no where, she says. I take her back to the beach so she's safe before I head back to the house in the forest. On the way there's a girl I meet who's called 'The Rat'. She isn't ugly or anything (quite the opposite), she's called that because of her skills in infiltration and hacking. She wears a hooded tight jumpsuit and there's something 'futuristic' about her. She takes me somewhere and the place is somehow not of this world... This part of the dream was a bit difficult to recall and even more difficult to describe. I'm in the house with the other 2 guys, it's dark outside and the room resembles my moms old kitchen before we renovated it. 'Grey Cash' is also there, she is apparently the mom of one of the guys I'm with. Grey Cash apparently needs to go outside and get something from the beach. Wait, what? That's like 30 minutes from here. She leaves though before I can rationalize anything. It's so dark and menacing outside though. I tell the other guys it's not safe outside, they agree. I say "I'll go out and get her. Well.... Not alone of course. That would be dumb" (knowing full well that there's only 3 of us and that the person on their own in a horror movie is usually the one to die). I'm basically trying to edge a second person into thinking that the logical thing to do is join me . I leave the room briefly to enter the lounge (can't recall why) and then return to the kitchen. Grey Cash is back and smiling as if she'd never left. What the? That's not right... My immediate thought is that something is wrong (like she's a ghost or something) and that she shouldn't be able to do that in a dream. In a dream? Uhh... Then I think "oh right this is a dream. Duh." I do a reality check and succeed, I'm still in the kitchen with the other people around me. I immediately try to do the water ball challenge that me and Emnition are doing. Heading over to the sink I cup my hands, planning to manipulate the already-present water droplets in the sink to coalesce into a ball. It works on the 3rd attempt. The ball of water floats between the space of my hands bobbing up and down. Grey Cash was spooking me out in the background as she still had the "Oooo I'm a ghost" dream plot going, threatening to make a nightmare out of a good dream. I turn to her and said 'Fuck off' casually, then flick my fingers at her and she went 'poof', disappearing instantly. Hot damn I'm good. I wake up, pretty happy I did the challenge
Trying to form new habits. First start developing an habit on meditation: zazen and theravada meditation. After this is established i will try to keep mindfulness for the rest of the day (everyday), which will be supported by ADA and self-awareness. I will take this as seriously as i can. I dreamt many events last night, so i will post the fragments here: My mother throws flour on me. We weren't at home, but at a place we were staying... It was uncertain for how long, and the place wasn't ours.I go to the bathrooms to take a shower. It was a big room (I think it was located where the primary bathrooms of my college were). There were toilet boxes in the wall in front of the door. To the left side of the door there were like 4 sinks. Some steps more and there was like an empty space in the middle where all the showers were together (like 6) [For description: it was like the gas rooms of WWII where german prisioners walked in for a "collective shower", but this was a shower for real...]. There was nobody in the showers so i decided i would take one myself, but i notice that it was reserved by Obama. After realizing this i see him, fully dressed. I realize that he was on Argentina, and on this school, but i wasn't surprised or anything. I start seeing that more people come in the bathroom, some going to the toilets, some going to the sinks, so i decide that i do not need a shower anymore and i go outside.Outside the bathroom there was an event going on, like a festival. The lights shut down and everything is dark. I stay for a while without seeing until some lights come again. I see some kids climbing in some desks, away of this event, so i go to help them. A girl was having trouble to come down, so i hold the desk and the chair and i tell her to climb on me. She nervously did and was safe.After that i dreamt something else that is not connected to the previous dreams. I was in a jail, not inside a cell, but where police officers should be. Well, there was no police apparently, many dangerous guys on cells and one drunk bald guy coming in and out of the cells. He had a beer glass and every time it ran out of beer he went in the cells to refill it. He asked me if i wanted to drink, of course i said no (it was home made alcohol..., and who knows what it had inside, besides i didn't want to drink any alcohol at all). After the third, fourth drink he started puring the drink in my head, since he was standing and i was lying on the floor. I wanted to do something about it, but at the same time i thought that he could easily open the cells and all the others would come out and that wouldn't be good (although there was an axe in the floor, beside the drunk man. He looked like Flea of RHCP). However i think i questioned why i couldn't get out of that place (i was waiting for the guy in charge there, so when he leaves i would go with him, but i questioned why i had to do that).Then i dream about the future and my family. Apparently the economic measures of this country aren't doing any good to the economics of the members of my family, so each time they are poorer. I dreamt something that supposedly happens about 6 months or a year from now. My aunt from my mother has no electricity on her house anymore, she can't pay the bills anymore and apparently she will loose her house. She barely has anything to eat because there's no work. However we were reunited with the rest of my mom's family, and we were enjoying the moment. My grandfather gave me some pens (blue and green), we were standing on a roof and the place was wide. We could have jumped through roofs (i think there was a big tree with vines, that's why the place felt wide).Then i find myself experimenting in a swamp. I had like 2 repelents on water, which repeled some monsters. Those monsters were like dolphins with heads of human and teeth of sharks. If those things caught you, you definitely were dead. But i was on water, proximate to 2 of them, and they couldn't touch me, because of this "net" that repelled them. A group came by with my father in it and i think i showed this to them. First i showed the monsters, and they showed how dangerous they were, and then i showed this device. After that we caught one of these monsters and we chop its head off (it was cruel but that's the decision we took as a group (very stupid to take decisions as groups)). Anyhow she was still alive and with those fierce teeth. Somehow the repellent blanket gets moved, my father didn't notice this and he stomps right on her mouth. Of course the blonde monster head ate his foot. He was asking me to come back, like coming back in time, to the part we were in the swamp. I checked if i could do this and i asked a partner there if he could, but both couldn't. There were 2 options. Going back in time (i was trying CTRL + Z, but i didn't have the keys... i should get away from PC for a while), or deal with this, accept it and start moving on. (This things happens, and even though one doesn't like it, it is of no use to regret or lament, so i try not to from the very beginning).Then i was left with the head alone for a while, while the group did other things. Of course i was watching it, and i noticed that it was coming to me (like rolling down). So i grabbed it by the hair and i throwed it up where it belonged again. It didn't stay, it came down again to me, so i grabbed it again and throwed it again. It did the same, but at this time i was already angry. Angry and cruel apparently, because i grabbed the head and started hitting it in the wall. After i was done i throwed it where it belonged and it stayed there, but i think the monster was dead by now... Review: I liked the part where i just met Obama and didn't care at all, and walked outside that place which was of no use to me anymore. I liked the part where i helped the little girl. I would have liked to question myself about the situation a little more, to avoid uncomfortable situations. Also i would like to develop more the skill of observation. I didn't like the group decisions. Probably it was because my father was there, but since im old enough now i have to take leadership on myself. I will start to be more responsible for myself. I didn't like the cruelty of chopping of the head of that swamp monster. It doens't matter if it is evil or not, i don't have any right for doing that, and if i do it is a false right since kamma doesn't work that way. I recognize i was cruel, so if i acted cruel something related to that will come up as result. I didn't like the moment of perplexity where i saw my father lost his foot. Either i accept it or i do something about it, but at that moment i was stiff. I didnt like the anger and cruelty that i took on that head. I acted based on that qualities of the mind, and i felt like no control. I should have felt with control, and i had discernment i probably could have stopped, but i didn't. I hope to diminish anger, erradicate cruelty, be mindful even in moments i forget, and develop discernment (with observance and questioning). Other: I was navigating through internet, looking for an avatar image. I saw an image on a geiser i had on site before and i decided to change it. I thought about looking for something related to fire, because of Zodiac (although i don't believe on it). However a couple days before (30th July) we talked about how "Ofiuco" changed the signs. So I recalled i was actually Piscis (water) instead of Aries (fire). And i realized that although i like fire i probably feel more at ease with water. So i looked for Piscis and in the images i saw, i saw sirens (the monsters of the swamp were actually sirens, but there were male as well and neither gender were beautiful). After seeing this i decided to write down the dreams of last night.
Me and my grandma enter this amusement park, the evening sky is unnatural, above it is like nighttime, but on the ground it all looks like daylight lighting. We can see the ferris wheel, and we barely got into the place when we stopped at this shopping area with lots of booths. Colorful ones, we go to this navy blue one and they are selling these electronic things that look like a nose and you put it on your nose and you blow air through your nose into it and each one makes a different sound. The one I was messing with was making siren sounds haha. My grandma had one that made synth sounds, and then a crowd of kids ran up and grabbed all the other ones before we could see what sound they made, so me and my grandma just bought the last two that were already in our hands and we wore them and breathed through them and we laughed the whole time.
I swear I could remember four dreams when I woke up this morning. Now I can only remember three. Oh well. In the first dream, I was in Arizona. I was excited because I'd never been to Arizona before, and I was surprised that the climate was similar to how it was during the summer back home (New York). Well, it was in the area we were (yes, there were other people with me, but I can't remember who they were now). From where I was standing, there was a desert clearly visible just up ahead. There wasn't even any sort of smooth transition; it was just an area with grass and trees, then, suddenly, desert. We went into the desert, but it was really hot and hard to go on, so we turned back. In the next dream, my friend Lizz and I were in some sort of building somewhere. I'm not sure what it was. It was, like, an airport or something. I'm not really sure. I just know it had a road going through it (and, yes, a couple cars did go by), which doesn't make sense. Anyway, we saw some people eating sushi, so we decided to go find where in the building we could get some. Then, we heard sirens from fire trucks outside, so we ran outside. We saw my mom's car pulling up into the parking lot, so we decided to go. Then, we heard someone announce that they had the sirens going off to tell people to be quiet because there was too much noise inside, apparently. In my third dream, my cat attacked my legs. I was bleeding a fair amount, but it didn't hurt, so I didn't really care. For some reason, all that mattered to me at the time was making sure I didn't get bloodstains on my pants.
small fragments: Me and another person are looking for a place to park. We are thinking about parking inside a giant manhole that is next to some parking spaces, but realize they are filled with trash. I hear cop sirens and begin to panic, so we park in a regular spot. __________ We just got done watching a movie at the movie theater, and someone tells me we just watched the "Dark Knight". As everyone exits the theater, are start looking for a bottle of Old Spice Body Wash that I thought I brought into the theater with me.
It starts off on an island beach resort where many people are enjoying the fine weather and warm water. I am relaxing on a beach towel not far from the water and I can see a family of four in front of me. There is the father and son, who are caucasian, and the mother and daughter, who are oriental. The father is playing with the children at the water's edge and the mother is watching from their beach towel not far away. Seaweed started drifting to shore in vast amounts and many people start rushing out of the water. Some of the seaweed has jellyfish hidden inside and they are stinging whoever happens to touch them. The father ignores the seaweed and continues to allow his son to play while the daughter responds to the mother's call to get out of the water. Eventually, the frustrated mother gets up and rushes over to her son and pulls him to shore, where she cradles him in her lap and fawns over him for a bit. The father and mother begin to argue. For some reasons the father has not seen the jellyfish and has not acknowledged all the people rushing out of the water. He is angry because he thinks that the children should be allowed to continue to play in the water. Just then there is a voice over a loudspeaker telling everone in the army to gather in a nearby parking lot. Just after that sirens start going off all over the resort. Apparently I am a soldier, even though I am on vacation, I am being enlisted to fight. At the parking lot all of the soldiers who have gathered are told that we are under attack - but the sky is clear and there are no signs of "enemy" activity anywhere, (unless you count the mass amounts of seaweed and jellyfish washing upon the shoreline). The soldiers are given weapons and ammunition, split into groups, and most are sent into the forests to "hunt down the enemy." My group consists of 16 men and I (the only woman) and there is a wide variety of nationalities represented. Our orders are to secure the area as the civilians are escorted to safety. Chaos ensues when smoke bombs and gunfire errupt from an unseen source. There are people running everywhere and some of the commanders from the soldier's units are either killed or run away. Some of the members from my group (including the commander) get seperated from us in the smokey chaos. The rest of us commandeer a school bus and directs civilians to get on. It takes a few trips but we seem to get all of the civilians in the area to a nearby airport where an airbus is waiting to take them to saftey. Before the last airbus leaves I hear something odd and run off on my own into a nearby forest. There is a helicopter trying to take off from an akward angle on a hill and I cannot figure out it managed to land without hitting any of the surrounding trees. There are two men in the cockpit and they look like they start to panic when they see me. The copter begins to lift into the air and I duck because I am afraid of being hit by the blades as the craft straightens out. When it is off the ground and starts to ascend gunfire errutps from a nearby bush and damages the underside of the helicopter, but does not stop it. When the copter is gone, a muscular black man steps out from behind the bush. It is the commander of my unit and he asks me to come along with him. I agree and report that all of the civilians have been evacuated and the vacation resort has been secured. He gives me a strange look but says nothing. We walk down the hill, through some thick bushes and straight into what looks like a zen garden. The men from my unit are all sitting on benches that encircle the rock garden and seem happy to see me. The commander asks me if I remember everyones name and to point them out if I do so. I think it is a weird request but I comply and am able to name every single member of my group except one, a black man with long dreadlocks. The man with the dreadlocks laughs at me and says in a thick jamacian accent: "My name would be "Johney Oh" in english and it rhymes with cloud". I still cannot remember his name and the whole unit finds it very funny. I am told that when I dissapeared into the forest that I had dissapeared for several months. The "enemy" could still not be found and everyone wanted to know where I had been. I tried to tell them that almost no time elapsed between running from the airport to coming across the helicopter in the forest, but no one believes me. The is a bit more with my unit on an aircraft but I cannot rememeber most of it. The dream ends soon after anyways.
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