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03.03.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Sex with Apartment Neighbor (Almost) (WILD)
I'm getting somewhat better at this WILDing thing, it used to be a pain for me, but I think I'm getting used to this passive awareness thing that I've been failing in most, if not all my dream journal entries before the last WILD/DEILD entry I had from this one.

Optimal time seems to be 20 minutes for WBTBs for me, but I just have to keep practicing, because this thing is starting to get easy for me, I just need to gather the mentality and think about Alyzarin as my motivation to balance between staying conscious and intentionally "passing out" for the WILD.

As I'm experiencing SP, I was listening to some song that sounded like the Sad Theme Song on Naruto, and I wanted to listen to it again because I felt that it would trigger the SP.

I didn't know I was in the dream state as yet, but I am moving. I think I go back to bed to try and get into SP.
Then I already know I'm dreaming as I'm being pulled into the dream state when I did a nose plug DC and could breathe through my nose just barely.

It was a little difficult at first, and the dream was mostly me trying to open my eyes gradually out of fear that I might open my waking life eyes.

The dream starts fading on me and I'm back to waking up again, and then I do another nose plug RC to make sure I'm dreaming, I'm walking further within my apartment complex, until I decided to stop walking when I'm near the door to leave the apartment.

I lie down, because I feel like I'm going to fade away in the dream, did another nose plug RC. I rub my hands for a while and screamed "Clarity!" and "More Awareness!" I think I end up on my bed again, and I ask myself if I'm dreaming. I roll my body until I land on the floor, (and the fact that my laptop wasn't near me was funny too). I do another nose plug RC. (I know I did this somewhere in the dream, but I had some many times I did an RC that I couldn't remember exactly when).

I think I said to myself that I want to meet my Dream Guide, but as I open the door, I find myself outside of my apartment complex.

Then one thought in my mind without even saying much was to fuck the girl two doors away from me at my apartment complex. As I get closer to the door, I see it open, and I quickly hide behind the ledge so she wouldn't see me.

I knew I was dreaming, but I don't know why I would hide from her if she is nice to me in waking life anyway.

Apparently, she's on the phone and she's has her back turned to the left side, and I'm on the right side hiding behind the ledge near the whole apartment complex.

So I make a quick dash to go inside her house, and I walk slowly in it. It ground has red carpet flooring, completely different from my really light brownish carpet flooring.

She had a huge bed in near the entrance, and I thought the apartment would be a lot bigger, but I didn't focus on it for too long. She had a lamp to the side of her bed, which gave off a small yellow light.



She finally comes in the apartment, and looks at me, and she is almost done with her cellphone chat with whoever. I look at her, just feeling the anticipation of having sex with her. She looks at me, but she doesn't panic, she says tells whoever she's speaking to on the phone that she'll talk to them later.

She hangs up, and I'm trying my best to contain my emotions of just going crazy towards this woman and screwing her like mad. She asks me who am I with a calm tone.

I told her it's nice to meet you, and I believe I called her "Amy"??? or something along those lines.

I get her closer to me, getting closer to touching her ass, and slowly shifting both of us on to some kind couch. But when this happens the dream starts to fade.

But the look on her face was priceless, she just stood there in shock, but she just let me do this to her, and it felt so good to do it even though the dream faded away.



To be honest, I think I met her on the dream plane. I wonder how she'll react to me now in waking life.

Damn it DAMN IT DAMN IT! I could've had sex with my female apartment neighbor two doors to the left of me!


Dream 2: Running and Chasing

I honestly don't know what the hell is going on in this dream. I believe I'm inside of a car with someone, and apparently there's this person who has some vehicle that can go very fast to make some type of weapon that is usually weak much more efficient and deadly if enough force was applied to it.

I believe there were objects that looked like mini-C4s on the vehicle I'm in with someone. I couldn't make out their face, but I'm assuming it's a female (lol Alyzarin?!?!?...but it was so hazy for me to remember, but then again, she had a dream where I was hazy as well when I was lucid, and I can't remember who was in the car with me) .



The environment was like a neighborhood that was uphill most of the time, The road looked pretty new because the black tar didn't have the faded gray color. The area had a decent amount of huge trees with green leaves that were vibrant.

I think me or someone was trying to get the C4 looking devices out of the roof, window, and hood of the vehicle. Then I focus my attention to someone far away, and it looks like some girl with the detonator for the C4s, at least that's what I thought it looked like.

She was smiling at me like she's crazy or something, and I decided to tell the person who was near me that we needed to get the hell away from the car.

As I'm running to find the person with the detonator, I see a route that looks like a shortcut, or at least a route that the person with the detonator wouldn't try to find us at, so that we could surprise her.

I tell the person that I can't remember to come over here instead, they weren't listening, and I decided to go down this shortcut that ended up me going downstairs. This was weird because we were at an uphill neighborhood, and to have these stairs was a bit random.



But I go down this path, and suddenly it's me being inside a house, and I see some person near the bottom of the stairs.

I stop, thinking it might be the girl with the Detonator. At first I see a girl who looks blonde, but it shifts to a girl who looks a lot like a girl I know in real life. Let's call her "Sarah B." She's just standing there, and for some odd reason, I'm afraid of her.

(She's a really a positive person in waking life, I never realized why she was nice to me while she was silly towards her friends. She has black hair, but this is just so I know which Sarah to distinguish from the other Sarahs I met in waking life).

Before I started to accept the fact that this female was Sarah, it looked like it was a blonde female, and she looked pretty pissed from the view I'm looking down the stairs.

Her face was face down, and I could just feel she was pissed over something, but other than that, I see Sarah now.

To retaliate at her finding where I am, I throw a water bottle in a plastic bag I think. I'm pretty accurate at throwing it right at her breasts.



Sarah makes that "kah" sound in response as she's grabbing the object I threw at her, and she screams my name, "Brandon!!!!??!?"

I don't know what I did next, and I believe the dream shifts to where I'm meeting all sorts of females, some familar and some random, but it was too sporadic for me to even care about what happened after that.

Dream 3: Someone makes New RR&CC Thread

I had a dream that someone on the forums was complaining that the Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain Thread was getting slightly out of hand, so they decided to make a thread that basically served the same purpose of RR&CC.

The new thread gets locked.

DJ Log: March 3, 2012 – 6:00AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am traveling to CA with a friend of mine, who will be known as "M" in this entry. We land at the airport and grab a rental car. Once we drive into town, I pull into a familiar shopping center and point out a couple of places which we should visit. There are several restaurants and shops all connected together.

We park, then walk into a place called Game Depot. It's a huge arcade connected to a mall. We walk through the arcade and into a dollar store. I pick up a small box fan and the case falls apart in my hands. I comment, “Cheap fucking junk...”, and then put it down. I pick up another fan and it is built a little better. I walk down the row and pick up a couple of other things, then head over to the cashier. While checking out, I ask my friend if we should go check into our hotel before cruising around the rest of the town. He says, “Yes.” I say, “Let's go stay at the Hawthorn Suites. I can still get the government rate there.”

We walk around the back of the building and see that there is a lower level. I open the door and walk in to find that the area seems to be deserted. As I walk in a bit further, there are tables full of random stuff laying around. Walking in a bit further, we find ourselves in the middle of a flea market. There is a really cute guy standing at a table with a sewing machine who gives me the eye when I walk around the corner.

As I walk by, he asks if I would like him to fix my shirt. He points to where my collar is separating from my t-shirt. I say, “Yes” and take off my shirt. He quickly stitches it back together and hand my shirt back while giving me a really cute grin. I give him a big hug and he holds me tightly. I can feel his rock hard cock throbbing against my body. I quickly notice that I am also rock hard, so I pull in a little closer and rub my cock against his. He tightens his grip and I feel his cock get even bigger and harder. After a moment, we pull away a bit. He is holding my shoulders and I have my hands around his waist. We stare into each other's eyes for a while. We're so close that our noses are nearly touching. I go in for a kiss and suddenly wake up.

Last Nights Dreams

Dream 1

Thai is just a fragment, I am in my Dad's car and we are going somewhere but I'm not sure where

Dream 2

I am going to a club and I am in a room with lots of other women and we are all trying on all the clothes. Lots of the bigger women are wearing short, tight tops. I have a stupid long one on. I decide I want a short, tight sexy top on so I go and try all the tops on aswell and I end up wearing a short, tight green sparkly one and I really like it, this top showes off my cleveage off well and I love it lol.

Dream 3

I am at the Doctors and I am given one prescription and I say "no, I need more than this, where's my Tramadol etc!!!!!" he says "ok ill check" I'm now standing looking at my prescription and thinking "actually I don't even remember going in to see the doctor" I think "I have to get my other prescription" but I don't and I just then go along with the dream ((shame I didn't realise doh!!!)) some Jamaican man now begins to talk to me and tells me how big he is down below lol I say "Pfffftttt!!" then one of them held me and they tried to rape me and I suddenly woke up ((thank god))

Dream 4

I remember something to do with a ring and leaves, also remember a Woman and someone wanting sex with me but I didn't want to.

2/10/2012
There are some little kids using a slide at a playground. The unpopular ones get teased.

I finally see a doctor. He says I have lung cancer advanced 10 months. That's just lovely.

I'm at my grandparents' house (they're different people than my real grandparents, but I won't realize that until I wake up). I have a boyfriend. I'm pretty sure it's a guy, anyway, because the grandparents want us staying in separate rooms (I often don't remember the gender of DC's). My boyfriend finds out that I am a virgin and insists I must have sex because it is amazing. I'm not too sure about this, but I go along for now. We cannot, of course, risk being caught by the grandparents. We are going to head to a place where we can experiment without being caught. I'm not at all sure about this intercourse thing because of the risks (pregnancy, etc.). I guess we could just, er, play around?

We're outside, walking toward the other building. It is up a steep, curving dirt slope. Like spiral staircase curving. There are a lot of trees around, mostly pines. We walk for some time. There may have been other people at some point. I'm really quite uncomfortable with what we're going to do. The other building had only a few rooms, and I don't think the lock on the bedroom door works. I've been telling my boyfriend for a while now that I want to turn back. I'm afraid of being caught. I am hurt, somehow, emotionally or physically. I don't quite remember. I don't think it was intentional. We turn back. There is some sort of ride or fall.

I woke up an hour earlier than usual, so I decide to try to sleep some more after writing down my dreams so far. I have a vague idea that I could try a WILD if I am actually tired enough to fall back asleep, but I don't really make much effort.

Two guys are coming out of the woods. There is a lot of snow. They're stuck above some railing, at the edge of a relatively short dropoff above a road. One asks for help getting down. Someone below helps him down, but too far. He does a faceplant on the road below and is run over before he can get up. The second guy is terrified and does not want 'help'.

I'm in a strange bathroom. It's small and awkward and dirty. I give up trying to use it. I vaguely remember something about my mom, like she was in the same building.

I am a magic-using shape-shifter named Simon (usually I just look human so as not to scare people though). We're fighting against some bad, evil stuff, including some black dragons. I have an older-mentor friend who is a shape-shifter like me. Everyone else (except maybe that one kid) is human though. Later, the humans trap and bind me, preventing me from using my special powers. I am miserable and resentful, being kept prisoner. And I think that mentor-guy may have betrayed me somehow.

I took notes about my dreams, so I'm not worried about writing down the whole thing right away, as I'm lying in bed after waking. Then I look over at my journal, and it's blank. I really need to learn to RC every time I write in my journal...

I'm lying on my front and wake up in SP, I think to myself "I'm having sex" , it's still dark but I can feel the sensation of having sex, my dream comes and I can now see. I'm standing up next to my bed facing the window, someone is behind me and having sex with me and I have to say as usual it feels really, really good lol . I look at my bed and think "I hope this is a dream or my hubby will see this" but I know it's a dream. I turn round to see who is having sex with me and it's a woman I think "omg.....what the fuck!!!" I really can't believe what I'm looking at, she has got scraggly black long hair and crooked teeth and is taller than me, she is also wearing bright red lipstick or her lips are naturally blood red in colour.
I walk downstairs and she follows me, she is still boning me from behind lmao I now manage to shrug her off and I say "I'm going to fly now" and she says quite sharply "no, your coming with me!" I say "no I'm not!!". I look down at myself and have no trousers on and think "I'd better put some trousers on first" lol I look at a pair on the side but they are kids jeans so I find another pair and put them on. I get my coat while the weird woman gets hers and I put it on, I now fly up into the sky. Things now go fuzzy so I stop in mid-air for a minute and say "I'm dreaming" I stabilise myself and everything comes clear again, I have a good fly about and then I wake up in SP again.
I stay still and feel the vibrations going through me and it again takes me into a lucid dream. I'm saying to myself "I'm dreaming" and my dream starts to appear around me. I'm in a doctors surgery on an operating table ((omfg)) the Doc is checking me and says something is wrong from when I had my hysterectomy ((yeah having it atall was wrong!!!)) then the Nurse says it's something to do with my heart! I think to myself "I don't want this dream!!!" so I quickly think to myself "I'm flying" and I am now flying in the sky.
I fly to this place where my lucid dream friends are. I see some small fluffy animals on the floor they are very cute, they are mixed between a mouse and a kitten, I think "awwwww..I wish we had these in real life" I pick one up and stroke it and it then bites my chin and it bloody hurt enall lol. There are lots of flowers about and there is a desk where a couple of my dream friends work, there are 2 of them behind it. I touch the flowers and they move like butterflies, my friend shows me how to do this, I get the feeling that I've been here before.
A friend now flies me to where he goes, he has made himself a dream house, it's purple in colour and very tall, it has like triangular shapes coming out of it which are about 4 or 5 inches in length. It's see through and has the pipes that hamsters go through attached to it but obviously bigger for humans lol. I go inside but then want to go back out, he says "you can't" I say "it's my dream so I can" I fly so far up and then get stuck, I say "it's my dream" and then I'm able to go further up. I reach the top and realise I'm trapped inside. I now again wake up in SP and think "what can I do now"
I remember my list on DV and its my signature and I get excited and say "see my nan and grandad Futrill" I hear my Nans voice say "it's been so long" but it's still all black so I say again "see my nan and grandad Futrill" unfortunately I say this out loud and wake myself up from SP grrrrrr!!! I now get SP again and I'm upstairs in my room putting washing on my radiator ((I'm not lucid this time)) I hear my eldest and her Dad arguing L says "I'm not stupid your stupid, can't you see what your doing" I shit myself and think "ohhh god...the shits gonna hit the fan now!!!" L now storms upstairs and goes into her room, I go in after her and she's in bed, I shake her and say "L,L are you ok" she doesn't answer, I then wake up properly and write this.

I remember the transition...falling through the bed....but I don't remember how the dream started out. I saw AR there, and I think I told her about being lucid. Also, we were stealing money from a building with people in lab coats on. She followed me around a lot in this dream, and I was kind of trying to lose her because I really wanted some plan B action. Not saying that she's not doable, but I guess I have a lot of respect for her. Anyways, ended up attempting to have sex on a 10 foot tall wooden fence....did not work out that well.

I was in the village but in fact it looked like some some camp. Suddenly I saw a big tank truck going on the road. And the truck tilts over. I rushed to the truck jump when cabin, open the door of the truck and look inside. There are two people in a white cosmic like suit. It I reach inside and pull one out as the truck is a on fire. I managed to save just one. I carry the person in my arms running away from the truck. Take the person's helmet off and I throw it away. It's a girl. She was blondish straight hair,he is quite pretty. She wraps her arms around me, and holds me tight. Then I take her somewhere in that village. It seems like there are people from my work and from uni as well. But I cannot see anyone... neither anyone who would run the whole resort. I am a little bit confused. It just seems like some big abandoned camp. I walk around a bit. There are many cottages and different places. Some areas look overly posh others just opposite. For example, there are two huge aquariums that run along a foot path. Its long and quite narrow. I am amazed by them. I also wonder who selected the fish for the aquarium as there are kinds that should not be together. Or as an opposite, there are plenty of toilets around, as a little houses. I look into one of them and there is a urinal and that turkish kind of toilet. Its all filthy and dirty.

I get back to the girl. She welcomes be back. I feel there is some bond between us. The accident is all forgotten. She starts touching me and kissing me. I reciprocate.

Later, still in the camp, there is a meeting with my work people and my boss. I cannot remember what are we tailing about, but the atmosphere is quite tensed. I think I told her that I am leaving.

Then I go back to the girl and I start touching her on her legs and between. I am thinking that even if we have sex I must use a condom as I don't know her at all.

Later, I think there is some party in one of the big houses. There are just a few people there and I don't really know them. Suddenly, I see a smoke coming out of other a window. I start searching where the smoke is coming from. then I realise, the smoke comes close from the house next-door. There is some cottage next door with hey and similar stuff. I tell people and I want to call fireman. I find a phone and I cannot remember the number. I try 999. Someone picks up and I tell them that I need fire brigade. The redirect me. I try to sound as calm as possible and to explain them what is happening. It is a woman on the other side of the phone. She asks me for a post code. Because I believe it is still Leyt.....one.. I tell her the beginning but I don't know the last three digits. I ask people around, but they don't know as they are also just guests. .... then I wake up...

Return to my favourite school:
I was arriving at a border school (actually my first and favorite one) in a car and got ready to move in with my 4 bags, my mother stayed in the car and there was some young dude (who was a friend of me apparently) helping me and showing me around for a bit. Now there were small signs with the respective names next to each room so I searched through the building to find my room. I met some unknown people and the floors were looking very different (one even had totally wasted walls, that looked really bad) and I saw that half of the building seemed to be missing, outside it was bright day.

Short Spytfire spin:
I was flying in my Spitfyre and I explored a bunch of new ships of new classes. For some reason I had reduced flying ability so I occasionally crashed and had to reload. The two ship classes I remember best were the Reactor Ship (I even looked at the specs of this ship and remember it had an reactor output of roughly 12GW) and some new type of missile carrier. All those ships looked kinda similar as they were some prototypes I think. The sector in which I was is nothing else then an empty part of space with nothing else to see than a few stars in the distance.

Spoiler for Some strange fun (Strong Sexual Content):

I've been together with 2 nude girls and after I watched them a moment they started to have fun with each other through imitating some noodly appendages. Then I joined the fun so the 2 girls get on top of each other and I get behind them and they have audibly and visibly a lot of fun. I was wondering wether one of them took off the noodly appendage since I couldn't see that in this position. During the scene I was already close to cum but kept it in a moment thinking if I should cum and continue afterwards or if I should continue and cum at the end.

Darn My dreams get a lot more explicit in nature since I started having lucids more often.

Ghost trains:
I was walking outside at night together with 2 other people on a railroad, it looked pretty deserted and I didn't see anything except for the rails, the night sky and the stones on the ground.
There were ghost trains driving, after avoiding one which came from behind one of the dudes balancing on the rail got "hit" by another ghost train approaching is from the front, while the train went through him we told him to go off the rail but he kept on walking without reaction and empty eyes until the train passed.

City escape:
I remember being on a street with lots of people around, I think I was coming out of a building behind me, 3 persons in particular tried to kill me with Gatling’s but I managed to close in on one of them and to force them to lay their Gatling’s down, and after ensuring having enough space I made run for it, the 3 dudes following me with wrenches. I was running through an unknown city so I randomly guessed the best way to escape, and right as I approached a dead end I got support from my friends-in-mission (something like that), and later I remember somehow talking to them in a car.

Spoiler for Random Naughtiness (Mild Sexual Content):

I was together with a girl in a room on a bed and for some reason I asked her whether we'd have fun, and she told me that the game would decide (it was a random moving bar in my HUD). At some point the bar stopped changing and the result was apparently yes so she started to get rid of some clothes (as did I but we both still had underwear). She already seemed to be in the right mood but I got closer to her and pushed myself against her, stroking and prodding her a bit, which made her give me a really horny look. No fun though as the dream ended at that point.

I am some back yard of a big house with a uphill drive way to the main road. It must be winter time as there are patches of wet snow around and the ground and especially the drive way is all muddy and messy. I am standing next to some garages and right next second I am on the top watching a guy with a strangely familiar face doing some magic trick. He has few bronze cylinders like bowls... and with a magic stick he makes them jump, flip several times and land one on top of another about a meter away from him. I look at it and think that it is not that much of magic, rather a well trained skill. Then I notice a string running from his chest to the hand in which he holds the cylinders. I think to myself that he must be using it to flip them like that. Then I am sitting in a car, with a girl and I am trying to go up the muddy drive way. It gets stuck. There is another big, range rover like car passing by and driving easily through the snow, on the grass, towards the left of the drive way. I try to go in its trails, but i get stuck again. The girl gets out of the car and says that she is going to get a bus. I run to the bus stop to do the same.

Next I am in the bus and there is some black woman, going to the drive to buy a ticket... I notice 2 ticket collectors sitting in the bus so I rush to the driver to buy ticket too. Its pretty expensive some £3 and I am going only 2 stops or so.

Now, I am walking with Derren Brown on a pavement next to a long turn. We come to a big old house. He said that his lives there with his grandmother. Then I am with him in a small room with a bed window to a garden. Derren is sitting on the floor and he is doing something, like sorting out some old thinks or so. I go towards the winding and I run my fingers through my hair. Suddenly I realise that my hair is long. I run my fingers through several more times... and thinking how long has it been since I had a haircut. Then it strikes me!! I am dreaming!!!! I turn to Derren and all excited telling him... "I am dreaming, this is a dream!!!". Derren says something that it is not etc. I tell him, well would I be able to do this?? And I spread my arms, and under my palms and feet sparks and light comes out... and I start rising towards the ceiling. Derren is just looking at me. I am going through the ceiling and I am loosing Derren from my sight. I put my hands back together and fall down... landing easily. I start rubbing my hands ( I am surprised that I remembered that)... and it all becomes clear again. But Derren is not there any more. There is my friends sister on the bed and she is naked. We start messing around... and having sex... she is pretty young. On top of the bed there are two metal balls as some kind of decoration.... I am thinking that I could change one of the to a flacon lubricant or oil... so I think I want it to be a pink substance of that kind... I think to myself... It is my dream, I can do it... and it changes very quickly.... I can see some bubbles in it, its bring pink and clear jelly like substance.... with a little pump on the top.. so I use some....

Then I hear door downstairs. I think that its her father. So I quickly get up, put my trousers on and come to window. I jump out of the window, making a few spins in the air, landing in the garden. As soon as I land and turn around, the father is in the window looking at me. I look at him, waiting what is going to happen. He turns very friendly, saying hi, why don't I come for a chat some day, that it would be good to see me. Its George's dad.

Then I wake up.......

I don't remember anything until I started to realize I was becoming lucid. There were a few women. I saw them in a rather baron environment. I realized I was lucid and decided to go for one of them.

I got one and leaned her back to lay her down. I'm always afraid I'll wake up, so I decided to get her clothes off as I was bringing her down. I lay her down with my left hand, and raised her tight, pink, cotton dress with my right. By the time she was on the ground, I had her exposed.

I nommed on her breast for a short time, and had an FA.

I was in a restaurant in a booth. There were two blonde women at the table. One was paying her check with a credit card. I reached out to take it wondering if I was lucid and thinking it would be no harm. She retracted the card and I got nervous. I tried to explain I thought I was having a lucid dream.

She didn't get it. I asked her if she had ever had a dream where she knew she was dreaming...the old explaining lucid dreaming routine.

She seemed relatively interested, but she and her friend left. I was left alone. The restaurant was noisy. I wondered what all the commotion was. I finally leaned up to see a T.V. with the picture of a U.S. soldier in Iraq. I asked if someone was talking to their husband in Iraq. They said no.

I was a little "confus" and got tired of the noise, so I left. I went outside to see another dirt road with some women up ahead. I realized again, I'm dreaming!

All the women were unattractive, obese black women. I flew towards them hoping to find a cute one. No such luck. I kept flying down the road. I flew through a shanty town. On either side of the road, there were shacks made of metal roofing material. All had their back side to the road.

As I flew down the road, I looked at the homes and noticed everyone had a goat. Some people had two. I thought I should fly to the front of the homes, but I kept straight.

I finally came upon a young woman with strawberry blonde hair. She could have looked better. I looked away and looked back and she looked a bit better.

I looked for a place to lay her down. I saw an black iron bath tub that would never hold enough water to bathe in. It only came up about as high as a black iron pan.

I decided that would be too cold. I didn't want to lay her down in the dirt though. I went to lay her down so as not to waste any time, and a piece of plastic appeared under her. That was convenient.

I lay her down the same as with the first one, lifting her dress as I lay her down. Again, I nommed on her perfect breasts for a while, glad this is one of my few lucid capabilities.

I didn't want to leave her breast, but I wanted to taste her lips. I began to kiss her. It was yummaliscious. As I kissed her, I touched her below. She finally got into it (my DC's are often rather lifeless). She moaned, "Oh don't..." but she sounded like she was in ecstasy.

I don't remember the order of these dreams very well. I know that at one point in my FA, I was so mad that I had awakened from a lucid that I made an angry face gritting my teeth at which point I saw a yellow mist with a face gritting its teeth. I thought that made sense. I was seeing my emotion.

Also, between lucid's my alarm went off. I snoozed it and went back to bed and had the second lucid. I actually think I had two FA's, but I'm only certain of one.

Mixed in there, likely somewhere around the restaurant scene was another dream I had where I was in the office of an ogf Jennifer M. She looked great. Her office was positively opulent.

We were going to go somewhere, but she left and I stayed looking at a door that was right at a window looking several stories below. I liked the door to nowhere. Then I noticed another one.

I eventually left and saw a restaurant for the office building workers. It was dark and cozy, though a bit sterile. I walked through thinking how much I liked that an office cafeteria would make the dining room dark for an intimate environment at work.

As I came out, Jennifer came back to get me. I was kind of sad because she had such a good job and I didn't. She said she could get me an application. She walked over to an executive who gave her one. She came back and said, "I told you I could get you an application!" I was still sad because she could get anything with her looks and it had nothing to do with me deserving a job.

I then saw a vignette type corridor where the walls looked like an alien planet's cave landscape. I asked Jennifer to walked into it so I could take a picture of her. She did, though I never actually took the picture.

these too are also not very clear (one of them because i didn't want to think about it too much) and i forgot one entirely. was really bad at keeping track of the times in which these happened.

?am: my boyfriend and i go to some bar (i can't stand bars in real life). its small, quiet and dimly-lit, and not busy. one of the rooms here is special, it has a large couch, and there is a camera mounted to the ceiling to give a good view of the room. this is a room where people can go to have sleazy sex on camera because i suppose that kind of thing is thrilling. my boyfriend and i are in the main area talking to some people, and are seated next to a small b&w TV displaying the camera feed. two people we know go in, and as they begin to do it, we get kind of disgusted (they aren't very attractive and we don't really like them that much), so i turn a dial on the TV until the scene dissolves into indecipherable static, and we do something else for a while.

the girl, who is the sister of a friend of mine, comes out alone to join us. she is acting strangely, and my boyfriend asks her if everything is ok. she says that it isn't, and starts crying, and tells us that the guy she was with somehow threatened her and scared her into handing over a song that she had written, so that his band could play it and take credit for it. Phoenix was angry and went into the room to confront the guy and his band, which consisted of two other girls. but, due to Dream Logic, there wasn't anything he could do.

i realize that this isn't very nightmarish, but at the time when i woke up i was feeling very uncomfortable. looking back on it now though, it sounds silly.

?am: i'm walking along a heavily wooded path at night. its well-lit, but i can't tell from what. its fairly uneventful, until i hit a patch of complete blackness. for some reason this doesn't unnerve me and i keep going like its nothing. eventually i come into a lit clearing, the edges of which are pixelated. i realize now that i'm looking at a session of Furcadia when i see the dream portals uploaded by other users.

02.02.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Supermarket

I was with a DC that looks like my mother, there is some kind of service at a Supermarket (probably Walmart) where if you ask the employee what you wanted, they would have it prepared for in a cart, and even take it outside for you all packed and ready instead of you actually searching for things inside the store.



An employee DC I believe said our groceries and other things we needed to buy were ready. We get out of the store, and the cart is on the right, but my mother is trying to look for it. She's acting like she has no brain, and I'm telling her to look over to my direction to see it.

I gave up on her because she just was standing there like an idiot. Then my father comes in a vehicle for us to put the groceries and other things and that's all I remember for that one.

Dream 2: Men take revenge on female DC by having sex

Some lady, who I could only see the back of her body, was allowing herself to have sex two times. I forgot what one DC wanted to have sex with her for, but I know the other one wanted to have sex for revenge.

I knew she was wearing a red bra, and I could only see the back of her hair.

Split Finger or Zombie Freeman:
Two dreams with a nearly similar end. I was in an electronics shop talking with someone while being in the body of another person. I looked at my pointing finger (no clue which side) and noticed there was a deep cut in it, and one side was white, probably dead. I did some other stuff; I think I was talking to the staff there. The next time I looked at my finger it was completely split in half, and I was only able to properly control one side, while the other moved erratically. Then I woke up simultaneously to thinking: "Dream fucking fuck" (direct quote).
The alternative was me in a long hall with red carpet and a lot of doors, seeing Gordon Freeman as a zombie swinging with his cane, coming in my direction. This time with me waking up simultaneously to thinking: "Whoa, fucking fuck" (direct quote).

Sasuke Ghost + Materialization + Wormhole = Silence:
I was (3rd person I think) floating above a grey city. All buildings were slightly damaged, however completely empty, no people no furniture no other stuff. Just plain walls. I saw Sasuke floating around with a cloak and glowing red eyes, he was sort of a ghost. Something happened which materialized him and he smashed into a small building, revealing a violet/blue glowing wormhole which swallowed him.

Spoiler for Odd dice game (Sexual Content):

I was in an unknown room with an nice looking girl and we were about to have sex, however she had pain upon starting normally, so she told me to search for an alternative. I had 2 six-sided dice which could produce 10 different results each (well, nice dream paradox) and threw them for an idea. They showed 1 and 2, of which one meant "Anal". So I asked her for an opinion but after noticing she was frozen like a crashed program I woke up
I also remember there was an bathroom involved at some point of this dream, I think right before we went into the bedroom, but not sure.

dream : comments : lucid

27th of January, 2012

I stayed awake for a while as Nooks prepared to go to work then took a 4mg Galantamind cap and attempted to go back to sleep. I’ve taken Galantamind twice before and it just kept me awake. This time I took it later in the morning (8:30am). It was a struggle, and took me about 40 minutes to get to sleep and I kept having really vivid almost dreams, but once I did finally doze off... Boy.

The dream began as I was driving Nooks’ car. He radio was playing and she had a DVD player on the dashboard that was showing footage taken from the front of the car.
In real life, her radio is broken and I somehow really easily realised that fact and did a RC.

I was in.

I stayed calm and happily drove along for a bit but began to lose the dream so I relaxed and prepared to DEILD.
Which was extremely successful and I found myself back in the car. This time, once I’d stabilised, I put my foot down on the throttle and smashed into a wall just for funsies. As I got out of the car, I noticed the DVD screen was now showing footage of my back. As if the camera was on the side of the seat.

I wondered if my brain could possibly make a real remote-view camera and waved my arms around to see if it was legit, or just emulating what I did. It was actually really effective and I’m still not sure which was the case. More testing to be done next time!

I got out of the car and was at a warehouse of sorts on an empty street. I rubbed my hands along the walls and commanded for increased lucidity, which, I don’t care what anyone says, works a treat.
I looked around, admiring my comfortable lucidity and lay down on the asphalt to stretch my legs out because they felt a bit weird.
For some reason doing that made me aware of my waking legs and I woke up again.

Did another successful DEILD and found myself lying in the same spot later in the evening. (Inception style time-dilation anyone?)
I got up and picked up a large tile to ground myself and was surprised at how real exerting my arm muscles felt. I threw the tile on the ground and eventually found a woman getting into a sports car and asked her where we were. She didn’t seem keen on talking and just got in her car. I wandered around a bit more, kind of bored with my surroundings and then lost the dream again.
I woke up in bed but quickly realised that it was a False Awakening.

As soon as I realised that I woke up for real anyway.

Man, these dreams just aren’t stable at all!

I did another DEILD, this time focussing on running as I went back to sleep. It was an extremely effective method and really helped to feel the dream again. It went rapidly from thinking about running, to sort of feeling running, to fully running in blackness and finally running in a fully formed dream world.

When I stopped, I found myself in a bathroom.

I did a slow little turn around and noticed that the toilet was against the wall facing the cabinet. Completely useless positioning. I laughed at myself and AGAIN started losing the dream so I dove into the ground (a technique I read on here somewhere...) and found myself rolling through blank space. I came to a stop in a ball all caught up in someone’s towel rack in another bathroom. I freed myself from the snare and walked out, ignoring the naked Asian man in the bath.
I found myself in a home office area with warm light coming through the curtains. I briefly woke up again but DEILDed straight back into the same room. This time heavy bass music was playing from the computer and when I turned around there was a couple having sex in a bed.

“Eff this.” I thought, feeling like I was wasting good lucid time, so I went straight to the window and jumped out.

Evidently this house was actually an apartment because I was about 50 meters off the ground.
I looked around and marvelled and the truly surreal but beautiful landscape. It was a suburb in the early evening. Each house was totally unique and some looked like mini-palaces, bulbous Arabian domes adorned the roofs of some. In the distance a giant, grey tornado was raging and I sat in the air and watched that, impressed with my subconscious and how enormous the draw distance was.
Presently, I calmly flew about (unusually easily for me) and noticed a little house.

“That’s the house with the tiny Christmas town.” I thought to myself* and aimed for it.

As I got closer, I began getting too low and just managed to grab the gutter and pull myself up. The roof was quite soft and grass seeds must’ve been lodged in the gaps because the whole roof was covered with a sparse, fine, bright green grass. I jumped off the roof and into the back yard, again reinforcing that this was the Christmas house. I walked into the garage and looked around, only to find a whole buttload of tools and some cluttered workbenches. I started to get upset and closed my eyes, hoping that the town would be there when I opened them but instead an old couple came into the space. I asked them where the town was.

“Here!” they said and pointed to one of the workbenches.
“We’re still building it.” The old lady continued.

I decided I’d gone back in time and arrived before they’d built it so I dejectedly walked out.

“I’ll be back in the future.” I said as the dream began to fade again. I jumped once more through the floor.

Tumbling once again through blackness, I came to a stop on a similar windowsill to the one I’d previously jumped from in the naked Asian's house. I flew back out and saw a very similar suburb. This time I flew over to a highrise building and looked in a window where I saw a bunch of East German looking thugs.

I turned away and, looking down, saw I was at least 300 meters in the air.

“Sweet!” I thought and screamed down to the ground at enormous speed. I landed in a field and felt a bit pissed off at my subconscious for not letting me go to the toy town so I threw my sunglasses (which apparently I’d been wearing) at a bunch of aloe vera like plants.

I couldn’t help notice how warmly the sun bounced off the leaves and the gentle swaying of the green stems in the breeze. I walked past them and, in a huff, ripped one of the leaves off and chomped into it à la Mzzck’s stabilization suggestion.

It was an unreal sensation. Heavily plant flavoured and really juicy and crunchy.
The mass of different experiences thoroughly grounded me in the dream and I decided that if I couldn’t go to Toy Town, I’d sure as hell fuck shit up.

I walked out onto the middle of the nearby road and jumped in front of the nearest car. The green hatchback slammed into my body, barely making me budge but crushing the metal into itself. I smirked and threw the car onto its roof. The woman driving began slowly pulling herself out of the smashed window saying “You can’t do this...” so I punched her in the face.

As the next car approach I jumped to the side and pushed it into the green car sending both of them careening across the bitumen. Another car came, this time swerving around me. As it drove off I turned to it and raised my arms, forcing it telekinetically to flip over into a ditch.

I think I may have been laughing this whole time, but that’s a bit weird so let’s pretend I wasn’t.

A motorbike this time.
The rider veered past me and tried to race off but I again turned and, with a small gesture, sent he and the bike flying into the air. I’ve never had such control over powers in dreams and, though I was having fun, I began to feel a little bad for my DC’s at that point and decided to stop.

I turned back around and saw a woman riding a motorbike toward me. I stopped her and asked her name. She replied some strange sounding name (which I tried really hard to remember but can’t!) and took her helmet off. She was quite pretty and looked Scandinavian, without the mannishness.
I asked her name again and she replied with a completely different one then giggled and tried to make it seem normal by saying “I have two names. They’re both my names.”

I got unreasonably annoyed at this and told her that was stupid and that she couldn’t even make an effort to remember her first name.
I picked her up and lead her to the side of the road and began making out with her.

I noticed a strange juicy fungus growing on the ground and picked that up and took a bite.
“Gross!” she said, but I explained my reasoning and she seemed okay with it.
We kissed a bit more and then I realised that it should definitely have been Nooks, so I looked away and back to find her lying there instead. I lay down and found a little red heart-shaped bean on the ground and bit into it. It was really hard and crunchy.
We kissed some more and then I ate some sand to see what that was like.

It was pretty gross.

Nooks and I got hot and heavy for a while and had some sweet lucid lovin’ before I decidedthat it had gone on long enough and if I didn’t wake up now I’d start forgetting everything.

So with that, I woke up, wishing I’d completed at least one of my goals (I should’ve Fus Ro Dah’d some of those cars, man!) but overjoyed at how successful my lucid had been.


*when we went looking at Christmas lights last year, a house we visited had an amazing town of miniatures set up. The buildings and characters and scenery was so awesome, it re-invigorated me to pursue lucid dreaming with all I had. It's what prompted me to join DreamViews and shrinking myself so as to visit and play around in it remains my driving goal.