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Last night I had my first lucid dream completely by accident. I had read about and always been interested in lucid dreaming, but had never been motivated enough to practice it until now.

In my dream I remember being in an dirty alley in some city. I looked around and saw a friend of mine next to me, but he had a glowing circle around his face. I remember thinking something like "What the hell? That's not normal, I think I'm dreaming." Being my first, and accidental, lucid dream I did everything wrong and began to get really excited thinking "Oh my god! I really am dreaming, I can do whatever I want! Oh my god!!!" It's embarrassing to say, but surely very common, the first thing I wanted to do was make the girl I have a crush on appear. I found it extremely difficult to control my dream, which was surprising because I always thought it was be really easy. At this point my dream was fading rapidly, and I could barely make out anything around me. I just closed my eyes and thought really intensely about her being right there with me. I managed to see her, all blurry and distorted, and I grabbed her and kissed her. It was surprising because I could feel everything, and I felt just as real when we use to date. After that all I remember is her sort of bending down as if out of breath, then nothing.

It was extremely intense and exciting. Now I really want to practice and be more able to control my dreams!!

I feel like I had some interesting dreams yesterday, but they were forgotten as soon as I woke up. Three lucids last night, though.

1- Forgetful
I randomly become lucid, but I take a huge leap into the air just to make sure. Yeah, there's no way I'd be able to jump ten feet in real life. So... what am I supposed to do? I ponder over my goals, but for the life of me I can't remember them.

Suddenly I have a huge kite in my hand. Cool, this should be fun to fly with. Holding the kite against my back, I take a running leap and soar through the air. Suddenly, I "remember" one of my goals. I'm supposed to use this kite to fly over to visit the man who lives next door. ((Why can I never recognize false memories while I'm dreaming? Especially when they're rather absurd like that.)) I wake up shortly afterward.

2- Snapped
I am at some weird event... There are a lot of people around who I don't know. I'm supposed to be socializing, but it's really awkward trying to make conversation.

Suddenly, my phone rings. It's my mom. I answer it, grateful to have an excuse to walk away from everyone. I notice that my phone seems to be showing everything that my mom is doing. "That's weird," I tell her, "I know my phone doesn't have video on it. How are you doing that?" Suddenly, I see my next door neighbor Dee Dee come onto the screen. She brutally kills both my mom and my dad. I get sucked into the scene, hungry for revenge.

Dee Dee doesn't realize I'm here. I stealthily sneak up behind her and knock her to the ground. Pinning her down with one foot, I use the other to slowly and painfully snap her neck. The bone juts out from the skin, and a little trickle of blood runs down from the wound. I am both disturbed and fascinated at the same time.

I randomly become lucid and go inside. I decide that it would be best if I just entered a different dream. So I lie down on the floor and close my eyes...

I immediately exit the dream and enter SP. I decide I will count this as a WILD, for lack of a better name. I wait for my body to regain feeling... and wait.... and wait... and wait. Okay, it seems like I've been paralyzed for WAY longer than usual. I'm gonna have to force it. After a bit of struggling, I finally manage to...

3- Freefall
...pry myself out of my body. I do an RC just to make sure, but I know I'm dreaming. Unfortunately, the previous dream must have still been on my mind. I realize that I am once again at the scene of the murder. And guess who's not dead?

I decide not to fight this time. I take off on all fours into the woods, bounding at high speed. This is much easier than running on two legs... I briefly consider morphing into a wolf, but I get distracted. Hm, it seems like I'm getting really tired. But I'm dreaming, there's no need for me to stop. My body says otherwise. I am simply too tired to run anymore. I begin to speculate. Maybe it's my energy body getting tired, then.

Somewhere along the line, I forget I'm dreaming. I am no longer myself, either. I seem to be a man in my late 30's, being chased by the evil kid from Sharkboy and Lavagirl. Idk what his name is IRL, but in the dream it's Clyde.

I have already killed Clyde multiple times, but he always finds a way to come back. He says he learned the ability to regenerate from the Planet of the Starfish.

I am in a futuristic city, looking at this weird robot dancing in the middle of the street. Her whole body is made of metal, but her head is that of a human. "Wow, that looks like a real head," I tell the girl I'm traveling with. She begins to tell me what model the robot is, and explains how hi-tech it is. She uses a lot of strange words, though, and I don't have a clue what she means.

Suddenly, the robot starts trying to kill me. Turns out that it's Clyde in another one of his disguises.

In my effort to escape Clyde, I end up on the side of a bridge, lucid again. I'm really high up... seems like it would be fun to jump off.

It's not. I'm halfway to the ground before my vision catches up with my body, and when it does I have that terrible falling sensation in the pit of my stomach. This can be enjoyable in small doses, but I am just SO HIGH that the fall seems endless. Finally it jolts me into a false awakening.

So, I've been doing this experiment with different stones and their effects on dreaming. For three nights I slept with malachite under my pillow, and my recall seemed amazing. (Though my dreams were not as disturbing/exciting as usual.) I was going to try tiger's eye for three nights as well, but after those two nights with extremely horrible recall, I decided to give that one up. Last night was night one with Amethyst, and I must say that I am pleased!

1- Reverse Nightmare
I am on a dangerous island with my family and some other people. Those who travel alone are stupid, and if they get killed it's their own fault. I feel no pity for them.

There is no limit to the perils of this place: cannibals, deadly creatures, turbulent water... And yet, I'm feeling right at home! A trail of rocks goes far out into the water; I deftly run across them, quick as lightning, knowing that if I take one wrong step I'll be plummeting to my death.

My mom follows me, albeit not as quickly. She says that in order to get off the island, we first have to make it through Krueger's labyrinth. "Freddy Krueger's here!?" I ask excitedly. My mom gives me a weird look; obviously this is not a typical reaction. I don't care. Excitement courses through my veins as we all head toward the labyrinth. "Remember," I tell them, "Don't show fear. You can't really die here. Freddy may cut you to shreds, but after its over you'll come back in one piece."

We enter the labyrinth as I am saying this. As soon as the words come out of my mouth, Freddy's clawed hand has slashed all the way through my dad. "Damn, I died," he mutters, falling to the floor in a pool of blood. Krueger is standing there, smirking.

I laugh. "You really don't know who you're dealing with, Krueger." As always, my lack of fear begins to absorb his energy. And as always, he runs like the coward he is. Grinning, I follow him. "Shelby's right," I think to myself, "If I was ever in a horror movie, I'd be the first to die, 'cause I'd chase after the evil thing." Just as I am closing in on my prey, wondering if I should rip his head off again or try something different, something changes.

No longer in the maze; spontaneous lucidity. For some reason I feel that my energy has been screwed with, that I need to be healed. I know Raven Knight heals people sometimes. Maybe if I could summon her... I lost my train of thought as a mirror comes into view. Yeah, I'm supposed to be looking for Samael. I'll just use this as a portal. My thoughts are weird though, and I can't focus as I try to scry his location in the mirror. My reflection goes all weird for a second, taking on the form of a demon. Oh great, this again. I briefly look away, then look back. Good, my reflection is back to normal.

Come to think of it, this would be a good time to try the task of the month. I reach into the mirror and pull my reflection out. She sprawls out on the floor, limp and lifeless. Annoyed, I prop her against the wall and look into the mirror again, at my new reflection. Before I can pull her out as well, my other one falls over in my lap. "Ew, she's drooling," I mutter, sitting her up against the wall again. A girl is standing behind me; she's been with me for a while, but I can't remember who she is. Raven Knight, perhaps? Possibly Tamora. She tells me to stop fooling around; that it's obvious I have to give the reflection some life force before it responds.

"Oh, of course." I put my hand on my clone's head and say, "I give you life." Suddenly, her once glazed over eyes become alert. She can now sit up without having to lean up against the wall. "Yay, it worked!" Now I reach into the mirror and pull out my new reflection, this time giving her life before she's even fully out of the mirror. That's two clones, that should be enough to satisfy the requirements.

As we walk away, the girl who is with me suggests that we go back to Freddy's labyrinth. "No, my powers don't work in labyrinths for some reason," I say vaguely. ((Um, what?)) We are going to a particular place, but where it is escapes my memory. I notice that my former reflections have stopped being clones. In fact, one of them has turned into a bald old man.

Im lying on my bed, My heart beating fast because im afriad my mom is dieing, Shes getting better, I see this mountain and i feel tingly abit all over my body, I shake the image, then resume. Im not asleep and i feel my self sinking and i see the beautiful tree covered mountain again.[COLOR="green"] I let the feeling go and all of a sudden everything goes quiet. I move my head and i see the mountain move away from my view, I bring up my hands and see 5 fingers, but i already know im dreaming. Theres these blue cylinder like things that looked to be from a point of view of the bottom of the mountain to be about 3 meters tall and 5 or 6 meters wide, i guess like a carnival. I walk around and find this shed in the middle of an opening of trees, Instead of flying i decided to do something different, I spawned a spring like thing - like mario - and i jumped on it. Its springyness sent me off balance and i fell. I walked to my right and found our neighbours house. A man says "Hello" and walks away. and i put my hand on the ledge and a very energetic woman says "Oh look, he sees the box, now i guess this young man needs a cookie, right?" I smile and she walks away. I wait about 5 seconds and walk away.. I try to end the dream.. but no not again... I wake up and since my clock was not set i knew it was only 6 am.

The Summoning

"We dont have enough money to buy a new carpet." Says Rico.. I say "Thats easy" I look to our couch, close my eyes, and think carpet. I look back to see a rolled up carpet, "Oh...that can come in handy" says rico.

Okay ummmm.... WOW?! What happened to me last night? By far that was my longest lucid dream ever. OK here goes:

Non Lucid

Okay so the non lucid part is all mixed up and hazy but these are the parts I can remember. I realised I was in school which is kinda weird because we just left school. What's even weirder is that I was only wearing my boxers. Okaaaaay so I'm walking around school in my boxers then I think I dropped something on the floor because I remember crouching down to pick something off the floor and thought hmm this looks like a nice place to sleep. At the time I must have thought it was RL and when I woke up I thought did I sleep on the floor last night or was that just in the dream. I was really confused about what was dream and what was reality. Well anyway while I was crouched on the floor going to sleep I must have done the opposite of a false awakening. Having a dream within a dream . I try to imagine it like a normal dream is (dream) and a dream within a dream is (dream(dream)). In this case I woke up from the second dream inside the first dream. So I woke up in my boxers on the floor of my school . I hope you understand what I'm talking about here.

So another part of it I remember is being in mud-land or something with my sister and her best friend. We jumped down some massive tube of mud that was being emptied and down some massive underground tunnel. Why? I'll never know.

Lucid

Ok so far it's all been non lucid. But now I find myself outside my old house. I turned lucid somehow. Okay now it's time to experiment with something I thought. I tried to change the scenery around me to a massive white room to try out some stuff in. It sort of worked. The view in front of me went a patchy white as if the scene had half changed then decided not to. I had to use my arms to wipe off the rest of the old scenery and turn it into the white room. I started to hear my voice echoing when I spoke. I find that saying what I want to happen in my dreams helps it happen. So I turn around and behind me I'm still on my old room. One half of my dream is in the massive white room and the other half is on my road. It's the weirdest thing. So I turned the other half of it into the white room too. Then I realise that I can hear birds singing. "No birds" I said. The birds disappear. Then there's some light rain. "No rain" I said. The rain stops. I really started to appreciate how realistic this dream was. The big white room doesn't last long. I found myself in the town centre and I try to summon people. It works but from then on it got stupid. I tried to summon some other stuff but when I started someone walked up beside me and started pointing at the thing I was summoning and screaming "MODS! MODS!". okaaay then. So everyone disappears and then it gets to the best bit.

I'm outside a building on the edge of a lake with a pier but it looks cartoony. Like it's in Beautiful Katamari style animation. I'm looking out over the lake and behind me to my left there's a kitchen door with a person making burgers in it. He looked like somebody from burger king or something. So I think to myself how about some pyrokenisis. I cup my hand like I'm holding a football in it and really concentrate on making fire. A small blue flame appears in it like the size of one out of a lighter. I fell sort of proud of myself for doing this so I tell the guy that's making the burgers to come and see what I could do. He said something like "I can't I'm making burgers". Yeeeaaah I'm making fire with my mind and all you can think about is making burgers. Idiot. So I try to make a fireball with my mind and throw it at something. I cup both hands as if I'm holding a ball between my hands and concentrate on making a ball of fire. It works but it starts to get really hot. It's not like I'm immune to fire like you would expect. I start getting burnt so I hurry up and throw it. I end up throwing it into the water. Then I try to make lightning. I do the same thing as with the small flame but I concentrate on lightning. I make a small ball of energy in my hand and throw it into the water. For some reason I find myself falling in the water as well. OMG if I fall in that water I'll get killed by the electricity. There's people laughing at me trying not to fall in and I manage not to. THEN (and this is probably the strangest part of the dream) I find myself inside a huge monster's mouth with the burger guy. Seriously? WHAT?!?

Then I think I must have woken up. "MUST GET ON DREAMVIEWS BEFORE I FORGET ANYTHING" unfortunately I probably forgot a lot of stuff. Also at one point I remember half waking up. I was thinking I wonder if imagining you're spinning around when you're halfway into a dream helps induce lucidity? Apparently it does but I don't know if I was truly half awake or if I was having a false awakening.

Anyway that was the best lucid dream I've had. Glad I was able to share it with all of you lovely people .

P.S: I listened to almost the whole of the new pendulum album writing this. Remember how I recently left school? This is the most writing I've done for a loooooong time

1- Gross
((I'm not going to describe the events that led up to my lucidity. Believe me, you don't want to hear it. I'll just say that it involves tonsil stones.)) I look in the mirror and decide that I'd better RC for good measure, because this is NOT normal. To my relief, I am dreaming. All I remember is going out in my backyard...

2- Hitler's Reincarnation
A man who is the spitting image of Hitler is doing some experiments on a dreamstone. He is progressively getting crazier and crazier. There are some people that he has locked up, and he is talking to one of them. "I wonder how the stone will react," he murmurs, "when it absorbs all the negative energies from your massacre!" He opens the gates, and the prisoners flood out. Men on horseback come, slaughtering every one of them.


3- DEILD attempt
I am trying to DEILD, but I don't realize that I'm already dreaming. It's too late to even call it a DEILD anyway, 'cause I've already opened my eyes. I am looking at my reflection in a mirror above my bed. She is gesturing for me to come closer. I refuse, telling HER to come closer. She walks out the mirror door, subsequently walking IN my real door. Cool, now there's two of me! ((I'm semi-lucid at this point.)) My reflection doesn't seem to like me that much, but I don't care. I try to think of something interesting we can do, when...

4- Wild Chase
Chris calls me, and I "wake up."

"What is it!?" I yell from my bed.

"Come here!"

He hands me two cookies wrapped up in a piece of paper. He tells me I have to take them to Nathaniel. "Why can't Steven do that?" I ask irritably. "It's his friend." But I go out to the car anyway. For some reason, Jordan's there, and he's in the driver's seat. What's the point of me even going?

We start off down the road. From the talking in the back seat, I conclude that Tony, Eve, Charles, and my brother are with us as well. Why are THEY here?

Jordan is swerving all over the road, and I yell at him to get in his lane. "I can't! I'll hit the pigeons!"

"How can you even see any pigeons!? You don't have your lights on!" While he's trying to find the lights, he swerves off the road and nearly crashes. We come to an abrupt halt. Charlie runs out of the car and pukes all over the road. When he gets back in, I'm about to tell Jordan to let me drive, but he takes off at an alarming speed.

"Slow down, you idiot!!!" Now the cops are chasing us. They're shooting! He manages to get away, and I force him to stop the car. "I'm driving!" I fume angrily. He doesn't argue.

I have another run-in with the cops, but I'm driving a hell of a lot better than Jordan was. They're only chasing me because of his stupidity... But using my new-found super driving skills, I easily evade them. Steven tells me we have to stop at McDonald's to get his friend's burger.

Somehow, I'm on a motorcycle now, and everyone else is just walking around me as I pull up to the drive through. After ordering, I realize that we must have left those cookies in the car...

Conclusion: Samael is right. DC's should never be allowed to drive.

Blue = Lucid
Green = Semi-lucid
Red = Non-lucid

I woke up from a normal dream and didn't move 1 inch so I DEILD'ed without even trying at all.
I woke up in my room, I sitted on the bed and looked around, I saw my older sister and she was being all hyper which was unusuall for her. I knew from the start I was dreaming but I wanted to make sure so I looked at my right hand, it had 5 fingers, I checked my left hand and it had 3 fingers, I closed my eyes and opened them again and it had 5 fingers now. Now I was sure that I was dreaming, after some time my sister exited the room and dissapeared, I couldn't remember at all what she was saying. I stood up and walked a bit around the room, rubbing my hands just to make sure everything stays. After a few moments I started calling out "Yranul!" after my first shout some tiger like creature with weird colors jumped on me and tried to kill me, but I fought back, as I hitted it my hand just went trough it, breaking it into 2 pieces, for some reason it's insides were out of wood, but the creature seemed like it was made from flesh and bones o.o... After defeating it I stood up again and called out again "Yranul!" this time nothing attacked me but I saw a small shadowy creature walking on the already shadowed floor, the room was halfly bright but the floor was dark and shadowy. I picked up the creature that was walking down there and it was a pitch black eevee with black eyes, I took it into my arms and held it like a baby and petted it, it enjoyed being petted. It couldn't talk but it talked to me by showing me signals with it's paws, I can't remember what we talked about besides the last thing. It took some kind of a small book and listed trough it looking for the calendar for 7th month but it couldn't find it, it kept listing and listing looking cofused how it's not there. While it was doing that I kept hearing in my head "Birthday....birthday..." I tought maybe it meanth Noom's birthday so I pointed to 30.1 but it shook it's head and kept on looking, then I tought maybe it meanths it's own and mine so I pointed 29.3 but again it shook it's head. It gave up after some time and went back into my arms and I petted it some more. It dissapeared for some reason and I was transfered into my mom's house into the kitchen and in it were my mom and stepdad, I was semi-lucid at this point. They started shouting at me and kept telling me what a failure I am and looking for any insult they could find. For some reason I couldn't move or anything, I could just sit and watch them scream at me. After some time I was again transfered somewhere else, this time I was in some small store and I was non-lucid. I looked around the store looking what they had, 1 thing caught my eye, It was a box with packings on it saying "lolipops" but inside the packing were regular pencils. I looked confused at them and then I heard 2 girls talking about something. I turned around and one of them was pregnant, she said something about those pencils help her become pregnant. Before I could get even more confused I was again transfered somewhere else, this time outside of a huge mall. I saw a person walking and talking to someone how he got a car on luck games, sold it and made himself a house. Before anything happened I was transfered into the huge mall but I don't remember anything that happened from that point on untill I woke up.

As I woke up I remembered it all for 1 second but I quickly forgot ALOT of it and got a huge headacke and got tired.

Notes :
Yranul - My sub-c or Dream guide
Noom - My love's sub-c or Dream guide
Sub-c and Dream guide are pretty much the same thing as far as I know. xD

And final note :
I have something called mental block and it is causing me not to be able to contact Yranul and it forces out any memory from dreams I am not allowed to have by it's opinion and it also dissallows me to visualise in colors and alot of other stuff but that is not important. xD

(There is a "trigger warning" on the content of this dream.)

I am standing at the four way intersection that leads to the dead end street I grew up on. It is night time and must be spring or autumn beccause I am wearing my warm, blue zip-up sweater, jeans, and black baseball cap. The corner of the intersection I am standing appears as it did over ten years ago when one of my old neighbour's (Mrs. Jolleff) lived there, on a quarter acre of land, in a small white house surrounded by maple trees. Not long after she died her land was sold and redeveloped into a townhouse complex. Because the area looks different than it does today I immediately become lucid.

There is no one around and not much to do so I recall learning to fly and want to give it a try. I spread my arms out and bend my knees and jump into the air. At first I am afraid of being to heavy and not being able to defy gravity (problems with flying in dreams that I have had before) but remembering this is my dream I just think of myself as weightless and I am able to float about fourty feet in the air. I then leisurely glide over the houses and tree tops towards my parent's house. As I get closer I notice that the house I grew up in and some of the houses on either side seem to exist in a void of grey fog and some facades are different that they appear in waking life and indeed when I enter the fog the outside world disappears and while it is no longer visible I can sense that it is still there, though it seems far away. I cannot make the fog go away but I can make myself invisible and see through the walls of the houses with my dream control.

My partent's house is empty of people but all of the houses to the left of their's have many people living in them, all of them people I do not know as they are not the neighbours who lived there when I was a kid. The first house to the left is empty of people but by the boxes and furniture scattered around the floors I can tell that someone has just moved in. The next house is two storeys high and each level has been split into a seperate appartment. As I slowly fly towards that house I can see a blond woman looking out the window towards me talking on the phone, but I know she cannot see me as I previously made myself invisible. I plan to make no effort to control the thoughts or actions of any character I meet in the dream because I believe they are creations straight out of my subconscious and hope they might have something interesting to say and that I might learn about myself.

I fly up to the window where blond woman is talking on the phone and childishly revel in that fact that she can't see me by making faces at her. I then fly around to the back of the house and notice through a window a dark haired man and woman dressed in stylish business clothes preparing food on the second floor. I plan to eavesdrop on them next. I fly through the wall and listen in on the blond woman's conversation. She wearing jeans and a heavy light brown sweater and her hair is shoulder length. Her apartment is sparsley decorated with things that look secondhand or very simple and homey. I cannot remember what was said now but I do recall that I found her conversation terribly uninteresting and I let myself float down through the floor to where the dair haired man and woman are. Their appartment is furnished with much nicer stuff and their is a circular glass table with wine glasses and setting for two and it looks as if they are planning a romantic dinner.

The dark haired woman is wearing a white blouse, black skirt and black high heels and her hair is pulled back into a pony tail. The man seems to have disappeared into another room for a moment while the woman is washing and cutting green and red peppers by the sink. Despite the nice surroundings and stuff the woman has a miserable look on her face and seems very unhappy. I cannot read her mind to figure out why which I find very frustrating. The man reenters the kitchen from another room and he is wearing a white shirt with black buisness pants and black tie. The woman puts down her knife and turns around to embrace him but he grabs her by the wrists, spins her around and roughly pulls up her skirt and forces her to lean over the sink. After undoing his pants he starts having sex with her from behind and demands that she continue washing and cutting the peppers while in that position. She doesn't respond verbally but I can sense that she is even more upset then before and she struggles but is not strong enough to escape the man's grip. Even though I try, my dream control won't allow me to force the man to stop or let the woman escape.

I become kind of upset myself and start to dissociate, even start to think that I want the dream to end but I hear a phone ringing in another room and go towards it. The ringing stops before I get to the phone (in an office on the other side of the appartment) and I can see a red light flashing on the display to indicate that a message has been left. I pick up the phone because I want to listen to the message (hoping that this will be something important or interesting from my unconsious - and I want to forget about the rape happening in the kitchen that I cannot stop).

The phone has so many buttons and many of them have symbols that I have no idea what they mean. I am frustrated that the phone is super complicated and has so many extra buttons that seem to do nothing. The woman in the kitchen starts screaming and I drop the phone and fly as fast as I can out of there. I am very dissociated now and cannot end the dream even though I try.

The foggy void outside has gotten thicker and darker but I can see a row of SUVs in the distance, some of which of have police lights on top but the cars are empty and seem abandoned. I notice that the home to the immediate left of my parent's house has a few lights on so I fly over there to see what's going on. While I cannot end the dream or affect that thoughs and actions of characters in the dream, I can still control my actions and inanimate objects around me. I fly into the living room of the house and see a man sitting on a recliner trying to figure out his newly hooked up cable box on his large widescreen television. Or at least that is what I think he is doing until he figures it out and violent pornography appears on the screen. The man starts masturbating and I lose interest and start flying outside but before I pass the walls of the house I hear a child crying in the basement.

I go down there and the floor is covered in discarded furniture and various basement junk but I cannot see any child even though the crying has gotten louder. I notice a set of metal grates on the cement floor, half hidden underneath a dirty mattress and some boxes. I telepathically move the junk and open the grates and discover a shallow well which contains the decaying body of a little boy. The boy is obviously dead but the crying gets louder and I use my dream control to undo the decay on the body and return the boy to life. He is surprised as first but then very scared because the man who murdered him is still upstairs. He is unable to talk but communicates telepathically and asks if I will help him sneak out of the house. I pick him up and we float up through the ceiling into the front hall of the house. Several of the SUVs I saw before have entered the foggy void and are either parked infront of the house or are driving back and forth in front of the house on a small section of road that exists within the void.

A man in dark clothing is at the front door and the word SWAT is printed on the back of this jacket. I tell the little boy that he is probably going to storm the house and arrest the man who murdered him. Instead the SWAT man knocks on the door and waits patiently for someone to answer. Because I am inpatient I use telekinesis to both swing the front door open and grab the man watching porn and force him to the front hall. I make myself (but not the little boy) visible and rat out the man for the murder. The SWAT man looks confused and says that he is there to arrest the other man for pirating cable signals with illegal cable hookups.

I use my dream control to project everything I have seen into the mind of the SWAT man and tell him that this is my dream and I want him to do something about the crimes taking place. The SWAT man responds: "There are no crimes taking place because this is only a dream." I do not know how to respond to that at first but realize that I have finally met a figure from my subconscious that might be able to give me some answers, so I then ask him: "Why do images like these appear in my dreams? What am I supposed to learn from them?" SWAT man responds: "You cannot learn on the subconscious level that which you have not learned on the conscious level."

I ask him to clairfy but the dream suddenly... I don't know how to describe this, um, explodes or rips apart. I am still aware that I am in a dream but have lost my control and it feels like some outside force has grabbed the foggy void and is tearing it to peices. The characters arround me are violently pulled into dark holes and tears that have suddenly appeared and the structures and setting disintegrate and are sucked into invisible voids. Everything is pulverized and disappears and a horrible feeling of dread overcomes me and I feel like there is an army of demons standing on my chest, though I am able to end the dream and wake up before anything more freaky happens.

It took me ages to get back to sleep after WBTB, but it was well worth it!

1- Stuck
I am stranded in the middle of the river. This has the potential to not end well... I text both of my parents to let them know where I am, then I text my boss, saying "I might not make it to work tomorrow morning, because I'm stranded in the middle of the river."

I make it out sooner than expected. About an hour later I realize that I have failed to inform my boss of my safety. When I get out my phone, I see that I have a reply from him. It reads, "Your text nearly broke my heart..." Um, okay. It wasn't really that big of a deal...

2- Poodle
I am at the doctor's office, and I notice a poodle walking around. One of the doctors reaches down and pets it, then walks into a different room. Isn't that unsanitary??? I don't normally like poodles, but this one is very friendly. It has a weird habit of chewing on my hand when I pet it, though, just like my RL dog.

3- Talking Squirrels
I walk up to a cage that contains two squirrels. They are arguing over which kind of nut tastes the best: walnuts or pecans. (I vaguely notice a decapitated parrot next to the cage, but for some reason this is never an issue.) What a silly thing to argue about, I think to myself. Maybe if I give them an acorn, they'll agree that it's way better than both of the others. I pick up an acorn off the ground, but before I can even stand back up, an invisible squirrel runs up and steals it from me.

4- Tree Frog
I find an unusual (and extremely cute) tree frog near the stepping stones of my house. As I pick it up, I instantly remember the squirrel dream I had. I make a mental note to write it down later, then start looking for a safe place to put my frog.

5- Showing Off (DEILD)
I feel myself exit SP, but it's still a struggle to open my eyes. RC just to be sure, but I know I'm dreaming. I get up and look around. Everything about my room is as it should be, except for the graffiti-like markings on my ceiling. Interested, I try to read what it says. Basically a fancy to-do list: Wash room, clean laundry, etc. Hm, that sounds sort of backwards.

I walk out and run into my brother. "Hey, wanna see something cool?" I ask him. ((IDK why, but I've always felt the need to show off my abilities to any nearby DCs.)) I stick my hand through the window; the glass melts around my arm, as if liquid. I go all the way through to the outside. "Ha, that's much more fun than using the door!"

Now, time to look for Samael. I walk to the road and call out, noticing that my voice is echoing again. Wonder why it hasn't done that before? ((My problem is that I'm too focused on my voice to pay attention to what's supposed to happen. )) I abruptly wake up.

6- No More Messing Around (DEILD)
I re-enter the dream and decide to be serious this time. Before I make it out of the house, Chris stops me and says I need to get to work on my to-do list. He mentions something about sending a hammer fist into my leg if I don't get it done when I wake up. "Uh, yeah, whatever," I say, walking out. I hope he doesn't turn out to be one of those DCs who hinders me throughout the entire dream...

I walk down the road, thinking about the best method for summoning Samael. I notice that I have gone a bit past Shelby and Taylor's house (which is bright green this time), and I decide to count how many houses are beside theirs to add to my dream map. There's two actual houses, but the second one has three separate buildings to it: The main house, a rather large dog house (or possibly a play house for kids), and a beautiful building made of cobblestone. I walk through their yard, examining things. I vaguely think about trespassing, but it's not like it really matters if I'm caught. This is a beautiful place, I am constantly amazed by my mind's ability to come up with all these little details. I wake up.

7- Portals and Mirrors
I chain back into the dream, but something distracts me and I believe myself to be awake. When I make it to the living room, Chris is there waiting for me. "Remember our deal? You haven't finished your to-do list yet."

"Wait, what? How can you possibly remember that, I was dreaming when you... Wait." I RC and become lucid. "Yay! You made me lucid!" Ignoring whatever he is saying, I go through the window once more and continue my search for Samael. Calling out doesn't seem to be working ((because I wasn't doing it right)) so maybe I can summon a portal. I think about it, and one starts to rise up from the ground. It looks like a large round shadow at first, then it slowly turns more tangible, and then... puffs out of existence.

Oh well, portals have never been my forte. Maybe a mirror would be more useful. I remember one of my first LDs where I used a mirror to travel to outer space. This may be my best chance.

I look around and spot an empty car in the middle of the road. Perfect. I use the rearview mirror and say, "Show me where Samael is. I need to see Samael." A figure starts to appear in the mirror, but then I notice cars coming up behind me. I think getting run over would seriously hurt my chances of success, so I use super strength and push the car out of the middle of the road. Who would park a car in the middle of the road in the first place?

Before I can return my attention to the mirror, I notice two people on motorcycles driving by. On the red bike is a lady with short black hair; on the green bike is a man who looks a lot like... Lucifer. "Hey, wait!" I yell out excitedly, but the noise of their bikes is too loud, they can't hear me. In a split second, they are gone.

More distractions; Now there are a lot of people around, and my brother and his friends are throwing things at me. I ignore this. "Hey, do you know of anyone around here who calls themself Samael or Jack?"

"My last name is Jack," says the boy standing next to my brother.

I sigh. "Well, if you happen to find him, let me know." The dream ends.

IWL
I'd better get up and write this down, before I forget... but my body feels so heavy. I'm still being affected by the SP. I manage to sit up ((which probably never really happened, most likely HI)), then fall back over and go back to sleep.

8- One of those WTF moments
There is a guy lying in his bed, talking to someone about a dream he just had about them. I think he's talking to me, until I hear him say, "At least you let me touch you this time." Okay, that definitely didn't happen in any of the dreams I just had. Who is he talking to?

My vision shifts a bit. I can now see that he is talking to a poster on his wall. The poster is of two male cartoon characters, sleeping together. Or rather, one is asleep, and the other one is talking to the guy. He says something, and the guy laughs. Doesn't he realize that he's still dreaming? I wonder. Does he honestly believe that his poster would be talking to him?

"Good night, boys," the man says to the poster, then turns out the light and goes back to sleep.

7/1/10

Woah, it's July first? That means I had my first lucid of the month! ^^

1- Holly the Hypnotic Vampire
I am a woman named Felicity, trapped in a room along with my friends by the evil vampire, Holly. We've been there for quite a while... We're starving to death, and so, so thirsty.

"I'm REALLY thirsty, Felicity. We gotta get outta here."

"I know, Frank, I know."

Suddenly something within him changes. He starts babbling about how he can feel the life energy flowing through him. Soon the others do the same. I seem to be the only one unaffected by this madness. Don't they realize the life energy isn't flowing through them? It's flowing out of them! They're becoming vampires!

I try to tell them to fight it, to resist what Holly has done to them, but she is fighting me every step of the way. She tells them that I am no longer worthy to be their leader, that they should listen to her, instead.

"Who should we believe?" Theresa asks, confused.

"The one you love the most," Holly answers in a hypnotic voice. "Who do you really love?"

Theresa considers this for a moment. "Holly," she answers.

"Holly," the others echo.

I give Theresa a dirty look. "Oh, and... uh, what is her name...? Felicity," she amends half-heartedly.

Ugh, she almost forgot my name. I think it's safe to say they're a lost cause.

"Are we always going to be this pale?" I ask Holly in annoyance. "I mean, can't vampires get a tan?" She ignores me.

2- Evil Sleep Mask
My dad's girlfriend has a cute pet rat named Jenny. She is sitting on her shoulder, and doing funny things to make us laugh. Hm, I need to play with my rats more often.

I "wake up" and find that I am alone. I wonder where everyone went... Oh, well, maybe I can play with Jenny. When I go over to the cage, I see that it is now the size of a cage at the zoo. As if that wasn't weird enough, there are all kinds of unusual animals within... Several of them look like giant, carnivorous sloths, and one looks like the mammal version of an alligator. All of the animals are trying to eat each other. There are a few small monkeys in the cage, too. They come up to the bars, quivering in fear, giving me a pleading look. "Aww, hey little guys! You're so cuuute!" This is obviously a dream. I RC and become lucid. Yay!

Time to look for Samael. I call out loudly, "Samael!!!!" My voice sounds cool; it echoes throughout the dream world. The thought of those monkeys distracts me for a moment... Maybe I could make on of them my familiar, since I'm looking for one. No, one thing at a time. I call out again. I have somehow arrived at a dark and abandoned country road.

Now my eyes are trying to close themselves. Ugh, it's the stupid sleep mask I'm wearing IRL. I take it off, which works for a few seconds before it reappears on my face. I can see through it, but it's making my eyes close... When they do I wake up.

It all started last night as I lay in bed with my mind wandering like a tumbleweed through an old ghost town. After a while I start focusing my mind into a point while relaxing my face, my jaw and the rest of my body.
I start sinking into deeper levels of relaxation. I become aware that I am in a hypnogogic state when I notice I am watching a pickup truck driving down a driveway, kicking up dust. So I focus on my dream task, which is to dreamshare with CNDR.

I am on the verge of WILDing and I sense many possible dreams to step into all swirling around me. I am invoking CNDR's energy and feeling for it. Then I see glimpses of her: her arm, her hair, her silhouette against the moonlight coming through the window. I smell her and her hair. I hear her saying "Is it working?" or "It is working!" Or something very similar. Keep in mind I am not in the dream, but trying to completely fall asleep and enter the dream. But my monkey-mind starts getting excited and I try to calm it but the swirling wheel of dreams recedes a little. I can no longer see or hear or smell my dreams but I can still feel CNDR with my feeling sense. But eventually my mind comes back and starts wandering as the dreamtime slips away.

Organic Mechanic
I go hang out with a musician friend of mine (Greg) and a friend of his at a hotel lobby. Greg's friend wants us to stay and watch Emerson, Lake, and Palmer play a show. I don't think that I will stay, it costs to much and I am not a fan. But Palmer is a good drummer.
I notice that Greg's friend is vacuuming my car. He is vacuuming pieces of broken glass and I notice my windshield has a hole in it. Damn! He tells me he saw some shady guy break into it. I take the car to an auto body shop and ask them how much it will cost to fix it.
Mechanic: "What happened here?"
ME: "Some asshole broke my windshield"
Mechanic: "Don't worry about it. We'll take care of it. There's no charge"
They started working on my car. Hey that is very nice of them to fix my windshield for free! I am going to recommend this place to my friends. But how can they afford to fix it for free. Surely they will have to charge me for at least the cost of the new windshield. I get the bill back and it is $500! I start talking to the guy and he says:
Mechanic: "This is how much it would have cost if I had charged you. This is for my hourly rate, as well as the hourly rate of the guy who made the windshield and the guy who delivered the windshield and the guy who made the glass for the windshield. You see, when you pay for something you pay for everybody who had anything to do with it, and they are all taking advantage of you because they are motivated by profit. But if they all realized like me that there is no such thing as money, the world would be a great place."
Me: "Hey, thank you! I will definitely recommend you to my friends"
Mechanic: "I am the Organic Mechanic

KAUA'I DREAMING

I am in Kaua'i swimming in the ocean! The beautiful tropical sun is tanning my body and the sea breeze is filling my lungs. I hear the sounds of surf and the smell of coconut and guava. The white sand beaches are brightly reflecting the sun. I am kayaking around the island with Kayak Kaua'i (In Waking Life I used to Work for Kayak Kauai). We are out on the part of the ocean that goes around the corner of the Kalalau valley into the Polihale.

Kalalau:


Polihale:


The current is strong here and the fish are gathering. I become lucid. The owner's son, who is one of the guys with us, is a real asshole, and has always been an asshole to me just because he thinks he is the shit because his Dad owns Kayak Kauai. So I summon a shark to get him. A shark comes and heads for his kayak. He starts screaming and I am laughing. But then I remember to love my DCs so I decide to turn the shark into a dolphin. Now we have dolphins all around our kayaks out there in the ocean. But I am feeling a little mischevious so I turn the dolphin back into a shark and the guy freaks out agian. Then I cahnge it back into a dolphin and the guy relaxes. But he had lost his oar! He couldn't paddle his kayak and he starts drifting out on the riptide. I throw him my oar and I use mind power to power my kayak. It is like a motorboat or a jet ski, but all mind power! I get very involved with flying through the ocean on my kayak with the dolphins all jumping and spinning and racing me! I love dreaming!

Pickle Frog Song

A little while later, I am back on land in some Hawaiian town hanging out on the lawn in front of some grocery store. This is not lucid. There is a little boy singing a song and picking his nose. The song goes:
"Pickle Packle Peek-a-boo, Pickle Packle Peek-a-boo"
but maybe it sounds more like "Picko Packo Pee-a-Boo"
I really like the song. CNDR comes up and I say "He is singing about his pet frog!" And CNDR starts laughing and we are both laughing joyously. The kid is very cute, picking his nose while he sings. His sister comes up and they both are chanting "Pickle Packle Peek-a-boo"
CNDR and I go into the store to buy some pickles but the owner tells us that they are all sold out since those kids started singing that song.

6/25/10

Yay! I got a stripe on my belt! Anyway, for my dreams:

1- In Which Hazel Does Not Act Her Age
My brother comes into my room with this old (fake) sword that he used to have. He begins knocking things off my shelf and just being a pest in general. When he doesn't stop like I tell him to, I throw a temper tantrum like a five year old. O.o After it is over, I wonder why I am acting like this... Oh, it must be a dream. I reverse time and handle the situation more maturely.

2- A Family Outing
I go out to a really strange restaurant with my family. I don't trust these people, something isn't right... As predicted, the owners are up to no good. They are locking people in cages out back. Well, they certainly aren't going to get ME. The only problem is, they have some kind of strange machine that makes them not feel pain. "We'll take care of it," my parents assure me as they allow themselves to be locked up in the cage. "You act as the decoy."

No problem. I take off, and the crazies are quick to give chase. Hm, if I could just run a bit faster... But no, they're still catching up to me. Time to fight. I fight like an expert, but it doesn't matter. They can't feel pain and I can. Just as I am beginning to think I will lose, the one standing in front of me suddenly crumples to the ground, crying out. "Ah, shit, they broke the machine!"

I grin in triumph as my parents and my brother arrive on the scene. "Took you long enough!"

1- Bite of an Orc
My parents have gone undergound, to the orcs' lair. I am waiting outside. At the sounds of a battle, I suddenly become lucid and run through the forest towards my house. "I don't want to fight orcs again," I mutter to myself. ((Um... I've never fought orcs before. Ever.)) "Besides... isn't there something I have to do?"

By the time I make it to my house, I am no longer lucid. My parents come a bit later. They tell me that they won, but that the orcs bit them and now they're infected. I see that they now have green and red orc skin. "Don't worry," I say, "You'll only be HALF orc. I got bit by one a while ago, and I'm still half werewolf."


2- Tattoo
I get a really ornate tattoo all over my face. The next morning, I cannot figure out what possessed me to do something so stupid. Everyone's going to think I've gone off the deep end... I look in the mirror and am delighted to find that it is just a temporary tattoo.

Type: DILD.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

This was just.... sad.

The dream began in my bedroom. The lights were all off, and it was clearly dark outside, but there was a slight level of visibility aided by a blueish nighttime glow. Because of this, colors weren't easily discernible but I could tell my bed and side table were white. My steel blue alarm clock with glowing red numbers was sitting on my side table, facing my bed.

I was sitting on my bed, minding my own business but with a bit more awareness than usual, and then my eyes caught my alarm clock. I only had to look once to know I was dreaming. It said the following...

I became lucid after double-checking with the nose-plug reality check. After all, the missing part of the last number could have been a technical error on the clock's behalf. I got up and the lighting suddenly became a bit brighter. I looked at my hands while at the same time focusing on the scenery, so I could stabilize the dream a bit more. I then walked through my bedroom door and into the hallway, down the hallway and towards the front door. I usually exit the house like this, even though I could just go through my bedroom door and expect anything to be on the other side. But the door was open so I didn't think about this.

The whole house's lights were off, but with the same slight glow. I grabbed the doorknob and tried to open it. It didn't move at all, or even turn.
I tried a few times but nothing I did made it open. I was now getting an eerie premonition from the area around me, and I had a gut feeling that the dream was going to turn into a nightmare. I closed my eyes and fell backwards to get out, because I'd never felt as freaked out as I did now.

I was back in my bed, awake this time.

I did a WBTB so I'd have a chance of having another lucid. I opened my bedroom door, walked to the kitchen and got a glass of water, and came back into my room. By the time I settled back into bed, around five minutes later, I heard buzzing. I immediately leapt to my feet, did a quick reality check, and realized there was a freaking mosquito in my bedroom.

It took forty minutes to kill the thing.
I didn't have any other dreams once I got back into bed.

Woah, I'm glad I decided to go back to sleep.

1- Puppy with a Thousand Names
I just bought a cute little dachshund puppy, but I can't come up with a name. Everytime I think of one I like, I forget it and come up with something else. To start with I'm calling her Doris, then Matilda, then Samantha...

I teach her how to play fetch.... She's just so cuuute!

2- Battle of Fire and Water
I am surrounded by evil monks. My master is wounded; this battle is in my hands. But how can ONE win against THOUSANDS? I am barely able to keep them at bay with my fire magic, and my mana is running low. I quickly drink a potion which restores my power. But what good will it do? How can I defeat them? "Get them away from the floodgates," my master instructs. After a few failed attempts, I do as he says. Water rushes out of the gates and they all drown.

3- Playing with Time Warps
I am with the Doctor; he is a bit impatient with my cousin, so he decides to screw with her head a bit. He creates a time warp, and she walks up to him just as he is talking to a past version of her. She freaks out and runs away. Our laughter is interrupted by the sound of marching. A whole legion of warriors is coming out of Wal-Mart!

"You of all people should know the dangers of playing with time warps!" I accuse as the army advances on us. "Look what you've done!"

The general wants us both dead. Before he gives the order to attack, he randomly stabs an arrow into the head of a dwarf standing beside him. Okay, what was the point of that?

The battle commences. I have a sword, and am actually doing a really good job of killing the soldiers. This is fun! The army is actually a mixture of humans and enslaved dwarves... I end up killing the arrow-dwarf's brother, and he wants revenge. (How is he still alive with that arrow sticking out of his head?) I knock him underneath a car. Now he can't sit up without the arrow hitting the bottom of the vehicle. Looks like a very painful way to be stuck...

The scene changes; now I'm working for the General. I get an email about something detrimental to the General's plans. I can't let him see this... This could be the key to getting rid of him once and for all.

4- Expectations (DEILD)
Darkness. I'm not in SP anymore, I guess I woke up. But I RC anyway and become lucid. Yay! Only now, I can't open my eyes. Hmm... I take my sleep mask off, which has transferred over into the dream, but my eyes still won't open. I use my fingers and try to PRY them open... still no success. Oh well, I'll be able to see through them in a minute. I wander around the house blindly until I can see. I feel sort of confused though... For some reason I think I'm invisible.

I go in my brother's room, where Steven and Matt are listening to the radio. I want to mess with them, so I throw something off the dresser at them. Apparently I'm not invisible, after all.

My attention turns to the radio. Everything it is saying makes perfect sense. The commercials and the songs are all in real life clarity. Do they have this playing IRL? If not, my subconscious is awesome!

I go outside. It's really dark, but I ignore this. I'm already having problems with staying in the dream, I need to stabilize this before I worry about the lights. (Or lack thereof.)

I'm thinking about Leroy all of a sudden, and a man suddenly appears in front of me. Thinking it's my dream guide, I abruptly lose all my self-control and leap at him, giving him a big hug. I see a bit too late that I'm wrong, that this is just a random DC, and I wake up.

((Oops. I'm glad that wasn't Leroy, after all, since I had to go and act like that. Again.))

5- A WILD within a DEILD
I DEILD back into the dream. Yet again, I'm having the same problem with my eyes. I briefly consider ripping my eyelids off, but decide I don't really want to find out what that would feel like.

I walk out of my room, into the hallway. I still can't see, but I am able to tell where I am just as easily. This dream is still really unstable... Maybe if I WILD within the dream, into a different dream, it will fix things? Worth a shot, anyway.

I lay down right there on the floor, close my eyes (they were open, despite my blindness) and enter SP. There is a vague sensation of rolling around, and then...

6- Exploration
...I am fully lucid in a new dream. Better yet, I can SEE again!

Now I suddenly feel as if I need to prove myself for some reason. Maybe I'll go fight that werewolf... I head off toward it's lair. It's still pretty dark out, and there are random people along the road. Once I reach M's house I run into two mean looking dogs. I think they may have been in the pack that tried to kill me in another dream... "Hey, little doggies!" I say fondly, using passive control to make them like me. I pet them. "Wanna come help me kill a big bad werewolf?" Apparently not, they run off. I turn and fly toward the south. I'm near where I'm supposed to be; the warehouse where the werewolf lives is somewhere back here.

Now, however, I'm distracted by the mountains beyond that. I had read something that The Cusp posted about dream mapping, about how there are certain borders on the edges of your dreamworld and that it's impossible to get past them. Well, I'll just have to see about that for myself. After a lot of flying and climbing, I make it over the mountains... only to find more mountains in the distance. Gah... I'm not going that far.

Below me, there is a city. Since I'm here, I might as well check it out. I jump down, right in the middle of the road. Cars are coming at me from all directions, but I am unconcerned. It's fun leaping over them. A little tiny car drives by... I wonder what kind of person would drive something that small? I catch up with it and sit on top, riding through the city.

I reach the lower district and get off. I am surprised by the variety of people, and how real they all look. Everything is so detailed; how could my mind possibly come up with all these different people? The dream fades, and I wake up.