All DJ Entries

1. Once again I find myself in a mall arcade with my parents. I find a DDR machine where someone has left credits, and happily I jump on and select double mode. I have a lot of trouble selecting my first song, though (and with text menu, another failed RC), ending up on a Paul McCartney solo work. The stepchart is silly, and I barely manage to pass, feeling acute embarrassment. For my next song, however, I go to my old fallback "Heaven is a '57 Metallic Gray" and rock the house. Arrows seem smaller than in real life, but otherwise the interface is fine.

2. I play the main role in a music video for one of my favorite bands, The Dear Hunter. I don't remember details, but I do remember that it ends in a passionate and particularly real-feeling kiss.

Last night I had my first lucid dream completely by accident. I had read about and always been interested in lucid dreaming, but had never been motivated enough to practice it until now.

In my dream I remember being in an dirty alley in some city. I looked around and saw a friend of mine next to me, but he had a glowing circle around his face. I remember thinking something like "What the hell? That's not normal, I think I'm dreaming." Being my first, and accidental, lucid dream I did everything wrong and began to get really excited thinking "Oh my god! I really am dreaming, I can do whatever I want! Oh my god!!!" It's embarrassing to say, but surely very common, the first thing I wanted to do was make the girl I have a crush on appear. I found it extremely difficult to control my dream, which was surprising because I always thought it was be really easy. At this point my dream was fading rapidly, and I could barely make out anything around me. I just closed my eyes and thought really intensely about her being right there with me. I managed to see her, all blurry and distorted, and I grabbed her and kissed her. It was surprising because I could feel everything, and I felt just as real when we use to date. After that all I remember is her sort of bending down as if out of breath, then nothing.

It was extremely intense and exciting. Now I really want to practice and be more able to control my dreams!!

1. I'm walking on the halls of the research station, and I see V coming back from a lover's tryst. As she climbs the stairs, her low-cut shirt reveals her cleavage, and I am overcome with jealousy. I then catch a glimpse of MB, living in a different room, and my vision zooms in on her computer, where she's texting a new interest.

2. V and I are playing D&D on the overpass of a local highway. Each of us pulls out a D20 and rolls, heedless of the cars streaking past us. I'm low to the ground, and as the dice stops, I notice the cursive 11 on its side slowly morphing into a 7. I PASS this reality check, and realizing I'm lucid, I manage to resolve the scene around me into waking-like focus and feeling. The pavement feels grainy and coarse, the sun is mildly hot, and I feel in perfect control of my arms and legs. Suddenly, she tells me to run for a football pass, and as she does I feel the ground beneath my legs and run. I feel the impact of the ball in my hands, and somewhat inspired by this, I do the turn-summon to place her in a cheerleader's outfit. It's blue and gold (colors with no particular importance) and very revealing. Confidently I stride up to her, and we engage in a passionate kiss. It feels just like waking life but when I try to turn things towards actual intercourse, I lose lucidity and fall out of the dream.

This isn't the first dream to disturb me recently. But I can still feel it. Last night, I dreamed about a man stabbing me.
It started with myself and a few other people at a cabin. The dream skipped to that night when the man was picking us off one by on, killing us with a knife. While i was running, I ran past a door as he was coming out of it. I screamed, and the next thing I saw, I was on my back with the man over top of me. He gently kissed me, and as he did, i felt him drive the knife into my heart.
When i woke up, I had the feeling of the knife on my chest.... These dreams are really starting to bother me...

V and I are attending a movie, a biology documentary about wetland habitats. The screen is huge and very high-definition; underwater photography, alligators, and birds are all shown in stunning detail. After watching for a while, we move closer and closer, and finally close to kiss. The ensuing makeout is full of energy and passion, and I vividly feel both tongues writhing. There's so much energy, in fact, that she knocks out the filling from my front tooth. Its texture, hard and ugly, now enters the dream, and my brain pulls me out presumably to avoid that feeling.

I wake up (IRL, not a false awakening, thanks to RCs and my own dream journal), but when I go back to bed the dream has continued with a shift of scenes. We're now in the bathroom of the movie theatre, preparing to have sex. I try to hurry up and begin to piss... and I keep pissing. I notice, too late, that the urinal I chose has someone's shit blocking the drain, and soon the water starts to overflow. I have no choice but to continue, but as V knocks on the door to check on me the urinal breaks out of the ground! Water, piss, and shit start flowing everywhere, and she steps in the refuse with her heavy boots. The mood is, to say the least, ruined. I stumble out of the toilet trying to clean myself up and salvage the night, but another student from the research station, S, is crying to herself and washing glassware in the sink. I have no peace and wake up very frustrated.