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My hubby was in this one AGAIN!!!

I was with my hubby and we were doing great, we were then sitting somewhere together and he told me he'd had sex with someone else and said that woman was now pregnant with his baby. I cried and was in shock, i remember saying "how could you" I again cried hysterically (( amazing how emotions are magnified in dreams)) I was totally gutted. He told me he wanted to stay with me and that he didn't want to be with the other woman so i said "i'll try". We were lying together and i started to get upset again he said "whats up" i replied "i will have to look after that baby with you" I remember feeling so much resent for that baby in me, i felt so hatefull towards it. My hubby said "we can make it work, we'll be ok" I hugged him so tightly and began to sob, i leaned towards his ear and softly whispered "i'm sorry i can't do it, i love you with all my heart i have to leave, this is too much for me" I kissed him and cried my heart out , he begged me to stay but i left.

Ok so i was in bed and i fell asleep..I woke up again ((FA)) in bed, I was lying on my front and i could feel my hubby touching me, it was very intence, i could feel a slight vibration in my head. I realised i was having a dream and just went with the flow ((he he )) I wasn't fully lucid but aware of what was happening. ((wasn't going to stop this dream to fly, was having too much fun!! )) Anyway i woke up again, this time in real life. I didn't move atall and could hear a loud "swooshing" noise, i realised i was about to go deep into SP but as it reached a peak it began to wear off ((damn it)) I got up had a drink and the loo then nodded off again.

I had a strange dream, i was in a dull room somewhere and there were other peeps in there, i was looking around and saw this elderly lady sitting on a chair, she had some kind of small growth on the top of her left thigh, she looked like a tramp. Anyway i had another look around and my concentration went back onto this old lady, but this time when i looked the growth on her thigh was now HUGE!!! I thought to myself "what the hell" and i was questioning how it had suddenly changed ((perfect time to go lucid but i missed that one)) don't remember much after that.

Seems in the last week or so i am having faulse awakenings and questioning things more, i also have the feeling of being more aware that usual, hope it wont be long before i get more lucids coming ((wheyyyy))

I was in my bed beside my Husband and i got that horrible feeling, something was trying to lift me up and get me, it grabbed my arms, i tried to wake up but couldn't i was thinking to myself please god let me wake up , i was very scared then i woke up (( well at least i thought i did)) I grabbed onto my husband thinking OMG what a dream i hate them ones then i sat up and said to my Husband "im not going back to sleep because i'll have another dream like that again" I grabbed onto my husband because i was so scared and then something tried to pull me from him again I knew then that i was still asleep. I then woke up again , my eldest daughter came into our room holding 4 cups of tea, one was for me and kev, i did at this point wonder to myself "whats she doing up at this time in the early morning", i could hear a mans faint voice and i said to her " are you on your own" ((i knew she shouldnt have had any one with her)) my husband then said "Dad's with her" i then thought but your Dads dead then said "ohh shit i'm still dreaming" I lay back down and thought maybee ill wake up in real life now ((but ohhh no that would be far too easy wouldnt it)) Instead i wake up in my bed again, it was lighter and i could hear the birds singing as the window was open, i couldn't move for a minute then i turned to my hubby and said "am i awake" I couldn't move my mouth properly so it came out more like a blarbly mess, my hubby then said as he lay asleep "i don't know" and carried on snooring, i felt my head throbbing as it sometimes does and though am i awake or asleep then i felt myself being pulled upward thats when i thought "ohh shit i still aint awake". I managed to force my real eyes open but was very tired and sleepy, i thought i must be awake this time and got up and got a drink and to clear my head which it did, never had a weird night like it before!!