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Vividness: 5/5
Recall: 3/5

I'm in a bar or something like that. There are a few friends and girl N. She has birthday that's why we celebrate it in this bar. I have the feeling that something isn't real, that something is wrong in here. I leave the table for a minute to go to the toilet. As I walk away, girl N. follows me. We stop a few meters in front of the toilet, but out of the sight of our friends. I still have an awkward feeling, she behaves really strange. She doesn't make any moves she use to make, no teasing , no jokes, nothing. I feel something special is going on. We start to kiss.I realize that this is a dream, because I know, she wouldn't never ever behave like this.
I calm myself and concentrate on the kiss. It feels really normal, like this is reality. I am very cautious because I know that I would loose the dream when I get too excited.
We stop the kiss and girl N. seems to be ashamed or something like that, just like she did something she will regret. I'm a bit confused cause I know that this reaction is caused by myself, well it's my dream. I know that what she feels is that what I would feel in real life. This emotion is really strong, it makes me sad. Girl N. starts to speak:

Girl N.: I don't know what is going on here. I feel so confused.
Me: I know what you are talking about. What does this mean.
Girl N.: maybe we should actually talk about what happened. But we can't do it now, the others will suspect something.

So one after the other we go back to the table
I loose lucidity and sit near her. I wait until we can leave the place, so that we could talk about it. But I don't really remember anymore what we should talk about. The kiss? The feelings? A possible relationship?

I don't know how the dream ended but I had a song stuck in my had when I got up. It was just a line:

I cant believe that you can't see
that you mean everything to me

It just happened that I remember some old dreams. This happens once in a while.
These dreams mean a lot for me, so I just wanted to share them

This 2 dreams are non-lucid. They are one of my most emotional awkward dreams I can remember involving a little bitch I know. So are you ready for some "mindblowing" dreams? So here you are:




I'm in class. I'm sitting in the third row and in front of me sits a girl named N. She's smiling and very happy. She has a new hairstyle, very different from the style she used to have. Next to me is good friend named L. I explained something to him (but I don't know what was the subject). He is listening to me. Suddenly, during my conservation, she leaned over my desk and kissed me on the cheek. I knew it was some kind of provocation. She starts laughing and she gives me a challenging look. I get angry, really angry and started shouting at her. I even wanted to beat her up, but I couldn't, because I knew, that she wanted that I overreact.

Second dream:

I'm at a really great party, music was great and I really had fun. Next to me stands my good friend L. and in front of me N. She was smiling and seemed to be really happy. I wonder why and ask her, why she's so happy. She tells me that she's in a relationship with me. My first thought was: "what a bitch! Just another provocation"
I look at her and suddenly I had the feeling that she told the truth. I whispered to my friend L., although the music was very loud. I asked him: "Am I really in a relationship with her?" Instantly I looked at N. who nodded. But L. said to me: " I don't think so" and he started smiling. I wasn't sure if he was right so I tried something: I went close to her and wanted to kiss her to feel if she's really in love with me. She refused and only turned her cheek to get the kiss on her cheek. So I was convinced that she lied. But suddenly, our lips touched and we had a really long kiss about ten seconds or so. I really felt her feelings for me, but suddenly I got afraid that I made a huge mistake and I got kicked out of my dream.

Hours of sleep: 9
Vividness: 3/5
Recall: 3/5

Number of dreams: I'm really confused. It happens that I remember at least 6 different locations I've been.

1. I'm walking through narrow streets in the historical part of Luxembourg-city. Its already late, the street lamps are own. It's hot outsides, it appears to be summer. I stop in front of a restaurant I've never seen before. I enter and there is a huge entrance hall. I hang my jacket on the wall, which I didn't wear outsides. I walk past a bunch of people, past the bar and I sit down on a table near a window. The window looks like my window at home, even the same lamps are standing on the windowsill. I put up a little book which lies at the the table (it's my book where I write my ideas down for further novels) and I write several pages down. But I'm not able to read it.
After a time I'm leaving this lace cause I'm bored and walk past the bar, take my jacket with me and step out. Outsides, everything is as it used to be last time. Suddenly I remember that I forgot my book inside. I remember that I put it on the windowsill. I'm walking to a window. Although this window doesn't lead to the restaurant, I recognize my windowsill and see the book. I'm telling my self that I could pick it up later. I leave the place and take a ride with the bus.

2. I awake. I'm feeling very dizzy. I look around my room and grab the same book as before. I write my dreams down, but again, I can't read what I'm writing. I'm confused. I lay down on my bed and review the dreams in my head. I fall asleep. (Great false awakening, isn't it?)

3. I'm in my bedroom but it's totally different from reality. There are no bed and no shelves, t looks like a strange club or something like that. There are a few people in there, a DJ and a few friends of mine: L., Micheal, Girl N., Girl C.. There is also a fat girl I've seen two times or three before. We are dancing to the music we enjoy our time. Suddenly the music changes and the DJ plays some slow music. HE says into his microphone that everyone should join a partner and dance to the song. I wasn't pleased at all from this idea. Let me explain why:
We are 3 guys and three girls. So far as good. But the choice of the dance partner is awfull: First we have girl N.: I used to have a crush on her, but she's really wicked and manipulative. This is such an occasion which she use to make you feel uncomfortable. Second there is girl C.: I like her a lot, but she has now anorexia and doesn't look really well because of her illness. Third: there is the fat girl. And , ok this sound a bit harsh but, well she's fat and ugly.
So How can I survive this dilemma? In all of the three cases I'm against my principles and I would lower my self-esteem. I don't want to choose, but fortunately, I don't have to: girl N. has two dice that she rolls over the floor. It's a 2 and a 4. She says that she has to choose L. I'm not very pleased cause no I have 50 % of luck to get the fat one.
But fortunately the scene changes and wee are outsides in a spa or something like that. The fat one has disappeared. There is an old lady who welcome us. I'm wondering why we aren't dancing any more. I find this odd

I awake. I'm confused. But this time I get directly up. I look at my alarm clock. It's 4:15 am. I reality check the clock and the time doesn't change. I'm convinced that I'm not dreaming any more and I write down some striking words to remember my dreams when I get up in the morning. I lay down again and want to perform a WILD. but I can't concentrate and fall asleep without remaining conscious.

4. I'm in my old highschool. It looks like if I'm in a French class, well my old French teacher is there, We have to write a test, but surprisingly it's an art contest. My brother is also there. My teacher says that he has to go and we should finish in an hour or so. As he gets away, my brother and I start fighting and we try to sabotage each drawing. It's very confusing and we finish my throwing pencils at us. The teacher gets back and we stop our fight. He says that class is finished, but I remind him about the drawing contest. He says to me I should take the papers and write the names on it. I agree but it's difficult for me to write them down. I wrote like a 6 year old child with big, creepy letters.
I'm than outsides, it's day and I meet the son of my teacher. I'm having a conversation, about the last novel his father wrote (yeah he's in fact also an author). He gives me his essay and I correct his essay and talk about it with him. I can't remember about what his essay went.

5. I'm on a beach. I have al my clothes on and go to the sea. I get into the water and a lot of waves crushe against me. The water is really rising fast. I get flooded away.

6. I'm in the town where my grandma lives. I'm in front of the barriers (there is a rail-road in fact) and it seems that I've finished my exams, which I finished in fact last week. There are a few other students, and on the other side of the road I see my friend Michael. He's riding a bike and he stops. Other students join him and he starts clapping in his hands like a pole vaulter before his leap to encourage his self. Every one starts clapping and he finishes riding his bike down the hill (quite impressive, huh? ). I get in my car and suddenly, I'm in a car park. I get out and I walk a few meters, the surrounding change and I'm in a bar again. There are friends and one if them waves at me to show me that there are a lot of places free. I go there and I want to sit down, but one seat his occupied by a bag of girl N., who isn't there, at an other seat, a jacket lies there. I get another place, but it's far away from the desk so I can't hear what my friends are talking

That was a productive night!
Don't forget to keep it up!

Hello : / My dreams get weirder and weirder. I realize that something bothers me deep inside me. I don't know... I'm afraid what I may find deep inside me...

Hours of sleep: 7h
Vividness: 2/5
Recall:3/5

I'm standing outsides in a street. I have to wheels and on one a seat is fixed. I sit on the seat and I make movements with my hands if I'm driving a bike. I suddenly start driving and it reminds me of a motorbike. But the handlebars are invisible. I don't see the engine either.
I somehow realise that this is a dream. But it doesn't bothers really. I keep on driving and suddenly, I'm in a mall. I drive around and I get of my bike. I want to go to the cashiers, But I circle through the mall. Every time I'm near the cashiers, the open ones are full, so I keep circling. A few times while making a new turn, I meet girl N. . Every time she sits on a barstool. Next to her is a guy. She always says when she sees me: "That's my new boyfriend" and kisses him as long as I can see her. While kissing him she looks at me. Her eyes are saying, that she just wants to tease me.
I repeat this scenario at least 10 times and I finish in the moment that I see that all cashiers are full. I don't know what happens next. I end up in a blank room,sitting in a corner, face to the wall and I cry.

O Gosh... What do I want in Reality... CRAP!

Hello :/ It's a bit late but I was too busy to write my dream down. And this dream just reflects the evening I had in my favourite club.... in some way. lol

Hours of sleep: 6h
Vividness: 3/5
Recall 1/5

I'm in my favourite club. There are a few friends hanging around. It's already late, a friend, who was the diver, said to me that it was time to go. We walked out, I had some kind of strange feeling. I had the feeling that something terrible is going to happen. But i don't care and we walk out.
Outsides, there is a street. In front of us is a pub or club.

This place doesn't exist in reality. I remember that this place was already a few times in my dreams. One time it was an hotel, an other time a pub.

I know that something is different, but I don't question reality. I say to my friend we should go in, because it's an awesome place. But he is a bit angry: he wants to go home, because he's tired.
I don't know what happened next. We ended up in a club. This strange feeling doesn't disappear. I know something horrible will happen.

...

Well, something strange happened. Suddenly girl N. shows up. She wears an awful t-shirt, which is too short and reveals her belly. AND... it's a beer-belly!!!!!! I just think WTF!?!?!? She starts speaking and says that:
- I don't care any more about my appearance. When no-one wants my body, I have the right to eat what I want and as much as I want. F*ck you guys!!!!!

Note: I first remember the part of the pub. But the part with girl N. came into my mind as I was sitting in the kitchen drinking my coffee for breakfast. AND it gave me a strange feeling.OMG, what is my brain thinking subconsciously??? It's kind of disturbing

Hello
Got 2 Lucids in a row I'm really amazed! My last lucid was in august, but I did it again! I wanted to thank Serenity for her Intro-class which made me progress over the last weeeks

1. I'm standing in a room. Girl N. was in front of me and started kissing me. (It's a recurring dream that I always have when I'm kind of confused through the day). I feel that her kisses are really odd, they didn't feel like real kisses. I remembered that she wouldn't kiss me so intensively in reality (kisses all over the face lol), that I hate her and I don't want any relationship with her. My thought was: "This is a dream! " I want to do something, but she doesn't stop kissing me. I than concentrate on the thought :"Just go and leave me!". Surprisingly, it works: she stops and goes a few steps away from me. That's the moment that I really realise that I'm dreaming. Everything around me looks much more vivid and bright. I get really excited

I wake up. I was like: " O No! damn it!". I did a RC in hope that it was a false awakening. But it was not. I relaxed a bit and fall asleep immediately.

2. I'm in a lake. In front of me is DC. He/she is swimming. I'm lying on a air mattress. The DC starts a conversation:
- Hello! I just wanted to say to you that it isn't safe to lay on such a mattress on a lake.... You might just fall off and drown....
Exactly in this moment, I fall off and disappear under the surface. My perspective change in third person and I see how the mattress finally flies away.
I'm suddenly at my university, someone is holding class. I just think: "That's odd.. how I did I get here?" I pinch my nose. I can still breath. OMG I'm dreaming . The surroundings get really blurry and I feel that the dreams fades away. I think " O NOoOoO". I remember to rub my hands to stabilize the dream, but it doesn't works and I awake

That's it! I hope that I soon will have another lucid!

Lucidity scale: 3/5

Hello
Last night I just got 5 hours of sleep, because I went with a few friends to a club to just partying around. I don't have to explain that this little amount of sleep (with the combination of alcohol ) wasn't good for my dreamrecall

That's why I remember just a few fragments.

All these fragments were about parties and clubs, all my bad experiences (and more pleasant ones) and all my fears were mixed together, I remember drunk people; dancing, beautiful girls; flirting around; dancing; enjoying the music, some drunkards having problems with the security; But also all the bad things I experienced because of a girl named N. ( a long story which I already posted here on a thread on DV)
One more memorable fragment is the following one:
I'm outside, there are cars afew friends of mine and this girl N.. There was music playing, a song from the band Klaxons: Twin Flames. We were singing that song (although I'm the only one who knows about this song). The song is about love and being a part of each other lives. N. was also singing, which made me angry. I started shouting at her, saying really ugly things, because she has no right to sing this song, 'cause she doesn't know what real love is and how it feels like.
She stopped and disappeared.