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#271 - DEILD - 2:41AM

I was really displeased with these two LD's but there it is. I suppose it was better than a total fail. I just really don't like long SP transitions. It's such a waste of LD.

I am driving some place and the road gets blocked by a crowd of people. I roll the window down and ask some guy whats going on. He doesn't seem to know much. I listen and can a man preaching on a loud speaker. I make some remark about them Christians and turn the car around. I find a side road that has very little traffic. I am pleased.

I DEILD and have a really long transition. My goal this time was to interact more with DC's and ask for a dream guide. I ask for it out loud and I immediately feel hands grabbing at me. This actually freaks me out so I tell it to stop and It does. I try getting out of bed but it feels wrong and I am stuck. I spend a lot of time waiting and focusing. As some point I hover above my bed and spin in place. Still, I feel too connected to my physical body and can't seem to get anywhere. Irritatingly I notice my feet are crossed and uncomfortable. I try to move my legs but can't. I decide to ignore it.

Finally, I stop focusing on the physical and start visualizing. I clear my mind and stay watchful. I start playing with some sort of hand held device with rubberized keys. I get lost in this and have to remind myself to stay lucid. This doesn't seem to get me anywhere so I start visualizing walking in my living room.

Soon I find myself doing just that. I see my son running around me wanting to play. I chase him a little bit as I make my way outside. Eventually, I pass him and spin around to see him chasing me now but I quickly run outside shutting the storm door behind me. He stops at the glass smiling at me first, then whining to come with me. I feel bad about leaving him but I really need to get outside and stabilize. This dream is really blurry and unstable so I try to focus on vividness.

I look up at the sky and see stars lined up in a grid. I find this mildly interesting and chose to ignore it. I notice that I feel cold out here and do my best to ignore it. Something on the ground catches my eye. It seems to be an article of clothing. I pick it up to examine it and get some tactile stimuli. It looks a lot like one of my wife's button up sweaters but the colors are wrong. Instead of blue and white stripes, half is white/brown and the other half is white/yellow stripes.

Now, I realize I am still very aware of my physical body. I have my legs crossed and it feels painful and sweaty. I try moving but the sleep paralysis has me. It's just too uncomfortable to ignore anymore so I have to wake myself to move.

I have another dream where my dog is pooping all over the place. I clean it up and watch TV. My dad passes through with a section of water hose formed into a noose. I ask him what he's doing but he doesn't really answer me so I follow him. He goes outside and and I am now walking out of some warehouse. I hear a loud helicopter sound. I look up expecting to see it but it never comes. My sister's brother is standing outside talking to my dad. I notice it's raining and something triggers lucidity. My brother-in-law and I stare at each other for a moment. He seems angry with me. Though it's just a dream, I really don't want to go out in the rain so I will it to stop. We all look up in the overcast, gray sky. I say, "Yeah. I made it stop raining. That was me." I step outside now, but I suddenly wake up.

#270 - DEILD - 4:46AM

I have a dream about my older daughter. She is trying to tell me something but I am trying to get back to bed to get lucid. She's holding me back and I become angry. There's lots of conflict.

I DEILD with vibes again. This time I am in my house. I see my daughter standing in a doorway and then disappear into the dark room. I'd rather not follow so I call to her. After a moment she comes out and sits on the couch. I hug her and apologize for the last dream. I say, "Sometimes in a dream I am not myself. I'm sorry for the last dream, but now I am myself. This is a dream too, but my mind is awake." She seems to be falling asleep while I am talking so I say her name and give a little shake. I say with excitement, "It's lucid dreaming!" I try to infect her with excitement by radiating it into her. Her eyes open wide and she smiles with amazement. This makes me wonder if I am making a shared dream connection with her. Then She returns to being out of it and half asleep. I realize at that moment that maybe her DC was trying to help me become lucid in my last dream and I was acting like she is now, except I was overly angry. I have both hands on her shoulders when she suddenly vanishes leaving my hands hanging in the air. With amazement, I wonder if she has woken up. Then, my vision fades to black and I wake up.

#269 - DEILD - 3:36AM

I do my usual thing, this time with vibes, and get out of bed. To my surprise, I am in a different house. There are a set of stairs in the center of the bedroom. I don't see this right away, I just know it. When I reach the bottom of the stairs, I have my vision. The house is pretty upscale and fancy but I don't bother exploring it since the stairs put me right in the entryway next to the front door.

Outside feels cold but I ignore it; I'm thinking of my goal (board a pirate ship). There's a strange looking custom car parked in front but I pass it up for the awesome BMW convertible. I clearly see the emblem as I pass around to the driver side. Some how the front seats are folded all the way down. I pull up until it locks into place, hop in, and make a few adjustments to feel comfortable. The smell of new leather is strong. I reach for the ignition but the car is already started and the instrument panel is light up. I have a moment of something like embarrassment when this happens. I guess I feel like it took away from the realism since everything up until this point had been so mechanical and lifelike.

I put the car in reverse and back up. Then have to put the shift in drive to go forward. Back to mundane. It seems I'm now in a parking lot and this way is a dead end. I have to turn around and again work reverse and drive like waking life.

When I finally get out of the parking lot, I turn on a road. I have to get to the beach for my goal and as I am driving the area reminds me of California. I go with that assumption and begin passing palm trees though the area looks really rural. I tell myself I need to turn off to the beach soon and I see a sandy road. I turn down it but the dream becomes unstable as the road becomes too bumpy. I try holding on as long as possible, but I wake up way too soon.

#266 - WILD - 5:48AM

As I am focusing on WILD I begin to notice that my head feels light and wavy. I make myself spin and I know I am ready. This time I take a chance and open my eyes. It feels real but I am fairly confident that I am seeing the dream version of the bedroom; it's not quite dark enough. I open and close a few times amazed that I am not actually opening my eyes. I try not to mess with this too much and decide to get up. I can hear the fan but the sound is cutting in and out rapidly. It's odd but I try not to pay much attention to it. I try to phase through the door for fun but it move back and jumps around in time with the fan sound. The experience is very trippy but right now it is frustrating. After two or three tries, I lunge for the door knob and manage to get it open.

The house is dark and there is another door in a small room in front of me. I was expecting to be in my own house but this is very different. I pause for a second and then open the door with no trouble. I enter an unfamiliar kitchen with yet another door on the other side. It leads to something like a garage with a window. I notice right away that it is full daytime outside. I pause as I suddenly realize the feeling that I am only wearing underwear. I concentrate for a second, and I now feel fully clothed. I don't bother to visually check it. Feeling better, I look out and see a beautiful, vividly clear, summertime countryside. It's a grassy hill with a large Oak and a cloudless blue sky. I open the window and breath in the fresh country air then push out the screen. The window seems a little small but I tell myself it doesn't matter in a dream. I dive through.

I land on my hands and knees and vividly feel the thick lush grass under me. Some areas look brown but healthy and soft. Immediately, I remember my goal from the last dream and begin searching for a mushroom. Before long I find something with a white stalk and will it be a mushroom. I pluck it. The top is a soft mushy yellow elongated ball. I squeeze it and it feels way too soft. I focus and it looks a little more common. It's not exactly what I was going for, but in dreams every mushroom is magic. I put it in my mouth and chew. The physical sensation is very vivid and the tastes is like sweet butter.

Immediately, I feel like my eye roll back and the dream darkens. I focus to see something and the area in am in turns into something like a colored pencil drawing, then back to darkness. I focus again and I am on my back looking up at the sky. I watch as it turn from a normal light sky color to an unnatural dark blue. Then, the dream fades to black.


I wake up and reach for my DJ and begin to journal but something is wrong. I am completely blind. I suspect that I am still dreaming and put my device next to me. It feel's cold on my skin and I think maybe for a second I am really awake. I do a nose plug and partially blow through. I have failed this RC before so this time I blow with out plugging. Then try it again plugged. It's the same every time. While I am doing this my hear and feel my wife get up to go to the bathroom. I call to her for help but she does not answer. I am paralyzed and blind and hope that she can help my out of it. I yell at her again as I hear her enter the bathroom. There's no answer. Hoping really am dreaming and not just stuck in some strange half dreaming stage, I take my Galaxy Player and throw it in her general direction. I hear it hit the door then crash on the floor. Oops.

I suddenly feel her touch my arm and ask in a strangers high pitched voice, "What's the matter sweetheart." She sounds like she is consoling a child when she ought to be angry. This is not my wife at all.
I say to the woman, "I can't wake up."
She walks away from me and says, "That's because... [GIBBERISH]
"Whaaat?" I ask laughing.
More gibberish. I decide this is stupid and I force myself to move and get up.

I make my way to the backroom trying to think of my next goal. I come a cross my son ridding toy on get on it. I feel really goofy and start singing, "I never woke up. I never woke up. I never woke up cause I took a mushroom." Then I remember Balrog.

Feeling confident, I rush out the back door. The sky is partly cloudy and it seems like early dawn. To the west I see a large moon partially obscured by clouds. Then three other smaller moons scatter around it. The stars were bright and extra large. I decided this was a magical enough area to summon Balrog. I start to shout "YOU SHALL NOT PASS" but realize this is premature. Instead I leap up on the railing of the deck and shout, "BAAAALLLLRRRO..." My shout ends in a choking gasp. I suddenly realize I was trying to actually talk in my physical form. My throat feels tight and I wake up gasping.

#265 - WILD - 5:10AM

I have trouble getting back to sleep after my WBTB but this works well for WILD.

Some HI forms into me lucidly organizing random stuff on a table. I was lucid but really into making everything look right. After a moment full lucidity kicks in and I realize the dream is ready for me. This is it. I remember my goal to eat a magic mushroom so I stand up and start to walk out, but the dream doesn't feel stable enough and I can tell from experience that any scene change will kill the dream. I turn and pace the living room for a while. I realize that I don't have to be outside to find a mushroom growing. Anything can happen in my dream. I look down at the floor but only see my bare feet and notice that is the first time if ever seen them in a dream. They seems to be moving really fast and blurry.

The dream begins to fade so I sit back down at the kitchen table and examine more objects. One looks like a tall blue pump spray bottle. Everything is really blurry and I can't make out any other detail. I notice my mom next to me. She seems to be sweeping the floor. With out looking at her I say, "Mom." No answer. "Mom. MOM." Now I am yelling.
"What?" She says.
I ask, "Have you seen my mushroom top?"
Before she answers I have a FA.

I open my eyes and it all feels real. I don't care to DJ just yet and I want to DEILD back in but something strange happens. The lights in the bedroom begin to flicker on and off. I feel afraid and dare not move. The blanket is partially over my face and I can't see who is at the light switch. I yell my wife's name but there's no answer. I try to get up but I feel paralyzed. Now I understand. I say, "This is just SP. It's not even real." Knowing this frees me to move.

When I stand up, it's totally dark. I turn to the light switch but see a shadow cast on the wall in front of me. It looks monstrous and reminds me of the movie, "A Monster In Paris", that we watched yesterday. I am not afraid of it up I want to stabilize the dream. I turn to fight it up the rooms goes dark again. I blindly attack and feel like I am hitting something. I hear an external noise that wakes me up.

My latest G night was mostly a fail so this will be quick. I did enjoy a lot of very vivid dreams but I just could not hold on to awareness like I usually do plus I had quite a few distractions.

I tried to DIELD three times and got into the vibrational transition stage. I enjoyed some really amazing physical sensations but each one was interrupted by either my wife turning over or one of the cats meowing at the door or my son crying out. The last time I managed to hold on to the vibes for a long time despite interruptions but I lost focus and I either woke up or fell non lucid. I'm not sure which.

I did hit a DILD once while looking in a mirror. I recognized the bathroom I was in looked like a house from my childhood, but I quickly lost it because the nose plug failed. It's amazing how that has been happening. I even had the thought that it was too bad since this wasn't a dream because it was so clear and vivid. My reflection even looked normal for once. I then went to bed to try to do an in dream WILD but I got many interruptions even in my dream. I guess it wasn't my night.

Semi lucid:

I was trying to pee in urinal in a strange bathroom but it felt like I was about to pee myself in bed. I was in and out of lucidity there trying not to pee myself but also thinking theres a urinal in front of me. I eventually woke up in time to go to the bathroom.

Other non lucid dreams:

I won $11 million in a slot machine but the machine was giving out actual cash and ran out. I spent the rest of the dream trying to convince the casino that I deserve the rest of my cash.

I played guitar with a band for the duration of one song. This one was very life like and convincing. The feel of the strings and actual chords that I remember was spot on. After the song the dream went to some other jumbled nonsense.

There were some more but I do not remember them since I failed to record anything. I was too intent on DEILD/WILD to bother with it.

#261 - DILD - 5:34AM

I can't remember the first part of this dream but I am in some version of my parents old house. Dad is in the kitchen and mom is in the laundry room. I remember the laundry room was really dirty just a minute ago and now it is spotless. I try to focus on visual awareness like I did all day yesterday. I realize this looks like a dream and become lucid.

I walk up to my mom and in a humorous Italian mobster type voice, I yell, "Yo Mommieeeee." She looks up from folding laundry and I can't remember any goals. I think and the first thing that comes to mind is the TOTM that I already did. Not really thinking about it I ask, "Don't you have a gift for me?"
She puts her hands on her upper chest and asks, "For meeee?"
I say, "No. For me."
The she gets a look like she just remembered something and pulls out a wrapped box from a shelf. The package is in plain white paper and is about the shape and size of a book. I reach for it but suddenly have an FA

I am totally fooled this time and I am picking myself up off the floor. I see my parents on the other side of the room and I sit down in some restaurant booth feeling very tired and disoriented. This strange woman from work walks past and says, "I love being with my family." I think she is talking crazy but try to ignore her. She pulls a dish out of a microwave that is near me and puts the side of the hot dish on my check. It doesn't burn but it annoys the hell out of me. I give her a go-to-hell-look and push the bowl away. I then wake up.

#260 - DILD - 4:27AM

I get a little insomnia and thing I'll never fall back to sleep.

Now in the dream, I am look up at the ceiling thinking I need some help to get sleepy again. I start to get up to go take some melatonin but my wife grabs me. She straddles me like we are about to have sex then makes an odd statement about New Year's Eve. But this entire interaction become even more odd because now I can hear her snoring.

I decide this has to be a dream and I tell her about how is snoring and actually asleep. She wordlessly lays back down and I do to thinking I need to DEILD now. After a second, I realize how dumb this is and I get up out of bed. This is a strange shifting of the bedroom from some strange house to something closer to my actual bedroom.

The living is well lit and on my way outside I see a strange pink device with blue blinking lights. It's about the shape and size of a cell phone but has no screen. It actually resembles something more like one of those buzzers you get while waiting for a seat at a restaurant. I pick it up. There is no buzzing by the flashing lights make me want to answer it like a phone. I put it to my ear and say, "Hello."
I hear my mom's voice say something about how my wife's sister's husband is "Quitting the team." I have no idea what she is talking about but I say, "Oh now way. Really?"
Then she says, "This is a recording." and begins to repeat herself.

I am now outside on the porch and I toss the phone way into the street. I get a sudden idea and run back to the phone. I can't remember where I was trying to go but I felt like If I called a cab it would take me there. I keep my eyes on the phone so that I won't lose it and the blinking blue lights make it easy. When I pick the phone up I look for buttons but only find several metallic buttons for charging points like on the bottom of an old cordless phone. (Does anyone have land lines anymore?) I put the "phone" to my ear and start asking for a cab. I get some strange random reply from and unknown woman. I try asking again but I am having to talk over her and shes not hearing me. I become highly aware of the feel of the road on my bare feet as I walk around yelling into this strange blinking device. I suddenly wake up.

#259 - DEILD - 3:18AM

The previous dream changes into something like a shooter game. I enter an underground compound and make my way through many rooms shooting enemy soldiers. I feels like the dream had a plot but I can't remember it.

I partially wake and DEILD

I get out of bed with no vibes and enter the living room and go outside. The living room is well lit but my vision is like a strobe-light. Every time the lights came on I would start to get vibes but with the darkness it the vibes subsided. The effect was like a strange tingling throbbing in my head. I ignored this as noise and continued outside. I stood in the street of my very normal looking neighborhood trying to remember what I wanted to do in this dream. Suddenly, a large red pickup comes at me. I decide to have some fun and stand there with my head lowered ready to pounce. The truck tries to avoid me but I drive for it. The strobe light effect has wore off but now time seems to have dilated and slowed way down. I think that I might not reach the truck but I manage to catch the tailgate. I try to latch on but the entire truck bed break off in my hands.

I am now standing in my neighbors yard across the street hold a truck bed. I drop it and just sort of stare at it for a moment. I hear my dad's voice from somewhere over my shoulder. He's asking something about the truck and I just say, "His bed fell off." as I wake up.

#258 - WILD - 3:00AM

I realize that I dozed off a little too much and fully wake up. I begin visualizing to enter a dream on a pirate ship by imagining that I am the captain at the wheel. I begin to hear in my mind bits a pieces of shanties from AC4 but nothing really materializes. I switch to feeling sand with my hands and get some physical sensation on my hands.

Suddenly, it seems that I am holding a tablet so begin to draw a ship with my finger. It's crude but quickly takes cartoony shape. Watter seems to rush in and the ship breaks to pieces. I try pinching it together but it falls apart. I see two stick figures swimming and I feel that it represents my wife and I. I get caught up in playing this game and try to form something by pinching on the screen. I only get strange effects with water and clouds until I finally fall completely non lucid.

#255 - DEILD - 6:01AM

I remember a lucid fragment before this dream...

I tranform into a werewolf howling and growling. I feel tall and massive but I feel unconvinced that look the part. I roar at a dull faced, bored-looking man in a beard blocking my path. He doesn't seem convinced either. I am fooled by and FA and try to enter the dream in my DJ. After, typing a lot of words, the app doesn't look right and I worry that I may be dreaming. I feel overwhelmed. I remember no more of this dream.

I DEILD from another non lucid dream. I get vibes again but this time I don't feel like fighting to start the dream. I relax and begin to float around. Peaceful, relaxing piano music begins to play. I smile and make swimming motions as I listen. I think this is the soundtrack I may be looking for for a project I am thinking about. The piano music become over-layed with a tranquil synthesized sound. The effect is nice.

Suddenly, I feel danger and fear. My Spidey sense tells me there is something stalking me void. I make fast swimming motions and just as suddenly, the danger passes. The music never stops and I resume my relaxation.

Then out of nowhere, I see that I am floating by the large mirror in the living room. I quickly, reach out and take it off the wall. Doing so causes me to float down to the floor. for fun, I decide to look at my reflection as I walk toward the front door. To my horror the person in the mirror is a smeared, disfigured version of me. He looks like he is silently screaming as if in great pain. The sight of this confuses me and creates an unpleasant and nameless emotion. I drop the mirror, shake it off, and move outside expecting snow.

I see there is a little snow on ground and go for the Snowman TOTM. I gather up enough snow to make a small base. As I do, I still have Santa on my mind and decide to call out for him. Of course, there is no answer and the crazy hill-billy from the previous dream doesn't come to mind. Once I am done with the base, a large snowball rolls by. It's looks like a nice size for a midsection. I grab it without much thought to where it came from, slap it on, and then make a head. When I'm done, I step back and notice how small the snowman is. It's about two to three feet. I try to pinch and zoom motions as if on a touch screen. The snowman wobbles, stretches a bit but returns to it's original size. Then, the consistency of the snow becomes something like dry play-dough and cotton. The snowman begins to crumble and I try to hastily pack it back together, but to no avail. I decide it's no longer worth wasting my time and walk away.

I decide I would like to chat with a DC for whatever amount of dream time I may have. I shout out asking if anyone was around to talk to. There is no answer. I wake up.

#254 - 04:53 AM - DEILD

I DEILD from a non lucid dream and slowly vibes start up. I become excited but quickly push that away and just focus on the vibes for a moment.

I get up blind. I have to open my dream eyes and its a little difficult at first. Slowly I begin to see and I focus on an object. I am in some extra fancy remodelled version of my house. I set outside into daylight. There is a redbrick patio garden with iron chairs and table. I recognize my old friend Jackie sitting there looking at me. I shout out her name in surprise but walk past interested.

I am thrown back into an FA with vibes again. This time when I get up and open my dream eyes it feel slightly painful like my eyes are glued shut. I manage to open them regardless but see moonlight projected on my bedroom wall. I quickly close them afraid I was opening my physical eyes. I focus on seeing on the back of my eyelids as I make my way outside.

Now that I am out, I see that It's dark now. I walk into my yard, remembering my task to jack Santa's sleigh. I yell out for him and get a reply. However, it sounds like a half crazy hill-billy speaking gibberish. It seems like the voice came from a small wooden shack across the street, but I am pretty sure this isn't Santa so decide to ignore him.

Still looking for Santa, I fly up hoping to see his sleigh. It's slow going and I realize I am only halfway up the height of the tree in my front yard. I summon a jetpack hoping this will help. I push a button on the extension in front of me and hear the roar as I imagine myself projected forward. Unfortunately, I soon realize that I am barely making my way across the yard. I try for more height but I feel block like some invisible ceiling is above me. I feel the dream destabilizing and my vision going dark so I decide to land.

I end up in the shack across the street and I begin rummaging through tools for stability. It doesn't help and I soon find myself in the void. I begin to believe that I am waking up but check myself. I do a nose plug and blow clean. Not willing to give up, I look for my hands and rub. In a few seconds my vision returns and I am standing outside the shack and in the street. There is an old 80's model black hatchback sitting idle. I ask the driver for a ride and the back door pops open. I start to get in and notice there are no occupants in the car. I say out loud, "Oh hell no. I'm getting in the front. I'm driving." Now, the front driver side door pops open in submission.

When I get in, I notice and old dirty, musty smell and wonder how old this car really is. I decide to give up on Santa, but what now? China! I begin driving and the sun emerges to full noon. The neighbourhood blurs past as I drive a fast as I can. Suddenly the road ends and there’s a chain-link fence. I see a concrete barrier and a river beyond. I tell the dream that this is the border between China and the US. I pull up on the steering wheel and the car pops over the river. I tell the dream that I am now in China and I look around expecting to see things that look like China. But the dream was stubborn and instead U.S. flags begin to sprout out of the asphalt and concrete. Refusing to give in, I start thinking more about China and I begin to hear some man speak unconvincing Chinese. It's all I have so I focus on it but at that moment, I wake up.

December 24

Bed time 22 PM

WBTB 3 AM. I remembered two fragments: the first was about my friend who caught a flu and the second was about David Duchovny being a guest in some TV series.
I then took 4 mg galantamine and went back to bed

4: 50 AM I woke up from an epic journey. I remained stunned for a few minutes.

The dream started with a false awakening, although I couldn't realize it. I woke up because someone was grabbing and pinching me. Nervously i got up and went to check my phone. It began to glitch. My phone started showing some old message conversations with people I knew long time ago. I decided to go to kitchen. My mom is there. She is making coffee. On the counter I saw a Snickers. I was going to eat that for breakfast.
-I don't feel right, something strange is happening to me. -I told my mom.
-Don't be silly. -she replied and continued to twist in a kitchen.
I went to take something to put on. I opened a drawer and took a shirt. As I tried to close the drawer it stuck in the middle. I couldn't close it. I went back to kitchen to announce that the drawer doesn't close. My mom went to check it. She tried to close it and succeeded from the first time.
-What a scatterbrain... -she mumbled.
"That's strange" i thought. I checked what time was that. It was 8:52. I had to be at the bus station at 8:50 to arrive at the university for the first lecture. The first lecture was Psychology. As I couldn't make to the bus on time, I decided to pass the first lecture. I felt kind of drowsy. I felt like drunk + smoked out + tired. I started to wonder what the fuck is wrong with that drawer? Tried to open and close it again. Everything is okay. However, I always got feeling that something is wrong. The atmosphere was Matrix'ish or Inception'ish - everything is okay, but sometimes little glitches happen which make you doubt whether this is real world... AND I DIDN'T realize I WAS DREAMING. STUPID ME!


Then really weird shit happened. Some kind of dark angel appeared in front of me. It looked like that angel from Digimons, only it was black. It was female and very tall. With confidence I went to my Mom and asked:
-How would you explain that a fucking black angel is in our home?
-Look, what is wrong with you? Do you use drugs or something? -she asked.
I crumpled on the floor in disbelief that my Mother talks to me like this, that she doesn't believe me and can't help me... As I was sitting on the floor i saw the black angel becoming bigger and angrier. Her smile became evil and she laughed at me. I looked up at her and somehow it popped to my head that she feeds on my emotions. I got up, smiled and tried not to be sad. I tried not to care about "my mom not believing me" situation. And voila! The black angel became smaller and normal looking again.

She came closer to me, kneel down and showed me a silver pendant. I recognized an eye of Horus in that. Although it was more complex. The pendant was lying on the palm of the dark angel. Her palm was burnt out with that symbol. Her hand was dirty and the skin was coarse. I remember her hand in very great detail.
-One, who has this pendant, lives forever. -she said quietly, -I live the fourth time already. -added the angel. She told me she will wait me in the church and disappeared... I was thinking "damn..I am definitely not drugged or something, I am sober, I guess every in-some-way-spiritual person begins to see something more than normal people. This angel will be like my imaginative friend, or maybe my guide...."


I am at the church. There is a huge castle model inside. I see mini soldiers participating in the castle siege. Like in a video game, they survive an enemy wave and then goof around shooting team mates. It was strange because some soldiers used very modern machine guns. I saw empty golden rounds all around. My attention was caught by a lady in black. That's her! The black angel! She has changed her clothes. She was wearing a shiny tight corset expressing her waist and breasts. She didn't wear a mask. I saw her face. She had long dark hair. The black angel was beautiful and sexy but somehow not my type.

A thought came to my head: "I don't know...I don't know why I came to the church, I don't know who that black angel is. I must be careful. I can't trust her so bluntly. What if she is a demon?" I was watching her and made a cross sign with my fingers in my pocket. "If she's a demon, that should generate some reaction from her." However she didn't even looked once to my side. I saw how she pulled out her Iphone and began to talk with someone.

There was a little boar on the floor. It looked interesting. The boar was size of a foot. I came close to it and that little bastard suddenly jumped on my arm and bit me. The boar toothed to my sleeve and didn't let go. I was trying to shake it off - no luck. I started running around and shaking my hand to get rid of it. I tried to get the boar off with my other hand, but then he would stick to that hand too! Finally I found a way how to get rid of it. " I need to make a double shake off." When the boar toothed to my sleeve I grabbed it with my other hand and immediately shook it off the floor. That fury bastard didn't give up. He was running after me. And he was faster! He jumped and got his teeth in my ass. I screamed out of pain and woke up! I felt a real sting in my ass for a few seconds

I took noted about this dream and went back to bed.

8:50. Remembered one fragment about me being the only white guy in a group.
Also remembered one dream about me participating in a beatbox battle, then struggling to find a place to eat, my friend spending lots of money on alcohol, me buying him a conference ticket and so in..

15:00 I took a nap and remember one fragment about talking with my grandparents.

I heard galantamine stays in system for 48 hours, so I hope it would help me tonight too!
All in all I am very happy with such a cool dream. However I am disappointed I couldn't become lucid

#249 - DILD - 4:49AM

So I was listening to some crappy dreaming podcast and they mentioned mirror meditation to view past lives. I looked it up and it all sounded like something I wouldn't actually do but I thought why not try in a lucid dream? So that was my task for this one.

The first thing I remember is walking on a street on a warm sunny day. I suddenly hear a loud wet fart coming from the street drainage system. I laugh and assume its connected to a bathroom some place. The smell is horrible. As I try stepping over the gutter, I fall face first in the street. My movements feel sluggish and slow. As I lay there with one cheek on the warm asphalt I think this sensation feels familiar and I am missing something important. Before I realize its a dream I am able to walk again.

I make my way into a house. I still smell shit and wonder if its me. I go into a bathroom and check myself. I'm good so I make to leave. There's a cat in there wanting out but put it in and start to close the door. As I do, I notice a bowl on the counter full of cat shit. I wonder if that is the source of the smell and lean in to check. I sniff and decide that has to be it. I close the door then pause. I realize how odd it is to have cat shit in a bowl so I open the door again to take another look but the bowl is now gone.

I become lucid and remember my mirror task. Conveniently, its a bathroom so I look up and see myself in a very large mirror. I stare at my face waiting for it to change but it just looks blurry. Then, I ask, "Who was I before?" My entire reflection fades out and I see my face on another smaller person to the right. As I watch my face morphs in to a little girl who looks just a little bit like me but not anyone I could recognize. She is shirtless and has long brown hair in a ponytail. I gasp, "I was a little girl!"

She turns and walks out so I look for my reflection and it reappears. I worry that the dream will destablize and I really didn't expect for that goal to go so fast, so to stabilize while I think of something, I clap my hands and just watch my reflection while I think. I notice a few times my reflection was actually a little slower than my dream self. I laugh a little but mostly ignore that little dream hiccup. Then, I realize I too am shirtless and begin to feel very naked. So for fun, I stand on the counter to see my entire body. I am even more shocked when I have a vag! At first I freak a little and feel for my penis but all I feel is vag. Not just vag but it feels very small. I rub it a little but get no pleasure from it. Then I decide this is a all a joke and I laugh out loud. I say "I'm a girl."

I turn to the open bathroom door and see a dude walking by. I spread it and shout, "Hey! I'm a girl!" He ignores me but I briefly get some OpheliaBlue ideas. I think I don't really want to go there. Besides this is all too funny for that. I walk down a hallway with my naked hairy man body and little girl vagina shouting, ,"Hey, Look at me. I'm a girl." I turn a corner and blindly enter some room. Both of my daughters are playing and they freeze when they see me. The look of horror on their faces makes me pause. I have that awkward moment of inaction and I suddenly feel completely embarrassed. After a moment I slowly back away saying nothing. Thankfully, my wife rolls over waking me up.

I had an LD during the first hour of sleep but stupid me didn't try to recall or DJ it. I was so sleepy that I didn't even care. Basically, I fell asleep with a mantra and started noticing HI or what I thought was HI. I realized I must be dreaming. All I can recall was running around some neighbourhood exploring.

#248 - WILD - 4:00AM

I wake from a dream and hold still to DEILD. The vibes come almost right away but I realize my wife has an elbow in my side and it bothers me so I adjust breaking my DEILD.

I get comfortable and WILD. Soon I start getting motions with no vibes. I spend a lot of time surging forward and up and down at incredible speeds. The "G Forces" gets me stomach with each surging to the point that my whole body tenses up and its almost uncomfortable. All the while I see multicoloured geometric shapes and hear a strange electronic stumping sound. I hold on and enjoy the ride but really want to get dreaming.

I begin to see a projection on the wall of my bedroom and all the geometric shapes are now on that. Soon it morphs into a blurry scene with people so I reach forward and press into it. There is a lot of resistance but I manage to get in. I look around but everything is a blurry mess and it all collapses.

I don't wake up but return to my bed. I begin to feel horny and suddenly I see two cheerleaders cheering in front of an audience in a GYM. They look old enough and I go for one. Long story short, I tackle her and lift her skirt and go at it. The other walks by and I grab her ankle pulling her to me. I then give her oral while doing the other. I stop myself just before this turns into a wet dream. I'm a little disgusted myself.

Suddenly I'm back in bed. I think to just get up and walk. There is a little resistance but I manage. I kick myself for not trying this in the first place. I realize I feel extremely wet though I think its probably just because of the idea of a wet dream. I am in some strange studio apartment and see a bathroom door. Some woman passes in front of me but I ignore her. I wake up.