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31st July 2021

Fragment:

(chronology and order a bit messed up in recall)

I'm travelling through space back to Earth. I have to travel so far that it takes two hundred years to get back to Earth. It's implied I use some kind of cryogenic sleep and for me only moments seem to have passed between all the travelling. But I remember time spent during travel. At some point I fiddle on with a mini-disc player that can supposedly output video signal around the back. I have some frustrations with the player. I note that its model is an "MD-6" and recall that it looks a bit like a high end CD player we have in our bedroom in waking life.

This mini-disc player is on the floor and this bit looks a bit like my parents' old room. Where mom's study used to be, the enclosed balcony bit, is like a viewing area and I can see into space; it extends further than it would in waking life. There's a planet or two and a star, white? Space is pretty black and realistic in that sense of it.

I think about how mini-disc as a format wasn't meant for video output and understand that to be part of my frustrations with getting the unit to work (the way I want it to?). I don't recall a screen or what the video was anymore, but I do recall watching some of it.

(gap)

Some other part aboard the ship, talking to another crew member?

(gap)

When I get back to Earth, the year is 2400 or so. There are alien overlords of several species, dealing with unrest on Earth. I do not feel opposed to their presence, but I feel annoyed at all of it in general. One of the alien overlords is a giant and grey scaly creature, which I like the look of. Another one, whom I'm with in a semi-circle room with a glass dome, is a bit bigger than the average human and looks yellow and a bit chubby.

(gap)

I loop back to returning to Earth on the ship again. This time, by the time I'm back on Earth again, the year is 3500. Humanity is (apparently) incredibly advanced now. I am inside a structure, a latticed sphere building of some kind, which likely wouldn't work with conventional construction techniques, I feel. At the centre of this structure, there are platforms and some humans.

The humans are gene editing themselves, they look very different from how a human should. I remember some are much bigger and some look a bit stretched in some sense. There is some kind of weird mohawk fashion going on. I think I have some thoughts on this.

I feel annoyed again, about so much time having passed since I was last on Earth. I think about how they have all this technology and they didn't do anything about me needing to return to Earth with cryogenic sleep. I think I feel myself partly loathing them and partly feeling distant from them because I am essentially from the past.

After a break on Tuesday night, where I had a strange dream about being chased by a mob of vegan socialists the car dream returned last night.

The wait in the car was like it has been since the dream returned where my sister is invading my space trying to get me to talk with her and it is all I can do to avoid her nasty breath.

What I remember the most from last nights dream was my mom while she was trying to get the car started. In addition to being frustrated that the car was not starting, she was taking a break from trying to start the car after every few cranks to tell me that I needed to calm down. I don't think I was doing or saying anything while she was trying to get the car started, but for some reason she kept making it a point to let me know I needed to calm down and relax. She also kept saying things like that she was doing the best she could do and that she knew she would get it started. I have never really noticed moms breath in the dream but when she was invading my space telling me I needed to calm down, her breath smelled just as bad as my sisters always does. She got out to look under the hood a few times and each time made a point of telling me to stay buckled in my seat. As always happens, I woke up while mom was still trying to start the car.

Not sure why mom kept telling me to calm down or why her breath reeked when she said this.

It all starts out with a "normal" dream i am in a jungle and im with some guy who is telling me to go find a dragon to tame he points to a path to follow and i set out on my adventure. the path is closed in by cliff faces on both sides so it turns out to be like a hedge maze. i'm just walking through thinking how cool it would be to ride a dragon and up above by the next intersection, pirate-skeletons and zombies pour out from every direction i draw a sword and start fighting it out i'm slowly pushing my way closer and closer to where i think the dragon is. after a long battle i end up in an opening the cliffs are still surrounding me but i am in a spherical opening, i watch as a dragon comes down from the sky i approach it carefully no sudden movements. then from above on the cliff more zombies and skeletons drop down and now the dragons rocking pirate attire and they all gang attack me. Now i am randomly in school exiting out the back to get on my bus its raining the cold thick rain pours down on me its kind of windy and very cold i walk to where my bus should be but all the other busses are there except mine. i stand and wait patiently and all of a sudden there is an explosion and planes are raining down from the sky in flamming wrecks! wings crash on the field then helicopters decide to join the party and start crashing as well. all i can hear are explosions and thunder people run inside saying "They are coming get inside!" i get a sense of fear and run in with a friend she is frightened out of her mind once we are in school she whispers follow me all the lights in the school are off and she leads me to a door inside its a small dark room with boxes everywhere stacked on one another with a small window opposite the door. she goes behind some boxes left of the door and explains that there used to be a window there we look out the window and gaze at the dark sky and lightning i look down only to notice im about 8 stories up even though we entered the room on the first floor two guys come out from behind boxes and say that they have been hiding for a while as well they have a random lightsource made from an LED and a 9v battery they place it on the floor and we all sit in a circle around it we discuss how to defend ourselves and we block off the door then i said "we dont have to worry about the window we are pretty high up it's not like they could climb up here." i stood up and walked to the window to look at the chaos and noticed a black hand on the outside ledge of the window i called out in a whisper telling everyone to get down and cover your faces before it pulls itself up! as i was tucked down in the corner i was thinking about what happens if it sees us and about life and death and realized this isnt real by recalling how i got 8 floors up. i said to myself "hey im dreaming" and stood up i looked at the three DCs and then at the window and dived out of it wanting to fly but for some reason i just plummeted to the ground that was a shock and a half but i instinctively did a roll when landing, and stood up to observe my surroundings. the rain had stopped and i was no longer near school i landed on a street but there where 4 lanes on each side i looked at where i came from noticing the window i had dived out of now belonged to a large hotel about 30 stories high beside it was a street and a gas station with bushes behind it i decided i was going to search for my dream guide an started walking on the empty road up a hill infront of me i called out "DreamGuide DREAMGUIDE" many times only to hear a booming angry familiar voice it was my dreamguides and the voice felt like it was all around me she was screaming "Why have you not found me yet? Why is it you have time for other things when your lucid and not for me? I thought you were ready to see me but i don't know anymore" I replied "i'm trying to find you now" and she was like sarcastically "Oh yah walking and shouting that works" or something along those lines then she qouted me saying "I'd do anything to find my dream guide even if i had to run forever" yah right she said then becoming angrier and shouting "Well why are you not running now hmmm?" i replied with "i don't even know what direction your in then she screamed "IT DOESN'T MATTER RUN RUUUUNNNN" at this point i just took off in the direction i was looking. i was so scared i was thinking "dont hurt me" i pretty much turned to mush as i sprinted for a while up the hill only to be told "FASTER! RUN FASTER!" and floating letters came up which i knew where from her that said "KILLERKOMP: asdfgds" as she growled at me then, she told me "i'm done with you for now if you can't find me soon i might aswell give up on you" then she sighed and woke me up. when i woke up i immediatly started thinking what i did to piss her off the first time i called out to her she replied with a sweet voice, and the second time i went looking for her i woke up feeling like she was ready to let me find her. I think its because i kind of went back on my word and wasn't trying as hard as i should of to find her. well hopefully i can go lucid and apoligize to her and finally meet her. BTW i think because of her anger i can't use any sort of dream control Ohhh and now that i think back maybe shes testing me or im genuinely bad at dreamcontrol but i was able to fly at high speed and perfectly in my second lucid dream and it was the first lucid dream i tried to fly in so why can't i now? well whatev hopefully i can get out of this situation, my dream guide wouldn't hurt me or abandon me right? RIGHT!?

I would be writing it here.

Man, I am pissed off. I had such a good experience with that first WILD I attempted, felt like I got pretty far and was excited to try again. But these last nights I am getting nothing.. I know I am dreaming but I have little to no recall. I wake up just remembering the barest of fragments, not even enough to write two sentences with. When I attempt WBTB, I fall asleep every time

It's like that one episode was this wonderful shining oasis in a desert, and now I'm dying of thirst again. I know I must be patient, but it's SO not one of my virtues!

Me thinks I needs meh a new technique... or... something.

On a side note, lower doses of B6 (50mg) seem to be working better. No night terror last night. Woot!

i remember being in school when my father who randomly hapened to be there asked me what was Oakville, i answered him telling him its a city in Ontario. Then i found myself on a mountain over a river and i remember seeing water towers, he ones that contain water. All of a sudden i was forced to go on the back of a pink dragon!this dragon was very big so much so that i could only see its "head" i then realised that it was a dream i desperately tried to stay in the dream but it faded away and i woke up pissed off!this is my first entry i didnt know the techniques to stay in a dream wich is why it ended so quickly,lol. Strangely enough though this morning my sister asked me what is Oakville