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I don't know if it's me going to bed earlier or what, but my recall has been uber high. Still want to get it a little better - I don't want just long and many dreams, I want to remember more details.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

10.27.2010

Two Sides (Non-lucid)

Anime-style. There's a girl who has two sides. In teal-haired mode she can summon her minions. A boy (brown hair) is friends with the light pink-haired side of her.

The teal half wants the boy's soul or something and sends her minions after him. At one point he's hiding in a closet clutching the door shut as hard as possible.

- At one point he(?) is in a dark place like a chamber, blindly searching for pink girl. His hand touched a little lock on a grate on the floor.

Mmm, Donuts (Non-lucid)

I was in class. I stacked some books on my desk and put them under the chair. They were heavy and it hurt my hands, but I made sure not to show anything. An angel walked around the room and stopped at me. She came up close, clutched my fists in hers and said a special message to me - general uplifting things, and she healed my hands. It did seem to make the pain almost disappear.

Dad was at the front of the class ahead of me (I think I was on the second row to the right, three or four desks down). I believe some kids were talking about roleplaying games, and dad started talking about Nascar and the gestures to indicate driving. I followed him out of the room and glomped him. I told about him about the angel.

He ended up dragging me to the doctor's office in the school(?). We were sitting on a window-seat type area, me kind of hidden behind him. The doctor came in and dad made a joke about me, something about being dead that was supposed to mean that I was invisible. He asked if it was okay for me to be there. The doctor asked him to strip down, and he did, down to his gray boxers which he owns in real life.

Suddenly there's a kitchen area in front of us and people are making donuts in a big deep friar. She sees me eying them and gives me a tiny piece, saying that she 'can share her donuts'. As she gives me a bigger piece, dad leans over to the side and snags his own. The donuts are like glazed ones, but with chocolate on top.

- Jacob was sitting beside me in class.
- My hands began hurting again soon.
- When Dad was talking about Nascar, I turned to Jacob and said 'that's my dad', but he didn't seem impressed.

The half-asleep mind is seriously a strange thing. It had me convinced that I didn't have many dreams, or that I hadn't written them down much, so I didn't type them up. I turn off my computer for the night and go to check out my DJ, and find five dreams written down, and I remember the majority of them!

I'm over halfway down the very last page, so I've decided to end it there - my dreams for tonight probably won't fit in the space left. So I have a shiny new journal that I've been holding onto to use now. I had the first one for...two years and five months, wow...and nine lucid dreams in that time. I hope I have more in my new journal!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

10.26.2010

Kicked Out (Non-lucid)

We (me, mom and dad) arrive at a big storage unit in the van. They open it and look inside, but it's empty. They call to find out why.

I'm in the van sitting up front. There are two iPods mounted up on both sides, mom's and dad's. I turn them on but only frequency sounds comes through - fuzzy, beeps. I think they even had dials.

~ Somehow there's a couple game show type thing or something going on, and the man and women don't win together though I think they got along well. Later, they chat online publicly, a second chance to meet or something. They hit a snag when the man disagrees with something she says and they can't get along after that. She logs off. (I was actually able to see the text, but I don't remember it all.)

I pulled the van out of the driveway until it's turned around. A truck across from me pulls out and drives away.

My parents come back. I think I say sorry and explain that I didn't know how to turn back around. We pull in somewhere else and they get out and start talking to someone. I hear something about 'September'. 'Have until September'. I feel that something is wrong and I get teary.

I open my door/it's already open, and then person looks in and makes some joke about how it's 'the director's fault', and looking at me as if that's me. I'm not amused. I go to stand by my parents, and mom tries to look comforting.

- I think it was either about the storage or our house. We're going to have to leave it (the house) or we have to pay it (storage). I think I wonder what happened to our stuff. In real life, it's already past September though. I think I realized that in the dream.

Your Beauty Mark (Non-lucid)

Beauty mark - one to age, one to de-age. They're a sign of crushes.

Learning Japanese (Non-lucid)

There was a facility to learn Japanese. There was more to this dream, but I don't remember it.

Oriental (Non-lucid)

I was in this place that had a bunch of Oriental things in it. I wandered around looking at everything. There was boxes with old designs on them - women in Asian garb, etc. There were rocks with gems in them. Jewelry. I handled everything very carefully. It was all expensive, and I think I wondered what I should buy, because it was kind of rude to handle everything without buying something in the end.

- I'm looking at some pajamas hanging on a rack. They've got designs from Supernatural on them. Me and a guy pick out a top and bottom pair and go try them on, but mine don't quite fit - too big.

- Something about a potato chip that served as a key...

Abandoned (Non-lucid)

I(?) was driving through a flooded forest area. A little girl (looking pretty dirty) was sitting abandoned on a rock. I get out to get her.

Changed my colors. Also, only one page left in my dream journal! Then I move onto a new one. This one is starting to look beat up anyway, from being in my bed. Plus the cats trampling all over it. I've had it since June 2008. I hope that the next one will go faster - because it has longer entries in it, not just a bunch of fragments!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

10.25.2010

Darkness (Non-lucid)

I think it was completely dark. A creature made of dark substance was attacking me over and over again, and it couldn't be killed.

Bugs? (Non-lucid)

Star Trek like world. A guy wearing a Trek uniform took out something from it that was covered with black dots. He looked to the doorway were a woman was standing, giving her a questioning look as he held it up.

A Book Lover's Habit (Non-lucid)

We either went to a bookshop or walked through one. As we were leaving, I got distracted by looking at book titles and then the two people in the room. I said something to them and started to leave, and again, and the last time I started to leave I really got distracted. I think we talked about a previous transaction I had with them, and then we talked about these two forms, green and red, and something about one or both of them being my consultant.

I started to fill out the green form hurriedly, and my writing was messy. I accidentally signed my name (looking really bold, like I'd embellished it) in Japanese, as ケイトリン, and the woman pointed it out to me. I said it was an accident and wrote my real first name under it.

She said it was okay, and then started talking in Spanish about how someone she knew said some phrase sometimes. She repeated the phrase twice, and it was short. Might have had 'que' in it.

I knew mom was going to be mad, because she was outside in the car waiting. I took the red form with me to fill out later.

I got in the car and yep, mom was mad. I'm pretty sure there was someone else in there too. I was apologizing, and as I gestured, a half-eaten green sucker I had in my hand flew off the stick and landed somewhere in her direction. That actually eased the tension and we laughed a bit.

- Earlier: 'Bike', paint, my sister

- Might have taken place in this dream: masturbation in my mom's bathroom.

Fragments (Non-lucid)

~ My sister told me that she liked 'BL/yaoi'. She explained that gay relationships were more complex and interesting than the relationships you normally see in shows (which is actually my reason). I believe this took place in her living room, and her boyfriend was in the room.

- Mom, mad, my friend, pix?

~ I believe I(?) was in this room full of people. There was this game where you have to kiss someone or you're killed. Me and a boy shared a (bad) kiss. Then we had sex. Most explicit sex dream I've had in a while, and I think most detailed.

Bladder Desperation (Non-lucid)

Deja vu dream, as if I'd gone through the ordeals in it before.

Takes place in a school-like place.

I have to use the bathroom, but every one I come to has too many people around, and it's mixed. At one point I start to go in one but a guy comes in!

I pass a food court and a girl calls out to me, saying something like 'you're sitting with us, right?'. I look and the people at the table don't particularly seem familiar. I get the feeling she doesn't want someone else to take the seat. I pass on.

I see a girl, possibly with short dirty-blonde hair (I think she works there) and ask her if she knows of a private bathroom I could use. She takes me with her and we go to the staff area, where the counter is. We squeeze past them (I think the manager guy is there) as the girl explains that I really have to go. The guy and a few others tease me, saying something about bladder desperation and how it can be hot.

- Somewhere around here, I look at my finger and it has salt on it. I lick it off, and the guy says I should eat it with ice cream (I think this was inspired by me wanting to try french fries with ice cream in real life).

He (and a few others?) end up coming along with us, leading me through some very weird obstacles, one being having to wait for just the right moment for these yellow bed foam pads to swing away before you dived onto this other slippery, squeezing material and dug your way through. It was extremely hard and I didn't think I was ever going to claw my way out.

When we finally get there, it's a small space with netted areas off to the side. People are sitting at a table on one side, and on the other there's a guy playing with a kid on some more foam I believe.

I'm pretty worried, because the whole reason I couldn't go before is because I have a shy bladder, but there's people here too, and in a closed space.

I think they realize I can't go there when they see the people. One guy suggests that there's a place outside I could go - think he had before. I think I considered that I'd need toilet paper then.

- Earlier?: I'm singing on a show (with Lizzie McGuire?). We're sitting in a classroom.
- There was a girl sitting beside me and I mistook her for someone I knew who looked just like her, only she had one eye (I watched a Futurama episode night about Leela). I believe it's the two-eyed girl who tells me I sing well, even though I thought I wasn't singing my best because we weren't actual recording. We sung more than once.

Note: The whole reason for this dream was because I went to bed having to go, and every time I woke up after that I ignored it. Just before this dream my bladder was definitely started to get annoyed with me, but once more I ignored it. It was actually really interesting to see the dream that resulted from it.

My sleep schedule has done a complete turn in the last few days - I've been going to bed at the same time as my friend, and my recall is already improving. But man, being tired a lot is no fun. *yawn* Hopefully that'll improve soon.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

07.09.2010

School Life (Non-lucid)

Axis Powers Hetalia dream. School AU, Spain x Romano. The two were talking, especially Romano about his life, and he brought up Rome. Spain got a little sad, because Rome had been his teacher and he was dead now. Italy was also mentioned.

~Spain unbuttoned Romano's shirt to see his chest, which had writing on it.

~Romano took a shower?

~Fragments: Class, kids - 1, doesn't know answer

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APH Fragment (Non-lucid)

All I know was that it was Axis Powers Hetalia again and that it was about a couple. :/ I fell asleep before I could write it down.

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Crash Landing (Non-lucid)

Horrible vehicle accident dream. Took place at Renee Lane. I was driving in a truck(?) all over the yard, and apparently I flipped a switch that made me go really fast and I couldn't stop. I go flying over a hill but when I crash, I am no longer in the truck, but watching from the yard. I run over the hill panicking because mom and dad are in it, and how could anybody survive a crash like that?

When I get there, both of them are getting out looking banged up. I think I ask how dad is.

~Something about an injection in the neck. The tip was green.

~Something about me breaking a couple of fingers or maybe toes.

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Musical (Non-lucid)

There was a musical with four girls on stage. In the beginning I am one of the girls, and we're doing this part where we're sitting down and crossing our legs back and forth. It didn't really matter how we did it as long as we did it fast, but you had to start over again if you flubbed one a certain way.

Then I'm in the audience with my old school friend L. She tells me a story about how her 4 year old brother was killed by her other brother so that L, who was 2-3, could have his marrow to save her life. I think he got off because he was 'trying to save his sister'.

Someone in the audience asks the girls on stage what the 'funniest line' was. The middle girl thinks about it, says the line and explains why it's funny.

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H2 (Non-lucid)

Masturbation dream in the bathroom (not the one in RL). At one point Riley was in there, and jumped out. I thought to myself that that must be how she got on the something or other in the hall.

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Signing In (Non-lucid)

Mom needed help figuring out how to sign into a wallpaper site because she accidentally logged out. We couldn't find it anywhere though. She decided to call the site's tech support.

- On the left-hand side of the page in big letters was the word FUCK. I think I figured it was her username.
- When I woke up I got that deja vu feeling that the site was familiar.

Whew, the power went off at least twice last night! Scared the pea soup out of me at 1 A.M., but I did get to write down a dream.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

06.09.2010

Generator (Non-lucid)

The Axis Powers Hetalia characters had different names. I was coming up with scenarios for them.

Note: For the past week I've been working on a writing scenario generator.

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Stalking the Floor (Non-lucid)

Riley was walking slowly, crouched along the floor beside my bed.

In real life, I looked over the side of my bed and made a noise to get her attention - but she wasn't there.

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Two Rings (Non-lucid)

A bad guy was after these three tiny flying people for the two rings they had - one with a white diamond and one with two birthstones in it. The little people were young.

The oldest one (a boy) was captured but managed to get away, bad guy following behind. While distracting him, the little person dropped the rings in two separate places along the road. The bad guy almost caught him with the second one, but the little person distracted him again.

~ He went to a building that the other two (think one was a girl) were in. He had the diamond ring and tapped some morse code out to get their attention. They flew over and talked to him.

- There was swimming in the beginning I think, in really murky water. 'I' was worried about how I'd keep track of the other two, but then someone grabbed 'me', I think.

- In the end, the bad guy was dragged off by the police(?) for something else. Disturbing the peace?

- To fly, the little guy kept having to get a running start to get going.

1. My family and I are visiting my paternal-side grandparents. In our car, there's a weird bottle with the Joker's eyes, hair, and mouth on it, the idea being that you hold the empty bottle up in front of your face and it makes you look like said Clown Prince of Crime. For the lulz, I end up singing "no, he can't read-a my Joker face~" (despite how much I can't stand the actual song in waking life)

When we get to the grandparents' house, I get a call from my friend that she's not going to pick me up for our vacation until a day later. I get remarkably upset.

2. Something about a machine that weaves incredibly soft T-shirts out of only a handful of cotton fluff. Threading the machine is a bit of a challenge, and you have to hold on to the end of the cotton throughout the entire process, but the results are cool.

3. Something about sneaking into a building through an air vent.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

13.06.2010

Humans for Vampires, Apparently (Non-lucid)

Fragments...

Spike (from Buffy the Vampire Slayer) got stabbed in the stomach. I was crying and helping him along. We got to my sister's house, I banged on the door. When we went inside, there was Edward (from Anita Blake: Vampire Hunter) with a weapon concealed as some household item (like an umbrella). He's crouched down and looking antsy. He's not happy with me barging in.

Earlier...I walked up to Spike, and when he turned around I saw that he was all pale(r than normal) and looked sick. I joked to him that 'he was still attractive though'. He started burning/blistering in the sunlight, though it wasn't that bright and we were under the shadow of a roof thing. Maybe that's when I saw he had a stab wound?

'Oops, I Did it Again' by Britney Spears was playing in McDonalds at some point. What's the McDonald dreams???

We (me and ?) were chasing after a woman who'd apparently caused this. Think we saw her at an airport. She was a mix of anime and real life and it was curious who she seemed out of place, and reminds me of Lum from Lum Invader (pictured above, only taller, older and deep green, shiny hair).

She/the enemy was sorry and sowed up Spike's wound in apology.

Notes: I don't actually find Spike attractive, so that remark was interesting. I haven't heard that song in forever either. And this is my second McDonalds dream...is it because of APH or is my subconscious is just craving Mickey D's? XP

Had a hard time getting to bed and was stressed (realized I had to get up real early again to go somewhere), so I think that effected my dream recall this morning. I woke up a lot buuut.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

12.06.2010

Akai Kami (Non-lucid)

Fragment: There was someone with red hair...

Fragments 1 (Non-lucid)

Keywords: Big cauldron, future self, Harry Potter

Fragment 2 (Non-lucid)

Fragments: Flying enemies in the sky, McDonalds

The Chase (Non-lucid)

Lithuania (hair up) and Liechtenstein (from Axis Powers Hetalia) chasing after a big disk thing. It was outdoor on like, a hill with grass and sidewalk/stairs.

$okane$ (Non-lucid)

Money - I was putting bills (my own I believe) in my purse.

I found myself getting frustrated this morning when I couldn't remember some stuff. I need to calm down, because I definitely will improve. It's weird that I got like that...guess I'm just excited and impatient. I think I'm already improving surprisingly rapidly for the really bad sleeping schedule I've just started fixing.

Seems I have the most recall trouble the very first time I wake up. I look at the clock and see that I usually wake up every other REM cycle, and sometimes one after the other. It's cool!

I'm super excited about dreaming tonight~ I woke up 4 times the day before yesterday, and 3 times this morning. I hate when I wake up and feel like my bed is the most uncomfortable thing ever...

Still, excited!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

11.06.2010

Two fragments (Non-lucid)

Two fragments.

1: Yaoi, Japanese, two people wanted to do shared dreaming.

2: Blind

Black and White Inu (Non-lucid)

This is only the second dream ever that takes place in my current house.

We have two little curly-haired dogs. One is white, the other brown. At one point the brown one's face reminds me of a GSD because when I look at it, it's looks changed.

Mom gave it a weird two-word name - the first name is something to do with cars. I call it by the second word, which it responds to. It reminds me of how Finland from Axis Powers Hetalia has a terrible naming sense and names their dog 'Bloody Hanatamago' (Bloody Flower Egg).

The cats were in mom's room, where she and I were talking. She asks if it was I who said something to someone else earlier (something about sexuality) and I replied with an affirmative. Then someone comes in wanting something.

- At some point I called the brown dog's name. It came out from under the bed? and scared the cats, who ran for it.

Gap.

I go into my (old) room. My music on the computer is stuck on a loop. I turn the monitor on, and the screen is messed up. I press the restart button just as the music starts again.

That's when I see the presents on the desks wrapped in red Christmas wrapping. I feel like this scene happened twice. I've had that happen before, where a scene will replay, but it's usually different in some way. I go to find mom. Dad is in the kitchen, and I see another flat package in white wrapping with decorations on top of the trash can which is in front of the (current house) sink.

I tell mom that I almost didn't notice the presents.

- Worried what song mom heard when she was in my room to put the presents on the desk.

Sweet Water (Non-lucid)

*France and I were standing in a room full of people from Axis Powers Hetalia.

*I think it might have been a girl at first, maybe RJ? For that matter France may have been someone else.

There's a table beside us with makeup stuff on it. He dips a finger in lip gloss and holds it up and indicating that I do the same, smirking. Then we apply it to each others lips, laughing. There are two people with a video camera behind us to the left, and when they raise it towards us, France says, 'you're too late'.

Then somehow there are two Frances. The second one is offering us this container (looks like the pill box my mom has) that has clear liquid in the slots.

He asks if we want to try it. The first France tries it. Then I try to figure out how to drink it. If I raise it to my lips to swallow, it will spill. In the end I end up darting out my tongue and tasting it. It's sweet, like sugar water. The second France has a gleam in his eye and a part of me wonders if it's an aphrodisiac.

- There were these booths. I think I imagined what each was for, including a a couple making out it one.

Handicapped (Non-lucid)

In school(?) a band of Japanese (and a few American) kids (and midgets?) come out and sing a song in English and Japanese. There's a walkway and stage. The room is filled by students. I'm in a line to the left of the walkway.

We all clap a lot in response. A couple of people go up onto the stage and say thank you. Shika (from my old school and looking just as young) is one. As she talks, she also does sign language for those with handicaps.

Someone asks her if someone is considered handicapped (he had like three things wrong with him) - she says 'of course'.

I think this part of the same dream:

Apparently we were doing this project. I was the '_ River' (_ = a Japanese word I can't remember). A Japanese boy (who may have looked like my old classmate Cobb) turned and asked me in Japanese something about the River. I responded yes even though I didn't fully understand him.

D/s (Non-lucid)

Caution: BDSM contents below. No sex.

Note: This could take place in the school setting dream. I do recall that we were facing something - that could have been the stage.

I was one of a group of people sitting in some chairs. I say to my neighbor that I'm not going to the *my last name* reunion - that most of the *last name*'s that I know are in the other state anyways. She agrees.

Gap.

Somehow I end up in a tentative Dom/sub relationship with her*. It just kind of developed into it.

More gaps.

We're in a pretty bare room. The bed has light green-ish sheets. I ask her a question about what she expects from me. She says something in response, and how she's new at this so doesn't know what to do. I think to myself 'whatever turns you on' but don't say it aloud. She says something about how one thing did turn her on.

Before, I had been uncertain about what exactly she wanted from me, so I was clumsy in my responses. But now I knew what she wanted from me - she wanted me to take it, not be reactive. I'd been struggling between those two or being humiliated.

- I'm wearing shoes similar to my high-top brown ones in RL. One is messed up, it makes my walking uneven. I have to stop to fix it in the room. Think this was before the questioning.

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We're called out of the room by a man, perhaps a police officer for questioning. He says that someone called him in saying that they saw slavery going on.

- After some talking... He says, "You didn't even tell your brother (or sister? sibling?)."

- I thought it was no wonder, because Gilbert (from Axis Powers Hetalia) would never let her** live it down.

*'Her' might have actually been my friend Pillywiggin. Yesterday I was thinking of how awesome it'd be to have a shared dream with her. Instead she (maybe) just appeared in this dream... Oops.

**Gilbert has a brother, Ludwig, who is teased for being into BDSM because Germany in general supposedly has a lot of BDSM porn. So I associate these characters with it, probably why Gil ended up in the dream. 'Her' might have became him, 'Ludwig'; I can't remember the pronoun used.

Note 2: First time my last name was said aloud in a dream. Not sure if my first has been... I don't remember if so.

* June 11: Couldn't post this yesterday because I was gone all day!

This morning was great! I woke up a lot (even though I kind told myself not to, because I knew I needed to get up early). It was frustrating a few times because I'm always a bit hot and generally uncomfortable when I woke up - but I always got back to sleep, so.

Before sleep I meditated with my CD and I love how it puts me right to sleep. XP Also, each time I woke up after, I used my autosuggestion mantra to stop my mind from running rampant. It seemed to help. ♥

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

10.06.2010

Personifications (Non-lucid)

Personifications (anthropomorphic) of countries are real but unseen. Against the advice of others, I 'chose' some as, like, patrons or something.

In the end I was checking out America, boisterous as in Axis Powers Hetalia.

- Something about them being nameless.

- "I avoided them before, but now I'm choosing a lot/many." - me aloud

Dream evolves: It was more than that. They actually became a part of you, like in your mind. Some had names I think, and it wasn't countries anymore.

Note: Inspired by Axis Powers Hetalia.

The Art of Wart Removal (Non-lucid)

We are looking for something. We step in a room (which I believe is the room from my old house, but with nothing in it) and my mom's South Western blanket (black, orange, some red) is spread to cover the whole floor. A woman sits at the back on top of it.

We sit down on the floor at the other end. One man on my right and two people on my left I believe.

She starts talking about warts and how to remove them. She says that one reason you can get them is because of something to do with your period. I don't recall what else she said. However, I do recall some Japanese words, but they were in my head I think... And I tried to look up one (in katakana I believe) in my JWPce (Japanese word processor) but it wasn't in there.

The whole reason I think she was talking about warts is because beforehand, mom gave me a tiny tube of wart remover (blue lid, white tube, had some other small text on it). There were no instructions on it. I couldn't remember how to use it (so I went to look for mom to help maybe?).

Note: This is so weird, seriously. Warts? I haven't had one in years! Haven't even thought of the word itself. Ah subconscious...

Net Flooring (Non-lucid)

I was walking on the floor in one of my really old bedrooms (Renee Lane). It had some kind of clearish net over it. I toed one of the holes, it was wider than the rest like someone had stretched it. I didn't see anything in the room.

Apparently I had once had this really cool bed made of rope and net and such, but while it was nifty, it was dysfunctional for sleeping on so it was taken down.

APH Fancomic (Non-lucid)

I was watching an Axis Powers Hetalia fancomic sequence go by (in my head, yet not). It seemed to be humorous. There was England, Japan (UKJp?) and other characters.

Only thing is, I think I was awake. I opened my eyes. So I might have been in a scene. I get those fairly often, but this was just so BAM right there and I didn't realize I was awake. Hm! It was really cool though.

Taking Advantage of a Kidnapping (Non-lucid)

A bad guy told 'me' to call my parents and read out a code. He was surprisingly young (,not much taller than me) and had blond, short, curly-ish hair.

Only the code was messed up - it was like part of it had been erased, or written over. I showed it to him. He wasn't happy.

I can't tell if it was 'my' mother or father, so I'm going with father. So when I talked to my father, he sounded so dull, like he wasn't feeling anything. I didn't notice until this conversation:

Me: "He's stronger than me. I may not make it. I just want you to know that I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you."
Father: "Okay."
Me: Says something... "I have to go." maybe?

When he just said 'okay' so dully, I briefly worried if he cared what was happening.

This is kind of a gap, but I think I either beat up the guy or he just disappeared and I assumed that I beat him up. Some guys came and took him away.

I was in this area (of the house?) and I had these little square gray-ish pellets. I threw them into these little houses and they exploded. I remember throwing one in and shielding my face. It was cool.

But then I thought of something, and felt around in one of the houses as if there was supposed to be something in them. But it was empty. Just cool to the touch black flooring.

I threw a pellet into this little oil lamp and it set on fire. Cool, again.

Gap?

But then I realized that...there's food in the kitchen! I rushed over. I wondered where the trash bags were, thinking they might be under the sink which is where we keep them in RL. But then I spotted one on the counter. The area was just like my grandma's in RL.

I grabbed the bag and started putting stuff in it. There were a lot of chips (I remember cheese puffs in a freezer bag, barbecue flavor, and one other type of barbecue flavor or something I'd never seen before) in plastic bags.

In one of the bags was a green bottle of some alcoholic beverage with some other little things. I decided to take it with me. I wondered how mom would feel about me drinking it.

Then I knew I needed to put the fire out because it would take too long for me to get everything packed and out of the house.

The fire was actually in the wall, and blazing around one area...and it went down in a strip down a nice cupboard. It was really cool looking, very similar to real fire except for the way it spread. Too slow and contained.

I grabbed a pot (with dried candle tart in the bottom?), filled it with some water and splashed it on the wall. It didn't quite put it out, so I did it again.

Gap.

RL Mom (and dad?) came. She asked why I was taking food, because we had some at home - but she always says that even when we're super low. I said, "But not junkfood." She couldn't say anything to that. XD

She started going through the stuff and helping me. I felt a bit jealous that she was getting to see things - I didn't want to miss out on all the good stuff. I was pretty excited!

Mom said that she hoped she wouldn't be the one having to carry all the stuff out. I said of course not, that I would be.

I found some cereal - lucky charms and a bag of some other kind. I said that it was what I had been planning to get the next time we went to the store. (It wasn't really, I was just excited and they looked good.)

Gap-ish...

I saw that there was stuff on top of the refrigerator. Candles, picture frames, a few other doodads and later, flowers in pots. Everything is so nice looking and I got excited again. I started taking off the things that I wanted.

I got excited...again! when I found a Lucid Dreaming candle. It even had instructions on how to use it on the side. It was white and blue.

When I went to show mom, she pointed out that I had brought the 'Good Fortune' candle instead. There was another one on the fridge as well that had a beautiful mythical woman on it. It was a lovely rose madder color, and written on it was a line about how once burned, the effects would last for a while.

Then I saw the flowers. At first there was just some boring green ones, but I did see this little cactus plant that I liked. I was worried about taking it though, because it could spill if I put it in a bag, or I'd have to hold it in the car.

I got up on...my full laundry basket from RL? and started pulling all the pots of plants to the front. That's when I saw the colored plants. I called mom in to see them. There was a really pretty red one. I'd say it was a rose, but it was too big/wide.

~Gap~ I discovered the movies!

There was Spider-man 1, 2, 3 and...4. Mom asked me if it was okay if she took the last two. I didn't care.

I saw Supernatural and practically jumped on them. There were a few on VHS, the rest were seasons. I was excited to have nabbed them before my sister, who was suddenly there looking through the movies too.

She discovered Merlin and I was even more excited. She handed me a stack of them - they were the slim cases that are usually in a box, like with Joss Whedon's Firefly.

- At some point I worried about taking stuff, because I thought maybe there were people that came by to take care of it all. I wasn't worried about the morality of it, just that I'd be hindering their job or something.

Note: My sister loves movies, so I'm not surprised she appeared at that time. And about the food thing - it totally makes sense for my family. Luckily we got our food stamps today and went to the store.

I think...this is the longest dream I have had yet. o_o

Lost One (Non-lucid)

I got lost. It was like I was young again. I got on grandma's back porch and peered in the window. She was in the kitchen. I couldn't get myself to knock.

I thought about sleeping on the swing. It was a bit cool out but it felt good. Before getting off the porch, I took out my red permanent marker and wrote a 'thank you' type message on a board.

As I went down the steps, there was a German Sheppard Dog, normal in the dream. I patted it.

Gap~

I made it back home somehow, and mom said that it was good because it was cold out. I told her about where I went and about my message.

Note: Grandma got a new dog, but it's not a GSD. I just want one and was talking about it recently. This is a deja vu dream - as I wrote it down I felt like I had totally had this dream before. While I know if I've had 'at grandma's house' dreams, I was never young or saw a dog...but then again, I think I was lost once... Hmm.

Cappuccino (Non-lucid)

Mom came in saying she'd get me some coffee/cappuccino. Seems we were going somewhere, or she wanted me to go somewhere with her.

I thought about bringing up my Starbucks' card, but she mentioned somewhere specific so I decided not to say anything.

Note: One of those dreams that's so real life that it's surprising when you realize it was just a dream.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

06.07.2010

SpSi (Non-lucid)

Spamano (from Axis Powers Hetalia) stuff that I unfortunately can't remember

Fighters (Non-lucid)

Like an anime or game...there was a team of fighters. Two were siblings (not sure about genders). One was 'light' and the other 'dark', each dressed in outfits kinda like Celty's from Durarara!! [full pic]. White and black in color of course. There were about six of them in this room...and I get the feeling there was other people, but.

At one point the two leaned on the front of a vehicle. Someone else (me?) was observing them off to the side, thinking that it was sad that it was hard for them to be together - 'dark' couldn't stay out in the light for too long because his powers/being came from the dark. But 'he' still went out to hang with 'light'. I'm pretty sure the vehicle was out in the dessert, too. o_o

Horror 2 (Non-lucid)

Horror. A woman was hanging from something I believe. Her hair was all clumpy and bloody. She cut her hair off until only a little was left on her head. She pretended to be dead as a guy came in/back. He caught her.

Note: Second horror dream... I think it's reflecting my stressful thoughts in real life. :/

I've pretty much no excuse for not doing anything beyond the basics in dreaming for the last few months. I still write down my dreams when I wake up, and I rarely have days where I remember nothing. Every night I still use autosuggestion as well.

But, I don't: write out the dream fully - I use keywords or fragments, I don't type them up in my computer/online DJ, I don't strive to remember more than I do, I don't go to bed earlier (my schedule is atrocious), I haven't even thought about lucid dreams lately. My last one was...July 6th 2009... Wow.

I'm the obsessive type person - when I get into something, it's all that holds my attention the vast majority of the time. It doesn't help when my friend gets into the same thing and so we're both obsessive together! Lately I've managed to pry myself away and get into a few other things again.

I got Meditation for Dummies from the library to see if I could pick up anything new, and...I have to say, besides picking apart my life (ow), it reminds me a lot of lucid dreaming in the area of awareness. It talks a lot about that at times.

Quote:

"You can increase your powers of awareness by developing concentration.

Then, when you've stabilized your concentration, you can, through the practice of receptive awareness, expand your awareness - like ambient light - to illuminate the full range of your experience.

Next, you can concentrate even further in order to [/B]cultivate[/B] positive emotions and mind-states. Or you can use awareness to investigate your inner experience and contemplate the nature of existence itself."

And it goes on to talk about each type of awareness. I'd love to quote more, buuut I shall refrain.

I'm also reading Our Dreaming Mind, which is pretty good so far! Apparently the last chapter is on Lucid Dreaming.

Lastly, I noticed that all my images are messed up in this DJ now... Besides that, I like the new layout.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

06.06.2010

Coin Stack (Non-lucid)

Me and R are robbers. I think it's in Walmart that we make the clerk give us these coins. They're not quite gold, more like silver. She says she only has 75 and I say that's fine. Each coin amounts to $1.

I think we were in a house at one point?

Keywords: Contingency plans, rent

Recording (Non-lucid)

I was looking through a video camera type thing at a recording of a guy. I pulled the device away to see a guy messing around beside me. I'm pretty sure this took place outside.

Horror (Non-lucid)

Horror movie type murder - suspense, woman character, it was dark

Hide and Seek (Non-lucid)

I woke up a LOT and had flashes of dreams when I did sleep, so I woke up after the previous dream, went back to sleep and fell into the same one, only it turned into hide and seek and not so much horror.

Keyword: A button

Igirisu! (Note)

RL: Riley woke me up (or I was already awake) and was meowing. I sat up and called out 'England' instead of 'Riley'. She proceeded to respond to the wrong name by jumping up on the bed.

Notes: 'England' comes from Axis Powers Hetalia as the anthropomorphic country and personification Arthur Kirkland. So I may have been dreaming of that, but not the actual United Kingdom in RL. =P