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After waking up at around 3:57 in the morning and spent enough time to get my mind focused back on becoming lucid, I laid in bed turning over again and again for almost two hours. I'm not sure if I felt asleep during that time or I might of not noticed I was already asleep, but it felt like I didn't get any sleep until sometime before 8:00 later that same morning.

I continuing laying in bed for a few more minutes to see if I'm still able to go back to sleep. Moments later, I noticed a strange vibration going on through my chest. I was laying on my side facing the wall. At first I thought it was because of the amount sleeping pills I was taking. Then I noticed a blurry scene as I began drifting off to sleep. In this scene I saw a small bond with a stack of wooden sticks laying on top of each other. I stared at the pond trying to figure out what to make of it - whether I was dreaming or not. Seconds later, I get this sudden urge of panic. After staring at the pond with the set of sticks nestled in to it for a few more seconds, I felt a strong vivid sense of sinking inside it. I woke up startled, but then found out it wasn't over.

I woke up laying on my side facing my bedroom. I was wrapped up in my blankets as I slowly began opening my eyes. I tried to move my muscles but couldn't. This obviously meant only one thing. I was paralyzed. Upon realizing it, I heard voices going on in the bedroom. I heard my sister telling me happy birthday. I heard my mother telling me something nice about me. The rest, I couldn't remember. The voices started to get closer. I panicked. Nestled in to my blankets, I reminded myself of something. It was all just in my head. I was hallucinating. It wasn't real. I did my best trying to realize that and remained as calm as I tried to be. I kept my eyes closed and thought of a place in which I could become lucid in. I first thought about Sydney. I thought about trying to summon her back on my parking lot just like the previous night. It wasn't a bad idea but then again, I didn't want the dark skies to be there if I did wake up to that same dream.

Instead, I wanted to go back to my elementary school. I wanted to see the beautiful playground standing in the middle of the school. I wanted to be safe. I imagined this location as best as I could and after a more seconds of listening to those surrounding voices, I started to drift away from my dream bed. My body flew out of the bed, without any effort on my part, and started flying straight towards the door exiting my bedroom. Unfortunately, that was all that happened. I woke up.

Just after performing DEILD(I think), which I really didn't want to at the time but did it anyway because it felt a lot easier to go back to sleep this time. I started out in a dream I tend to be in a lot - Fairfax Elementary School. This time was a little bit more interesting for me.

It was sometime around the early morning. I was on the blacktop facing the set of classroom buildings in front of me and a couple others at the side. I already knew I was lucid the moment I saw this place. There was no one around at the time, just me. It seemed lonely but it didn't felt like it. In my mind I knew that this place was the only place where I could find happiness, despite the circumstances that may frighten or harm me. It was already proven how this dream was going to end.

I walked straight, towards the directions of the classrooms in front of me. As I was walking, I saw someone waving their hand at me from one of the classrooms in front of me. I smiled, or I think I did, and waved with my right hand back and fourth. After doing so, I finally got to urge to use my lucid abilities to manipulate the dream world. The first thought that popped in to my head - sex. For a second, I looked around the environment and tried to see where I could have sex with one of the females I wanted to summon. This is pretty common for me, which is also one of my biggest disadvantages when achieving a lucid.

Instead of summoning someone to have sex with, I thought it'd be a better idea to explore the world around me and then hopefully I'll find something good.

There were a set of classrooms to my left. I decided to walk towards the first room laid eyes on. I assumed there were people inside and went to see what I could find. As soon as I walked in to the classroom, I saw the room filled with about 10 children, maybe more. I wanted to talk to one of them. There was a little girl to my left and walked up to her. I asked her what she was doing and she responded back in a negative matter. It was obvious she didn't like me judging by her physical movements. I asked her, "Why don't you like me?' She looked back at me and responded with another negative. I asked her again because I wanted to see how the dream characters would react. Most often I asked someone in a dream something, it is usually a strange response.

After a few seconds later, I see a set of children to my right walking up to me and insulting me. One of them who insulted me was a boy. I wasn't liking this, but either way I got up and walked over to the play area near the right corner of the classroom. When I got there, me and a few other children were staring at something unknown. I'm not sure if it was a television or a teacher. Either way, I was bothered by this other individual who happened to be a volunteer at the school. I had an green apple in my hand and wanted a bite from it. I looked back at him and denied him. He still kept asking me though, and I just kept denying him.

When class was finally over, I walked towards the classroom exit. On my way there, I saw a few other volunteers, unknown names. They were trying to have a conversation with me but I didn't know why. There were about 2-3 people I was talking to - two of them being males. I ignored them and continued walking towards the exit. When I got to the exit, I saw a recent high school classroom - Daniella. I'm not sure what she was doing her. When I saw her, the scenery changed a bit. Behind Daniella, I saw a different texture on the wall, the one I would see at the school me and her both attended. I walked up in front of her and paid close attention at her face, specifically her lips. Her lips weren't like the ones in reality. In this dream she had dull lips, as if she never put any lipstick or chap stick on. She didn't see too happy to see me. After that, I walked back outside and towards the black top. Before I could think of anything else to do, the dream slowly started to fade and I could see myself waking up.