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To bed at 9:45 pm
First wakeup and Dream: 2:00 am

In a Room with a long pinboard. there is offered a cooking class by a good friend of mine M. the dishes that will be cooked are written on a piece of paper. Chili con Carne a dessert and something like 3 other dishes. i am really excited and want to participate. i go into the kitchen and want to make a dessert. i thinking pudding with pear puree [dont ask me why... my roomate ate one old pear this day maby because of that]. i see two half pears and think that it might be not enough for me and my roomates. but on the left site of the fridge there is another one and now it will be enough. i look into the fridge to see if milk is there.
S and M are in the kitchen and talk to me and want to see how i do. i need two bowls and find them in the floor infront of the kitchen. my mom seems to used them to mash something with chiaseeds. its still in it but the bowls lie in the corner on the floor. i transfer it into a pot and start cleaning the bowls. we hear some kind of audiobook and my phone is charging with a cable. while i clean up either the audiobook or a thought of me says: "And here my mom got lucid". i now have the already cooked pear in the pot and taste it. its not bad but a little sour and i am sceptic because i want it to be really good because M will try it, but then i think it will be with pudding which i can make a little sweeter so it fit together. somewhere there i wake up.

WBTB with pretty detailed dream incubation but no WILD attempt, just setting intension and fall asleep again.

4:18 wake up after the LD:

...i go to a building and 2 people i think i know talk about Ghassoul. they debate about if the powder or the chunks are better for use. i go pass them and climb naturally into a window in the groundfloor. while i do so i tell them that the chunk is good. i am in a kitchen and i think i just get me something to drink. i turn around and want to leave again through the window but now i am in the 20th floor. i wonder and think then hm when this is a dream i can just jump out of the window. i do a quick nosepinch and the result is semioptimal but i dont care and jump out. i feel intensively how my guts turn around and half way down i think maby i should better fly down and try to fly. its more of a little slowed gliding but still i smash on the ground. i stand up and nothing happened. [i feel (maby for the first time activly and senstiv) that my dream is not really clear and stable] i want to summon a friend P behind a corner and she do come. because of my sight is so blurry i see her first after she is pretty close. while she is coming nearer i rub for a very brief time my hands. she reaches me and we hug. at first its a brief hug and i tell her i want a real one. we hug again this time more intensively in a non sexual way. i search in my pockets for my glasses but dont find them. but there is a lot other stuff in it. she turns around and see my glasses on the ground pick it up and gave them to me. i expect to get a pretty clear sight after putting them on because without i dont see good. i put them on and everything gets superclear i smile because its kind of ridiculous because i exactly know with what intention i put them on and know it makes no sense but it still works like a charm i am delighted.. we start walking back to the mainstreet. we talk about something i cant remember. after some time i interrupt her because i want to lift a car. the perfectionist i am it cant be any car near me so i search for the right one. i go past a small one with a trailer on it but i decide that when i am doing it it should be a truck. we reach a a big traffic crossroad and there are roadworks. i see a truck that fit my expectations. but just before i reach it (i am still walking) the trafficlight turns green and the truck drives away. [like in GTA xD] i try to pull him towards me with telekinesis but it dont work. nevermind i look around and see left of me another constructionvehicle. i move towards it and reach it and grab it in the middle and try to lift it. the weight is not the problem but its volume so i first dont know where to grab it and it blocks my sight a bit but i lift it and can than carry it without a problem a little like a boombox on my shoulder but with both hands. i look up and search P with my eyes and find her talking to another girl. i spin around for like three rounds and throw the truck on the ground a little rough. i move to P and she and the girl show each other some tricks and say something like "ah i knew you two would talk about ...magic? dreamcontrol or something" i think i knew the other girl. i tell them i want to make my fingers long and try it without the help of my other hand. its works mediumwell my fingers gets longer but its more of a optical effect like when you change the angle of sight. its not enough so i take my other hand and pull on my fingers all together and they start to strech alot. the girl says that she has more problems with that and is not that good in it. i then want to try again to just like that make fire in my hand. it doesnt work like i like to but i can manage to get some liquid in my hand and P holds a fire near it and it ignites. i switch the fire between my hands but then throw it away. Some guy with a hoodie on walk past by and i tell him i have some problems making fire out of nowhere. he keeps moving and i following him while telling him that. i feel ignored so i stop moving and lift him up and turn him around with telekinesis. he dont like that at all and gets angry and a fight starts. i start throwing (or at least trying) to throw fireballs with a very high frequency with left and right hand in turns with about 140 bpm (Balls per minute ) some of them are fireballs but most of them seem to be something different. i stop for a short time to see what i am throwing and have a round bread roll in my hand. i put it in my mouth and start chewing, its a little dry, i focus on the guy and keep on throwing everything ive got on him. a lot of rolls and other food like sauce and something spagetthi or pizza like things i think. someone is helping or distracting him. i step some steps back and as he turns around and jumps i throw one hugh fireball at him and he starts burning and turns into a square package of roasted meat (like in some computer game... dishonored i think?) i move near it and throw some more stuff at him (like in the other dream it seems to make me a hell lot of fun throwing things out of my hands, i for sure understand spiderman). i blow at it so it stops burning and then hold my left hand in that direction and start some thunderbolts which actually even works. after i finished him like a pro i turn around and walk away. a guy comes to me and says something like i had luck to hit him in the right moment and i tell him yeah sometimes it is like that.(maby it was the same guy?!) i think whats next. the fight costs me a bit of my clarity. i think about to reward myself with a little bit of dirty fun but the dream fades. i hold still and try to DEILD but after a short time i decide to wake up and write it down because it was pretty long and i dont want to loose it. i think i did DEILD for a short period of time because i have a short NLD in which i am in the same street moving back. there is a kiosk and a guy gives a woman a hint or tells her he likes when a woman smokes a specific blend of cigaretts. i wake up for good.

the only thing i forgot was the week task i wanted to do also, everything else worked like a sharm

Quick note: I think I have been using MILD as a dream incubation technique, and that using it actually causes my dreams to be weirder, as well as inserting elements that are meant to be incongruent. For instance, focused on the statement, "I want to be lucid in my next dream" and fell asleep. First thing, a friend of mine approaches with a book on "How to be lucid in your next dream." I promptly ignore this information and proceed along my non-lucid path to delusion.

01/13/2012
Dream Fragment One
I had gone to a club with T, in Orlando, and we had taken some 'skates'. During the course of the night, I'd seen him about to get into a fight with some random, really tall, dude. They were in each others' faces, and apparently only seconds away from throwing hands. Attempting to intervene, I stepped between them, somewhat sliding them apart with my hands. Obviously upset with this, the tall guy reaches over and shoves me backward, forcefully, as if trying to knock me to the floor. I instinctively rebounded back at him with a lunging fist to his jaw, completely laying him out. In no time at all, I was being ushered outside by the police, and questioned about what happened. I don't remember much of the interrogation, but they ended up letting me go.


Dream Two
"Tatano"

I was exploring a mine, or some other sort of underground cave, which was flooded with waist-deep water. A small ledge rimmed the outer edges of the chamber that I was in, along with a few friends of mine. The water was very murky and someone soon exclaimed there was something moving in the water. Shortly afterward, a surge of current came through this waterway, and some of us began to get swept away and toward a dark tunnel ahead. We were able to hang onto the wall, where the current was much weaker then in the center, and pull ourselves out of the water and onto the ledge.

While we were sitting there on this leg - pretty much stuck, until the current subsided enough for us to make our way back out the way we came - we encountered another group of people coming (somehow) out of the cave that we were almost just swept into. They were of either Native or Latin American descent, and all carrying guns. Apparently, it was some kind of illegal faction or cartel. I also had a small pistol on my hip, but there were more of them than there were of us, and I figured drawing on them would probably be the worst mistake I could make. The leader of the group made some rambling threat to us about how "the Tatano Comes" for the people of our region, however, they didn't really go into detail about just what 'The Tatano' was. After holding us for a brief period, they let us go home. We were all terrified, though, because they had issued the threat not necessarily to us as individuals, but to all of the people in our community. They were extremely vague, though, so even though we knew that they were planning something, we didn't exactly know what. Once back in our community (apparently, we shared a neighborhood), we started theorizing what they meant by 'The Tatano Comes'. I couldn't figure out if they meant some kind of abominable monster or if 'The Tatano' was the name of their outfit, and they were going to raid our community with guns and whatnot.

It turned out to be the latter. A short while after our encounter, the men had begun to invade our neighborhood. It was now the dead of winter (and was snowing heavily, even though I live in Florida), and I was now watching the dream from a disembodied perspective. I was watching a tiny Latina friend, from my earlier group (whom I believe is someone I know IRL, but am not sure), and she was dressed in a ninja dogi. My perspective followed her as she sneaked around through the night time snow flurries, using stealth to sneak up on the individual, occupying members of 'The Tatano', silently executing them, one by one.

(Sometime during the day after this dream, I came to realize that this dream was directly influenced by a mission that I'd played on Skyrim, before bed. I'd tried to incubate a Skyrim related dream, while playing, and didn't even recognize the similarities, because of how well-hidden they were. In the game, I had to break into a cave belonging to a group of bandits, who wore primitive, Native American-esque outfits. The cave was slightly filled with water. There was a lot of tension building up, while I made my way into and through the cave, stealthily taking down as many opponents, individually, as I could. The apparent 'boss' of these bandits was a female, which might be the reason why I found the tiny female in my group to be such a prominent character.)


Dream Fragment Three
(This entire dream was disembodied, though I only remember two very brief scenes.)
I was watching Marty McFly (Back to the Future) test out a hoverboard in Doc Brown's garage/lab. I got the distinct impression that this was still the 1985 reality, and that the hover-board was either brought back from the future or built from the design of the one he had in the future (and then the past). There was some little kid hanging out in the garage, too, and he said something like "whoa! A hover-board!" and, even though I was just kind of observing this dream, passively, I remember wondering just how this kid from the '80s knew what a hover-board was.

Later, Marty was at home with his girlfriend from the movie. She'd gotten around to telling him that she was pregnant and they were going to have a baby. They were both overjoyed with the whole thing, and began making love on the couch. Again, even though I was nothing but a spectator, I remember becoming a bit jealous at the amount of raw emotion and passion I was seeing in the scene.



01/17/2012
Dream Fragment
(Unfortunately, I've pretty much lost all of the details to this dream. I had watched the movie The Immortals before going to bed, so the dream was heavily based upon that.)

There was some epic, mythological battle going on, and I was entrusted by the Gods to wield Poseidon's trident. Of course, I was reluctant to take on the responsibility, but the deities (whomever they were) were convinced that I had it within me to succeed in destroying Earth's foes. The main thing that I can remember is a part in the battle where I was treading water in a seemingly bottomless ocean or harbor or something. There was an opponent coming up at me from the depths, and I kept firing shot after shot of golden light from Poseidon's trident, down toward my attacker. Every desperate shot pushed him/it further and further deeper into the water beneath me, as I just continued frantically blasting away from the surface. There was so much more that went on in this crazy, action-packed dream, but I really don't recall anything else.



01/20/2012
Dream Fragment
(I successfully incubated a guitar-related dream, after a night of guitar practice.)
The only thing I really remember was that I was teaching someone to play guitar, focusing mostly on fingering the fretboard. That's about it.



01/22/2012
Dream One
"Indecent Proposal"

I was in my old neighborhood, at the house my baby's mom and I used to share with her dad. It was late at night, and some unknown guy comes by. I happened to see him standing on the porch, through my bedroom window, and was wondering just wtf he was up to. When I went outside to question him, he told me that he was new to the area and thought that someone else lived here. We started talking for a moment and he told me that he'd been going around the neighborhood meeting people and had been set up to meet some girls in a nearby house, for some fun. He said that I seemed pretty cool, and he invited me to tag along. Apparently, my ex and I were still together, and I told him that I wouldn't be able to join him. He then smiled and asked if my girl was a freak, because I could just bring her along. Lol.

Again, I respectfully declined and sent him on his way. After that, I remember having a brief conversation with my ex's dad, whom I was surprised to find was actually home at the time. Then, sometime later still, I was out on the porch again and saw that the guy I'd met earlier was coming back around in the direction of our house, with a girl on each arm. He noticed me standing around outside and, just as he was restating his offer for me to come hang out with them, I woke up.


Dream Fragment Two
I was with some friends and family, at some kind of massive protest downtown - like an OWS function or something. There was an insane crowd in the street. My mom was with us, and I think my friend JS was there. The more the night went on, the more volatile things were becoming, and we were beginning to fear that violence was going to erupt, any moment. Indeed, in one corner of the sea of people, a commotion started. The small scuffle led to a lot of pushing and shoving and angry words, in that region of the crowd. The last thing I remember is my group wading through a crowd of the potential rioters, in order to have some words with the more important figure heads of the event, and try to help them restore order.

12/30/2010
"A Lesson in Na'vi Pain Management"

(Tried a little dream incubation, this morning, and paid for it. I had turned on Avatar, focusing on my intention to draw myself into the movie, through DILD. Unfortunately, it worked. Quite possibly the most painful dream I have ever had in my life. I wasn't even on B6, but I did have a good liquor buzz when I went to bed. It was just as intense, though.)

I was Jake from Avatar, standing high in one of the mighty, cloud-scraping trees of Pandora. The war with Quaritch was soon coming, and the rest of the Na'vi were off somewhere, preparing for battle. I was being trained by a man who identified himself as an old arch-enemy of mine. He looked human, but this dude was huge; bigger than I was, even at Na'vi size. (He kind of looked like this picture of Heihachi Mishima, but thicker, with longer limbs, and completely bald.) According to this guy, I wasn't ready to face Colonel Quaritch. I was still "just Jake," and - as this guy would tell it - was not accustomed to my Na'vi form enough to maximize potential. So, he was about to teach me about how to manage my pain. Apparently, as I had somehow already known, this powerful man was planet-renown for his skills, and my best move would be to listen to everything he said. I braced myself, knowing I was going to be in for a tough trial.

Suddenly, I was rocked in the stomach, with a fist that would have caused a human being to explode on contact. Another one followed, with yet another close behind. Before I knew it, I was on my knees, in agony, my ribs feeling like they were being beaten in with a baseball bat. He didn't stop, though, screaming at me to get up, before slamming me with another body shot. This man was definitely not human. His strength was something out of a video game, and I could swear I was able to sense the shock waves jetting off of each punch to my midsection.
I honestly don't know of many times I've ever felt pain like this - if any. The blows rained in on me...almost rhythmically. He was in no rush. Just punching away, at his leisure. Completely unprepared for this, I tried desperately to drag myself away from him; helpless.

I didn't know if he was supposed to be teaching me or was actually trying to kill me. That was until he began to explain how I had the potential to block all of the pain out of my mind, and maintain focus and endurance for battle. He said that it was something that all warriors were able to do, and that I would be able to tap into the Na'vi's ability to do it at an accelerated rate. He wasn't exactly nice about it, though... Each punch would drive itself into my gut, and I would yell out in pain, this man's only response being to yell back at me for not taking it like a warrior.

...I definitely didn't feel like a warrior, at the time...

More punches came, and I was now in too much collective pain to fight back, even if I wanted to. Still, I dragged myself along the gargantuan branch beneath us, which easily supported our bodies, without wavering. He was all over me, though, and just would not fucking let up. He jumped from one side of me to the other, anytime I would start trying to scramble away a little more quickly. Each punch was now starting to bring me closer to tears, already having me openly screaming out with each torturous thud - and he could see it. He picked me up to my feet, my body practically limp, and glared at me sternly. Holding me up with one hand and barking at me to stop crying, he slammed more punches into me with his free hand, and each one was no less devastating than the last. I was being brutally beaten, and it was more than I could bear.

The gnarled look of torment in my face was slowly turning into a snarl of determination. I knew I couldn't just sit there and let him beat me to a meat-sack of pulverized bone. My eyes locked on his, and my fists tightened, every muscle in my body soon following suit. Immediately, he picked up on this and sneered, growling "WHAT?! ARE YOU ANGRY?! HUH??" through his teeth. His eyes were on fire with the a display of malice that just couldn't have been false. This was becoming a life or death situation. I felt my legs strengthen beneath me, beginning to stand up straight, slowly, but almost involuntarily. The pain was sequentially residing as the fist continued to pound away. I was getting stronger with each blow, able to sense that each punch would still have left a crater upon the trunk of the enormous tree we were in, yet I was becoming increasingly unable to feel them.

After a few more seconds of the onslaught, I was standing up tall, glaring at him with a scowl. Finally, he stopped punching, glaring back at me, still looking at me like a mortal enemy, but no doubt gauging my stoicism, after such a merciless attack. From what I could tell, he had decided that I must have been successful in my ascension. My torso still burned from all angles, but my entire muscular structure felt tightened and invigorated. The pain was still there, and it was damn intense....but I just didn't care. He told me that I was now ready for battle...

My recollection of the dream skipped ahead, and I was then running and jumping through the towering trees with a female Na'vi. She swung across a gap between branches, on a vine, and I did the same, right behind her. The two of us landed on another branch, this one just barely big enough for us to fit upon. When we landed, I took a sweeping glance down toward the ground - hundreds of yards below us - and I felt my stomach turn. It was the first time that I realized just how high up we really were. I found myself thinking "what the hell am I doing way up here?" and I think this could have eventually led to lucidity. However, all chance of that soon disappeared, when our attention got drawn to the sight of the Colonel's aerial gunships flying in over the landscape, toward our village. What might have been our last run through the trees was now over, and it was time to go to war.

(I woke up here, and the movie was actually just getting to the final battle, practically in sync with the content of my dream, leading me to believe that some of the audio might have been seeping into my dream content, when I was beginning to awaken. I was hungover, and it seemed to take some time for the pain in my stomach to fade. Instead, it seemed to go to my head , which was throbbing. Even some time after all of this, sitting at the computer, I had to hug my stomach, just because it seemed like the faintest - probably just mentally projected - trace of that horrible pain still lingered.

Not the best sleep I've ever had...)