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Back in Stettler. I've been given 2 new prayers. One for the kindness of Jamie's heart. And 2: to pray that she finds me. My 15 minute prayer list got longer.

Jamie 1

A dream of her standing behind a counter looking zoned out. Not responding to me.

Uh oh. That hasn't happened in a while.

Jesus

A dream of Jesus hugging my brother.


My brother is like the most anti Christian guy I know. Also why my family knows nothing about my faith. My family is toxic enough without adding extra things they could traumatize me with.

Running

I was in a field with a woman. Some guy, David, ran past us at super speed. I ran up a hill after him. The woman following behind me stopped from being tired. I kept going up but the path got way too steep. I stopped too. I think the woman was Jamie.

Jamie again

Jamie was with me outside by a building. I had very low awareness. She was trying to convince me that some tall British woman with glasses should be my girlfriend. She suggested that I write a letter to her. I reluctantly did.

Gave the letter to the woman and ran away. Me and Jamie followed the woman to a bar. Jamie convinced me to approach her again. I did with some light banter but the woman was with two other men. She then implied with a joke that maybe she would have 3 dicks in her tonight instead of two...

Okay I pretended to be into that and promptly walked away. I went outside and Jamie was there. She got in front of me. I was behind her. We were in an embrace we seemed to be having sex as we were both moaning. But I couldn't feel anything. She abruptly stopped after a minute and left.


Sigh: please no more loyalty tests. Testing in a dream is inaccurate because in a lot of dreams I lack considerable awareness. Bible says he who finds a wife finds a good thing. It says nothing about dating multiple woman or finding a girlfriend . Jesus already called on me to think of Jamie as exactly how I would a wife. Even though it hasn't happened yet. So that's the position I'm in and I'm not backing down.

Jamie 3

I was in a fast food restaurant. Jamie was working the counter. I was looking at the menu when a woman from the group behind me went around me and went to where Jamie was standing and tried to order. Jamie scolded the woman and said to wait in line until I had ordered.

7.6 - mob chase
- i became lucid somewhere outside, there was a crowd of people kinda angry at me or something, first i tried to jump trough a wall into a store but it didnt work, i thought that i just dont believe enough and did it again, now i was inside (+10)(+5) and did it again to be outside, the people have surrounded me and i was kinda fighting them off (+2) mostly forgeting about my lucidity

+10 phase trough a big solid object
+5 three step task part one

8.7 - clubbing with grandma
- me, my grandma and my sister all climbed the facade of this building to get into a rooftop club for free, i have a memory (it was a memory in the dream) of watching someone else climb up and say they'll never find out since it is dark outside, i started talking to a dude on the terrace because he seemed familiar, then i saw my friends and a random dude started offering me molly, i declined but he convinced me eventually, we went to a table in the corner and i watched him do a line and he said its my turn, i realised i cant do this since my grandma could see me so i left him and started looking for my friends, i couldnt find anyone and went to this birthday party deeper in the club, i was still on edge because i didnt have a ticket and i didnt know anyone, the girls celebrating did a little parade and i found my friends eventually, they were still talking to someone and i tried to convince them to leave, it took a long time but we eventualy started leaving (it was bright outside now), i said i need to get back to the terrace because i may have forgoten something (i planned to leave there because i didnt want to go trough the front), my friend had keys from pretty much every door and we took a big detour trough many rooms including a room looking like an ikea with mirrors which lead outside, i said i dont need to go to the terrace since i have everything, i noticed i have my headphones twice so i did an rc (+1) and became lucid, remembered i need to fly so i asked for wings (+5) and flew (+5) up to this rock wall which had shoes on it, i then read a billboard advertiding bananas, my flight was not the best, but i kept trying to fly to space because it is my 3step task, then it started to rain and became windy, there was a mom with a son and they were struggling to hold onto this parachute, so i flew there and took it from them (+2) hoping it would help my flight, it didnt and i woke up soon after

edit: i just remembered more infor from the second dream.
- once i was outside and lucid, i kept thinking about where i am sleeping irl, the nightclub part was really long so i assumed that was real and i was considering that i just fell asleep inside, this made me worry for my wallet and phone so i eventually gave up and woke myself up on purpose

i was walking outside (nighttime) with a group of friends, David, Misha and more, we found this cart with boxes and David gave me a box, then the pople who owened them came and i was expecting a beef so i took Misha and ran into this dark alleyway and wanted to hide, i was quite far down when i finally realised it is a dream so i did a check (+1) and wanted to get back to my friends, i went trough thease gardens and it was really dark, i lost my vision entirely and then 'took off' my sleep mask to be sitting with my group again, dude started dissing me for sleeping while he was talking, but they were pretty chill, we left and walked trough this underpass to a metro station, it was day on the other side and i figured ill start on my point tasks, i did a quick check again and then spun for stabilisation, jumped trough this glass front of a store and then a big pillar because i wasnt sure if the glass was thick enough (+10), then i asked for wings and felt them pop out on my back (+5), i was standing in a building with a circle hole in the roof and saw clouds change color really fast, i took off and flew trough the hole, found the moon in the sky and went for it (+10) i passed a terraria sky island structure out of minecraft blocks and flew trough a cluster of glowstone (maybe that was the moon), didnt see the moon after that, just a purple vortex/nebula thing i flew into, my vision darkened and i eventually found myself sitting at an outside table of a chineese restaurant with my family, there was a calculator in my noodles, next time i looked at it it was a phone and i tried to unlock it (+5), took the plate to the kitchen (+2), and they wanted to know our least expensive item to make it free, i went back and my grandpa was kinda agitated and i just dropped a glass on the pavement (not in anger) in our conversation and noone reacted, i figured i dont need to listen to this and left, i cast some lightnings (+10) to hit poles (not Polish people) around me and one of my attempts spawned a barrage of flaming arrows (+?) over my head almost looking like fireworks, i saw 'unloaded' buildings without windows and most other features and then wanted to play truth or dare with someone so i began searching for people my age, i saw a dog as i was running trough this crowd and made him big and beasty (+5), he began to wreck havoc so i phased into a shoping mall trough a wall, then i did it again to get to a neighboring room, it was an office with a woman who looked unfaithfull, proppably with her boss, she told me to leave and i said i know what she did so she better think about what she does and i woke up pretty soon after that


- a reality check +1
- walking trough a wall +10
- partial transformation (wings) +5
- fly to space +10
- interact with technology +5
- interact with a dream character +2
- elemental manipulation (lightning) +10
- making a dog into a beast +5
- unintentional fire arrows (+?)
sum = 48

Jamie dreams.

most of this was HH. Where I am awake, falling asleep, but briefly fall into a dream segment.
1. It's birds eye view and I'm driving to Sundre, Vision zooms out and Jamie is in her vehicle waiting.
2. Jamie is driving by the street I use to live on and she is kinda missing those times...
Umm okay, so she's stalking me now? I don't know, but maybe try actually talking to me instead of driving by once every a couple of months and stealing glances at me, pretending that I don't notice. You know I once worked at a south wal mart in Lethbridge, where a Manager, who was a total Bi*** use to bully me and give me write ups if I retaliated. which, ultimately led to me quitting. Was she done after I quit? NO, I started working at a Mcdonalds, and a few times while cleaning up the parking lot she would drive right through the parking lot and not park or buy anything. She started showing up at the 711 I use to go to on the north side even though she lived on the south. Even tried to say hi to me, in the lineup. She thankfully stopped after a few months of me not giving her an in.
3. I'm hearing a song I know, It's that annoying 80's song that can get stuck in your head for weeks. "It must have been love." by Roxette (RIP). Jamie is tonelessly singing it and making the lyrics about me. the only line I can articulate is "Touch me now," but she sings it ."Robert now.". Kind of makes me laugh and cringe at the same time. If she were to construct a parody of this song about me, I have an idea for some of the chorus, "It must of been Rob, But he's older now. I said he was good, But I lost him somehow. It must of been Rob, but I'm older now. We didn't even touch, 'Cause the time had run out." and I swear If Jamie doesn't sing this to me with full passion, we aint a thing

Other dreams.

1. I get lost in a house, that has another house secretly inside it. Some guy is leading me through a very specific set of doors. We wind up at this landing with a strange latter. I climb down the ladder and find myself outside around some interesting houses and a highway.
2. Im with a bunch of people in a mall. I'm building minecraft blocks for some reason, even though I never play the game. later we are in a strange cafeteria but the lights aren't on. Me and some people hide in some strange cubicles. and my old friend from mcdonald's (Who I had one confirmed shared dream with) David jumps out and goes "Bah," to scare us, he manages to stay on one foot in a comical almost about to grab you pose. And then darts away. I go to look for him but he is gone...

I had 3 dreams with Jamie in them. But they are so vague I can't really say what happened in them. only she was unhappy/upset with me in one...

Some girl

Was more vivid when I first recalled it but parts faded. I was outside on some hilly area but there were small residential houses here and there. I was with some girl with blondhair, we had some chemistry but due to circumstances (we were being chased by 3 guys?) we were just keeping it friendly. We were running away from some people. I forget what they did. At some point the girl was gone, and I was hanging around some pick up artist guy. He was spouting rules and some other nonsense. I said at some point. "You pull girls like Amanda?" I was referring to the girl I was with earlier and he said, "Yeah." I forget what happened after.

No

I was back at my old McDonald's Job that I quit a month ago. I was working with my old Mormon friend David. I haven't worked with him since 2018. Anyway we were both doing night shift. It was really busy and we were making sandwiches on a table made of guitar strings? weird. i was pissed it was understaffed and too busy. I was trying to complain to the manager who was only speaking to us through a speaker where you push a button... After arguing I looked at David and said. "2016 Day shift mcdonald's was much better." He agreed.

Whispers

A dream of walking around my house and hearing ghostly whispers. I remember freaking out.

Jamie

Just a dream of seeing Jamie. We were in a dark room. Don't remember too much details, just that we both seemed happy.

Longish dream.

Started I was visiting Jamie and old friend from work. I was in a strange town. He kept saying that the google map would beep to help me find my way out. I started walking away when he left but i couldn't find my way. I went down a hill that was winding with lots of houses.

Suddenly I was picked up in a car with moe in it. I was in the back seat, I was wondering why he was nice enough to give me a ride. His two friends were in the backseat with me.

Next i was in a restaurant with B from the alberta ghost hunter society. we were in a restaurant and I was expected to pay for everyone's meal. B pulled up the bill and it was 1000. I didn't have enough in my account so I said i wanted to pay partly with a credit card. B seemed pissed and said that it might not be allowed??? WTF. I swiped with the credit card but it brought up a display with David's images from his phone. I had to retry and got the same thing. I was pretty frustrated when it didn't work.

I'm not sure about the chronological order of this dream.

It's a post-apocalyptic setting again, but this time the apocalypse happened very recently; we still don't know how bad it is, and what exactly has changed. I'm walking through a facility set in a warehouse with a man in a lab coat; there's a lot of people running around with files and tablets, making impromptu meeting and talking. It's badly lit, and I feel like I'm underground, even thought I can see a boat on the otherside of the warehouse, ad the light boncing of the waves painting pattern on the ceiling. I overhear a man talking about going to live at sea, on oil-extracting platform. I point out to the man walking with me that thoses platform are limited in space and food, so that's not a viable move. He leads me to a computer and we can see the number of people killed, separated in profession in a kind of spreadsheet. He points the physicians to me, telling that one in forty got killed. The number of killed physicians is two hundreds, and the cell color is orange.
I'm outside now, with a middle aged woman, in an alley between two buildings. It's a very sunny day, the shadows on the orange walls are razor sharp, an the metallic mesh closing one end of the alley is glittering. There's also a grey plastic table against the wall to my left, with a box on it. A man with sunglasses pick something up in the box and put it in his mouth. I sprint to him and kiss him, stealing the thing in the process. It's slightly sweet and chewy, like gum. Now that I'm close I recognize David, and he take another gum; it's small, white and tubular shaped, like a rubber from the end of a mechanical pencil.
We're back inside the warehouse, with the man and David, and we learn that we have to ask for help to some people. I know that they aren't normal human, and I pick a photograph of one of them, telling the crowd that I know him, that I call him Raphael. One of the people ask him how much I know him, and I answer that he likes me in white. We decide that me and David will go looking for him.
We're on a road, in a middle of a forest; I check a map, it seem that we are in Europe, somewhere between Germany and Russia. The sun is high in the sky, but the air is pretty chilly. David got a jeans, hicking boots and a warm coat, but I'm in a white, flowy dress. It cover my arms and go down to the floor, but it's made of a light material, in lots of layers. We've been walking for a long time and I complain that we're running out of road. We finally reach a big building, well integrated into the forest, with big glass walls and dark woods. The door has a steel inlay, and I walk in with David. Inside the floor is carpeted, the wall painted white and with the same dark wood panneling. It has the slightly cushy warm of central heat. I go to the admission desk, letting David sit in one of the armchair overlooking the road. The receptionnist is a small, blond-haired woman with a tight ponytail that brush her neck. She listens to me and talks into her headset before gesturing me to go to the armchair. I give her a smile and turn around, but before I can move Raphael enter the room.
He's a towering, willowy man, crowned with golden curls. He's wearing a long-sleeved light blue t-shirt over a jean and his fingers are stained with paint. He notices me and pulls me off the floor into a bearhug, and I get a good look of his freckled, charming face and light green eyes.
Later, I'm walking into the nearby city with David, the warm of the sun nicely contrasting with the chillness of the air. We're on a very pretty, pedestrian street made of sandstone. David makes me laugh, and I can see from the corner of my eye Raphael, walking with a small group of friends ahead of us turning around and looking for me. David whispers to me that Raphael agree to help because he's infatued with me. I laugh at the idea, but Raphael big smile when he hears my laugh seem telling.


Yeah, Eli does find that there's an awful lot of people loving me recently

I'm at university, talking with a working group about a course we share. We resolve the issue and everyone get up and prepare to leave. We get out, it's still pretty early and we walk to the bus stop. We have to go up a slope, as the university is sort of sukken in the hill, and pretty decrepit. We pass close to some bushes between the university and the sidewalk, there is someone here, hidden. I go to him; he's scared by people picking on him because he's nerodivergent; I guess it's some sort of autism. I coaxe him out and walk him home. It's a rickety flat, very narrow and full of corner and half levels. There isn't a real bedroom; it's the living room, with two mattress throw in and bad, hash lighting. His mother is here; she's a stereotypical hooker, with bleached blonde hair, trashy makeup and black, lacy lingery. She's with a man, who doesn't seem happy with her son and me coming in. The boy have picked up some cookies while walking in the appartement and share with me, his mother is spitting venom at him. I try to be polite and told her that if I knew she had compagny, we would have go ty my place. She turn her glare on me and the situation feel so weird that I realise that I'm dreaming. I immediatly stand up and try the finger through the palm RC; it doesn't work, but I'm so sure that it's a dream and angry at her that I don't care. I tell the mother that she should care about her son more, and at least not have lovers hidding in the closed while accusing his son to bring girls in the flat under her nose. I take the boy hand and storm out. I look back at him when we reach the sidewalk, and he transformed into David. I smile and go to kiss his cheek, but he turn his head at the last moment so my lips land on his instead. I laught and playfully push him and he wrap a arm around me. We walk a little as I think about what to do, then I really that the sun is setting, and that the sea is on the other side of the road. I remember thet I wanted to take Eli to the beach, and we cross the road. I've been to the beach enough in waking life that I'm confident it will feel the same, and I use my usual technique of putting my hand behind my back to call him, but it take a long time for me to feel his hand in my and I call him louder in my head, telling him he's missing everything. He finally show up we the sea reach my knees, but instead of taking my hand he push David in the water and I'm dragged in and both swallow and breath in some water. I choke on it and it feels the same as waking life, cold and burning*, and I start to panic and blacking out.

When I come back up, I'm in a flat, way nicer that earlier, and alone except for a small animal that looks like a cross between a wolf pup and a kitty. I pick her up and hold her close to my chest, it's my totem. The dream feel weird, loopsized almost. I get out of the room I was because the mirror covering the whole wall is really enerving to me and look for Eli. Something enormous jump in front of me, wearing a caricatural mask of a african man, scaring me. I grab the mask and rip it off, starting to really get pissed off. Eli, still wearing is costume, give me a cheeking smile, but I'm too annoyed to find it funny. "Really Eli? Really?!" He try to kiss me and I wake up.
*When I was very young, I got caught in a rolling wave and my mother had to pull me out before I drowned.

Eli is a jalous bugger. I was really ticked off when I got up, and we talked about me having dream friends and how it doesn't change my love for him.

Non-lucid
I'm at a house I don't recognize, with mom, David, AJ, Thomas, Ruby and all four of my cats. It's gotten very late, and it's already dark outside. My mother says, "Aw jeez, we gotta go soon. We might not have time to eat the biscuits." Right as she says that David pulls huge, fluffy, and for some reason already cut open biscuits from the oven. I grab one to eat quickly, as everyone is getting ready to leave. It's not hot.
David is suddenly in his drag outfit he wore for the play at Christmas. He finds the ruler we have, which has a laser pointer. I take it from him, rather rudely, and show him how to play with my cats with it. He puts it between his "boobs" that are sewn into the dress as a joke.
Then, I wake up.

Non-lucid
I'm at David's house, he's having a party and a bunch of my friends are there. There's one boy I don't recognize, but he's very attractive. Dark skin, black hair, tall. Honestly looks a little like Agassi. As I get prepared to go on my nightly walk, he comes up to me and excitedly asks if he can come. I say yes. He sneezes twice afterwards, and hangs around me until I'm ready to go. AJ also wants to come with us.
I go out, everyone bidding us a short goodbye. It's quite cold outside, there's a little bit of snow, or maybe frost, on the ground, and a lot of puddles and David's house is in a more forest-y area now. AJ splits off from us, leaving just the attractive boy and I to walk. But soon he splits off from me, leaving me all by myself. I an imagine in my mind's eye of him over me, looking evilly happy, with long horns growing out of his head and a breathing apparatus over his mouth. I think he might be the devil.
I start to look for my sister, yelling out her name everywhere. I climb up a small hill where I see a beautiful, colorful sunset with strange cloud formations. It's reflecting in the puddles, and turning the snow/frost its colors.
I see AJ walking below me, looking a little lost. I call out to her and she scrambles up to me. I also see the boy walking around in the forest near me.
The scene changes. I'm in a Burger King parking lot with a little boy I don't know. He's holding my hand as we're walking. Another little boy, that looks just like him, walks out the Burger King door. "Hey, my twin!" the boy holding my hand says. The other boy smiles sincerely and waves, but doesn't stop walking away. The first boy takes a retainer out of his mouth. "Let's see if this will fit him too!" He says, as he throws it as his twin. It lands on the ground, naturally, but the twin picks it up and puts it in his mouth perfectly.
Then, I wake up.

In the first dream(At least the first I can remember) I had(In the dream, I'm not a weirdo haha) touched some like kid that's like 5 or 6 and I didn't mean to but his Dad was like ready to kill me kinda thing with anger. I had to face up to him but really didn't want to. At the time I was in some house and outside there was like a friend reunion and my friend Sean was there who I haven't seen in like a year and a half and I was pumped to hang out with him so I went outside and he had a ponytail(LOL) and he seemed very different and we went over to my friends group and they were like really weird now that Sean had arrived for some reason it was really weird.

End of non-lucid fragment.

Second fragment

I was exploring through these fields and I found a house and it was David Beckham's(I know, weird). I went up to say what's up and he gave me like an email address where I should contact him that he'll actually reply and not the regular fan-mail "Never answer" type thing.

I got in contact with him and got him to show up when my friend Zak was there(Zak's idol is Beckham, he has his hairstyle etc) and I was like haha this'll be so beast so I got him to come along and Zak was trying to take a picture on his phone of him and Beckham face to face cause it looked beast but his phone ran out of battery which annoyed him. Then it felt like me and Beckham were kinda friends which was awesome haha.

End of fragments.

I'm gonna go ahead and start a dream journal/ blog to start making sense of what is going on in my dreams. I have some interesting dreams but dangerous as well so whatever we'll see what happens. To start this off, to whoever reads this, apparently some aspect or part of me was sucked into some kind of black hole of confusion thanks to tendency of an evil friend I used to have to not watch his own creations. (samwe went for me apprently, i was only 17 years old) so many of my dreams messages and symbols might come in a confused manner.What I mean is I think that maybe what I am saying in my mind when I say it is actually based off of a confused basis which would make no sense to an outside observer, at least a part of me is like that. Anyways the words still come out ok when I type so i can use this as a tool to help me find what exactly happened. Also, a diffrent aspect of me apparently was captured by some kind of insane sex monster with tentancles, which I reall dont know how to deal with at this point. And becasue of that sex demons are constantly trying to steal my life force at night and sometimes during the day. This seems to be amplified when I'm around people with similar demons ( which is ALOT of people). Also! this demon is prevalent in people's weird misfigured eye pieces.

Anyway last night , from what I remember at this point was me being at my uncle david's house in california, or some kind of projection of it. It was like a house of my david's house combined with another one of my relative's house in california. A lot of family was there, my mom, me, my current boyfriend, my sister, my cousin. I dont remember what we were doing, apparentyl just having fun talking and what not. There were other people there I don't know, presumably my uncle's previous sex partners. We were there and at one point, I went into another room cause I had to go pee. I remeber trying to go pee but people kept coming into the room and I would have to wait for them to leave. At one point I tried peeing in a trashcan and stopped myself cause I thought that was weird. Also some kind of bug/fairy being brushed against my face but I blew it away with a stream of air because I had been falling asleep to mosquitoes flyin around and I mistook it for that. It could ahve been a regular bug but it feels a little more significant then that. Away I went back to the room with everyone else and jokingly threw a pillow at my mom's current boyfriend's face who looiked like he was sleeping. When he woke up he had like multiple eyes it was really weird. I feel if that fairy was infact a fairy, it was telling me not to throw a pillow at his face. But I did so w/e thats in the past now. I do have some form of resentment for my mom's boyfriend. He isn't a mean guy or anything, probably just the typical Kid dpoesnt like new boyfriend kind of stuff but also I feel he has some deep seated issues which might hurt my mom.

I woke up fora bit after my mom's boyfriend (harvey) had those weird multiple eye things. I thought about it for a while and thought maybe that dream was connected to a different dream I had before but didn't/ don't have enough awareness right now to know for sure. Anyway I went back to sleep. I had a dream about my friend marco playing league of legends. He was saying something but I didnt understand. The scene actually started from the same area where i was before. The scene gradually got more intense, some kind of being was being fought off by good guys. I got really aware when some kind of intense energy wave was given off by this evil guy and knocked everyone down, including me. I was on the ground when someone who looked like this guy from league of legends but really tall, almost giant sized. He came with a wooden looking sword, executed someone in front of me on the fground with his sword at the neck and then came towards me. I felt like I was fainting but when he got close I found a sword next to me and put it in front of the wooden blade dflecting it from my neck. Everything went black and then I came back to awareness with the kassadin guy's sword snapping from the pressure and he fell down on the floor. I took my time to strike, leaped towards his neck, and cut his head off with my sword. i tried stabbing it but aprrently I had to actualyl slice the head off.


After that the main evil guy in the middle got up from being knocked down and started to attack again. We circled around him waiting to see what would happen. There were multiple fighters. I went around in front of him. He saw me and formed some kind of dimensional shield around his arm to shield himself fro mattacks. I had no weapon but decided to act as a decoy so my teammates could attack him. So I jump onto his shield while he tried to charge at me. I go some kind of dagger and stabbed him in the throat while my teammates got this really nice sharp but glorious looking spears and stabbed him fro mthe sides, around 3 people were holding each spear. He fell. Everyone gathered him into some kind of box and prepared a ritual to send him back to the source of all energy. Me or whoever I was percieving said " don't worry, you will be back, in some kind of form or another, blah blah blah.....judt kidding, I dont want to be an sshole, you'll be back though so dont worry." to the dead body in the coffin llooking thing, it contained the guy's power. He was in there apparently unconscious. The guys poured some kind of lquid on his face designed to help the body feel good as it is passed back into the source. When they did, he started smiling in euphoria. It was like he knew he was about to die but he was too weak to do anything, but also too delirious from the liquid to even think. Somebody asked me to help them hold the case up while he did some kind of ritual over the body. Apparently he tried to shake or something because his body flipped in the case and we almost dropped the coffin but it stayed held up. Then while I was helping holding the coffin I woke up. I felt decent, kind of strange. Decided not to go back to sleep. Went outside and meditated on balancing the two sides of my body. I did this by realizing the simple nature of this universe using sacred geomtry principles. When yo uare gorwing in your mother's fetuas, the first thing to be formed is your heart. From here, your tongue forms next, and then the rest of your body. In this fashion , I could see how my body, after millions of yeras of evolution through various water states and then finally coming onto land, (with the help of some et's) was formed from the designed of a space matrix which includes the various directions originating from the heart center. Fro mthe heart to your head. Heart to the base of your spine, Heart to the space in front of you and behind you, this is how yo uare connected to this specific matrix. If yo uwant to learn more about this I recommend meditating shapes in your mind's eye and what they reveal to you, and reading up on malchiezideck sacred geomtry books. Anyways ill be updating this blog, journal whenever I feel I should, thanks for reading.

Crap. Forgot to post this yesterday. Whoopsies.
Well, I was in a different school. And I think it was a little long but I forgot most of it.

So I was going to some class w/ red walls, and all the seats are taken up. I see an empty seat that is in between two seats, but it's right next to my crush, and I'm took chicken to do it willingly. I think "Nah I'll just have a teacher to blame it on". So I go up to the teacher and say "I don't have a seat" and she puts me right next to my crush. I'm still totally embarrassed because of how close we were (it was pretty darn close) And then the class ends.

Then, we're in the gym (On Monday, the last day we had school before it snowed, we had an assembly in the gym) and my crush is sitting a few seats below me. Then, this girl in my class comes up the stairs, and kisses him on the cheek, like she was thanking him for something. I think "WTF?! I SHOULD'VE DONE THAT!!" and I get really pissed and jealous, then the dream ends.

There was snow on the ground. I was in "my room". But it didn't really look like my room. The walls were painted a different color, and I had different furniture and windows. When I looked outside, it kind of looked like a pathway and trees, much like the ones I had seen at band camp, except there was snow on the ground (it had just snowed the day I had the dream) The window looked like the one in my real life family room. In real life, I sometimes look out the window in the family room and think about these two guys I like. David, my new crush, and Frankie, my ex/crush.

So (in the dream,) I'm looking out the window and I see David walking along the gravel pathway. The pathway is like 4 or 5 meters away from the window, so he doesn't see me. So, me being a creeper, I watch him. I think I was talking to someone, but it might have just been talking to myself. David was walking around the same place, like he was waiting for something, like for a teacher to say "OKAY you can come in now".

Eventually he heads towards me. I think to myself "CRAP, hide!" and obviously I get away from the window and onto my bed and hide. Then there was a door by the window that had randomly appeared and he came inside.

I vaguely remember what had happened after that, I think I was talking to some guys (while I was sitting on the bed) about something. I don't know what. The guys looked kind of like David, like they could be his brother. And some of them looked like guys in our band class. (David has that class with me) There was about 2-4 of them. I don't know if David was there or not.

Really odd to me... mostly because I dreamt this the 7 month anniversary that my ex broke up with me. And throughout the day, I was thinking of David, but I was mostly thinking about my ex. I don't know why I dreamt of him and not the ex. WEIRD.
Plus, when I woke up, for a moment I thought that was real. That was normal behavior for me, but different setting. It kind of felt like it had happened before. Huh ;P