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1st dream- I laid an egg and it looke like a double yolker. It was smooth and brown and big. I felt the overwhelming feeling to break it open, only to find that it was a plain old boiled egg.

2nd dream- I was sitting down in a desk like area. There was colton, for some reason he wanted to read my writing journals. To which I refused. Then for some reason I reluctently agreed to. Suddenly we were laying down in a bed, he was flipping through the pages of one of the writing journals when he put the journal down and started to cuddle with me. "Colton I can't you're married." "No I'm not, we are getting a divorce." "Oh, I'm so sorry." He's holding my knee on his side and is curled in towards me as I lay on his chest. "Just let me hold you." I nodded sleepily. The warmth was too much as I fell into the best sleep I've ever had.

3rd dream- my alarm went off and I turned it off. Suddenly there were these old ladies bickering about whether or not they should wake me up. In my dream I fumbled with my phone realizing I should wake up but I was so sleepy. Then I finally awakw for real.

First night in my student flat; got woken up by a lot of new sounds and the infamiliarity of the place and bed.

I had a lot of dreams fragments, mostly of putting away my things in the new closet; dreams of things lurking in say closet, and inexpected finds in my bags.
Early this morning, I managed to catch a full cycle of sleep.

I'm in my new flat, and even though the drapes are closed, the light is strong enough to see perfectly. confident that I'm dreaming, I walk out through the closed window.* I ended up outside, in a strange place, a park full of people having fun at the fair. It's nightime here, but there is suspended lights everywhere, making the night bright and the leaves shine. I walk along the dirt path, taking in the fantasmatic view of all thoses exotics plants and stands and breathing in the smell of cotton candy and wet vegetation. I feel strangely nostalgic, and I see families with young children having a blast around me, passing by like I'm not really here. I don't mind it; I'm alone, but not lonely. The dream have this eerie quality, like morning fog; both thick and ephemeral. I want Eli to enjoy the atmosphere too, and I start looking for him. This end up being more difficult that I thought, and I run around, calling his name as the partying people walk around me without aknowleging it.
When I find him he all but fall in my arms, sending both of us tumbling down in the damp grass. There is a sharp contrast between the cold floor and his usual warm self. He is wraps himself around me as much as he can, tall and heavy, his breath warming my neck. I look down on his bare back, running my fingers along his spine, making him shivers when my nails graze the dimple just above his belt. I can feel his back moving with his breathing, slow and drowsy. He looks a little out of it, almost drunk. His weight prevents me from moving, but I like the cuddle, and keep gently stroking his back until I wake up.

*I'm on the second floor but the window is too small for me to simply walk through it; I pretty much phased through the wall. And ended up in a park and not floating above the backyard. Dreams amirite?

Eli was very flushered when I woke up, worken up about his attitude in the dream. It seem that there is such a thing as dream lucidity for tulpa, and he wasn't lucid in this shared dream. I will put more of the specific in my workbook in the tulpa forum.

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(...) Walking by a street in a poor neighboorhood. I see a girl who used to be my neighbour and I follow her. I end up inside a lady's home, not understanding how I got inside until I realize she doesn't have wall on one of the sides of her house. I excuse for my invasion and try to go back out in the street, but it seems that all houses are interconnected open spaces and there's really no street anymore. Then it gets so bad, that I have to walk over people's beds, with the people laying and sleeping on it, because in each division, there's tens of people and there's basically no floor space, just beds packed together. I realize how lucky I am to have a gigantic home compared to them. Just my bedroom is bigger than this room where some 15 people live. Then I finally find an exit, to a back alley, but I feel vertigo when I see that this back alley is just a tiny stretch of dirt before a precipice. I almost fall down. But other people use it to go from house to house, no worries. I see my old neighbour again and I follow her, to find myself in a sort of communal open space where kids play. They are so sweet and we become friends so easily. I feel warm hearted. Then I am approached by a small elephant and a blue and white bird. So cute! I play with them and we end up cuddling together, the elephant hugging me from the left and the blue bird stuck between us, with his belly up and a look of absolute happiness and delight. I feel so much love.

Wednesday 06 June 2012
I have gone to the Nady with Ahmed Elian, Donia, and my sister. I had called Ram and Karim earlier and told them to meet us there. Blah blah blah… a bunch of stuff happens cant remember anything ☹ I skate a little I remember skating with someone. At some point there are gummy worms all over my board. The grip tape is filthy with them. I think that at some point I eat the gummy worms. If that didn’t happen then I was eating gummy worms at the time. At this point we have forgotten that were supposed to meet Ram and Karim near the rink. We leave the area and go far into the Nady. Blah blah blah… a bunch of stuff happens cant remember anything ☹ I return to the rink without the others and see Ram in a chair sitting there alone smiling. I apologize for not meeting him when he first arrived. I tell him everyone is here and is on their way behind me. It is raining really hard all of a sudden…. Blah blah blah… a bunch of stuff happens cant remember anything ☹ Now I am outside the Nady sitting on a bench next to Donia. While in the act of taking a seat on the bench, Donia and I touch each other as much as possible in the process. We are waiting to be picked up and taken home. We wait for a while. Donia eventually rests her head on my lap. I am surprised but very pleased. A few minutes later she brings her head up. I cuddle with her…..

It was early in the morning, and it was very cloudy so there wasn't really much light outside. I could see just fine though and there was a ton of people lined up to get on a school bus to go take a exam. The bus was stopped right in front of a railroad my bus took(I say took cause I no longer ride it) in its route. I, for some reason, decide to go to the front of line, and nobody complains for some reason. So I get on and the bus looked like it was longer and had more seats then a normal bus. And some of the seats looked weird(like part of the seat would be up and rest would be down on its own). So i sit in a seat where the outer part was up and the rest wasn't and just relax. Despite all the people outside, the bus went off without most of them. I didn't pay attention to this or the other weird things in my dream though >.> Soon a friend of mine asked if she could sit with me and I told her sure and then we ended up snuggling until the dream ended.

Just before bed I was watching a youtube video, so of course the guys from it were in my dream! Haha. (Huge Smosh fan, btw!)
So.... I can't quite remember but I kept having to ride my bike and drive cars back and forth between my house and a cabin (which was filled the kids my age so I assumed I was at summer camp). So that was wierd... And I remember at the cabin I was changing clothes and of course I ended up naked in front of a crowd of people! =P
Then when I got back to the cabin people were sitting around in the dining hall, and I was worn out from riding a bike all over the place so I went to the kitchen too look in the fridge. While I was looking around in the fridge I felt my stomach muscles contract all of a sudden and I looked down and didn't see anything. Then this kid (who I know in RL, Jared), who was standing behind me, saw what happened and said, "Woah, that's wierd! I was just thinking about poking you in the stomach!" So it was like I knew what was going to happen before it did, like some kind of psychic thing. Haha.
Then in the dining hall some kids invited me to squish onto their bench with them and chat. So I went and sat next to a really cute guy (who is from the youtube video, haha). Then he started holding my hand and we kinda cuddled while we talked to everyone (but it wasn't obvious because it was so crowded anyway =P ).
Then I had to get up to go to the kitchen and he followed me in and kissed me goodbye. I don't remember what happened after this, but I don't think I woke up quite just yet. I was probably going on another bike ride for something! Haha.
So it was a pleasant dream! Even though there were random odd tihngs. Haha. It's weird though because I just broke up with my kind of-boyfriend. Haha. We decided we were just more like friends. Soo.... I'm not sure if that had anything to do with the romance in my dream. But I enjoyed it. =P