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Headlights fly by as the rain patters lightly on the windows. The passing of which I've always found to bring back a sense of passing time, reminiscent of what'd I imagine it feels for the passing of stars. Our very own sun, cognizant of its own gliding through the deep expanse of outer space.

There is a driver at the wheel, but the sky is dark and her face remains in shadow. An accompanying sense of familiarity falls over me though. Only one could bring this sense of comfort. Mel. My eyes dart to the left and right, looking for anything out of the ordinary that might be in the sky. An age old habit. One acquired by watching far too much of Star Trek and the X-Files in my youth. Or does it predate that? Does it have some basis in the actual collective memory reality of our species? Perhaps there is a reason we look to the skies. Something deeply embedded within our collective unconscious, the return of the holy feathered serpent of our world's mythologies. Quetzalquoatl, Nehebkau, or perhaps the Chimeras depicted on the hieroglyphs of ancient cities.

Then I spot it. A streak in the sky. Gliding like a banner in the wind, rippling up and down like a wave. A white light radiates outward from its body, lighting up the night sky in the distance. That is it. The feathered serpent. A radiant white chinese dragon, even more beautiful in real life than portrayed in their artwork. Natural and fluent. God-like. Truly a spiritual being beyond anything of earthly realms, but there it is right before my eyes. Does Mel see it? She doesn't seem to notice.

"Mel, do you see that?"

She looks to the right and seems to spot it, but no words come from her mouth. Speechless it seems.

What is that? Another one. Wait, no. Two. Three. Four? Several of these serpent-esque beings fluttering through the sky. That one actually has wings and almost appears to be a gargoyle. Wow, amazing. Something attracts my gaze on the left. Holy mother fucker. What the FUCK is THAT?

A gargantuan entity emerges from the woods on the left side of the highway. Enormous, unearthly, a beetle like being of epic proportions. Its eyes burn with fire. This isn't a threatening being, however. Merely powerful, wise, ancient. It remains still, hovering over the road, observing the surroundings. Is it even living? It could almost be the entrance or the stone guardian of a holy temple - a gateway into the underworld. Into the world beyond the scope of human comprehension, veiled to us by our rigid intellect and desires for power.

I am entering the realm of the Gods.

Or at least some hidden plane. Beings surround our vehicle. Is there even anyone else on the road? Discs fly through the air. My god, these again. Classic saucer UFOs? Those things only appear in my dreams. Wait a sec... Duh. I'm in a dream. Wow, this is intense. Can I even get a handle on this one? There are living spirits all around me.

The sky fills with saucers and spirits, winged serpents with their white light fill the sky. These could have even been interpreted as angels in some cultures. From the distance the resemblance to chinese dragons and angels is hardly distinguishable. Regardless, their power can be felt from miles away, even as they sore high above the Earth. Such an alien power, impossible to say whether as to its benevolent or not. It is just so foreign to our own sense of self.

You're losing track of things, M. This is a dream. Remember not to be drawn in to its splendor. The distraction of your mind's own creative power. This is a dream.

Then why can't I control anything? The usual techniques are not working. No power of flight, no time/space manipulation or ability to alter the entire emotional feel of the setting. This is strange. Is it a dream..?

Wait, that's Mel's brother. I'm in her house. Was I sleep walking? Kid looks like he's about to puke. Either that or he's just really stoned. Neither would be uncommon for him. Hmm, my vision is blurry. I must have taken out my contacts. Definitely sleep walking.

"You okay, DJ?"

"Hah, man. You're totally fucked."

What could that mean? He points at the floor beneath my feet. I stepped in something. A puddle. Okay? DJ holds up a small vile.

"No fucking way. Did you spill that on the floor, dude?"

He starts laughing. You've got to be kidding me. I've been dosed completely by accident. Jesus Christ, how often does this have to happen to me? That is far too much acid in one spot for a safe trip. In no time I'll be going ape shit. God fucking damn this kid. Oh well, there is no stopping it now. I might as well accept what's about to ensue.

Everything is warped. Waving. The walls are alive. "Throbbing with energy" as Terence McKenna says. It has begun. The onset is surprisingly slow. The buzzing rises through my ears, disintegrating my surroundings. I feel the sun. I feel another environment. Where is this? I know this place, I have been before. Though I am accustomed to its flavor, the taste of deja vu is beyond uncanny. Is this still Mel's house? Is this reality? Was it ever? Don't forget, the questions don't matter. Illusions, merely fabricated by our minds to prolong the discovery of truth. There is no stopping this though. I have been thrown into the pool, regardless of my preparation to swim. Entheogens don't hesitate. This is all or nothing and now the walls are coming down. Light begins to seep through the cracks. The environment shifts. A wall to my right now. I am lying down. Windows to my left.

Is this.. my bedroom?

I have re-emerged, back into the so-called "real" world. The collective memory reality. The ingestion of a psychedelic substance within my dream consciousness transitioned me back into waking consciousness. No matter how many times I have experienced that it will never cease to prove fascinating. The human brain truly is a receiver, capable of tuning into a multitude of channels across the cosmic radio. Switch one neural receptor on, another off, and you're broadcasting at an entirely new frequency. Receiving, broadcasting, the difference is the same. Both a generator and receiver of consciousness, filtering the endless waves of quantum energy through the intricate networks of evolutionary design.

Is this reality any more real than the one I was just experiencing? I noticed no gaps between my perception. It was but a continuous flow. Sleeping into waking. What is different? What was ever different? Is the reality tunnel we send our gaze through any less relevant there than it is here? When all is said and done, life is just a memory after all. An ephemeral thought. A dream.

Had hard time to get up today for some reason, basically forgetting to do dream recall until later on.
I still have remembered 2 dreams though(somewhat).

Dream 1(memorable):

Can't remember most of the dream, but i remember part of the dream where i was running from gorilla(which looking surprisingly like Donkey Kong) and ending up near the forest entrance. It was some sort of mystic forest with all sorts of weird creatures around. I was wandering in it but i had an specific goal, which i think was to make specific creature my friend/partner or something.
Soon i found the creature i have searched for, it looked like deer in general, but had rather predatory characteristics and their legs were structured more like the ones of big cats. Their fur was dark violet with dark dots. As soon as i approached they growled and ran away.
After more search i have found another one of them, but this one had pure white fur and looked more amazing in general. It didn't ran away when i approached, but as soon as i tried to establish telepathic link, it growled and ran away as well.
I exited the forest and somebody asked why i haven't got one, to which i responded: "I don't seem to be ready yet, i need more practice" or something along this line.

Dream 2:

Apparently we were preparing all stuff possible to move from our house to the other one, the reason was that that the house was slightly on fire, though fire was rather static and not spreading or anything. Most of the time we were just figuring out what to grab next. Dream ended at some point.

I have had a few naps while attempting WILDs, only one was successful.

Non-lucid nap #1:

I was going into some sort of building, some other people was following me and there was soldier squad as well. There was talk while we was walking through corridors that every new creature we encounter gets numbered and that we should do something with that(don't remember much). At some point in the room we have encountered those 'new creatures', soldiers killed them with shotguns and we have added them to the numbered 'list'(can't remember how they looked, i think number was around 350'ish).
Then we went to another room, there was pool and bunch of creatures different from previous ones, they were pink skinny things, had no eyes, tentacles instead of mouth and they had 2 chicken-like, but meaty, legs. Soldiers shotgun'd those too and we have added them to the 'list' as well, one of creatures fell into pool while dying and exploded upon contact with water. After a while, everyone suddenly started dissipating and the dream ended.

Non-lucid nap #2:

I was in my room, watching something on the monitor, it was about discovery of the creatures #352, 353, 354, 355 and that they have lost contact with one of the teams(i guess my dreams were linked somehow). Then i went to different room and there was another video playing on monitor: basically there was a box with insects and such, and a bit of water. Miniature version of creature from previous dream was dropped into the box as well, it exploded after touching water and insects in the box started dissipating, dream ends.

WILD nap:

Starts with false awakening in my room, i immediately confirm that i am in dream due to stuff in the room being positioned completely differently. Mom was in the room and she was doing something with the windows. Suddenly part of the white window curtain separates and flies around like a butterfly! I look at it flying around for some time, and then suddenly mom asks: "Son?", in very very echoed deep voice. I try to respond: "What?", but apparently i can't manage to talk for some reason(probably because dream started fading). I attempt to stabilize it(should have done that earlier), but it's too late and i wake up.

It started in a time of quake and fear. Everyone was inside homes protecting themselves from the creatures that lurked outside. These creatures would kill anyone they have their eyes on. The weather was rainy outside but not so much of it. I stood in a room with the rest a lot other people waiting for an absolution.

I took no refuge here, instead I went out and searched areas out of curiosity. Then something happened. There was a dog to my left coming towards me. It was a big one, almost as big as a tiger, but I stood my ground and prepared to dodge and attack. The dog ran past me and attacked someone else standing behind me instead. A perfect time for me to escape back in to the building of refuge!

When I made it back in to the room, I appeared in a short, narrow room. Me, my sister, and both my parents were there. I had not realized I was dreaming until I raised out my right hand and summoned a lady. This lady was not just a lady, no. She was a ghost. And every time I tried to summon this same lady, one of my parents disappeared. This ghost scared me. The only one with me was my older sister. She's always there in my ghost dreams. I took it to be a great idea to stick a syringe in me and go to sleep from it. I did and woke up a little too sleepy.

When I woke up from the dream, or a little later(I don't remember), I was paralyzed. I could not move a single muscle. This always happens when I decide to really relax before going to sleep. I could not get up. I felt this sensation growing inside of me, it was building up. I don't know what it was but once I felt too much, I heard a loud scream on my left ear, a demon maybe. I'm not sure what it was but this was all I could get out from it.

DJ Log: September 11, 2012 – 7:00AM (USA Pacific)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

(Note: This entry was found in the middle of blank pages in my DJ notebook. I only found it because the corner of the page had a slight fold to it.)

Hanging out at a large farm house with several other people. We're talking about these creatures who move under the ground similar to the movie Tremors. They can detect low frequency vibrations from things such as: vehicles running, people walking/running, loud music, machinery, etc. There are several large dogs who can detect when the creatures are coming close. One of the guys wanders off to find a working vehicle when one of the creatures comes racing toward him. He jumps into a dump truck and tries to get it started, but it won't start up. The creature pops out of the ground near the truck and tries to attack. One of the dogs runs up and is able to distract the creature long enough that the guy can run back to the farm house.

A few minutes later, I wander off quietly with a couple of other guys and two dogs. We walk away from the house and approach one of the large bank barns. On the left side of the barn, we can see some dirt moving as one of the creatures is moving around. We step gently and approach very quietly. Once we step into the barn, we quickly climb into the loft. There are shelves along one side wall which are full of guns and boxes of ammunition. I pick up a large box and fill it, then look on the floor and find a case of flare guns.

Deciding to test the flare guns against the creatures, I fire one toward the ground where it was moving. The creature comes out of the ground and raises its head into the air, growling at us. I fire a second flare directly into the creature's mouth and after a short struggle, it drops dead on the ground. One of the other guys picks up all of the flare guns he can carry and we quietly walk back to the house.

We get back to the house and start loading all of the guns. One of the guys walks off to find a vehicle. Gets into a red trash compactor truck and drives it back toward the house. Two creatures follow him closely, waiting for him to get out.

October 17, 2012 (NAP TIME!)

Some pre-knowledge: I got very little sleep last night (about 4 hours.) After I had class, I came back to my apartment and took a nap. I left the lights on, fan going, etc. It was noisy. I took a short 20-30 minute nap then woke back up. Then, I tried the WILD technique (For the first time in about a year.) This time though, I was more focused on visualizing than my body. I went straight into the dream instead of rolling out of bed.

THE DREAM:

It started in my house. I tend to stay lucid, but let my mind wander, and don’t take too much control. My dad kept trying to figure out which TV went best in each room. They were huge. This part was very short.

We went on a family trip to some group of islands. We drove on this bridge that kept tipping back and forth. We got out of the car and tried to navigate it ourselves. It was hard to walk on. I wanted to try to move up the bridge, but I was too afraid I would fall. Keep in mind this bridge was a couple hundred yards above water. We couldn’t move along the bridge because it was so wobbly. There were a ton of people on the bridge. So many you couldn’t move.

What happened next was very weird. I saw a stage above us and got much immersed in it. Someone was on trapeze. They fell into the net below, but the net didn’t stay in place. This net thing fell in a hole on the bridge. I guess there was a huge gap in the bridge from it breaking when I got distracted by the stage. There was someone in the center of the net, in the center of the hole. The net fell through and we went down the bridge by ropes. I ran along the water. My friend Connor threw me a rope and pulled me to shore. I looked back at the huge bridge. It was collapsing as people climbed off of it. I walked around the city to explore. I met this blonde girl. We got to know each other really well. I followed along with her. My parents and sister went off and did their own thing.

I followed her back to her house. It was a small room: One door, A few windows, Kitchen, and a kitchen table in the middle. I was standing up. She sat down. We talked. While we were talking, her eyes widened for some reason. She said “Oh! ______ is coming over! He might ask me on a date!” I don’t remember his name, but I let it go by.

After some conversation, I heard a knock on the door. A guy came in. He was pretty built, douchebag haircut, blonde. I shook his hand. “Where you from?” “I’m from the USA.” I guess this was a foreign country. But it looked very Nordic based upon the buildings. A couple other guys showed up. Some of them knew pretty good English, a few didn’t. We all stood around the table. The girl was sitting down. Her eyes were still wide with excitement.

We talked about how some of the guys’ friends went to American colleges and how you need an American college education to succeed. I noticed one of those flatbeds outside that can hold like 14 cars drive by. Then I saw a ton of American brand stores and stuff outside the window that I didn’t notice before.

After some not really understood conversation, the main blonde guy asked the girl on a date. She was overjoyed! That is when I lost it. He was now my enemy. I yelled in my deepest loudest voice “NO! THIS IS MY DREAM!” I lit up with flames and threw the guy into the wall. The wall broke and he went through. I then turned my arm into a very long sword and slashed the other guys in half all around me. The girl didn’t really react. We started talking again and it started getting frisky. We had sex on the table.

Afterwards, I was worried about where my family was. I reached in my pocket for my phone, but it turned out to be a gps-type thing. The map was of the islands that we were on. I remembered my dad had a boat, and for some reason, it was a giant pirate ship. There was an avatar of a pirate ship, towing a car behind it across the screen. I told the ship to come to where I was. It drove through all the islands insanely fast, went through land, and stopped in front of the house. I told my family that I was in this house, and they went off.

It’s very vague as to where it went from there, but the next thing I remember was that we were in another house, this time much bigger. There were a ton of beds, and the lighting was kind of creepy. A few of my friends were there along with the same girl from before. It looked a lot like a GIANT hotel room. As I said, this is where it got hard to remember. There were monsters in all the beds and they were sitting on the couches, standing around, talking, some of them doing other business. They were ugly. They looked like zombies.

I grew the flames for a second time, and started hacking away at these creatures. I killed a majority of them, they disappeared when they died. There were a few very fat ones sitting on the couches that just wouldn’t take a blow. I walked passed. My friends and the girl followed. One of the monsters sitting down had a face that looked like a suction cup. The girl pulled the suction cup off of its face. It was a hole. There was nothing behind it. It was emptiness. One of my friends said to put it back.

We walked through a door into the next room. Once everyone was through the door, I turned around and reached into my pocket. I pulled out a frag grenade, tossed it under the couch where the fat ones were sitting, and it went off. When the smoke cleared, everything was the same, but the creatures disappeared. I turned and went back through the door which my friends went through. It was a room exactly the same as the one before, maroon beds, a couch, and a kitchen. My friends were gone. I shut the door behind me and the girl. It was empty.

These two creatures came in some other door that I hadn’t noticed. They were NOT LIKE the zombies from before. They had very weird arms and legs. They had the head of what looked like the Arbiter from Halo (Four pronged mouth with sharp teeth.) They had no hands, and were black and grey. Their arms looked like giant, strong, muscular tentacles (See picture/attachment.) They didn’t attack me. At this point I was still on fire. One of them, whom I think was the more dominant leader, pointed at me and said “I hope you had your fun tonight!” in a very creepy mischievous way. They both walked back out the door. I pulled a curtain back to look out the window.

I noticed it was night time now, and we were on a hill. In the driveway, there was one of those car carrier things from before. I got a glimpse of the two creatures as they got into the flatbed and started it up. On the flatbed was my 1999 red Ford Explorer. Some of the windows were gone, the paint was messed up, a tire was missing, and there were dummies sitting in the driver, passenger, and back right seat. They were sitting straight up, and buckled in. The flatbed drove away.
I said to myself “I’m tired of all this crap.” And I woke up.


Analysis:
Based upon passed Lucid experiences and this one, the whole mood-swingy control happens often. I am very passive in the beginning (as I like to observe dreams,) and then when something bothered me, I took full control. You may have noticed underlining. I underline important events, places, and objects in my journaling.

It is very hard to interpret the bridge scene in the beginning. The only thing that really speaks to me is my friend Connor. I've only hungout with him twice, and he isn't very social.
-I think it might be a sign I need to be more friendly to the people who need it the most.

The night I got four hours of sleep, I went over to this girl's house. We've been friends with benefits for awhile. Her roommate was trying on outfits to go on a date. Her roommate said "We're going on a date." I assumed that included both of them, as if it was a double date. I got kind of aggravated. Then we got into an argument about how she doesn't really want to have sex anymore.
-I believe this EXACTLY reflects what happened in my dream. This might also be why he had no name in my dream. I met the girl, got mad about some guy asking her on a date, killed them all, and then had sex with her.

The hotel room part is confusing. A few nights ago I watched a horror movie, called VHS, where a few guys brought girls back to their hotel rooms to have sex with them and film it. One of the girls, from the start, looked VERY creepy. They stripped her down, and she had messed up feet. She turned into a demon, and killed them all, spilling guts everywhere. Later in the movie, there was another scene in a hotel room, where a woman murdered her husband in his sleep.
-I think my viewing of the movie may have influenced that scene.

Recently, I visited my friend at another college. I left my car at his dorm for about four days as we visited another university to see what the party scene is like. The whole weekend I was bothered about my car getting towed.
-This may be a link to the flatbed truck in my dream and the quote "You had your fun."

Overall, this one of the weirdest dreams I've had. Most of my other Lucid experience is peaceful, as I'm very passive, and let things happen.



The image attached is a character from an anime called Casshern Sins. The character whom is mutated, seeks eternal life and beauty. But is tricked, and turns into that creature.

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The Occult

IWL, I study nutrition. Tocopherols are a class of chemical compounds of which many have vitamin E activity.

I dreamed there was an occult called Tocepherol. There were a bunch of people hanging around outside a building. They were all chanting some bullshit. There was a wind storm brewing.

I started kind of making fun of them. I got a tree branch and held it above me. I ran up to them. I had to jump from a 3 foot wall down into their little courtyard. At the edge of the wall, I saw them all walking slowly in a oval as was the shape of the courtyard, or they were just shuffling around stupidly here or there.

The wind was picking up. I saw trees swaying in the night wind. I was back a ways again and had a nice long tree branch. As I ran up, I positioned my branch to be comfortable in my hand and to have proper effect. It was long and looked impressive.

I ran up screaming and mocking them. As I screamed, I was trying to make the wind pick up, and it did. I saw tree limbs snapping. It only added to the effect of me screaming with my tree branch which also snapped in half because it was rotten.

I finally jumped down into the courtyard. There were people joining the occult and people leading it. The people joining had drawn little scribble monster things to show how they believed.

There was a guy and a gir. The girl wore a dress. The guy was saying something about how someone as going to do something like screw something into someones throat, or many people were going to do this ritual. The girl said that if anyone was going to do that, it might as well be a girl.

I thought this was the wrong logic unless you were buying into the occult. I didn't bother to tell them that. I was getting an inside look at this occult and it was getting serious. The screwing into the throat thing had a name, but I can't remember what it was.

I started walking around and mixing with the locals. Everyone was brainwashed. I met one guy who didn't really get it. I asked what he was going to do and he said he was going to go inside. I think I advised against that. Inside was the next level in and it was even harder to get out of the occult. They would try to keep you in.

I did go in, but only because I wanted to see what was going on, and I knew they weren't going to brainwash me; when I went in though, it was hard to get out. The leaders had the exit kind of blocked just by sheer volume of people.

I would go out of this room and come back in for some reason, but going back out got harder each time.

I ended up with a bag of something. There was a candle that I couldn't get to stay lit. the wick was in the wax, so I was trying to let the wax melt away from the wic so it would burn higher. Somehow the candle shown on a girl in th bag. It made sense in the dream. The girl was naked and I wanted to get a better view of her.

Now everyone was getting ready to do something for the occult. There was an attractive girl getting ready. She was naked, but she was covered in wax. She was really brainwashed. She was going in to be fucked by someone, or to be burned, or both. Then she caught fire from her right leg. She didn't seem to care.

Then one of the leaders or something--he started telling me and the other guy who wasn't really buying this crap, a story about one of the other leaders. This guy said that the other guy hand taken his two best girs and (accidentally) burned them to ashes, and he would talk to other girls, and taking a little of their ashes, he would say, "This is an ace" or "This is an ace of spaids." Then he would give the ash to the girl he was talking to.

It was time to get the Hell out of there. I talked to this one guy and asked what he was going to do. He said, "I guess I'll bribe the Sherrif!" The guy hadn't done anything, but that would sure make it seem as though he had.

I just left, but I don't know if I got out of the courtyard. It was like I could check out anytime I wanted, but I could never leave. I actually could once I got out of that room, but now the courtyard was hard to leave also.

GF

I was on a beach looking at a huge wave. Some people were surfing. I mentioned that I had surfed waves like that in Melbourne (FL) on the eve of hurricane Hugo. I did surf that day iwl, but it was nothing like the wave in my dream.

I ended up going to this one girls house. They had chickens. I mentioned that I have a chicken coup half built out. She said she was selling one. I asked how much. She thought for a minute and said, $700.00. I forgot what I said, but I mentioned it would be hard to get it back to my state. Later she offered it for $600.00

We went further in the house and I saw her dad. He was looking at repairs that were needed. There was a very narrow hall. One wall looked like an extra wall that wasn't necessary. At the end, I looked around it. Down a long flight of steps was a dark, basement. There was debris like rock and dust at the bottom. It was a good, spooky basement.

The girls father said something about what they needed to do to the basement.

I left the house with the girl. I was in my underwear, but it looked like swim trunks. I asked if she liked how I was just walking around in my underwear.

Dream Skip

I'm with a girl. She was a girl I went out with a couple times iwl, but it just wasn't right--at all. She had asked about us. I had to tell her it was over but I didn't want to hurt her.

I said, "We had fun, didn't we?"

She knew what that meant. She started to cry a little. I didn't say anything else because there was no need. I held her hand.

Now I'm in a car with her and someone else. I'm looking at the girl. I can't take my eyes off her. She looks a little different now and is very cute. Her hair is brown instead of black. Then she has grey streaks in her hair. She's still really cute.

The girl is gone and I'm in the car with a guy who's telling me how he was once driving this VW Bug in disrepair. He said it was only going about 5 mph once while he was on the phone. I told him I had a dream of the occult last night. I remembered the dream I had 3 hours ago in this dream.

We pass a business where they are holding a birthday party for someone. The guy says he would like to get with the girl who wants to do 45 hits of GBS. I look and ask, "Which one?"

He says, "I'll show you." He turned into the driveway, and now I'm with my friend MJ. He drives up and tries to drive through the owners of the business who turns us away. It's a private party. She knows we are up to no good and says, "Sticks and stones can hurt" or something like that.

My friend turned around, and as we were about to pull out of the property, he slowly raises his finger to point the girl out. I told him not to be so obvious.

Driving a Charger

I was with two girls in their Dodge Charger. It was a '67 or so. I was driving it about 80 mph on the highway. It was really shaky. When I saw a car on the side of the road, I had to slow down because I couldn't tell if it was a cop or not.

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dreaming person
Green means notes


Got it? Great! Now enjoy reading my dreams.


Dream #1 . Fighting some creatures in a department store.

Im in store fighting off a bunch of weird looking creatures with a sword. There is this girl with me fighting them off too. She looked a bit like Zooey Deschanel. She kept saying things like..

"I GOT YOUR BACK BABY, I GOT YOUR BACK!"

Im slashing em with this sword in my hands and running thru this huge department store.
I run thru clothes racks and trying to find other useful items, i managed to find a huge spear gun and some guns. I feel the dream closing in on me, and try remembering everything around me.

WILD - Dream #2 Losing a partner.

I am now in another part of the deparment store, and notice that the Zooey Deschanel looking chic, has been injured. She is laying on the floor coughing up blood and trying to talk to me. She mentions that she can feel her life coming to an end, and that i shold be on my way. She also mentions to me to go on without her, and to leave her.

"No, we stick together alright? Thats what partners do."

"No no..(coughing up more blood) just go. I'll be fine...i enjoyed fighting by your side, its an honor to die this way."

I begin tearing up, holding her bloody body in my arms as i am kneeled by her on the ground. She starts to reach her hands towards my face and tells me, that seeing my face before she dies is a dream come true. She tries to say something else, but dies in my arms. I take my hands and close her eyes, and start tearing up a bit more. The dream fades and i wake up.


4:30 - 4:40 am. Did plenty of subconscious training and went back to bed.


Dream #3 Best Friends.

Im with one of my childhood friends, and we are running thru this grassy field talking about what life is gonna be like for us when we get older.


Dream #4 A price on my friends head.

Im talking with some men in some suits about some guy that they want me to take out. I have a photo in my hand and it looks like my childhood friend. The men mention to me that he has been taking them for granted, and if i don't take him out, then they will do it.
Im thinking things over trying to figure out the best way to go about doing this.

Dream #5 Advice from Natalia.


Im in a hotel with Natalia and she is explaining to me about the best way to take my friend out. I tell her that me and him grew up together and that i can't do that. She says..

"But you have not seen him in years, and now all of a sudden he decides to show up? Sounds a bit suspicious to me."

I ponder on this thought, and try to think of logical ways this can be done.


Dream #6 Checkmate.


Im playing this one older white guy in chess at a park and its nighttime. I ended up winning and the man looked at me and smiled.


Dream #7 You have a price on your head.


Im in a university and im putting leather gloves on my hands walking down this hallway wearing a black leather jacket with dark shades on and black boots, with dark black pants and my hair in a ponytail. I spot my friend standing by his locker. I walk up to him and he starts saying things like..

"Rememeber when we were little, and we use to ride our bikes down by the witch lady's house? Man she use to say she was gonna curse us if we ever rode past again! Lol i remember you told her to suck your dick! Lol And she started chasing us. Good times buddy."

(Me)


"What? Whats wrong?"

"Ah, nothing. Just got something in my eyes man thats all."

"Oh ok. So whats up? Why you dressed in all black man?"

I just could'nt bring myself to kill this dude. So i decided to give him some money (A couple of hundred grand) and told him to pack up and leave town. I mention to him, that there is a price on his head, and that his life is in danger.


9:30 - 9:45 am Did plenty of reality checks with my totem and went back to bed.


Final dream: Spotted by my stalker.






Im talking with three beautiful exotic looking babes about totems and lucid dreams. There are four girls chatting with eachother about something nearby. I can sense that someone is about to come loking for me so i tell the girls i have to take care of something. I noticed out the corner of my eye that its one of my crazy former stalkers.

"Great."

I tell her that this is my dream, and that should she find something better to do with her time then bother me. She says..

"I just wanted to show you my new tattoo of you on my arm."

(Me)


"Why the fuck would you that uh? We are'nt together anymore get that thru your head WOMAN!"

"But i love you!"

I start running from her trying to ignore her.

"You can run, but i will always find you my love!"

I find a abandoned building and shapeshift into a black cat. She walks in looking for me but just notices the black cat. I look at her and run off thru the building creeping in the shadows. I make my way thru a creak in the side of the house, and project back as myself running to a nearby store.

I find a girl nearby and take her by the hand to try and have sex with her but the dream fades and i wake up. Damn...all that time wasted! Stupid stalker!


I am very very happy with my results. It defintely made up for what i got yesterday! Im going to keep my subconscious mind wired, so that i can keep my recall looking like this.

I've been slacking off on my lucid dreaming lately, so to get back into the swing of things I've decided to actually start using this dream journal instead of letting it sit around collecting metaphorical dust.

My last two lucid dreams:

10/15/11
[Missing the Bus]
Upon coming out of the school and realizing that I have missed the bus, I become lucid and decide to take a little walk down Main Street to see what might come up. It is a beautiful, overcast, rainy afternoon with no one in sight-- just as I like it. I talk to myself to say lucid while I make note of the similarities and differences of Dream Main Street from Real Main Street. Enjoying the peaceful walk, I am a bit dismayed when fear seeps through me from the very air itself and I notice I creepy girl standing ahead of me in the empty street. She is chanting in a sing-song voice, "Twilight! Sunshine! Twilight! Sunshine!" She approaches me and stops a few inches away, still chanting. Clearly, she's psychotic.

I ignore the irrational fear and decide to have a bit of fun. "Hey, take it easy," I tell her soothingly, pulling her into an embrace. "It'll be alright." I see sanity return to her eyes,and I can't help myself: I press a gentle kiss to her lips. When she kisses me back, I push her against the wall of the store we're standing near, and we begin making out. After a few moments, however, she stops me. Apparently I have done something to anger her in the past, and she isn't yet ready to forgive me. In a rage, she nearly forces me to wake up.

*darkness, but I manage to bring the dream back*

It is sunny now, somewhat to my dismay, but despite the sudden scene change I am still lucid. Now I am walking with two companions along a grassy path, somewhere out in the country. The girl is still prevalent in my thoughts... I MUST find her again! Maybe if I hadn't been mooning over some non-existant person, I might have noticed the earth giant before he noticed us.

His huge leafy head slowly rises from the hill where he was sleeping, his mean eyes narrowed right at us. Oh, crap. "Run!" I shout, doing my best not to trip over the unstable ground.

Knowing I can't outrun him, I hide in some dense undergrowth and then sprint into the main forest as soon as the coast is clear.

After I take interest in some strange little paths that stretch through the woods, a narrator begins saying some stuff that I'm not really paying attention to. Once more, I'm having fun just exploring. Then I catch the narrator saying something along the lines of, "But little did she know, she was about to encounter the dreaded Mask People." Wait, what? Mask people? That's when I see them: little hairy creatures dressed in brown robes and creepy masks, each carrying a staff with some kind of animal skull on it. I freeze in my tracks, doing my best not to make any noise, because I have an innate understanding that the Mask People are blind.

I decide to mess with them. I let out a sudden bloodcurding scream, and a few of them are so startled that they fall to their butts on the forest floor. I laugh hysterically at my little prank, until they begin to get aggressive. "Wait, I'm not going to hurt you," I say. "I'm a friend." Somehow appeased, their leader gives me a skull like the ones on their staves. I follow them and eventually meet back up with my companions.

It isn't long before I find that girl again, in some dream city, but she keeps running away from me. As I am searching for her again, I pass by a huge church that has a big electronic sign in which my name is scrolling by in big yellow letters. Maybe she's in there. I open the door and immediately see that this is no ordinary church. A service is taking place in which everyone is wearing some kind of disturbing mask-- not like the mask people, whose masks looked like tikis, but intricate masqurade masks resembling demons and evil creatures. I notice that the preacher, who is not wearing a mask, closely resembles Pan from Pan's Labyrinth.

I'm intrigued, but I ignore all of this when I see the girl in a long procession on the staircase, headed to one of the lower rooms. I leap over the banister and stop her, holding on to her arm. Some of her sanity has left again; she is going off on a crazy rant that I am not really listening to because her eyes are changing color like a kaleidoscope. "Such beautiful eyes..." I think to myself.

*there is a lapse in time, but somewhere along the line the girl has officially started trying to kill me*

I run with my companions up the hill to some beautiful houses. But horror fills us--- we've arrived at HER house. Great.

I confront her again, but suddenly realize that my friends have guns and are going to shoot her. "NOOO!" I yell and pounce on her, knocking us both to the ground. I end up taking all the bullets, which wakes me up.

11/18/11
[Alice in Terrorland]
I am with my mom and my brother to begin with, on a search for Alice Liddell, who is in some sort of trouble. We travel down a staircase into the basement of an old church where we come across a very formidable looking door. My mom tries to open it. "It's locked," she tells me.

Suddenly I "remember" that I have had this dream before. (It was a false memory; I've definitely never dreamed anything like this). "This is the Door Master's door. You need his key to open it. It should be in your pocket," I inform her. Just as she finds the key, the Door Master appears behind us. He is basically a giant key with eyes, arms and legs, who is very alarmed when he sees what we are about to do. "HURRY UP AND OPEN IT," I yell as the Door Master sprints toward us. We go through the door and slam it behind us so he can't follow.

Now we are in a long hallway with hundreds of different doors and passageways. I have been in this sort of place before; if we don't get proper directions, we'll be lost in here for ages. Shaking off my feelings of foreboding, I walk confidently onward, somehow aware of the general direction we should be traveling. After a while, I spot a familiar door. "What ever you do," I warn my companions (who are no longer my mom and brother; they are now an old friend of mine and a cat), "do NOT go through that door. I made that mistake last time." (Yet another false memory.)

All of a sudden, the Door Master is sprinting in front of us, going off to alert someone of our presence. "Wait!" I shout and begin to chase after him. "We need you to help us find Alice!!!" I follow him for a while, but then I spot Alice just as she darts through one of the doors. A strange woman stops us as we approach.

"You'll need to memorize this rhyme before you go any further," she tells us. "It will save your life." She then proceeds to recite a very ominous poem, which I have unfortunately forgotten. Something about "A terrible place called Wonderland." My friend memorizes it quickly, so we enter the house of Alice Liddell.

Her parents are standing in the kitchen when we walk in. "She's in her bedroom," Mrs. Liddell informs us, pointing to the far end of the house. As we head that way, I notice Alice's older sister. She is a tall, beautiful young woman with pale skin and reddish-blond hair, wearing an old-fashioned dress. She smiles at me when we pass.

Just when we reach Alice's bedroom, I "remember" that her sister is insane. Whirling around, I manage to throw up my arm right as she stabs a knife at me. The blade sinks painfully into my arm. Suddenly in a sort of berserker mode, I grab the knife and psychotically stab it into her stomach again and again and again until she falls to the floor, dead. Then, I plunge the knife into her back "for good measure," before taking it and following my friends into the bedroom.

Alice, an 8 or 9 year old girl with black hair and sullen looking eyes, is sitting on her bed, waiting for us. "You're not my friends anymore," she says in the creepy, monotonous voice of someone who is possessed. "You're not my friend and you're not my friend and you're not my friend," she points at each of us as she speaks. That creature has taken her soul, I realize, preparing for the worst. "But you know who IS my friend? HE is!!!!" The closet door bursts open------------

Just as my alarm goes off and wakes me up.

first dream was me getting movies at this store....they checked the vhs tapes and lost the cases in the process.....i got frustrated and left

second was my roommate's boyfriend saying about a cold he had while sitting on the couch....and there was something wrong with the roof of his mouth and it was closing...then there were these weird underground people that looked like their arms and legs were each a giant worm....they were saying they would help him.....but he had to go in a bin on a railroad track to get there (it looked like gringots in harry potter)

i woke up between these two and some of the content stayed the same

third was a game show where you had to stay in these weird boxes in standing position where it was cramped (really would bother people who are claustrophobic) and there were a few tasks where you ate strange food and one where you jumped into really cold water from high up....the people to do the tasks were randomly chosen.....and if everyone stayed....the prize pot got bigger......so we were to encourage each other

and there was this one girl at the end who couldn't talk and she started shaking....and i called for a medic.....because they were checking everyone before they left.....and i hugged her to try and calm her because she started to cry and look scared when i mentioned the medic coming over......and this thing left her body and went into mine......and she could talk but i couldn't......and i was trying to explain to the doctor in her office what was going on without making any contact with her or being able to speak.....and this guy kept trying to stop me.....and there was something up with him.....and i was trying not to touch him.....even though i knew he was evil.....and i touched him and the thing moved into his body and interacted with the creature inside of him and killed him

I was in school. There's a fight. There's also an interview about the paranormal, from 9 am to 11 am. I was supposed to be there. I asked a friend to wake me up to remind me.

I was a in a room. Summoning stuff, creatures, etc. Various fascinating creatures. There's one that reminds me of Frankenstein's monster.

I was on the streets. Crossing the streets. Japan came to mind. Midday. I was with a couple of people, but there were no others. There was a lady carrying a baby. The baby woke up. I made a comment about it. We walked, and then after some time, she left the baby on the street, as she rode a jeep. I tried to get her attention.

I was inside the jeep. Some acquaintances arrived, and there were two guys I was familiar with. Then some girls. I moved to make room for them. One girl accidentally sat on me, thinking there was enough space. I complained.

I, or some guy, is in a building. There was an Asian girl with a white dress (she looks Anime-ish). She holds a powerful summon creature. She sleeps in a cage. I, or some guy/girl, then went to steal some summons (hers?).

They tried escaping. A summon was released, in the form of an actor LM. He ran away out of the building to escape. The one chasing him (this time, it's not me; it's some girl). The girl said she won't let him get away.

We were near the river of what looked like Iloilo. LM summon jumped on the water, and he showed his true form; some sort of a huge water-tornado, with yellow cloth floating around, and very feminine face. The girl jumped on the boat and captured him.

I was in the marketplace, near the sea. I was talking to my other person, Chad. Or I was Chad, talking to my other person, Gab. I talked about how I want to capture new summons. I jumped around.

I do love dreams. Even though I cannot give myself fantastic dreams, I do enjoy their bizarre messages.

[I][COLOR="purple"]Cannot recall much. Me standing on a castle wall gazing below at some creatures climbing frantically up the stairs towards me.[/COLOR][/I] [I]I then woke up. This fragment felt like I was in a sort of castle defense game, even though I provided no defense.[/I]

[I][COLOR="purple"]I was in a forest. People, acquaintances, were here. Littered about everywhere, partying. I had met my close friends, whom I had warmly greeted. They ignored my presence and talked amongst themselves. A girl approached them, which I greeted also. My greeting was met with silence, so I moved on. I climbed up a small hill into a little area protected by what seemed like willow leaves.[/COLOR][/I] [I]I then woke up.[/I]

Odd Beginning
It all started with me talking with friends and watching the news on TV. We then noticed a news story of people from the last thanksgiving celebrating a thanksgiving party at my house. These people looked like people from my old High School, Chevy Chase, and Bill O'Reily were in the group too for some odd reason. I asked my friends where were we on that day? They said we were at a church gathering and we were all fasting (ON THANKSGIVING?!?!?!). I started to recall that party's details we had and it looked like my Uncle Paul's old ranch, but a huge house on the field and it was home to a scientist and I saw a picture of Chevy Chase on the walls. The dream then changed to the party.

Thanksgiving at Chevy Chase's house
We were outside the mansion and began to notice some very strange things. For one, he had fences all around his house and behind the fences were dinosaurs (herbivors). They walked right by us and I remember the sudden urge to explore. We ran into the garage and found normal garage stuff but with an inventors touch to every piece of equipment. I then decided to go inside and see where everyone else is.

I was walking down the hallway and saw many people from my church socializing. I remember seeing many creepy things out of the corner of my eye that were little creatures that would appear and disappear but I could never get a good look at them. I then kept going down the hallway and saw my mom sitting on a bench next to my Grammy, Aunt Jill, and my 6 year old cousin Landon. It was the darker part of the hallway and I was very worried for our safety. I walked over and sat down next to my mom and said we needed to leave this house it is dangerous and I started to describe the little creatures I kept seeing. She said to stop like I was being disrespectful or lying to her and at that moment I saw a green little creature slowly come around the corner and it was bouncing toward me. If you have ever played Super Smash Bros Brawl, it looked like one of the enemies with big lips that hide in the ground and jump out and stick to you. It freaked me out and I started yelling, "There! There it is! It's right there! Help it is coming for me!" Nobody saw anything and started looking at me like I was insane. At that moment it jumped up onto my hand and stuck its lips on my palm and sank into my wrist. I felt no pain or anything when this happened and was confused if it was a hallucination or real. My mom said that it was time to go now, and I asked why and she said because i was acting crazy in front of my little cousin and there is no telling what he picked up from that.

We all started to leave and heard the sound of bees. I went into a hallway and saw giant bees behind glass walls in the hallways. Everyone else saw the bees too and began to panic. I remember after this giant bees being in the hallways and we went into the hive to destroy them (we being me and my friends who reunited with me again). We went in and saw the queen and her many mad bees with her along with waterfalls of honey. We found a control pad and hit the big red button in the middle and it made all the honey flow faster and rooms started getting sealed off by giant iron doors. Now me, my Aunt Jill, and my 3 cousins Jake, Austin and Landon ran out of the hallway and out the front door as a wave of honey was pouring down the hallway. We were launched out of the house and the doors shut behind us and there was honey everywhere. We then saw the honey level rising and knew we had to find a way out of here. My Aunt Jill then said she found a way and ran to a little flying ship about the size of an 8 person van that looked like the Banshee from Halo Reach. We all got in and started to take flight as the mansion exploded with honey behind us.

Futuristic City
We all had a lot of conversations about how we were heroes for saving the world from giant bees and how we were lucky to be alive until we came over a mountain and saw a huge city. A city of towering buildings with neon and holographic signs on them and flying cars similar to ours flying around. It looked like a futuristic city. At this moment I was admiring the scenery and checking every detail until I realized that the view was not all that clear and was a little blurry. I thought this must be a dream and told my Aunt Jill to land and pointed to a spot. We flew over the the spot and landed and I immediately got out and decided to explore.

The floor of the city looked like a carnival and there were games and basketball hoops everywhere along with nothing but little kids and occasional parents. I set off by myself and explored the child's fantasy I was in and began LFS. I couldn't find anyone but kids. Every time I recognized someone, I would see them up close and they were just another kid. I then saw my cousin Ben and the two girls that always play basketball with us at church basketball tournaments and went to them. The closer I got, the more they wanted to go the other way so I just moved on because I didn't want to wake up. I then found a few girls giving me seductive looks and decided to go and talk to them (why not? everyone else is ignoring me). I asked the first one about LFS and she ignored me and walked up to my cousin Ben who was suddenly behind me. The other girl came to me and said in my ear, "I'll give you a good time sweetie." I then noticed the whole group walking up this odd staircase of bars like at a playground and everyone had to grab them overhead with their hands and climb to the next level. No one explained why but I went on with it and soon everything started to fade to my last houses living room.

I was now in my old house's game room and my dad had walked in and woken me up while changing the thermostat. I then wanted to fall back asleep in hopes of returning to that awesome city dream I was having and started going back to sleep (this is all still a dream I was dreaming that I had just had a dream).

I had now returned to the dream on the sidewalk by some river and was immediately aware that I was dreaming again which obviously would work considering that I never woke up in the first place. I went to the water and said boat and raised my arm up and a racing boat appeared in front of me. I jumped in and took off down the river which turned into a race track like Hydro Thunder suddenly. I raced up a jump and did a few flips up a steep incline and then got to a tower at the top of the race track and there were south park characters their arguing about a crane machine. I walked over and started listening to their argument and then woke up.

(LFS is a thing from my life that I don't feel like explaining)

I am at some sort of public pool. The ground around is is golden brick and there are places where
it goes back into an alley and the ground is grass instead of brick. My brother is there as well as a
few people I don't know but are my "friends". I walk around for a while and do a few things I don't
remember but then I go to the far alley where the ground is full of lush green grass. At the end of
this alley, there is a pine tree. I look at the tree and try to figure out what I'm supposed to do with
it. I try a few things but then go back to the pool. I go to the edge of the pool closest to the entrance
and look through a pile of clothes for a swim-suit. I find a grey one but then walk back over to the
alleyway. My brother goes over with me this time and we're both trying to figure it out. Suddenly, he
pulls out a chainsaw and starts attacking me with it like Doom. It is almost like in a game. My vision
flashes red and a jump up to a high alcove on the wall. He then forgets about it and so do I. I jump
back down, go over to the tree and take out a flamethrower. My brother says burning it won't work but
I use the flamethrower on the tree anyway. I literally get this menu that says "Use flamethrower on tree".
I selected that option and burn the tree. Suddenly, I see an overview game. The floor texture is a
salmon brick pattern and the walls are black. The character likes something like the avatar of the
pokemon games. I guide the character down and find the game in a darker room. The brick pattern
has changed to dark blue/purple. The walls are still black. There are enemies now and I go to fight them.
I kill one with some sort of red shot. Then one of the enemies hits me and I find I can't shoot anymore.
I then notice that the character has turned into some sort of animal. Every time I get hit, the character
turns into a more primitive animal and after a period of time the character progressively returns to
normal. I manage to avoid the enemies enough to return to normal. I kill one and get hit by another. I
run away going down into the next room and I start fighting the next enemies. I am doing better. I kill
many enemies and they progressively get bigger and bigger. The game gradually transitions to a
side-scrolling platformer similar to castlevania. I run along the floor. I see a massive white and blue
dragon-like monster and hit it with a sword. It dies. I go further and jump up on a few platforms killing
similar beasts as I go. Not much later, the dream ends.

I was in a large open place, indoors but very big. It had people there and on one side as I walked, there were small creatures, starving. I didn't recognize most of them as children. They looked like animals around the size of dogs or cats, some were bigger, some smaller. They were all suffering. They were dying. Somehow, they were starving and could no longer move because of weakness, just on the edge of death. I kept wondering, "Can I help them in time?" In my hand I carried a bit of food, just a bit. It was some sort of meat. I begin to tear it into pieces. I came to the first creature and gave it a piece. It got stronger. I kept going to each creature in turn. They were stronger and begin to leave. Then, I got to the last 3 creatures. I recognized them. They were human babies. They could not eat meat. I knew this. I could only take one under my arm and had to leave. I found myself wondering about this large place. I think I was lost. Suddenly, I realized I had lost the infant. It had slipped away. I was frantic, retracing my steps. That ended the dream.