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I think I started to get sick this day, which might explain the weird and stressful dreams.

Jumbled Mess
0845: Software at work is breaking. We buy something close but it fails two. I want a chance to fix it. The whole thing catches on fire. I think if break it into pieces, it will work. I try to convince people I was wedding chaplain in the army. On a beach with a big bon fire. Also like SAV home office.

Weird Father Dream
1045: Father trying to sell solve computer problem. ... try to call Google but their office won't open for a few hours. He3 suggests we break into their office and steal what we need. I say let's not be so hasty. Since the problem can wait, no sense committing a crime. We can solve it any time during the week, when their office will be open.

Then similar situation in a college class. Father want to cheat on a test. He tries the ... way into a parking lot to avoid the fence. He wants to lie to the professor about being on vacation.

More Paranoia
1205: Trying to solve math problems with my sister. Don't have a calculator. My father's truck is in a parking lot. The brakes barely work. Security cameras everywhere.

Great start to the new year! 11 dreams recalled on 1/1/11! :banana:

[INDENT][RIGHT][SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]01.01.2011[/COLOR][/SIZE][/RIGHT]
[SIZE="3"][COLOR="Black"]1/1/11 - 11[/COLOR][/SIZE] [SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"](Non-lucid)[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]NON-DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#1E90FF"]DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#DC143C"]LUCID[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[COLOR="#808080"][/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]1) It's as if I'm a character in a video game; I press a button and jump over hexagonal shapes, which are graduatingly black/green with opaque green outlines.

I walk across a swampy area and see an emo girl. She has short black hair with some pink in the middle. She's talking to me and seems rather friendly.

2) I'm at a movie. My friends are there, but I'm sitting with little kids (NBA's brother's friends?) I'm kind of embarrassed, but I sit back and enjoy the movie. The room is dim and has a blue glow.

At an intermission, my friends come up to me, as well as OG. OG tries to harrass me. I make fun of him and curse at him?

Mrs. A is standing at the side of the room, giving a presentation. We all turn to face her, sitting in a semicircle. I'm having a little difficulty breathing.

3) Today I'm going to visit Boston University with Mrs. W. I'm absolutely positive that this is my second time visiting, and this time I'm going to show her. [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"]There's a really good chance that I visited this in a prior dream, but I can't remember a thing about it. In the dream, though, [/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]I'm convinced I just visited the day before and have now come for my second visit.

I'm walking along a New York street, on my way to Boston University. I look at the buildings (which are pretty run-down) and think about how they're structurally identical to a LEGO. They must have built a building based on my LEGO model. It's the exact same thing. The high rise across the street looks cool, too, even if it is in need of repair.

I get to the street corner and am ready to turn to walk down the sidewalk to Boston University when a car starts honking at me. I point and ask, "Me?" and yes, the driver is directing at me. It's an ugly fat woman with sunglasses; she's probably in her 50s. She pulls over and rolls down the window, informing me that Mrs. W would be there with me today. I had completely forgotten, but that's right. Mrs. W [I]is[/I] going with me today [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"](is this the first time I've had this concept? I'm not sure)[/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"].

I meet Mrs. W in the dusty desert-like city block on which Boston University is located. We greet each other and enter the building, a highly modern and very nice facility. PS is there to greet us, and he guides us up. After we reach the top, JF, NBA, KB, and I all skate down the stairs. There are crevices in the stairs and elevated areas, so we have to jump like we're in a video game. We're going downhill, we just speed down without worry. KB taunts me about being so slow and last out of the four, so I put more attention to the game and become focused for the first time. I zip down the stairs, passing all three of my competitors.

[/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"]Is this a false awakening beginning of another dream? I'm not entirely sure, but it seems to me as if all this happened at the bottom of the slope we were just skating on. [/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"] I check my phone for email and see that I have hundreds of emails from DreamViews. [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"](That isn't too far from being accurate, "lol.") [/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]I have an email saying that Raven Knight has replied in one of my threads, and I'm interested to read what she has to say because I respect her opinion as one of the more intelligent posters. I go to the thread and read her post, in which she bashes a bunch of people who replied. Her vicious attacks are relentless, unyielding, and unforgiving. She probably attacks 5-10 people, all whose usernames I don't recognize. None of them have avatars or are important members, but they were just causing problems and making posts that sounded stupid.

Thankfully, she didn't reply to any of my posts. :)

4) Jeff777 makes a forum post. [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"](I wrote this down as a note at 5:00 AM, but now I don't remember what he said. I think when I had the dream I actually got the gist of his post, though.)[/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]

5) I'm in DV chat and Akono has something next to his name. It's just like the little line and then "Away," but it looks like it's longer. He still has the "@" sign in front of his name and everyone still has the brackets. I think what he's saying has a negative tone.

6) I'm in a huge group of kids in my grade, eating lunch in the parking lot. At the end of lunch, I find CH and ask him where he had been all lunch period! He tells me that he had been eating his lunch nearby? I try to get my sweatshirt on but have real difficulty in doing so. When I finally get an arm in, I have it on backwards. :/

I walk into the school through the back entrance and walk down the hallway. I have no idea what class I'm supposed to be going to. I think tremendously and begin to panic, but I eventually figure out that it's X Block. Whew! That's a relief, I have lunch now so I won't be late for anything. I see a few kids from lower grades on the stairs who have high, squeeky voices. I interpret one of them to be RG.

I get to my locker but can't open it. I must have put in the wrong combination. After another unsuccessful try or two, I realize that I'm trying the wrong one. :/ Mine is two lockers over!

I move over and finally open it successfully. But this isn't my locker - it's a vending machine filled with snacks and candy. Opening it was a floccinaucinihilipification. I close it, since it's not mine and there's really nothing for me to do with it, much to the surprise of the students who were having a math (Calculus?) extra help session in Mr. S's room. DM is one of the students in there. I see Mrs. M passing through the hallway, and she asks me if I live in ([/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"]I forget the name, but [/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]it was some obscure town I had never heard of). I tell her where I live, but I don't think she's really paying attention and it doesn't sink in.

I walk down the hallway and turn, and I'm at work. It's a huge office building, but I need to get back to my locker. I notice I'm in just my underwear. I turn and go down another hallway, but now I'm just lost. There's an office foyer-like area, but there's only one guy there. I turn back, but there's a row of cubicles where I was sure my locker had just been. I'm really frustrated now because I have no clue how to get back. I turn down some more hallways and the whole thing is just an office building.

7) I'm in a country house. There's a man outside who I interpret as a Southerner: the man has gray hair, is aged 50-65, has the drawl accent, and his head is cocked a little to one side. I'm afraid to walk outside, but I know I have to. I've been watching this man through a window.

I finally walk out onto the porch, and he tells me something which surprises me, but shouldn't: he's going to adopt us. There's someone else who walks into the yard, someone I recognize and don't mind. However, I don't really want to be adopted. I think of polite excuses because I don't want to hurt the old man's feelings.

8) I'm in a location with bridges over lava and huge crowds of people. I wonder for a moment where this could possibly be, and I come to the conclusion that it must be 4chan. I'm kind of on one of the bridges a little further back, and there must be a concert or something because everyone's pushing towards the central bridges and is jumping around. I'm in the spirit and I'm jumping around too, but I seem to be stuck towards the back.

I see the front bridges start to clear out; this is my chance! I remember that my goals are leadership, assertiveness, and action [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"](which are actually my real-life goals, not dream goals)[/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"] and this is the perfect opportunity to work on building those character traits. I make my way towards the front and start jumping around as if it's a sporting event and my team just scored a goal. I look across the lava field, and only a mere few feet there's a platform where they're giving out free pizza! 4chan was sued or something for causing problems on the Internet and so now it had to give out free slices of pizza to all its members. I gladly took my two free slices. My cafeteria should do this!

I learn that if I want more, I'll have to come back tomorrow. They give out two free slices to everyone each day.

9) I'm with a few kids outside and we're in a small group playing a game. One of the girls breaks down and asks me how i play, because I'm so good.

LeBron James is there, and he's a pretty cool guy. We talk and joke around, and I bounce off of his humor. His jokes perfectly set up my jokes, allowing me to have awesome punchlines that everyone likes.

We're in the gym, and I'm hanging with LeBron, who's now become a piece of cardboard. Hmm, he must've been a piece of cardboard the whole time. Maybe I was just imagining him as a person when he was a cardboard all along.

Mr. P is at a podium under the board and he calls up PC. Mrs. E takes some pictures of me and the LeBron cardboard and says it's cute and wonderful. She tells me to keep it up, the kids love it.

10) I have a false awakening. I check my notes I put on my phone as a temporary DJ, but I don't understand anything I wrote. It's all weird numbers, percentages, and fractions like 2/3. I eventually figure out what the numbers mean (it's something like % of dream recalled, lucidity, or measurement of vividness, but I forget what now) but they still don't help me remember what actually happened in the dream.

11) I'm traveling through a really poor section of town. The houses are dilaptitated, literally - they're all several feet below ground, so there are essentially cliffs around each house.

I'm going down a road (X St.?) and see lots of political signs for people running for office. I notice in particular RD signs, where he talks about his Christianity and his church. There are crosses attached to the bottom of each sign, which becomes annoying as I go down the street; more and more signs appear until the overhanging above the street is loaded with them and I have to duck my head just to get along the road.[/COLOR][/INDENT]

I'm going to start tracking my stats for the year from now on. It's time to start anew!

Total dreams: 11
Total days: 1
Total lucids: 0
Dreams per day: 11
Lucids per day: 0
Dreams per lucid: infinity :o

Winston Churchill

Winston Churchill has come to live with my family. Actually, in my dream I think I am related to him. We get into some discussion with some people (I think we are at my old college, but I'm not sure). Churchill and I are arguing one side against some of the others. It is getting late, and we all decide to go to bed.

I start up to my room, but then remember that I left a light on in the living room. I go back to turn it off, and Churchill says something really strange like "farewell, sweet feline". I just kind of stare at him, and then go back to my room, thinking what a weird thing that was for him to say...

... There is food. Shrimp, I think. Also, there were some books around that I was reading. I think in preparation for a class. Wait, I'm getting something more: I am studying for an exam that I am about to take. That's how it starts. Then I started reading Churchill's "Gathering Storm".

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG SHARED

22:30 GMT

Revolution
Some revolution is going on but I have a hard time telling the good guys from the bad guys.

2:00 GMT

Tiny world inside the bathbub
I’m in the bathroom and I see my cat’s head coming out of the drainage hole. I don’t have a clue how's that possible but I fear he might be trapped in there and I want to help. I break the tub and I put my hand through the hollow interior to get the cat. But instead of finding the cat, the interior of the tub walls have divisions and it is like a miniature house, with tiny figurines that come to life. I then become part of the action on this little world.

Injured animals
A cute puppy appears but he’s injured in his head and bleeding. I take care of him and as I clean the wounds, he becomes a man. He lays down to rest. We are now in my grandma’s kitchen. Then my dad is also present and he tells me he thinks he is not going to survive. But the bleeding seems to stop so I am hopeful. I then hear what seems like another injured animal screaming outside but all I see is some kids doing something. As I fear they might be hurting an animal I go screaming at them, saying I will call the police. Then I realise they were doing nothing wrong and there's no animal and they look at me like I’m some crazy lady.

3:20 GMT

Reptilians I
I was accepted at some kind of college fraternity or secret society group. We are on what seems to be an improvised court of law. We’re wearing the college uniform. I and another girl are new to the group and we’re a bit lost with the whole ceremony. We have to repeat some kind of oath and the other girl is so nervous she messes up. They are a bit harsh on us, but we know it’s normal that first time we fail, because we never saw this text before.
After the ceremony, the ones who are there for longer time go to a room upstairs to deliberate or something - they have a secret meeting we cannot attend. But I go upstairs to do something else and out of distraction I open the wrong door and enter their meeting. They are all in reptilian form and I realise this is their natural selves. Surprised by my presence, some of them try to quickly go back to their human shape, but it’s too late, I already know. I don’t feel scared though. I ask them why they let us in their group if we’re not like them. I wonder if they are my enemies but for some reason want to keep me close so they have an eye on me. But as we look at each other, waiting for one another to speak, a group of guys from another fraternity/group invades this house where we are, to kill me and the other girl. The reptilians protect us. I am totally confused. I run from them and I get trapped on a balcony. From there I see down below an interior patio surrounded by walls and a gate. This group just chased outside two guys from "my" group and hammered one in the head leaving him dead on the ground. The other is still being chased into the woods, beyond the gate. I remember I can fly, so I fly over them and I pick up the guy running, trying to lift him off the ground to save him. He is heavy, but I somehow manage to drag him along. We arrive at a train station and I have a car parked there. We enter the car and we escape.

4:45 GMT

Reptilians II
I am back to same dream. I am trying to dig some answers. I try to find out why I am being both chased and protected. I meet a reporter who’s also researching these groups and what they’re up to. We meet at some public place. When she leaves I see the frat boys again in the crowd. Because we’re on a public place, I hope they won’t kill me there, but still they are closing me in and they attack me in the crowd. I threaten them by saying I’ve told everything I knew about the dead and missing college kids to the press. They don’t seem bothered at all. In the fight I get hurt and they seem to be pretty interested in one of my fingers. I look at it and the skin got off from the fight, exposing reptile skin under. Oh my god, I’m one of them! (Second time I dream I'm a reptilian)

6:45 GMT

Type: DILD.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Notes:
I hate it when I take too long to record dreams. And it just had to be this one.

This was a rather high-level lucid. I was in the back of a semi truck, which was actually lit pretty well, casting light onto the thinner metal walls. There were large, empty cardboard boxes with unidentifiable red and white labels around the inside walls of the truck, but then proceeded to start sliding around as the vehicle started and stopped. I could feel the gravity and shifts as the truck did this, which was almost every few moments.

I didn't know where I was.

In this period of time, I know I became lucid. I also know that I got out of the truck by creating a blast of bluish, electric energy. When I did this, I was able to hear the electrical sound of something shorting out, and a realistic zapping noise. I then walked out and ended up on the field of a university campus. The university building was around forty feet away from me, as an estimate. It was pretty small, with light brick and stone walls, but the area around the building was very big. It consisted mostly of trimmed grass and a running track that went around the perimeter of the campus. I knelt down and smelled the grass (while looking around me at the same time to not lose focus). The grass smelled rather sweet, almost too sweet. I touched it with my hands and it felt damp.

Next, I believe I looked up and the actor Edward Norton appeared behind me. But the strange thing was, I didn't summon him myself. However, I figured I wouldn't let it go to waste because he looked almost perfect and normal. I kissed him, and he kissed me back.

This dream consisted of more stuff, but unfortunately I took too long to record it.

Catching up from a few days away without Internet.

"F*** you, but nice sweater!"
0855: Hugh takes a job at my company. He has something to do with the reactor. There is a meeting in the office and the CEO is talking to Hugh. Then my desk is moved to the left turn lane of a street intersection. Now I walk to the reactor. Something about Iranians and a school. Now the buildings seems like a college campus with an impressive library overlooking a grassy area with trees. Group of people waiting for a large gathering. They are practice their speeches that they will give before the crowd. They are all young adults, like college students. I sit down ... map. ... I say "fuck you, but nice sweater!" He falls on is chair. I find a colleague I know and we laugh.

Ugly Glasses, Soccer
1014: Playing soccer with a mix of coworkers and high school classmates. One guy shows off his new glasses. I see they are way too thick and unattractive. I think at first to be polite, but I realize it's better that I tell him the truth that his glasses look ridiculous. The soccer game is on a grassy area in front of a building that looks like a old church or library. There are trees and water fountains in the middle of the play area so people have to run around. They are tripping on the roots of the trees. Our team scores. Then I get the ball alone with a long way to dribble toward the goal.

short WBTB+MILD

Tequila and Stuff
Method DILD
Lucidity D
Vividness C
Control D
1103: I don't recall how I became lucid. Nor did I stop to think of my plan. I mostly just observed this lucid dream. I'm outdoors at night. I am in a grassy area near a building. There's also sidewalk around the building. Reminds me of a spot on my old college campus. The area is lit by street lamps and lights around the building. There are a few people around and I am chasing them, like we are playing tag. I intuitively think that two of them are twin girls and they are both my wives. I grow tired of running and spot chasing them.

Now, the buildings near me seem to be restaurants and bars. There are impressive full length windows and outdoor patios. I walk up to the entrance of one building and it's a bar. There is a line of people waiting to get in. I pull a bill out of my pocket and smoothly hand it to the bouncer as I walk past the line and straight in. It's crowded with people inside with low lighting. I walk around the bar hurriedly, looking for anyone I recognize, but I don't find anyone. I come around to the bar and squeeze in to get the attention of the bartender. The bar is really high but with a glass case. It reminds me of the case in a Starbucks or a donut shop. Anyway, I order two shots of tequila (strange, I'd never order that IWL). I shoot one immediately. I take the other glass and walk away from the bar. I walk toward the front door. I shoot the second glass and toss it away. I step outside, back on to the sidewalk and start looking at the people around. I see people coming out of the restaurant next door. I hear music play as I start to approach a girl. She is wearing pink knee-high socks that catch my attention. Dream fades.

a
Probably due to my desire and attempts to recreate my whole dreaming experience I am having a dry spell of lucidity.

Dream 1: The Pyramid Scheme & The Circular College
Nonlucid
I am watching gaunt model types walk into this agency. This is the 1980's and this is a sham modeling agency running a pyramid scheme in talent and money and apparently run by me! I am both the "star" and the viewer. As the dream unfolds I realize that the agency is run as a huge talent agency for aspiring models but actually I am faking it all even to the point of having models come in, disguise themselves, and come in again to show a lot of activity since investors are spying on our agency before they invest. The girls, the huge sums of investors and their money, the wild parties and nightlife all to get more money to make more of an agency. However I realized that once the money got to a million the agency would become real with the hottest talents and the worlds best photographers. I started to think this was actually a good idea! and the thoughts shot back "sure it is, girls and money, come on!" Then I was shocked to see that there was no accounting for anything! They were taking in huge sums of money from all over the world and there was zero accounting, it was all done on the fly. I thought "I could see me doing that [if I was like this at this time in history]."
Then I walked away from the only book they had, which was a partially used appointments book for their fake office, into the larger part of the building. The hallway led to a large circular building. Towards what would be the center of this building was a huge and strange classroom. Picture a tube 12 stories high with seating on the insides of the tube's walls. In the center was a circular tower of podiums for instructors, huge viewing screens, and whiteboards, periodically at different stories of height. This was all in a nice calming cream color. Hundreds could participate in this mega-classroom. The seating looked precarious on such a steep wall so I had to try it. It had a slight incline so I could walk out to a seat. Awesome view that felt like floating and no one need be in front of you. There were only a few students sitting here and there since there was no class at this time, they were just using it as a quiet study area.


Later in the day I tried a short nap to try to take hold of the dream world some more.

Dream 2: The Park!
I was fully aware but entering a dream as colors started to form and I could see a park bench and some grass. The grass was super green and everything was unreal-clear and crisp and I thought "this is The Park!" I refer to a park I have heard and read about and been too but never lucid. This is the legendary park which supposedly so many people go to when they die and when they are dreaming or having out of body experiences. Not only is it a well known mecca but is also supposed to be built by the also legendary Lumanians (ultra/ultra long story). Anyway I really wanted to explore this place and have plans on what to look for here when I do explore this place. As I expanded my consciousness the visions dissolved and I lost a connection with it all. I was not upset as I knew that would not help my focus.
Still in the darkness another dream image started to form but again the same thing happened. Then I heard voices getting louder as from a far distance and as I started to try to become my full self but again, they too faded away. I grasped in the darkness with my consciousness, I felt as if I was supposed to hold onto something but I didn't know what it was so I couldn't grasp it and hold the dream together. If you are reading this and you know what that thing is, please tell me otherwise I think its probably just a metaphor for something I have to do. What this thing is I will have to find out.

I'm a little pressed for time today, so I will just make some quick notes and hopefully edit with more details later.

Sideswiped

Driving around a construction zone. An area where there's only one lane, no flagger. I enter and a RV enters at the same time. The RV scrapes against my new truck and keeps on going. I get out and try to find the guy. I think about suing the Department of Transportation.

Around Town

With my Grandfather at a country music concert. He stays only for 3 songs, then leaves. He is annoyed because it is at a university that is in the middle of a town (it didn't make sense to me in my dream, either). I argue a little bit about the immorality of having a university in the middle of a town, but he leaves anyway.

My Grandmother shows up in her car, so I don't have to walk home. We stop at intersection, girl has broken down.

A brass band is playing, and a new building is being built. I lobby to save the old building from destruction. They aren't going to destroy it anyway.

There are some pirates in a torture chamber held captive by a rival pirate captain. The rival captain is trying to force them to accept him as their new leader. There are lots of people watching from stands. It is like a stadium of some kind. Now it isn't a torture chamber anymore, but a dance floor. We are watching a documentary about how the Japanese are saving energy by a new form of dancing. One person from each couple sits in a chair and only one person stands up and dances. They still hold hands, though.

Big House

I visit somebody's house. It looks small from the outside, but it huge on the inside. One room looks like a cafe` of some kind. Or a hotel lobby. I go in and order food. The people with me are impatient because I'm taking too long. Someone is overcharged. I order a jalepeno and pickle sandwich. And french fries (I seem to be having recurring dreams about french fries).

Driving to Class

It is 2:00pm (I know the time because I have to leave home to make a long commute to college to take a class). A few things happen to delay me about 15 minutes, and I can finally leave. My father comes along, and decides that he is coming with me. We hop in my car and start the commute. A little way down the road I point out to him that my class goes until about 9:30 or 10:00 at night. He was going with me to do one little thing down the road from the school. I don't think he really wants to wait around for 6 hours or so until I am done with class. He realizes this isn't a good idea, so we decide to turn off the main road and go to a town called "Augusta", or something similar. Whatever the name is, it isn't there in real life though I think it represents a town that is.

The plan is that my mother and brother will meet us in Augusta and pick up my father. It seems that much of the dream from here on consists of driving around in circles and gets a little monotonous and frustrating.

The Detectives

I am a little unclear as to the details of this dream. It just came back to my mind after journalling the last one. I am a detective. Also, I am with my family and we are trying to pick out a movie to watch tonight. There are four of them, two new movies and two classic movies. I can't tell the ratings on the new movies, but I don't know if they contain any objectionable material or not.

Now I'm eating french fries. There is a lot of ketchup on the french fries. Way too much ketchup. However, an attractive lady is also eating the french fries. Then I realize I have been looking for her, because she is the one I have to arrest. But I'm also hungry (this dream took place in the early morning). The dream seems to be half about eating and half about arresting this woman. She is sad about being arrested and I feel a little bad about it.

Skydiving (fragment)

I don't remember much of this dream. It may have been the result of an incubation attempt. All I remember is skydiving.

I am in class. My professor is the same guy who was my Invertebrate Biology teacher in real life. He is showing us some type of video on TV, but there seems to be a problem with it. There is some kind of a picture, like a menu with options in rectangular boxes, but it can hardly be seen amidst the static on the screen...

...Now we are having some meeting down the hall. Our class, or group, or whatever it is, is raising money for some project. They are debating what to spend their money on. The general idea is to spend it on new buildings. I think this is a poor choice, because the college doesn't need the money for new buildings. I think instead they should put it towards scholarships for students who are in financial need. However, everytime I try to bring the idea up, I am interrupted and people talk over me. I get frustrated and start shouting over everyone else with my idea. One of the students looks at me reproachfully, and I feel a little foolish for losing my temper.

Didn't write any notes but have some recall from memory. Before bed, a hot bath and 3mg melatonin.

Pizza Craving Fragment
I am in the Daisetta house. It's very early morning and everyone is still asleep. I am craving pizza. I get up and find 3 odd pieces of pizza, all different kinds and brands. I stick all three in the microwave, being careful not to make any noise.

College Library, Lame Pick-Up
Method DILD (spontaneous)
Lucidity D
Vividness C
Control C
I'm in a nice building with marble walls and floors. I want to find the bathroom. I'm in a lobby, waiting for the elevator to take me to the ground floor where I believe there is a bathroom. There's a security guard here in the lobby. A man in a wheelchair comes out of a room and moves toward the elevator. The security guard says something really rude to this man about not taking the stairs because he is in a wheelchair.

I get on the elevator and there are a few other DCs in there. I ride it up and down a few floors. It never stops at the floor I want it too. Then some young DC hits the sideways button and the elevator goes sideways. Frustrated, I get off. I seem to have forgotten about the bathroom. Now the building I am in seems more like an old college library. The walls are wood-paneled and the lights are dim. There are many DCs here who look about the age of college students. There's a line of people at a customer service desk. At the desk is an old librarian lady who points me out and says "Excuse me, have you been helped?" I don't want to talk to her so I just walk away toward a wide stairway. I overhear a conversation between two girls. They are trying to decide on a book that interests them to read.

I walk up the stairs and into a big room full of bookcases. The walls are all full-length windows so the whole room is lit by the afternoon sunlight. It's a pretty cool looking room. There are a few DCs sitting quietly at tables around the room. In one corner is a bed. So I lay down to sleep. Maybe I have a false awakening. The next thing I know, a doctor and a nurse are standing over me. The doctor is a middle-aged balding man with a while lab coat. He asks "Have you been treated? What is the problem?" I say there's nothing wrong and I just wanted to sleep. Then then start tucking in my blankets. I close my eyes again and maybe have another false awakening.

When I open my eyes, I'm in the same library but the doctor is gone. Very close to my bed is a table with some DCs, studying I suppose. Then there is a commotion as people rush to one of the windows. I get up and look too. Out the window, I see that I'm on about the third floor, looking down over the center square of a college campus. There's a grassy lawn and some walkways and more brick buildings. There are lots of DCs walking every which way. The people who rushed to the window are pointing out "The Fat Man" who is a really fat guy known throughout campus. I see him and he's quite obese but not as fat as I expected.

Unimpressed, I step back from the window and think for a moment, starting to become pre-lucid. I have this little dialog with myself: Hmm, what should I do now? I feel like having sex. If I were dreaming, I could have sex with anyone with no consequences. So I have to find out if I am dreaming. I nose-plug RC and confirm I am dreaming. So now I'm lucid but don't stop to stabilize or remember my goals.

I run down the stairway and out the building into the square. I approach the first girl I see. She is bonde and about 18 years old. She's not super attractive but I'm not choosy at this point. I grab her hand and start leading her off to the left. "Do you like to party?" I ask (what a stupid line...). She says something to the effect "Umm, yeah I guess." I'm leading toward another building. I say "We're going to this party and all my friends are there and you'll have so much fun and meet some cool people." Just before we reach the building, she stops and pulls her hand back. She says she changed her mind and doesn't want to go with me. I am disappointed. Dream ends.

SPECIAL EDITION

Most of you probably didn't notice the removal of one of my five star entries recently. I took it down because I was using it as a base for a school project. Today, I present the result of that project in Dream Journal Format. Enjoy.

10.08.2010

The Way The World Ends: Special Edition (Non-lucid)

★★★★★

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Thoughts, silently drifting atop an ocean of blackness, play in my mind. Flashing images, darting under supple waves of nothing, form together to create new and exciting visions. Drifting slowly toward sleep, the onset of a dream is upon me. The shift into the dream-state is sudden, yet subtle. . . .

Everyone gets a test. Crap, I whisper inwardly. The answers were just on the board, but my recall is hazy, murky. I struggle, fighting through my memories like one would against a powerful current, but—realization strikes me abruptly. With great haste, I record my revelation.

“Soul: The agent that binds humanity together.”
“Biology: The genetic force that drives humans apart. Often incites violent conflicts.”

I ponder, deeply, the implications of these definitions, likening soul to an archaic ideal and biology—difference, technology—to humankind’s present outlook. In today’s world, with its holographic displays and galaxy-wide communication, hardly anyone believes in the existence of a soul. Clearly, technology has ascended to fill our need to connect with one another, making souls obsolete. And yet, something is missing, something one can’t get from behind a dim glowing screen. Without this crucial piece, our physiological differences rise to the surface, and we begin to look upon those unlike ourselves with disdain and contempt. Even the best of us fall prey to this reality.

The proof is here in this classroom full of geniuses. Each of us, raised in a world of cold circuitry and wire, place ourselves above this guest-lecturer who had the nerve to test us. More than that, none of us, save myself, are afraid to show it. One student in particular vocalizes the intellectual disparity between the professor and her students using several colorful metaphors, and I can’t help agreeing with him.

Without warning, the dream changes. Our test is over, and my class is headed back to Earth, yet no one celebrates our return. A sea of nuclear warheads is descending upon us, dropping through the same atmosphere we are. This is it: the end of everything. My peers look at me; their dark, motionless eyes stare blankly. All hope has left them.

I extend a shield of energy around those close to me as the nukes hit ground. Fallout descends upon us, drowning the air in a blood-red hue, buffeting my shield, heating it beyond the realms of human survival. The world outside my bubble is dead, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I think I failed the test.

Yet another LD cut short by my self-doubt about stabilizing. I've rehearsed my stabilization routine so many times that I think I've developed a fear that it won't work. Next time, I think I need to shatter that doubt. I'll say "This is my world and I can do anything." I will be bold and confident.

0010: Sleep. I daydream of Never. I think maybe if I take a nap in Never then I might enter the dream world. Nothing happens but it's pleasant.

0256: C. I'm in the SAV house. Mother and sister are with me. We are talking and worried about money. I'm planning to start college. In fact, I've missed the first day. My classes are already scheduled. We decided that I should go. Then we are folding laundry, but they don't hang my pants the way I like. I say this, but quickly thank them for their help. Sister tells me something about "action opportunities". I ask if I should accept the offers on campus to join research experiments for free pizza or money.

Then suddenly there are a few unfamiliar men in the room talking. One is old and dressed like a cowboy with a cowboy hat and long white beard. He talks about how he's such a good salesman. I explains that power is more important than position. If all you have is position, you are vulnerable.

0436: B. I am on my old college campus. I get there really early for the first day, before anyone is awake. I'm not really dressed or prepared. I have on an undershirt like I wear to sleep. I sneak into a dormitory to lay down on a couch in a common room. A guy down the hall recognizes me but I don't recognize him. His hair is messy from sleeping and he has a scraggly beard. He looks for a video tape in a pile. He says I made it years ago and it will prove that I was here before. I don't believe any of this and leave.

I keep looking at my blackberry where I have the times and room numbers of my classes. My first class is in a building called "NAS-ISI" but I don't know where that is. I don't have a map. I wander to the center of campus where there is supposed to be a big map. It's a cloudy, foggy earlier morning and there are lots of DCs walking around campus. A pretty girl, maybe the student body president, is talking on a megaphone to welcome people. A lot of people are wearing the same plain off-white hooded sweatshirt. I think there's a street vendor selling this sweater because it's cold (like selling umbrella when it's raining).

I can't find the campus map and I have enough sense to think this is weird. But not enough sense to become lucid. Instead I start wandering through buildings hoping to find it. I know the general direction of the engineering area so I think I'll probably find it. The buildings don't have hallways, just rooms. So I'm walking through classrooms where classes are taking place. In one, I accidentally bump a guy in the back of the head. I say "oops, sorry, very sorry" and continue walking. I hear him mumble, "you're not really sorry". I walk through a few other rooms and reach a dead end so I turn around. I go back through the same room and the same guy says something sarcastic trying to be funny and calls me "Smith". I say sarcastically back "You're funny" and keep walking. Again, I here him mumble "you don't mean that either." I feel so clever.

In another building I pass a classroom and see an old high school friend Chris. He wants to talk but I don't want to stop. I tell him I promise we can catch up another time. He says "we have an understanding" which I recognize as an allusion to an email I had sent him. I feel bad for not being friendly, but I keep searching for my class.

Yet another building is labeled as a church. Inside, a bunch of DCs are dressed colorfully and holding musical instruments. Through that building I reach an outdoor area that I think is the engineering area. The fog has lifted. I look around for a campus map again with no luck. Again, I think this is strange. I just stand looking around as people walk by. I feel hopeless and embarrassed.

0630: C. This was after a WBTB of about 45 minutes. I ate some bread, drank some apple juice, read, and journaled. I'm driving with my father on 2-lane highway out in the middle of nowhere. We come upon two wrecked cars in the opposite lane and stop. Maybe we hit something too? Father is looking at our own car. I walk over to the other cars. One is a old beat-up muscle car and the other is a like bank security van or maybe a military APC. It was a head-to-head collision and both cars' front ends are wrecked. An oldish man who looks like a trucker has the hood up and he's replacing the spark plugs. I think that's strange because it's not really going to help the situation.

Three or four DCs come walking up to the scene along the side of the road from the far direction. I think they must be from one of the crashed cars and went looking for help. I ask "Are these your cars? Did you go for help?" They say no and keep walking by. Scene fades.

False awakening. I open my eyes and I'm in bed. The color of the sheets is the correct brown but the light is coming from the left when it should be behind me. Also I don't have my sleep mask. I'm pretty confident I'm dreaming and am about to RC but I hear a voice that startles me. I look around the room. It looks like a hotel room. It's mostly dark. It seems bright outside but only through a think crack in the heavy window drapes. There's a man in the room. He looks like he's in the mafia. He has greasy hair, a tight black shirt, slacks, and a gaudy gold necklace. Have I been kidnapped by these men? I try to refocus. I can't move my left arm. I don't panic. I look at the ceiling and notice the texture. I feel the bed below me. I sit up and nose-plug. Things feel a bit better.

The man sees me get up. He's to my left near the open door. He looks like he's about to leave. I think I see another man, similarly dressed, in the hallway outside the door. The first man warns me not to leave. I say I'm just going to use the bathroom. I get up and I'm only wearing underwear. I walk to the bathroom to my right while the man leaves and locks the door. I touch the walls. The dream is moderately stable but I'm worried I will lose it if I don't do more to stabilize it. In retrospect, it was probably the worrying that was causing the instability.

I'm in the bathroom and close the door. I say "stabilize, sharpen, clarity." It seems to be working. I think of what to do next when the shower catches my eye. I imagine warm water running over me. Would that help stability? Or would that make it worse? Maybe it would get foggy and blurry. (I wish I could go back into that dream just so I could slap myself in the face.) I decide not to shower. I start to walk out of the bathroom but I have no plan. I only feel the worry about stability. Dream fades. Tried to DEILD but no luck.

0945 C. I think this dream was longer but I don't recall the first part. This is obviously some residue from the day when I watched a Dane Cook comedy act where he did a bit about The Price Is Right. I'm in my own apartment in the middle of the day. I'm watching The Price Is Right but I notice the set looks wrong. The backgrounds are dark blue and The Big Wheel is smaller and also blue. It looks like it has glitter all over it. I remember thinking this was strange, but not enough to become lucid. A woman spins The Wheel and wins a bunch of money. She gets excited and jumps around. On the set near The Wheel are two soda vending machines, one Coke, the other Pepsi. The woman pushes a button on the Pepsi machine a few times but nothing happens. The show cuts to commercial.

The commercial shows a futuristic Pepsi machine. A hand gets a cup, fills it with soda, then holds it under a spout that shoots out cold bubbles. A male narrator is talking over the images. I don't remember everything he said but at the end, it's a Coors ad, not Pepsi.

No recall in the first half of the night on account of alcohol. Woke up and was anxious about stuff. Wrote in my journal for a while and watched a movie. Went back to bed, tried to WILD for about an hour. Got really close but eventually gave up. Turned on my side and spent another hour trying to sleep.

1028: D. My eyes are closed and I'm listening to Lance talk. He says, "Sumit isn't taking the union very seriously." I mutter something about not caring. He continues, "What, you don't support the trinity in India?"

I open my eyes. I'm lying on a bed in what looks like a college dorm room with a couple other beds and furniture. There's a window behind me with morning sunlight shining dimly through. The door is at the far end of the room. I don't see anyone. I'm lying on my stomach, propped up on my elbows. I think about what Lance said. What union? What is this "trinity" he's talking about? How did we get on this topic of conversation? Wait, how did I get here? Wasn't I just trying to sleep? I think I'm dreaming.

I think to do a nose plug but my arms don't move. Hmm, strange. I look down at my hands and intent to to rub them. My arms are paralyzed! They are stiff with my wrists together as if in handcuffs. My fingers are interlocked. With great effort I think I manage to barely wiggle a finger. I panic. Dreams starts to fade. Damn it, no! My mind scrambles. As my view goes black I manage to yell "Stabilize!". But it's too late. End.

On waking up, I was lying on my side. I noticed this as unusual because I almost always wake up on my back. I had one arm under the pillow and the other pinned under my body. It seems plausible that the position of my real body was affecting my dream body. I remained still for several seconds, hoping to re-enter. But I could feel I was too awake because I was upset about the botched dream.

11/28/2009

Hotel Bathroom

I'm in a hotel room with some nondescript dream friends when they all get the idea that it's time to go to Islands of Adventure in Orlando, FL. They all start getting ready and I tell them that I'm already ready. Then at the last minute I decide that if I'm going out, I'd better shave my legs. So I go into the bathroom to actually *go* to the bathroom and I end up standing up while I'm still peeing and getting it on my foot. Then I look at the floor to see that the toilet is leaking and there is water all over the floor by the toilet and the sink and the bathtub. I must have told someone to call the front desk because someone in a french maid outfit comes in to inspect the leak. At this point, I'm in the *other* bathtub standing up shaving my legs. (In my hotel bathroom dreams, they are usually huge with multiple fixtures like this.) I'm completely naked, but I don't care that the maid is seeing my goodies. I may even be showing off a little. Then someone yells that they're leaving and I'm so mad that they're going without me.

Professor Training

I'm at a university somewhere and I'm talking to my Spanish professor, Dr. Sims. He's an older man with thinning grey hair and a not so small nose and glasses. I tell him I'm on my way to my office which is in this building over here, and I point it out to him. He made a joke about something the building and we part ways and I walk to my "office." I open the door to my office and it's a huge lecture hall with kids in it and a professor conducting a class. The professor looks my age.

I walk in and look for my name on the walls above the sections of students and find it and go up to the top level of the lecture hall. I walk across a row of people and sit down to find that Dr. Sims is right behind me. We start talking, but I don't know what about. Then the professor who is teaching is explaining something about the three "C's" of something and then she dismisses class. I walk down and out of the room and find myself attending a seminar for new professors. I sit with a group of people who I've just met and one guy gets up and leaves. He comes back and presents me with a nice Cross pen and says I'm his new best friend. Then someone mentions that we have to take a physical education class "so we can be healthier than and look better than the students." I see my friend Jesse and he says he has to take some class for phys ed that he doesn't like, and I said, "what about golf? you love golf!" and he looks up and says, "yeah, I do!" then the crowd begins to disperse.