side notes

Surgery

I arrived in some kind of building with avatars from dream views. I had acquired Mel's avatar some how ,except I could see it as a whole person. I also noticed a picture of a purple men with a sword, painted on the outside wall. I did an RC check and levitated. I went into the next room, telling myself a men would have passed out. There I saw a passed out men. For some reason I believed I get extra points for removing all of his organs, especially his intestines. Though it was called something else in my dream, a insestined. So I told myself by removing his organs into the air i was curing him. I grabbed a scalpel near by. It was then I felt queasy. I told myself I needed to do this task. I grimaced and used the scalpel to draw a mortitionary line on him like in a movie I saw. I cut from belly button to half way up and cut either side to form a v shape. It was a bright red line that resembled blood but didn't bleed anywhere, as though he was dead.

The Samurai

It was then the man with a sword in the picture came to life and fired gun shots at me. I dodged side to side as I yanked the men's heart, lungs, kidney and intestines out determined to get as many points as possible. I remember thinking that I might have to hide this in a spoiler tag with warnings, gruesome violence. After I yanked everything out I went to leave. I stopped realising that butchering a men doesn't count as surgery. I then used the scalpel to jam the door to keep the purple men out. The door reminded me of a butchers fridge room door all black plastic. I put all the men's organs back inside him and closed the flaps of skin. I imagined staples stapling him back together. I slapped him and waited to see if he would wake up. I heard a voice "will the men wake up we will see next week." I groaned just as I saw the men lift his head and open his eyes.

I was a young child at my grandmas place. Me and another child were in the shed playing a game. it was some kind of car game. the game was somehow linked to my real life and Ben an old sexual partner and where to sleep while getting him to sleep next to me. There was also some mention of the people inside being too hot. My friend said we were fine in the shed. I said that's because we have an air-conditioner in the shed while they only have one for the lounge and one for the kitchen. I thought that doesn't sound right. When I raced around the toy car the aim was to hit a certain object. There was a power up I kept finding too powerful for the car and kept switching back and forth. I also had to avoid objects that sometimes moved and would multiply as the game got harder. I got to level 9 before I couldn't find the object I was supposed to hit.

An unexpected surprise

I travelled outside to find the object and couldn't find it. Instead what I found was a lobster in a bag. I felt sorry for the poor creature. And remembering that there was a beach just a few paces away I decided to set it free. My friend came with me, something I didn't expect but was glad she did.

As I walked, I kept shaking the bag down afraid the lobster would hurt me. The lobster kept getting closer to my hand, the closer I got to the beach. When it was nearly at my hand, it was no longer a lobster but a kitten. I kept shaking the bag down now afraid of the kitten. Then I remembered my kitten at home bites me all the time and it doesn't hurt. So I let the kitten out of the bag. I let it bite my hand. It didn't hurt just like at home. I then realised the beach wasn't the proper place to let it free and resolved to free it in the park.

Escape

I was embarrassed and sure my friend wouldn't come with me this time. Again she surprised me by agreeing. Now we had a problem. How to leave the house without the adults knowing we had gone. I first went to go out the gate, then my friend warned me Grandma and Mum was out there. I could hear there voices chattering through the open gate and resolved to find another way. My friend suggested we get a taxi from the back yard drive way. At first I thought our parents would see us. I then realised they would only see the taxi, not us get into it. Then I realised the taxi drivers would be suspicious of two 5 year old children unaccompanied by an adult and told my friend so. It was then I came up with an idea.

In the back yard was an alleyway. I suggested to my friend we go down there. My idea to cross the road go down the street and turn back to the park. She agreed. Everything went to plan, though we got a few strange looks from some people. Trouble started when just at the end of the street across from the park we ran into some policemen, who noticed us from the station. They stopped us and asked where we were going. I politely told them that we were off to the park to speak to the park man then straight off home. They told us they would wait for us at the front of the park to ensure we safely get home. Therefore presenting a problem of being caught.

At the park we spoke to the park man, while a lady took a photo. Realising we couldn't be caught on camera we ran away.

The cauliflower man

Jumping and climbing from tree to tree we ran. Down below us the news told of two missing children while the police chased after us. We were quite famous. Eventually we ran into a strange looking man who resembled cauliflower. He was about to commit suicide. We convinced him not to. It turned out he was the owner of the cat. Running into the cauliflower man, we found a cauliflower costume that the man wore to make himself look normal. we hid in the costume. As we were walking, we talked to the man. a lady looked strangely at us. The man said he was praying. She didn't believe him and walked off.

The Teacher

The cauliflower man became a teacher. There was another teacher who was mean and successful. He had many trophies that he got to keep as long as his teaching was successful. The cauliflower man became a very popular teacher. The bad men's class kept emptying and emptying until there was no more students in his class. The Principal ordered all of his awards taken to the new teacher. The bad man swore revenge.

When the principal came to check up on the cauliflower man's class he was seen telling off a student. The principal left happy. The cauliflower man, as soon as the principal left, showered the child with candy. The child happy, left to write in his book. In his book the child wrote pictures showing him having a conversation with his parents. This changed to a different scene of the kid talking to his parents.

"how was school?" the father asked. "It was great we get to do nothing at school". "good" said his father. "we get candy every day" ,"great" said his father. "And he is dressed in a costume." "A costume?", 'Is it a cow?" "no","Is it a dog?" "no, its a cauliflower man." "What his father shouted angrily." "a cauliflower man." "No son of mine is going to school with a teacher dressed as cauliflower."

The Lady

The father kicked up a big fuss. He arranged to have the principal remove the man. The bad man happy of this news went to tell the Teacher. Luckily the teacher had been warned. He told everyone repeating everything we said in the costume. "I have decided to leave this school and start my own church where all the money will be given to charity." (The Teacher was unhappy at this last bit. We also had no money or church.) The Teacher became even more popular and all the children that were in his class instead went to his church. It was then that the teacher saw the same Lady from before. She apologised to him and said that she believes him now and gave him 3 million dollars, much to the cauliflower man's happiness. It was then I woke up.

I don't remember much of my dreams from last night. However I was glad to see that I had had six lucid dreams that night. A personal record. I attribute this to reading all the information in this site and trying some new techniques dream spinning and hand rubbing. Before I went to sleep I had an idea. Being Christian I don't pay as much attention to prayer as I want to and I thought if I was to spend one dream just praying, paying attention to god even building a temple. That he would appreciate it and it would make me feel less guilty for not paying attention to him in my daily life. As i could do this every night. I kept this image in my head as I drifted off to sleep.If I want something enough it will happen

I remember waking up in my bed. The first thing I did was a R.C. I did this by making myself levitate. I remember I wanted the sun to come through the window and light up the room it was night and the darkness frightened me. as usual I knew the light switches wouldn't work. So instead I turned away from the window and told myself the sun would come up and brighten my room. this didn't work. I then looked into the mirror for once not afraid of it but rather more curious if I could notice any changes in appearance. My hair was a lighter brown. I then made myself merge through the window into my front yard.



When I arrived there I first rubbed my hands together. I then kept touching everything I could as I walked afraid to loose the dream. I enjoyed the sensations as usual. As soon as I was on the foot path I thought about a faster way to travel. traveling is often too slow. I then called to Duke my dog. He ran up to me happy as usual. I feel by calling someone I know I can trust really helps alot more then calling someone I dont trust or hardly know. I mounted him and told him to run. Duke ran down the streets. I remember being frustrated that it wasnt fast enough though I told him to go faster. didn't work The rest is in patches. I tried to tell myself we would arrive at a temple I made for god.



We instead arrived at Mc donalds. I remember being afraid it would also be a church. it wasn't. Here I met a men who said he was travelling from another dream making me think if it was possible that someone from another dream across the world could merge with yours you would never know. He said he knew some sports guy I was curious if I could recover buried information in our brains in our dreams that I wouldn't usually use. I asked who it was and forgot what he said so didn't get to test the theory. I also compared two fingers of a women's hand to see if I was dreaming. I tried to make a temple for god by dream spinning. first I got different scenarios an island theming aladin and a temple. not being happy I kept spinning going through each scenario till I woke up. I was disapointed then I remembered to do an R.C check levitating again. my new favourite R.C check. I use to just observe things out of the ordinary 3 times and if there where 3 things out of ordinary id know it was a dream. Its harder then it seems. Or even harder once you question if you are dreaming tell yourself it is a dream as if you were awake you wouldnt question if you were dreaming.



I tried to get a temple and got one it was boring. a lady came up asked for a dangerous potion to kill someone. I agreed gave it to her it was red. she fought some ppl and killed them. the ppl she killed was actually herself. I saw a car wreck infront of my house. I was afraid it would follow me. it did. fear made it happen

remembering I was dreaming I ran towards it and faced my fear it turned into an puppy that had died that I had missed and all had forgetten about her. facing fear made the car go away I used all these powers and thought I am a god. seeing god I quickly changed it to I am a sorcceress as I dont beleive anyone should pretend to be god even in there dreams. and was afraid of what god would think. Finally tired of taking time for god I felt aroused.

Spoiler for adult material = rape:

I layed on the ground and imagined myself sinking into it as I thought about a Demon underground ready to rape me. As I sunk I experienced some panic that I was sinking too slowly or not at all and that something bad would happen on the surface. I managed to relax. I often experience fear in my dreams. fear makes bad things happen.relaxing helps make what i want to happen Finally I sunk into the ground and used my thoughts to make a demon grab me to rape me. as I was being moved towards him I told myself what the demon would do to me and angled myself towards his penis. the demon penetrated me and I usually in a rape scenario do nothing and let it take control. this time I found myself arching back and fucking it. The demon was surprised. it came quickly then there was some unusual dream about it being embarrased of the thickness of its sperm and many men had the same problem. one guy even suggested thick sperm meant the woman had no control over the men and was to do anything they said. I had several false awakeings and did several R.C. checks. I wanted to be raped again and imagined a blue giant.

I was handed a giants head. It was a bit gross I had to throw it into the water to make the giant emerge it was blue and stone like. The giant told me in order to have sex i was to attatch butterflies to my head walk out into the open where they will be eaten by catepilliars then eating my face. I saw several examples and was afraid and felt trapped. I tricked the giant by agreeing with him. then fled to a ship dodging the giant in the sea. My goal to reach the southern sea where I would be able to teleport as someone could cast a spell to help me there. I ran into an oil rig and the giant was saddened and cleaned the mess. I teleported to another oil rig. I was able to teleport when I usually can not because I imagined a scenario where someone helped me with magic making it possible

I dreamed I was to take care of some children. I put on black stockings as that would make children easier to control. When I arrived I had to clean this whole yard and put away this mail. I told my dad I did everything else he could clean the bucket. I felt guilty about that. I was proud of my accomplishments. I went to grandmas and had earned a big feast of I think nachos.

I dreamt of an old best friend. who I'm no longer friends with. There was a dress I was to wear for an important event. I was to rest. I woke to my friend who said she was raped by a guy. I was angry as I had been abused before. We tried to confront the guy. The dream got confusing a higher power a women didn't believe her. It turned out my friend had gone to the pub. We were accused of making males rape us. Some guys chased us at one point and I felt like I was making them rape us. I apologised to many women. And at some point someone wanted to pick a dress and I rushed and picked it first choosing it over my original choice. It was green and suited me.

I woke up for real several times during the night but found it easy to go back into a dream. I remember when I was 16 I had a recurring nightmare where I was paralyzed and my heart beat hard against my chest. I learnt to make this experience lead to a lucid dream by falling through the depths into a black void where I would make myself fall faster and faster untill I was in a dream. Quite frightening at first but it soon become enjoyable.