non-lucid

Dream I had before that first WILD!!:

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This dream takes place mostly in my Math classroom. I remembered the whole dream when in the dream, the ending is clear, and the earlier parts of this dream are some hazy memories of a vivid dream. All this dream was vivid. There are some friendly happy parts that make me happy even now (no awkward parts like in other dreams) with Joy, Suzie, and a bunch of other friends in my life, but not many people I currently hang out with at school. There is a part where I am asking a question about something - a game or a concept to do with games - and Suzie steps in to help me understand what it is, and I say "ohh!" in understanding.

There are some happy friendly and pretend friendly parts with Lauren, Liz, and Bruce in art class. Some things they say/do get me pissed off a little bit, but I hide it. They ask me something that convicts me of some stupidity or something, I respond in a strong, successfully defensive manner and feel proud that they couldn't argue with that point or something.

After I tell Lauren, Liz and Bruce that I have an appointment (lying). So I am next at the back of the school during last period (art class). I am at a bus stop booth type thing. I am getting paper out of my bag to do something with. Then I remember that today is in fact a half day and last period of the day, so I don't actually need to wait for my bus until school normally ends. Plus if I did, Lauren and Liz etc would discover I lied to them to get away. I think about what could happen if Lauren saw me there when I told them I was going home.

I see Ling while waiting at the back of the school for the bus. We talk a little, she is carrying art stuff. She walks/I walk with her not too far to a road where a car is parked and waiting. Her mom is in the car, and she says hi. I think (and I might've said aloud) "woahh deja vu, I clearly remember a dream so similar to this scenario!" Then Zitian shows up out of nowhere and I'm like "woahh just like that dream I had with Zitian." Then Zitian (and possibly formerly Ling) and Ling or some person are talking to each-other. Ling or some person is sitting on Ling's Mom's car. That person turns into my cousin Diana and I'm like "woah" (just like the dream I had, only without Diana appearing wtf I think in waking life). Anyway, I'm happy she's here and I interrupt their conversation to say hi to my long-lost cousin, in a very friendly and loud voice, and hug her.

In the dream, I was amazed that I could remember that dream in this dream. It was a pretty vivid dream, and Diana's face was completely clear.

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Then I wake up, write it down, have that amazing first WILD

Then I wake up from that first WILD, feel powerful, vital, and alive. Write that dream down, then I go back to bed to try for another WILD

WILDing this time was more difficult, it took longer with more confusion on how I actually did it successfully the first time, and pretty much failed:
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I wake up in my bed again, and either this was real life or a dream, I don't remember because it was a little hazy, but I felt the sleep paralysis. I couldn't move. Once I managed to move, I do a reality check, get excited about being successful again, and wake up. This one was very hazy.
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Then after waking up, I go to sleep normally and have this dream:

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I am in something like a check-in place with my parents, brother, and Kate. Kate and Josef and I are watching videos chronicling their happy memories together or something. These videos have to do with future adventures that we have, where we visit around 7 places and people and take on their challenge or something.

There was a part where Leeroy ran out to the field near the check-in place and we had to go run after him and get him back. My brother and I are chasing him. My brother loses him, and I find him. When I do, I pet him nicely, calm down his sadness for wanting to be outdoors, cuddle with him and then bring him back inside, with pity.
After this part, we visit one of the 7 places. It is a very tall house where you have to go through obstacles, keep your balance, and jump to the other side to ascend it. My brother is with me. We climb the first few floor easily. Then when we get to the extremely high floors, it becomes more difficult. I ask the owners of the place if we could die from this, and they say no. They are a little suspicious looking, but I keep going on. They are a man and a woman, and I think the man is Czech even though we speak English with him. We keep climbing and jumping through the air. There were many close calls, and then there is a part where I need to jump onto a skinny airplane tail, and onto another plane to get to the other side. I'm having a difficult time with my balance, and I am very scared of falling. My brother is watching cautiously, afraid that I will fall too. As I try jumping to the other plane, I can't hold on I lose hold and fall down. My brother is crying and screaming as I fall. I am speechless and motionless, I watch the floors pass by. I don't feel anything physically but emotionally I am seriously shocked and scared that I'm about to die and that I need to say goodbye to everyone, my family, my brother, my mom, dad, friends... When I hit the floor, I don't feel it and blackout.

I wake up back in the check-in place. I slowly open my eyes. I see that I am lying on the floor of the room where we were watching those videos. My brother, Kate, and parents are watching me, sadly. I start tearing up. I don't feel any pain from falling down at such a height, I should've died! We're all shocked to see I survived the event and speechless. Some people are weeping. My vision is blurry, and I don't hear voices clearly.

Next thing I remember about this dream was I was hanging out with my brother and Kate, and my parents were watching us discuss. Leeroy was there too. My brother says that the owners of that place are the culprits. They have committed a crime by having an extremely dangerous house. We plan on how to get them punished. More stuff happened but it's an extremely hazy memory of a fairly vivid dream. Through those parts I was half conscious in the dream due to almost dying and passing out.

I am at home, it is nighttime and my mom comes home from work and takes a bath. Then she disappears. I am waiting for her, and she's not coming home. It is close to midnight. Then dad tells me that she was called back to work for an emergency. I feel sad and angry that she's not/never home. I want to be with my mom.

I am going into the hallway of the house, leaving the wooden glass door to the hallway open, knowingly. Once I start opening the door to the outside, my cats and I think my bird also rush into the hallway, and Leeroy gets out. I panic a little, closing the door behind me and calling for Leeroy to come back. He's hyper and running around everywhere, disappearing into the bushes and coming back out of them. When I call him and hold out my arms, he comes running to me. I see that he's not going to run away forever, so I let him enjoy himself for now. He starts flying up to the tree branches (shape-shifted into a bird but he is still Leeroy the cat) he goes higher and higher and farther and farther in the trees, and I just follow him to make sure he's okay throughout. Then he flies back to me himself, and I take him back inside. I feel pity for Tiger, who didn't get to go outside. I think I ask mom or someone if I could take her out too, and I think she said no. Then the dream ends.

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I am with my family and Kate, at some tourist place. We are hanging out in the building we are staying at. This place is very similar to the place that I usually go to Joy's house in my dreams. I've noticed that whenever going to Joy's house in a dream, it is always the same gloomy, dead tree, muddy place with a big house. This is very different from her house in real life. I find it interesting though, as if my dream is just a parallel reality and her house is always the same but different from this reality in waking life. We find out about some haunted house, where you have to be at least 16 to enter. I say "Well if that's the age limit it must be really scary, I'm not going." I said this mainly to my brother and his girlfriend/fiancee, Kate. They laugh. We continue talking, but I am mostly quiet, listening to our conversation mostly and contributing when I have something to say.

Then we are at the haunted house. Somehow I forget that this is the haunted house until later, because it's not the typical haunted house. There is a girl who looks exactly like Cora but I don't question this who starts talking to us. The house is white, and empty. Sort of like the Nobody's castle from Kingdom Hearts 2. She is a psycho, and whenever someone says something that could possibly be taken the wrong way, she goes against them and threatens to kill them. I don't remember who she wanted to kill out of my family. For a short while, she wanted to kill me, pointing a knife at me, but then I got on her good side by taking things from her point of view and respecting her and loving her instead of fearing her. We became friends. She was still against the rest of my family, but then I told them that she just needs to be understood and befriended. We are taking up a lot of time. The next haunted house visitors come in and we are still there, so they continue to wait near the entrance. Later we find that there are also extremely scary machines that could actually kill someone, they were mostly drills. I watched the next visitors almost get killed, or get killed by one of those drills. Then we leave and I realize that that was the haunted house. I agree with myself that it was a very creative idea to make the main attraction of this haunted house be the psychotic girl, who later talks to me and turns out to be normal. I find out that this is one of the best haunted houses in the world.

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I am at future shop with Zitian. We don't know each other very well. I ask him a bunch of questions - do you play final fantasy games? He says he only has played FFIX. I say "Oh yeah, the one with the Zidane and those other people" he's like "yeah." I think about asking him about Disney movies since I know from stalking his Facebook that he loves them.
We continue to browse games at future shop. As we are about to start out, I remember that Sims 3 Pets is out, and get all excited and ask if we could go back and find it. He says sure. So we go and I'm all excited and hyper at this point, and he seems bored.
We continue talking about irrelevant things and other things, and I think at one point I ask him about those Disney movies, and he's like "Oh, yeah! I love Disney movies!" so we talk about that for a while but he still seems disinterested.
We get outside, and his mom drives in and they offer to drive me home. I get in the car, and realize they don't even know where I live. I ignore this fact and assume that they must know if they are not asking. His mom is pretty, and she talks to me. Zitian is quiet. Then his mom says "Thank-you!" in a reminding or mocking manner, and I remember to thank them for the drive. I feel a little bad and awkward now, but I remember to stay positive and energetic because that makes me feel good AND attracts people to me, so I do. I'm more excited and I start talking again to Zitian now. He's more excited now too, smiling when he talks. I say, "We should hang out more often!" "Yeah" And we both say around the same time: "Since we don't have classes together and never get to see each-other!" We laugh. Then I realize - Hey, now that I've befriended him, it shouldn't be a bad thing to talk to him on Facebook etc! Yay~! Then we get to my driveway, and I say thanks for the ride and say goodbye. I walk home happy, but also a little upset because I was probably boring Zitian most of the time, but then I realized - you know what? I probably was just focusing negatively and wasn't noticing how interested he really was in our conversation. The end of this dream could have been a prequel to the first and second dreams written above.

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I am outside of my house, in a completely different setting however. The dreams above were connected to each other, but this one was by itself. Anyway. I am outside of my house. The neighborhood is now placed beside a beach, my side of the neighborhood closest to the shore. I am walking out of the house, waiting for my slowpoke parents to get ready and go with me. Then they start walking. There are soooo many beautiful areas in the neighborhood now, none of which I had known before. I don't question this fact however. The grasses are covered with beautiful flowers, and the trees have the perfect location and shape to allow the perfect amount of sunlight to illuminate the flowered grass. There is a nice grass/flower bed near on the parking lot of my section of the neighborhood. I lie down and watch the cloudless sky. I feel the sun on my skin and everything is beautiful, so beautiful. I go back to my parents and suggest they lie down on the grass and watch the sky together. Mom says that's a nice idea but dad hates the idea, he's too lazy to lie down right now, he's headed somewhere blah blah blah. I ignore them. I run around, discovering new beautiful places of my neighborhood. There is a climbable tree that I go and manage to sit on, fairly high up. I view the meadow area next to me. There are flowers everywhere, and the warmth of the sun and trees is felt wholly. This was a very vivid dream. My parents are walking slowly, I think, so I have a lot of time to enjoy the area.
I walk down above my section of the neighborhood. I view the ocean from above, and all the nature to my left. The beauty was seriously so indescribable! It was sooo beautiful and vivid was the beauty everywhere! this is one of the only dreams I've had where I can actually feel the warm sun and see the sky and everything shining and sparkling and just soooo beautiful words cannot describe at all!
Then I walk back to the meadow around, down towards my parents. I lie down in the tall grass and flowers, and view the sky and few sunny clouds. I feel soo good. Then I sit up, hugging my legs to my chest. I cal to my mom, telling her how beautiful it all is! She agrees, but keeps walking. I think she then came and sat down next to me in the grass. I don't know where dad was at this point. I talk about everything beautiful. Then I feel something on the back on my thighs, something lights, brushing my skin. It crawls onto my hand and it is a large spider! My mom says it's a tarantula and she freaks out slightly. I try to brush it off, for a while it won't go and my mom is telling me to stop because it's a tarantula and it could hurt me, and then finally I have slapped it off of my hand.

I wake up, searching for any sign of a spider on my arm. I still feel the spider on me from the dream. I am not completely fearful because I assume it was just the dream, and not a body signal from real life. I notice that my heart was beating normally, and I like the fact that my body isn't affected by my dreams. Then I start imagining myself walking from my house in the same dream, running through the neighborhood, and when I arrive back to the climbable tree and view the meadow, I am back in the dream again. During the rest of the dream I think I just sit there enjoying everything, my parents aren't there and it is only me and my beautiful dreamscape.

I kept waking up in the morning but didn't want my dream to stop so I kept returning to them. I lost count of how many times I WBTB. The dreams were all connected as well, it was all in the same dream but I can't remember the order of everything so I will post things in parts. Probably very confusing parts. Only the environment and landscapes of this dream were vivid, but the people seemed to be very foggy, and some parts were just the foggiest ever.

I am playing/am inside final fantasy 1 or something. The location is the forest road from my house, from the community center. The road is different than in real life, but I know it is the same road in the dream. The characters looks like they do in the actual game as I remember them, especially if viewed from above, and I am just me. There is a nice field of white flowers and a stream that we cross that I view and appreciate the view of before leaving it behind. I think "I'll see this place again." It was a familiar field, I think I was there before in another dream. I move on.

I am at the lockers on the left wall in the hallway from the north of the main lobby. I am taking two or three lockers and storing them with clothes. These clothes keep reassembling and reorganizing and disappearing and reappearing once I take my eye off the ones I already put in. At the top of the lockers are small lockers with rectangular holes at the bottom for ventilation. I put my shoes in there. Then I stack my clothes in the larger locker area below it. Someone asks me about how I am putting clothes in my locker, they seem to be questioning it a little but seemingly, after I tell them what I am doing or why, they understand and leave. I have a feeling this part is connected with the cottage beach parts later on.

I am at the back field of the school, and it is nighttime and very creepy. I am near a metal structure of some kind, with bare trees scattered across the landscape, and dead leaves covering the ground. It feels like Halloween. Wes from Wong Fu Productions is standing under the metal structure and walks towards me. I know him in the dream, and we talk like we are friends. He gives off a bit of a creepy feeling though, I think to myself, and I don't feel interested in him romantically although attracted by his appearance. We walk downward toward and then around the side of the school.

Then we are in cottage country or something, walking down a white rock or pebble path. The light looks like the sun is setting to the left of us. On the left there is an ocean or a lake, and a path leading to a deck that belongs to my property. We walk down there, get to the deck and watch the orange sun on the ocean water. The trees around us are mostly coniferous, and the environment is warm and comfortable. Then we smell smoke or fire and hear an alarm. At first we ignore it, but then it goes louder. The cottage/beach house next to us has a fire! We see some smoke rising from the house, and a bit of the fire. We talk about something. and then I think I might've gone into that house, but I might just be confusing it with a memory from another dream. Too foggy to tell. I also have a vague and foggy memory of going swimming in these sun setting waters.

I am at school, in the main lobby, sitting with many other people around that I recognize as being glee auditions, and Sarah, and other people. We are awaiting the results of who got into glee club. There is a school television standing in front of us. We are facing the wall that the doors are on, but are not at the doors, we are sitting in the open between the hallway and the lobby. The television starts playing. My nervous trying-to-calm-down breathing is showcased at the beginning for humour. I am embarrassed, and people laugh. Then it is showing every audition or every person. I don't recall the result of whether I got in or not, but I think I did.

Then the locker scene comes back on I think.

Then I am waiting at a bus stop to get home. I talk with Barbara, and we walk down the sloped sidewalk. We cross some train tracks, and then I see my bus going by. I run to catch up with it, but my finger gets trapped in the train tracks, and so does my foot, and I don't even notice the sounds of the train coming in. Every one is screaming for me to get outta there. I panic, try to get out, but then accept it and the train runs over my index finger and my other arm or some limb I can't pinpoint. I don't feel much pain, and I think, that wasn't so bad. But I realize it was probably the suddenness of the even that caused me to not notice the pain. I keep walking up, in shock. Every one is staring in shock. There there is a fire starting. There's fire everywhere around me, and I feel the fire scorching my body, again not as painful as I expected.

After the fire subsides, I manage to still be alive. There doesn't seem to be anyone around me. I keep walking, the bus is gone. Suddenly I find out I have super powers, and I think it is from the train track and the fire that I have these powers. I find myself at a great height above the ground, and as I fall, I am able to slow down the impact and land safely and awesomely with circular fire beams around my feet and hands, which then leave a mark on the grass. I play around with this. Wes is there, and I tell him of this awesome power I now have. He tells me it's probably from the fire etc. I agree. Then things turn into a journey again, like the part in the beginning with final fantasy 1. However, in this part I see Giotto from Reborn, Tsuna - who in the dream is called 'Sanada' - a name that in waking life I wouldn't be able to recall, but interestingly enough, in the dream, I did. - and when I hear someone call him Sanada, then he turns into Tsuna and I remember who he is. We continue our journey. We are on a ridge or something, I can't describe it very well, but it's the type of place that you would find in a grassy setting in a final fantasy game, but with extra flowers around to decorate and beautify the landscape. There is some sort of conflict, and we are arguing over a mistake one of us (I think it was me) made in a battle previously. Some other stuff happens that I can't pinpoint on what it was, and then I wake up.

Then I go back to sleep, and I dream of being in the living room of my house. There is a black toilet beside Jerry cage. I suddenly need to poo, and I think it is probably alright to use this toilet so I do. Then I have worries over if it is even connected to the plumbing system. Afterwards, I find out that this toilet is going to be given to a family friend of my mom's, Iva. I panic, and try to excuse myself and reason with my mom. She seems to understand, or is just being passive, and ends up having to clean out the toilet... Then I am upstairs, avoiding any confrontation, and I hear my brother talking to my mom about it, and I feel embarrassed, but I ignore them talking. Then I go back downstairs when my brother leaves, and ask my mom about something whatever and more foggy stuff happens, and then I wake up for the last time.

Like I said, the order that these are in might not even be correct, parts were repeated and reorganized, re experienced each time I WBTB, maybe there were even more parts that I am missing, but this is the jist of it I guess.

These dreams were extremely vivid this time. I was really amazed by how vivid. I remembered every single detail of the dreams right when I woke up, but gradually forgot most detail until writing some key notes.

This vividness perhaps has to do with getting very close to successfully WILDing at bedtime before the dreams. My heart started beating really fast when I was this close, and I couldn't calm it down, so I decided to stop and ask at the forums the next day and went to sleep naturally, and TA-DA! Super vivid dreams, much more than I've had in a long while.

It kinda sucks that I happened to fall asleep in the middle of the night in a not as good as super happy mood because that would've been really great, being that these dreams were super vivid. But no, both or all of them were kind of that awkward helpless and self-conscious doing stupid things feeling I sometimes get in social situations when I'm not feeling super happy and confident like I want to.

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I am in Art Class with Mr. Gamble in the print-making room (not in the room where you paint and print and apply acid, but the other room where you draw mostly). The room is full of students, some of them are standing up, some are sitting down, some are sitting down on impractical objects. I am sitting down on the table near the center, but slightly close to the rack in the corner of the room. I am swinging my legs around, minding my own business, doing nothing, just sitting there and observing or daydreaming a little bit. Lauren, Liz, and Bruce are nowhere to be found thank goodness for me in my waking reality looking back.

Mr. Gamble asks me about something, an assignment that I need to get done, this part of the dream probably associated with my anxiety IWL about completing the pop-up art. I apologize to him and say I'll get it in for sure on time. I begged god not to let him over-talk like usual. Thankfully, after asking me about that thing he walks away. I think he tells something to the class but I wasn't listening. Then I think he walks out the door.

Ms. Taylor is now in the classroom. Then I watch my brother come into the classroom. He has some friends waiting outside the door, the same and more friends as in the dream I had the previous night. He asks Ms. Taylor is he could go out to the food places down the street, as if Ms. Taylor was our mom. I don't question this at all. All I could think about at this point is coming with him. Ms. Taylor says "Yeah, go ahead." I say I will go with them. Then Josef leaves out the door not even noticing me there. I am hesitant to follow them now because it would be weird. Ms. Taylor says "well, go?." I feel rushed and embarrassed, and angry at Ms. Taylor for being angry at me. I run out the door to the hallway and I look down the hall towards staircase A. I see my brother walking back and from a distance, holding a pizza form or box or something, he tells Ms. Taylor that there's a group pizza thing and asks if he could buy it for him and his friends. She says yes, and he starts running back towards staircase A, into the distance. I wasn't able to ask him if I could go with him, and for that I feel frustrated and bad. He didn't notice me standing there speechless and waiting to speak at all! It's like I wasn't even there the whole time! Well I don't think that, I'm really just having vague 'forever alone' thoughts and feelings come to me. I impulsively follow him. Everyone is wearing light winter coats. It is snowing very lightly, and there is snow about a foot and a half deep on the other side of the drive in road of the school on the side toward the park, while the snow in the main grass area in the middle is also either about a foot deep, deeper, or lightly buried that you can see some grass. As I am walking toward my brother leaving the school and starting up to the middle area, I am playing with my cellphone, and it makes a loud noise that I don't even recall now from reading my notes. Then I am playing with some kind of thin chord from my cellphone that could be a part of a headphone. I trip and fall into the snow as I cross the drive in road toward the park, and hide in the snow, for the first time noticing and watching my brother play snowball fight. I then notice that the sliding part of the cellphone and the thin chord has submersed into ice cold snow, and am worried that it will break. I somehow check if it still works. Then I continue watching my brother. I feel left out, and want to reach out to him but he is so far away, and if I did, it would be awkward and embarrassing.

Then I wake up.

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This next dream I only clearly remember the part with Liz eating a butterfly. The rest is a very foggy memory of being on a bus with some awkward moments among friends that I blame on myself.

I'm not sure if we were also on a bus at this part or not, but it appeared to be a dark, small or hidden, location. I am there with Lauren and Liz. Liz is sitting on a bench or some higher seat above me and Lauren, and Lauren and I are looking slightly up at her. I don't see Lauren face very often in this fragment. Both of our eyes are focused on just Liz. I actually remembered completely clearly every single word and a phrase that stood out, that Liz said to us, and our responses. We are talking about butterflies for some reason. Liz says she hates butterflies, and starts eating one. We see her eating one, but it's like a thought form imagination that we each share or something, because none of us think she is actually eating a butterfly. The butterfly looked a little foggy as well. Then, to tease us even more, Liz uses a Harry Potter wand she had laid out beside her and casts and quick spell to manifest a real butterfly. It was a very large butterfly - noticing after waking up from the dream - but none of us questioned the size, we all knew it was real. She slowly starts eating the butterfly, tearing off the wing material from it's stems, one area by one. My and Laurens' reactions to this include super sad partially fake crying, yelling, "NO!!"'s, "STOP IT"'s, and EWW's. I am feeling very sad seeing this happen. In the end, she tore off 3 sections of the left wing. We were all so sad. The butterfly was very beautiful and very still while this was going on. It looked like a monarch, but was blue.

Observation: I seem to unknowingly control the situation in the dream by having hopes about something and worries about something. Ie: With Mr. Gamble, he rarely ever stop talking in real life, but in this dream I really wanted him to not talk so much as he does, and somehow felt like I had a bit of control over this by commanding it in my mind, and it worked! Maybe if I learn to notice these control coincidences and increased law of attraction in dreams, I will be able to recognize I can control things much more easily and thus have a lucid dream.

Somehow I only remembered just now what these dreams were. I've forgotten them earlier and was convinced that they were probably hazy, but I guess before I was just a little stressed (I was at school) to remember clearly. Today's dreams and yesterday's dreams were actually pretty vivid, as vivid as they usually are for moi. I'm only going to post today's dreams though. Two dreams had to do with pets and animals.

I am in my parents' bedroom, on the top floor of my house. The window is open, and the window net thing is also open. Both cats are in the room - Leeroy especially is very curious about the window. I recall the window being completely open before (in real life) and I am not afraid that the cats will run away onto the (flat) rooftop because they didn't last time. I simply watch them in humour. Then a small finch kind of bird flies in through the window and flies around in circles in the bedroom, disoriented. Suddenly my mom appears in the room with me, and I think to myself that we should let the cats eat this bird (since we have a pet bird that the cats keep trying to hunt). Then the thought comes into mind that maybe once they eat this bird, they'll want to eat Jerry (my pet bird) even more! My mom agrees (even though I was only thinking that, not speaking it aloud, but I didn't question it). My mom is silent and motionless, as if all decisions fall on me. I decide to just let the cats run around the room trying to catch the bird - because it is fun to watch and because they would definitely enjoy eating it (I thought that in almost those exact words). Then I have a short worried thought that the bird will lure the cats to go chase it outside the window, but I let those worries drift away from my optimistic mind. I continue to enjoy watching my cats chase, or now rather watch the bird fly around the room.

--- Side note: I noticed that having a thought inside a dream is much more vivid than having a thought in real life. In real life, the physical is obviously as vivid and realistic as it gets, and thoughts that you have also do bring images and scenarios to be imagined and sort of partly experienced by and through your mind, but don't feel as vivid as they may in a dream. When you have a thought in a dream, I notice that the images and scenarios that are imagined because of the thought are much more vivid in dream reality than real reality... sometimes just as vivid as the physical reality of the dream, that objects appear/disappear/shape-shift/change and that you jump in the dream to another fragment of the dream. After some thinking and theorizing, I have come to the conclusion that because a dream occurs in the mind and not in real physical reality, and because everything in the dream, including the dreamscape, objects, people, and thoughts, are all created by your mind in close frequencies, it makes it seem like the thoughts/imaginations you have in the dream are more vivid than in real life because you compare them with the physicality of the dream that is also created by your mind... If that makes sense. In real life, the frequency of real physical objects are very different from the frequency of your thoughts.

I also theorize that in a vivid lucid dream, by utilizing more of your conscious mind, you are able to convince your mind that the physicality of the dream is or can be just as real as the physicality of real life, and thus make it so. This second theory is not yet concluded on since I have not experienced enough lucid dreams to observe and learn enough to create a theory.

Yes, I do create a lot of theories about everything. This means I also over-analyze things in real life, however all of this analyzing and theorizing simply causes me to have a better understanding of how the mind and psychology of people works. (I don't theorize about scientific laws or whatever, only that which I can personally experience... Like dreams and thought and actions/reactions of other human beings! ) Okay well back to the dreams now.

---->The next dream was possibly the strangest one I have had in a long long while. It has to do with sexual themes, so just a warning, don't read this if you do not want to know.

I am at my old school, Fielding Drive P.S. There is a lot of the dream that is on the edge of my mind right now, but I can't pin it down, so I will just write down the fragment of the dream that I can remember clearly. I am in the junior computer lab. There is a bald teacher there, and I have just walked into the room, having a question to ask him which I either wasn't sure what the question was in the dream or just forgot it now. I am holding some school stuff, like maybe a binder or some paper, in my hand. I am at the door furthest from the exit of the junior hallway of the school. The teacher doesn't seem to acknowledge me walking in. He is not asking me what I am doing here, just continuing to sit at his computer playing card computer games or something. I realize that he is waiting for me to talk, even though he is not making eye contact with me or anything like that. I am hesitant to say anything because this is really strange. I don't think I say anything. After a while of standing there, I have the dirty thought that maybe he was watching porn before I came in, and quickly switched to playing computer games when he heard the door open. I ponder this thought, thinking if it's really realistic, and here is another proof of my theory by the way, the dream hazily sort of jumps between me walking back out the door, and then walking back in through the other door, the door closest to the exit door of the school and the teacher, walking in on the teacher that has become a cat but not really a cat licking it's erection. And then I start fapping as if I was watching cat porn really... odd.

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The other dream that I remember felt like it had to do with zip-lining or running some sort of course... It's a very hazy memory that I have of this. I'm with a group of people, some I recognize as friends, and some I just don't know at all, or are guides or other participants in this course. My brother is there too, and he is with some of his friends. We walk into the indoor part of the course. It is a mansion. With red carpet, and everything looks very rich. There are rich business people in the room mingling. At this point I think we all forget somehow that this was a zip-lining course. We enjoy the refreshments, and there is a bonfire somewhere, and an area of the room with the continued zip-lining course. I mingle with some of the rich business people. There was a problem and I was discussing possible solutions with them and I forget completely what this problem or solution was, but it had to do with business probably. Then I move onto the course. There is a complication with the next zip-line, where the pulley that is already on the wire doesn't go back unless the person on the other side of the zip-line sends it back to you or something. It is above a fire or something really dangerous that will kill you if you let go, and there are no harnesses in this zip-line. It is still in the mansion, and you can still see the room from here. The rich business people are upset that we will break something. I use the zip-line, get to the other side, and so does my brother. Some people die for unknown reasons. I think I kill someone, or maybe just feel like I killed someone. The blame goes on me anyway. I don't feel guilty, I accept the deaths as the reality of life and the dream and I think other people do too. The corpses immediately and unnoticeably vanish upon this acceptance. There's some more legal complications or whatever, but I was unaffected. Then more stuff happened that is on the brink of my mind.

Oh yes. Before we are at the part of the dream above, we are at my house, in the living room. My brother and I are talking, and I have two blankets laid out downstairs for me to sleep on because I sometimes sleep in the living room. Two of my brother's friends take to the couch, cover themselves with the blankets and go to sleep. It is not nighttime. I get angry that they are using my blankets, and express this anger slightly at my brother. Mostly, I am thinking if they will notice the possible smell of the blankets (?). They don't seem to notice anything. Then I go hang out downstairs with my brother, then his friends wake up, suddenly the dream seamlessly shifts to being at Mark's Work Wearhouse and then shifts to being back at home, chatting in the small walk-in hallway place of my house, and then playing a video game that combines Spyro, another game I played only in another dream I had a while ago, and Final Fantasy XII, in the mine cave area near the start of the game. My dream is immersed into this game, I am inside the game reality while hearing the roaring voices of my brother and his friends, and my quieter voice chatting back with them. More stuff happened that I can only feel the feeling/frequency of rather than exactly pinpoint what happened. I think at one point I was in danger of dying possibly because my brothers' friends' stupid mistake and my brother gets mad at them or something I don't know.

Yes, odd dreams today I know.

I remembered the whole dreams the whole morning, but since I didn't get to write any of it down until now, I have forgotten most of the dreams and now only have parts of them .

The first interesting thing is that today being the day after I decided to try lucid dreaming again I woke up precisely at 4:34 AM. When I saw the time, I wondered if this was the same time I used to get up 2 years ago to do my WBTB WILDs that were never successful. I checked my offline alarms and there it was! "4:34 AM WILD Recurrent Alarm". I thought that was Extremely awesome so I took it as an opportunity to try it again.

(The dream I had at that time that I woke up had to do with arguing or something, which is understandable because I fell asleep in a not-so-good mood.)

Anyway, after waking up at 4:34, I got up, woke myself up completely, and then went back to bed to try WILDing. Unfortunately, I just got really scared because the day before, I watched 'The Fourth Kind' and I always get scared the most by scary movies at night when I'm alone. So I decided to go downstairs and watch TV instead to help clear my mind of any negativity, where I fell asleep and had a dream:

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The first part of the dream that I remember is where I am in the online game world of 'AION'. I'm wearing some nice light armor and using a Bow and Arrows to train on large pigs or something. I am in a beautiful overgrown enchanted forest, and I recall being in very similar dreams before. There are many other Elyos training with me. They seem to be very focused on the kill while I am mostly just enjoying the feeling of being one with the deep enchanted forest. It is quiet and so so peaceful.

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The next part of the dream that I remember is where I am in a nice apartment building that is apparently my friend's, Sarah's. This apartment building is huge and beautifully decorated. The carpet is red, and all rooms are cozy and comfortable. I am going back up the elevator to Sarah's home. I can't recall which floor she's on. I pick 5. I walk out the elevator. I walk down the hall and turn to my left where there is a huuge room with winding stairs along the curved walls. The stairs are wooden with gold in some parts, and the steps are of an elegant deep red carpet. The walls are of a warm brown colour I think, perhaps it was dark wood. There are traditional candles lighting up the walls and a beautiful cristal chandelier on the center of the room. There is also some furniture, but I can't recall exactly what and where it was.
I start walking up the stairs, confused about where I'm supposed to find Sarah's apartment. A boy that is a year younger than me runs up the stairs, catches up with me, and asks me if I'm lost. He looks like this Asian-American guy from last year's English class that I had a crush on, but I don't question if it is actually him or someone who looks like him.
I lie down on the stairs, stare up at the ceiling, sigh and say "yeah. I'm trying to find my friend's, Sarah's apartment, but I forgot everything about where it might be."
He lied down next to me and stared up at the ceiling with me. "hmm." He said. "I think she's on the <don't remember> floor."
"Yeah, that's what I thought too, but I didn't see her there."
"Maybe her apartment will show up if you check again?"
"Yeah. For now I think I'll just enjoy this view of the stars." (Somehow the ceiling was the starry sky at this point)
The stars were just as I'd remembered them at the cottage last Summer. They gave off almost the same enchanted feeling that the dense forest gave off from the Aion portion of the dream - but I only acknowledged this while studying the dreams after waking up.

Then I think I get up and search more with that guy. We talk while we search, at one point we end up on the roof top where we get a beautiful view of the stars - which is also the landscape somehow... The stars are the view below us as well is what I mean. This does not seem strange to me however. I simply enjoy the peacefulness of everything. Then we continue searching, and eventually we find what I've been looking for. Sarah's apartment! Which ends up being my family's and my apartment. It looks very very nice. I question the strangeness of how it is my apartment a little, but get preoccupied with my mom asking me to do some things. The guy is gone. I saw Sarah there, but couldn't know exactly where she was, it was as if she was an apparition, but I did not question it. We had food that I recall thinking of being very good food but can't remember what the food was or tasted like.
A part of this dream also exists where I meet my brother's fiancee's sister, who in real life I've been told has eyebrows that make her look angry all the time, and I find out (in the dream) that my brother dated her before too. :/

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The last part of the dream that I recall was at some desert place that I can compare to what I think of Area 51. There are about 7 nuclear balloons floating in the sky that are in danger of exploding!! Each nuclear balloon is responsible for the energy in almost each continent of the world - Africa, North America, South America, Europe, Asia, Australia, and not Antarctica! The seventh balloon is called "THE WORLD." It is presumed that if any of these balloons blow up, their respective areas will be be blown up also. Meaning if the World balloon blew up, that would mean the end of the world.
For some reason my Dad is there with me. He runs to the gunner on the right and aims at the largest balloon (label unknown ) while I stand there motionless watching the action.
The dream switches to first person shooter mode, where I am my Dad shooting at the balloons. There is a bar on the top left corner showing the remaining life of the balloon I am shooting. For some reason, shooting the balloons will keep them from exploding. I acknowledge that the life bar may perhaps indeed prove the opposite, but I ignore this fact and do what I think I have been instructed to do! I keep shooting the balloon.

:edit: I just searched for the balloons that were in the dream and they looked exactly like this one, but only the balloon part, not the basket:



This turns out to be a 1861 civil war balloon. Interesting huh. (I've never seen this balloon before in my life, and in the dream I was shooting at it) Seeing as I was my Dad in this part of the dream, shooting at the balloons for illogical reasons I knew not of, I think it could have been a past life of my dad.

(That nuclear balloon part of the dream did not have that enchanted feeling like the other parts had. It was more of a thrilling happy feeling)

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Then I wake up.