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Salesman
I was at my dads house and I heard someone knocking on my door. I went to the door and there some guy had already walked in.
It was a salesman who seemed to wonder if I wished to buy something from him. I instantly said no and he started walk away to the street.
As I turn back in my rec room I see it's very clean the whole table, I do remember I have had that table in a mess and I couldn't recall that I've cleaned it. I stick my head out and still seeing him, I tell him to wait.
I go indoors again and looking around the table and I remember that I'd my gopro on the table but I couldn't see it anywhere around.
I quick go outdoors but he is already gone. I thought he must have stolen my gopro among other stuffs I had on the table.
I proceed with going into my room to look around for the last time and there I happen to find my gopro. Being lucky that it's not stolen.

The end



Ex gf
I met my ex on the bus. She happened to be single again. Talked just a little, as she told me she is single I asked what happened and who broke up with who, as I was curious and to keep the conversation going.
She said that her boyfriend (now ex) broke up with her with similar reason that I broke (or tried to break up) with her, of simply she being very needy and clingy. I was like alright.
I got asked to go home with her, and I was like sure.
I knew in my mind I would never want to get together with her in a relationship anymore.
As we were at her place we layed in bed, and from there it got sexual. Meanwhile she asked to come together again. I was weak and said yes somehow.
But I knew in my mind it wouldn't work out, but thought to give it a shot anyway.
Next day we were going to my grandpas place, it was winter time, loads of snow. We had to even dig us down to the mailbox.
Later that night we were going to sleep, my grandma somehow had recording on so she would hear if we had sex. I didn't care at all, she came down and said like "oh I hear you haven't had much, maybe because it's stuffs to do outdoors this year with this much snow". Upon my sleep I also thought I don't care at all, that on this recording I will need to record my dream next morning as well.

The end

I was in my dads house, my dad had given me some newer TV in my room which I'd like high up in my room. It was a sunny day as the sunshine fell into my room. So I put the blinders on the windows on slightly as well.
However outside my window I saw some people outside, I saw my old friend Björn who's an anarcist, communist and anti-racist. He was with some friends who I also seen from the primary school.
They saw into my window and I was quite scared as I thought they knew I'm not communist as they're, that they may see me as a racist.
Anyway I was needed to go to the school and I was quite scared to go. Wasn't sure what I would bring with me, so I took some chips, water etc, I also put some cash in my pants as I was afraid to be robbed. Also took with me my old gopro in case of.
Then I went outdoors and I saw nobody, and the area I was in was some kind of expensive hotel. I passed by some hot girls who seemed to know me, but didn't say much. I continued to walk down and suddenly I met old classmate Björn as well of a guy named Abraham. We started talk a little bit, and I was so scared that they thought I would be racist or so. But they seemed not to. I asked what they were doing here, and they said they were going to fix some people. So I told them alright, I'll just go to the gym.

So I went to the bicycle, but I forgot to take my air pump, due my tire was leaking air as in real life. So I couldn't take the bicycle unless I walked all way back which I didn't want to do.
It was very sunny day in summer, and many people were around, and even bicycle pumps were there so I used one for my tire.
However, the whole tire went really swole, I thought it's good now and I shall start cycle now.
But some hole went on the tire and all air leaked out. So I thought well I can't go with the cycle now and wasn't sure if I were going to the gym anymore, if I would need to walk.

That's it.

I was at my dads house, but instead of dad living there, it was my mum who lived there.
My room was in the office.
My mum was about to go work early, or around 8am she had to leave. Meanwhile I'd no plans so I didn't need to wake up early.
At 11:27 I woke up by messenger notification, it was my friend Midu who wrote some sentance in bad Swedish grammar who he probably used Google translate for, though spelling also was incorrect.
I started to type the sentance in correct form when he seemed to notice it and say "oops" like if he knew that I woke up by him. Then he asked me what I am eating.
I continued write the correct sentance to him.
I didn't get time to answer on what I am eating, instead the doorbell rang. I wrote BRB to Midu as I were about to walk to the outdoor, which I somewhat thought was weird due I thought that the bell doesn't sound like that nor it should work.
Suddenly I woke up in real life slowly, to the sound of my alarm on my app Timely.

Was a long time I logged a dream, previous morning I remember to record my dream though! Here it is

My dad and sister had the idea to go north Finland, they wanted all 3 of us to go there by car. Once there it started to snow and their idea was to start go south through some forest.
I was very worried about internet not working there, as I need to hack within 24 hours for my Sojourner medal in Ingress - so I don't lose a day (again) and have to start over, however dad didn't really care about it.
At the evening when we were going to sleep we got into some place that looked like my dads house (where I currently live irl), my dad had his own room, my sister had her room (guestroom now) and I had mine.
However, my sister didn't want to sleep in her room somehow, instead she was going to sleep in my room. I just wanted to sleep because I was so tired, but I couldn't because she wasn't ready to go sleep.
Then one of her friends called her, and her friend was so loud. They were in the kitchen emptying the dishwashing machine, talking and made noises. I got pissed off and told her to go sleep in her own room.
But no she didn't want to, instead they decided to go sleep outside my window.
I tried to fall asleep yet again.



The end

Was a while ago I wrote down my dreams. I still keeping a dream journal though I hadn't any much recalls as stress came to my life, stress cus of job, and just anger and disappointment because I didn't get into the military educationi that I been worrying for over 2 months or so, all because of my gluten allergy.

Anyway, here is last nights recall

Location: Gf's mums apartment
Bedtime: 22:40
First wakeup: Sometime during night, 5am maybe?
Final wakeup: 06:45


Gas stuck on snowmobile (dream)
I was at my grandpas (dads dad) place, in a village where he live.
It was winter, lots of snow. We were having the snowmobile outside, on a small pile of snow.
My grandpa were trying the gas on it, and somehow it got stuck and it drove away from us (nobody who sat on the snowmobile).
My dad tried to stop it, he drove his MC to get stop on it.

There recall ended.


Willys (dream)
I were at the grocery store named Willys. I had not got the extra price of an product (happened in real life) and I were going to ask them about it, and about some other products that I am interested in buying.
However, the personal were very busy, and it was a queue following one worker who took care of one person at a time, so I had to wait.
I looked down at the freezers and found a big sausage (falukorv in Swedish) that I wanted to buy, it costed about 30 SEK / kilo, and it was about 512 gram, so I thought it will be very cheap for that sausage.

Packing (fragment)
I were at my dads house packing a bag with clothes as I were going to my grandpa (dads dad), even though I really didn't want to go there, I had to pack bag and follow anyway.

Alright, I have some dreams and fragments I have written up in my physical dream journal that I haven't written here, because of lazyness and busyness the days I had the recalls. Now however, I will write them up here.


8th April
Location: dads home
Bedtime: 01:40
Wakeup: 08:00
Notes before bed: ADA, Dream Yoga

Swimming hall (dream)
I was in some kind of swimming hall where they had sliders and swimming pool. It was a long queue, but once I got there I talked to the woman about all kind of things. I was 'orny but she wasn't interested.
I didn't dare to go for the slider as I had my iPod with me that I didn't want to get water damaged.
The queue to the slider had to wait a very long time on me as I took long time on me.

Meeting and sweets (fragment)
My friend wanted to take the bus to the meeting we were going to. Also we later bought sweets/candies mixed with tacos for about 4999 SEK.

Lego (fragment)
I was playing with lego. Some mean dude had kidnapped somebody and through the lego I could communicate with them.

9th April
Location: dads home
Bedtime: 23:40
Final wakeup: 07:58

Notes before bed: All Day awareness, Reality Check

Trip plan (fragment)
Me, my friend and some old friend were going for a trip to a city about 50-200km away. My dad didn't like the idea at first but later he said it didn't matter for him, that we can do it if we really want to.

10th April
Location: dads home
Bedtime: 01:00
Final wakeup: 07:20

Notes before bed: I dreaming

Military education (fragment)
I was in a classroom with a class, and my old classmate Andreas were there, he told me that he is also going to start the military education and he told me to choose the base/home defense.

Fragment
I was with my gf, her dad had went on vacation to another country


12th April
Location: dads home
Bedtime: 01:30
Final wakeup: 09:00

Extra points (fragment/dream)
I were going to do the basic military education test. My gf were with me.
It was in some kind of forest we were in.
They were also giving extra points if I were having intercourse/sex with somebody. So me and my gf were going to do so.


13th April - already written it up in earlier entry


15th April
Location: gf's apartment
Bedtime: 22: ??
First wakeup: 23 : ??
Second wakeup: 01 : ??
Third wakeup: 01 : ??
Fourth wakeup: 02 : ??
Fifth wakeup: 04:45
(I had a huge cold, worst night ever, impossible to sleep)

XXX-star (dream)
I had intercourse with a pornstar from Brazzers after I had helped her with a lightweight flightplane she had.
She wanted long wings on the plane, that I accidently broke under the sink with water). But she forgot that she needed the airplanes parts that she quickly scale off. I were to her support.
Then it looked like she took me from behind, she were rubbing her body to my butt and it quite hurted.

Neighboor stalker (dream)
I were in a house with my gf. Jörgen my dads neighboor were messing with us. He were looking into the windows and spied on us. We were covering up our windows with blinds but he didn't stop trying to look into our windows.
He were threating/hounding us to get to the city and meet him for a fight or something.

Right now I am a bit drunk as I been drinking 2 irish coffee (me and my gf got one each from her mum and the dude that's here, but my gf didn't like it much, so I drinked her too), + 2 other drinks that I don't know what it is but it's good k.

Today anyway, I woke up in morning. I packed gymbag, this time I choosed my backpack as I thought it might be better for my shoulders/back etc, as the other gymbag kind of put much pressure on one of the shoulder I lift it on during bike etc. Plus it have start to broke some.

Anyway, I went off to gym in morning, did strength exercises. Legs, back, abs, shoulders and chest.
Once done at gym, I went to the internship, last day there.
Was there from 9am to 2pm. Got to write on a contract, start to work there at 22th April, my first real job ever where I got to earn money. Sadly though, it's not very great salary after all (15 400 SEK in month, before tax, and in Sweden we got high tax. Maybe I get around 10 000 - 11 000 SEK. Still better than the 3000 SEK I get each month for being unemployed).

Well, after this internship I went to the store and then to my gf's mums apartment where she lives.
Waited for them to get home, as they were in city etc.
Then later, we made and ate home-made pizza, and ofc ate of it.

I watched 9 episodes of 2 and a half mens, season 10 (latest), while waiting for dinner and while eating it (pizza).

Then watched some other serie that my gf atm watching, some supernatural serie. Wasn't very great, so instead I am on the computer.

I don't want to say it, but just höhö. that's a secret code that I only know as I consider it too personal to write out. I just write it because I will know more if I will read back in my journal.

Now I just listen to music and being abit drunk and I hope I will get VIVID or LUCID dreams (I did get lucid dreams and vivid dream before when being drunk, which I am not very often, just a 2-6 times a year in average I believe, atleast the previous 2 years). Year 2012 I think I were drunk about 5 times maybe? if even that? Maybe it was only like 4.
And when I am drunk, I am not wasted (meaning, so drunk that I wont remember sh-t). I am just that drunk that I still know what I am doing etc, and I don't feel like throwing up or anything, just that somehow it does feel that I'm alittle drunkie and it's fine and fun and great.

Been lazy writing down dreams here in my journal on dreamviews. But here I write them from my physical dream journal.

2th April
Bedtime: 23:00
First wakeup: 02:28
Final wakeup: 06:00 (alarm)

Rush morning (false awaking)
I woke up in the morning and noticed on the clock that I've overslept. I started to rush/hurry with everything and thought that I'm fkd (as I would come late to internship/job).


Filming with Pewe (dream)
I was going to make a video with some dude called/known as Pewe (real name is Peter). We were outside some bar/restaurant and walked into it. The place was nice, it was red and yellow wood colors. Somewhat expensive restaurant/bar i believe.
However, we didn't find anything great to film there. But we found some other place where I shot series of photos that matched great (idk how they matched though).
Then I went home or somewhere, I laid in a bed and my gf called me and asked me when I will come to her. Time was about 10 o'clock.


4th April
Bedtime: 00:10
First wakeup: 05:45
Final wakeup: 06:00 (alarm)

Fragment 1:
Computers + internet + internship

Fragment 2:
The basic military education

Sleep over at gfs dads house (dream)
I were at my gf's dads place and we were about to sleep over there. At first we had some argument (me and my gf), but we got alright later. The argument started when me, my gf and my gf's mum watched a movie together and my gf got sad over something in the movie, but me and my gf's mum didn't care really and that made my gf mad and there argument started.
Anyway, at her dads place we had a room where we gonna sleep in. I were told to make the room darker, take out all lights etc.
But then my gf had fixed some movie that me, my gf and my gf's friend were going to watch at. But somehow, it was a sort of game that had to be installed before that.




That's it.
False awakings: +1
Dreams: +2
Fragments: +2

Location: Home

Bedtime: 01:45
First wakeup: 07:48
Second wakeup: 09:00 (alarm)
Final wakeup: 09:59

Notes before bed: I will meet my dream guide tonight.

Work out request call (fragment)
I was at my gf's apartment. My friend called and said he isn't in Luleå but he asked if we're going to work out in the evening/night.

I have been away almost all week on this Easter holiday. Now today I got home, and I will write up my dreams and fragments I've had. Haven't had very great recalls and I kind of forgot about trying to get lucid. But, keeping dream journal I've done every day, as it's an habit.



27th March
Location: dads home
Bedtime: 00:30
Wakeup: ?? : ??
Notes before bed: I dreaming!

My sister and her iPhone camera hunted me (dream)

I was hunted and I was running for my life.
It was my sister who was hunting me as she had some apartment for sale etc.
We were at the street where my dads house is at. She tried to kill me with an app on her iPhones camera.
I started to run and she stood still for some moment as she had to start up the app or something.
I turned in the end of the street, next to the other street, and turned the pathwalk down.
As I knew/thought her app could track me or somehow "guess" where I gone. I shifted the direction and ran through the backyards of houses.

That's it,


28th March
Location: Grandpa
Bedtime: 23:30
Wakeup: ?? : ??
Notes before bed: I dreaming

Random (fragments)
Dad - Car
Gave me ride to city
Laptop were home
Me and my friend was filming the creep


29th March
Location: Grandpa
Bedtime: 23:30
Wakeup: ?? : ??
Notes before bed: Dream

Old buddy Frank (fragment)
I was looking for my old buddy Frank, who used to live not too far away from my grandpa.
I tried to search him up on Facebook, his second name started with "SCH".
I found a guy who was named just like my old buddy, but it wasn't him.

That's it.
Actually, I have no clue what his second name is. But it's not starting on "sch" I am quite sure of.



31st March
Location: gf's aparment
Bedtime: 00:30
First wakeup: 01:43 (by my gf's mum and some dude coming home)
Second wakeup: 07:43
Final Wakeup: 09:00

Trailer (fragment)
We were out driving with car with a trailer attached to it.

Locker at gym (dream)
The place I were in, must been some swimming hall and gym together. Like the gym Actic in my city almost.
I were in the locker room area, I wasn't sure where I had put my stuffs. There was lots of kids around me, kids who had been swimming/playing or who will go swim/play. Anyway, I tried the key in a locker that I thought possible could be mine, and it worked, meaning it was my locker.
Once it were open I see that I'd lots of stuffed animals in the locker, and also papers/drawings from the art in middle/high school.

That's it.

Well, now I name the topics to a short discription of what the dream were about, to make it more interesting and to later get to find the dreams when searching.
Location: gf's apartment

Bedtime: 00:00
First wakeup: 02:22 (by gf's phone)
Final wakeup: 09:40

Road trip (dream)
I was in a housebus (husbuss in Swedish) with about 6 other people. We were on our way to Italy. It was a road trip I assume and we were half way there, it would take us 16 days to get there and so far we'd been doing 8 days.

There was a girl with black hair that was with us. She were interested in me and kind of wanted me. She was hot, and she seemed to want to 'do it', but as I wasn't single she didn't want to.

It was dark outside, probably midnight time and where we drove it was snow and ice outside.
The driver was driving quite crazy. In the curves there were like ramps made of ice, so he drove in high speed up on these ice-ramps and I thought we were going to crash and die, but we didn't.

The girl with black hair were very interested and she sat on me while I laid down. Really felt like she teased me. She also almost made out with me, but it didn't happend.


That's the dream.


Mark Zuckerberg (fragment)
I met Mark Zuckerberg at a grocery store with my friend. I was about to go ask him for a autograph, but he were too busy as he started to walk towards the checkout. And he seemed to ignore me too.

That's it.

Today, woke up at my gf's apartment. Went to the laptop, got me a 500g quark with funlight for breakfast as I were on the computer for like a 20 minutes.
Packed my gymbag and went off to the gym. I had some pain in my back and legs, from the previous workouts yesterday I guess, so I was taking it easy on the gym, lifted lighter weight and made sure so I do the right form, because I'm afraid of getting hurt very bad now before I get to the test, because I really want to get into this education.

After gym, walked back to my gf's apartment. My gf were having a rest/sleep, but woke up just some minutes after I'd come there.
I emptied the dishwashing machine and then we were at the computers quite a lot.

My gf's mum came home (she'd been away somewhere at day), and they made dinner. Meat and french fries.
When final dinner were done (took like 1,5 hour, the meat had to be in owen for over an hour). Me and my gf ate in her bed and watched on a movie. The movie Piggy or whatever it was called, it was a quite new movie I think.
However, the movie wasn't very great, we watched like an half hour if not more and not much had happened. So we switched and watched "Silver Linings Playbook". It was quite good.

After that we, uKnowWuth and well now I'm in front of the computer again and it's now 10pm. Just had a small pizza, might take one more soon.
Tomorrow I got nothing to do in morning, it's rest day from gym unless I go there for cardio though.
But tomorrow I'm getting home in the afternoon, and Monday I start internship that might lead to summerjob.


Feels like this post been quite small described, not much detail but well I kind of already forgot what I done all day.

Oh, I also got this phone game app from the Swedish army force (that's I want a job at, which this education is), where in this game you make missions. It comes up a mission and you gonna solve it, some small game on phone or something else. I got one crazy one where I had to go outside and it used my GPS, and I had to walk a path to succeed, and this was not showing map over where I were, so I simply had to figure out how I would walk to get it all right, because there's lots of buildings here. I jogged so much and tried figure it out. Would be so much easier if there was no buildings or something, but I succeeded after 8 minutes of jogging around, and time limit were 10 minutes.
It's quite a funny game but will be hard to do when I'm on internship. Because sometimes you get up a text when your next mission is, lets say like 16:00, like I got yesterday, then I got like 1 hour on me to start this mission or it will fail (and when it fail, it just gives me 1 point to the failure tab). And sometime it probably can come up that I need to do it in the night, or now when internship starts, it probably will come up something there and then I wont be able to really do it.


Well, I will now have some more coca cola zero and maybe pizza too. Then be awake for an hour more or so before bed I guess.
Btw, I had no recalls today. I went bed around 00:00 (quite exactly I remember, just some minutes before), and woke up almost exactly 09:00, so had a 9 hours sleep.

Location: dads home

Bedtime: 01:45
Final wakeup: 07:58

Notes before bed: Dreamviews.


Jealous and suspicious me (dream)
My gf had gotten a new phone, an Xperia V.
Me, my friend Mattias and my gf were at my gf's apartment, in her room.
My gf was sending text messages to a guy (Adam or so) all the time. She said that she were going to sleep over at his place.
I started to get moody about it and didn't think there were a good idea to sleep over at his place. Both me and my friend thought it sounded strange that my gf sleeps over at another guys house, sounded not right and suspect.
But my gf said it's normal.
We got kind of mad on eachother and she left the room.

Later we were at my old highschool (7-9th grade). We were near the woodwork room. My gf were going to a lesson or meeting, and as she had walked away, I noticed on the bench that she had forgotten her phone.
I sneaked to it and picked it up, walked to the woodwork room to hide in case she walks back. I go to the conversation of the guy who she been texting all morning, and went on top to start there. I read the text that she had read up or me some days earlier, just some normal text.
I continued to read on. I walked out from the woodwork room and walked to some other place, while walking I tried to read the text messages.
Didn't find any sign on that they're in love with eachother or so, but then I hadn't read enough much to get down to the place where he had suggested her to come over to him and sleep.



C-S 1.6 again (fragment)
I was in the game counter-strike 1.6 once again, it was the map surf_ski, or well, a familiar map to it. Either I had cheats or it was a mod, cus I could use the mods like morph etc, I simply ran faster, could get any weapon etc.


Bought youtube views (dream)
I was in my room at my dads house. It was evening and I had just bought youtube views and on my bed it was a counter on the video I had ordered views to. It was around 5000 views I had ordered.
The views was showing on my bed and it changed very fast from just a few views up to a couple of houndreds or maybe it was thousands views.




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Okey. The first dream. My gf got her phone (Xperia s) back from the repairing service yesterday and she had wrote on Facebook she needs people calling and texting her as she got no numbers left.
That must have triggered the things about the phone. But that I suspected her and that she were gonna sleep over at a guys place? no idea where it comes from.


The fragment, was maybe triggered when I yesterday watched a few C-S stickman videos on YouTube, and I told my friend that I felt like playing the game again just a little bit, because I haven't played it for over years or so. Now at morning, I don't feel like playing it at all though.


The dream about youtube views. I see why it came up. Because before I went to bed, I had uploaded another video. And previous time I tested buy Youtube views, got very overdelivered, with over houndred thousands views (well unless they all were real though lol). And well, I just thought why not try it again and see if they can give a large amount still. It's great and cheap for advertising. I used it on the video I edited yesterday. So a 30k+ views it´s supposed to get.

Location: dads home

Bedtime: around 00:00
Final wakeup: 06:50

Notes before bed: Dream. I'm dreaming. I'm lucid dreaming.
Made two V-WILD attempts


Made a forum thread (dream)
I was on a forum I'm on everyday, a Swedish forum.
I was writing a new forum thread about that I'm getting mistreated.
There was lots of text where I'd explained that my parents doesn't care about me at all.
I were writing all these on the small bathroom/toilet at my dads house where I'd locked myself in after some incident had happened that I suspected me, my gf and some other man had 3-some together.
Also in the text I wrote that my dream was to be a pilot, but that I didn't believe in it because I thought it was a hard job to get.

All this were wroten on a green colored milk carton when I posted it to the forum.
Then I looked on all sides of the carton but I didn't find the text that I just posted.
However, somebody answered in the thread that he had found the text.
But when more people came in to the thread they said that there is no text in the link that I'd sent them (I sent them the milk carton..), and they said it was virus.



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That's it. Quite so weird dream, as always.

Location: dads home

Bedtime: 04:00
Final wakeup: 11:20

Notes before bed: Reality check


gSM (dream)
I was at that site made for girls mostly, the one my gf use to be at, and me too for that (but I mostly just trying to find ways to earn lots of cash inside the game using glitches etc, and also to do graphic design to some profile magazine that thousands of members been buying).
Anyway, a moderator was needing help there to publish her magazin newspaper.
It was needed to be a guy to publish it because she had forgotten the gymcard and therefor couldn't access, but that guys can access always without needing a card.
I had to pay like 2 diamonds and some other stuffs on the site, which I did have and didn't care any much about.
Before I published it for her though, I noticed that she had a video in her magazine, that was filmed quite so nice. I was asking her if she had used a GoPro camera, but she never answered me.
Anyway I published it in order to write her username and more stuffs and clicked the button.
But in the end, it did not work.


That's it.
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Yesterday I was on this girly site quite much looking around. And I messaged a moderator asking her something I cannot remember now, but I never got any answer back. Which may be of that part in the dream.
And also I was at the gym yesterday, very late. And in our gym they got a "girl gym" where only girls can go in (it's in their dressing room), so they need their membership card in order to enter. We guys though don't need any card to get into our dressing room, only time it's needed is when entering the gym building and leaving it.