lucid

i have always had strange dreams,my whole life,not just strange dreams tho...the stranger they became the more real they would become... until they did become real...there would be times when i would be afraid to sleep due to such a strong sensation of knowing that it would be real.... unable to mentally handle the situation.. unable to grasp the concept that i can dream the future..Always asking my self if this real....this has got to mean something,and there has got to be a way to control this....what if dream of something bad....and it happens to me? How do i stay focused on positive things? Am i alone with having these sorts of encounters? am i the only one like me?

...one of the most vivid dreams i have had in quite some time. it was spring time and it was storming, raining very hard and the wind was blowing and i can remember the sound of the wind howling through the cracks in the window...and i can remember water droplets running down the glass....i don't know where we where... but the dream was mostly black and white...only parts of it in color, you where smiling and laughing, and i can remember thinking that it was very nice to see you smile....and clouds of fog circling around the room...you held your hand out to me and asked if i like to dance... ii stuck my hand out to grab yours and i can remember blushing , and very embarased because i knew i could not dance, but i didn't want to turn down the offer.
the most vivid part of the dream was the feeling of your warm hand on my lower back pressing me up against your body, spinning and twirling around and around in circles and then i began to laugh like a little kid...
i then awoke to a loud whisper of some one calling out my name......i rose out of bed and my body was covered in goose bumps and no one was around...the house was still and quiet......