side notes

Two Dream Fragments:

1. Visiting my friend Crystal at her childhood home. She was worried about something and I was helping her.
2. Teaching kids to cook.

Managed to slip into deep relaxation after the alarm sounded this morning. But really need more time to complete a WILD.

Had two dreams this morning:

1. My brother was getting married again. But he was scared shitless. His best friend and I were giving him a pep talk. Never figured out why he was afraid.

2. I was running around the apartment trying to clear up an issue with references for a new job I really wanted. The reference was the last hurdle before the job would be offered to me. But I was afraid the guy would hear something bad and I'd lose the job.

Note: good thing I wrote a sentences about each dream when I woke up. Otherwise they'd be completely forgotten by now. I had to refer to those notes to complete my DJ today.

I think WILD is the induction method for me. Last week I just beat my head on the wall trying to DILD. It seems more natural to slip into the dream from wakefulness than trying to gain lucidity within the dream.

I had the most annoying silly ass dream ever this morning.

There was a town hall meeting going on about race. Lot's of people were there. Mostly black folk and white folk. People were divided but cordial. A well respected black journalist stands up to speak. I'm excited to hear what he has to say. But the good feeling quickly evaporates when he makes an ignorant comment about black people. It was truly stupid. Some people in the crowd smile and nod their heads in agreement. While others are angry and embarrassed. Then out of the back room reality star Nene Leakes stalks up to the journalist (with her stylist in tow) and let's him have it. I can't hear what she says. But her finger wagging and facial expressions say she's giving it to me good. In the middle of this public reprimand the journalist turns into Star Jones.

Silly!

Nevertheless, I think the dreams I have about well known figures aren't really about them but their characteristics or what they represent (to me). If I take the focus off of them in this dream it boils down to this: A public figure embarasses his/her community and sparks feelings of outrage from them.

Though I recognized the journalist I believe he simply represented someone respectable.
Nene and Star Jones represented anger and confrontation.
The crowd symbolizes the public.
The fact that everyone was black or white could represent polarization or stark differences among the populace.

This dream isn't surprising as it's an election year in the US. Or as I like to call it, "the silly season."

Not much to report. My daughter slept with me so I got very little sleep. I only remember fragments of dreams (mostly political) and making square pies. I tried to focus on how my body feels when it's falling asleep. Maybe try to experience SP. But all I felt were god vibrations in my limbs. It was nice. Would've been nicer if I didn't move everytime it happened.

The head buzzing stops when I'm relaxed/sleeping. But comes back upon awakening or thinking about it. I was able to move the energy from left to right and front to back of my head. But I didn't like how it felt at the top. It feels like my crown chakra is open when I focus the energy on my crown. That isn't the norm for me. Maybe I'll do a chakra balancing meditation or quick reiki session to see if that has an effect.

I've been sleepy all day which isn't normal for me. In fact, I was so tired this morning I did a few RC's just to be sure I was actually awake.

Also, the upper left side of my head has been buzzing for a few hours. So I'm eager for sleep tonight. And curious to know if the buzzing is a precursor of things to come.